Love him deep into bone marrow Jian Hanfeng Chengyou

The day the two separated was Saturday, and it was only three days before Yin Jingnan's next visit, so it didn't seem that difficult.

But in fact, just as Yin Jingnan left, the loneliness that hit her almost overwhelmed Xiaoyan.

Fortunately, he has children.

The confinement baby doesn't like to sleep so much, wakes up more often, and is very stubborn, insists on being held, and cries when she puts it down. Xiaoyan takes care of the baby alone, and will get tired if held for a long time, but he likes this A feeling of being needed.

On the contrary, the baby sleeps for too long and the room is too quiet, so it is easy to think about things.

The night before Yin Jingnan's arrival, Xiaoyan took the baby to the supermarket at the entrance of the community and bought a lot of rich ingredients.

Presumably he came after get off work.

Wanting to see someone is so urgent, I start to feel excited when I open my eyes in the morning, and I feel particularly energetic when I do anything.

After getting ready for dinner, Xiaoyan specially picked out a relatively new sweater to change into, and sat at the dining table expectantly waiting.

But the doorbell never rang.

On Tuesday, Yin Jingnan had an impromptu dinner party, drank two glasses of wine, and completely forgot about the agreement between the two of them.

Xiaoyan waited for him until 12 o'clock in the middle of the night, facing the solitude of the room, and finally believed that Yin Jingnan had broken his promise.

The baby cried at the right time, Xiaoyan came back to his senses, got up mechanically and walked to the bedroom.

Thinking that his son was hungry, he made milk powder to feed him, but he refused to drink anyway, so Xiaoyan had to put down the bottle first, and took off the baby's diaper to check, it was dry.

In addition to crying when hungry, or crying when I feel uncomfortable when I have a bad smell, or I just want to be hugged.

But this time nothing worked, the mournful cry sounded as if he had been wronged so much, Xiaoyan panicked when he heard it, his eyes turned red uncontrollably, he paced back and forth in the room with his son in his arms, patting his little boy back coaxing.

"what……"

The baby is not crying.

Don't cry.

Xiaoyan lowered his head and pressed his face against the baby's forehead, only to realize that the temperature seemed a little abnormal.

He wasn't sure if the baby was sick, and after coaxing him for more than ten minutes, the little boy was about to cry hoarse and was still crying, Xiaoyan completely panicked, put the baby back in the crib, wrapped him up in a thick blanket, He casually put on a coat and hurried out the door.

It was past twelve o'clock at night, and when the door was opened, I felt the cold wind pouring in from the corridor, and it was even colder outside. Xiaoyan ran to the gate of the community with the child in his arms, and almost collapsed when he heard the faint cry of the baby.

He himself is actually just a child of eighteen or nineteen years old.

Although this is the city center, Xiaoyan is not familiar with the surrounding environment at all. The farthest place I have been to these days is the shops near the community, and I don't know where there is a hospital.

After finally stopping a taxi, Xiaoyan gestured to the driver with red eyes. The driver could see that he was in a hurry, but couldn't understand what he was talking about, so he asked him to stop a taxi impatiently, rolled up the window and left .

The city was full of traffic at night, but there was no taxi for a long time, and the baby's crying became weaker and weaker, and he couldn't afford to wait at all.

Xiaoyan found a random direction, ran to the left with the baby in his arms, hoping to meet a clinic even on the way.

But reality always fails.

He ran for several streets but couldn't find it. Instead, he saw the big red characters of "Yin Heng Group" on a tall building in the distance.

That was Yin Jingnan's company.

It is also Xiaoyan's only hope.

He didn't come tonight, maybe because he was too busy with work, and maybe he worked overtime in the company.

It took Xiaoyan nearly an hour to run to the seemingly short distance, and he was exhausted by the time he reached the door.

In such a big company, it's not surprising that there are people working overtime at night. The lights in the lobby are on, so Xiaoyan dared not stop, holding the child and crying as he walked in, but before he could go in, he was stopped by the night shift security guard at the door.

He gestured and begged them to let him in, at the same time, the elevator door opened, and Yin Jingnan walked out from inside.

After the dinner party, Yin Jingnan was planning to go home, but suddenly remembered that two documents had been left in the company, and they would need them when negotiating with the partner tomorrow morning, so he came back to get them on the way.

Didn't expect to see the boy here.

"Little words?"

It was only then that Yin Jingnan remembered that it was Tuesday, and thought that Xiaoyan came to him because he didn't show up for the appointment on time, but after thinking about it, he felt that it was wrong. It was in the middle of the night, and there might be other things.

When the president came out, the security guard immediately returned to his original position.

Yin Jingnan was in a state of being slightly smoked after drinking, and before he could figure out what the boy wanted to do, Xiaoyan pounced on him, with tears in his dark eyes, exposed the baby's face from the swaddle, grabbed Yin Jingnan's hand and stuck it to his son's. On his face, his eyes looked desperate.

"what……"

"what……"

The scalding temperature on his hands made Yin Jingnan sober up from the alcohol for the most part, and his heart skipped a beat, "Is the baby sick?"

Xiaoyan nodded, his little face was pale from the cold, and tears had already flowed down his face.

"what……"

"Follow me." Yin Jingnan's expression turned serious, he took Xiaoyan's arm and turned to walk out.

The driver was waiting by the side of the road, Yin Jingnan took Xiaoyan into the car, and the Maybach drove quickly to the hospital.

The child has stopped crying completely, it doesn't seem to be falling asleep, but it seems to be in a coma due to a serious illness, Xiaoyan hugs him tightly, and from time to time lowers her head to rub against his face, as if begging him not to sleep.

Yin Jingnan was also anxious, and asked in a deep voice, "Why did you suddenly get sick?"

As soon as he spoke, Xiaoyan burst into tears, his inner self-blame was about to overwhelm him, and he was also afraid that Yin Jingnan would get angry because of this, so he gestured.

"what……"

It may be because of the wind blowing when I went out yesterday.

I'm sorry, I didn't take good care of the baby.

"It's not your fault." Yin Jingnan frowned.

"It's normal for a child to have a minor illness at such a young age."

"Don't worry, you'll be at the hospital soon."

Having said that, there are no parents who don't feel sorry for the child's illness, not to mention that it was born by Xiaoyan in ten months of pregnancy, and it was very precious when it was in the womb.

I thought it was a minor illness like a cold and fever, but the situation became more and more unfavorable. After more than ten minutes, the baby's face began to turn blue.

Under the urging of Yin Jingnan, the driver ran through two traffic lights, speeding up to 160 yards, and finally arrived at the hospital within 10 minutes.

The baby was sent to the emergency room.

The healthy child suddenly became like this, the most unacceptable was Xiaoyan, who sat quietly beside Yin Jingnan, with his hands clasped tightly on his lap, tears streaming down silently.

Yin Jingnan held his hand and comforted him in a warm voice.

"It'll be fine, trust me."

The big responsibility for this matter actually lies with him, because he didn't consider it thoroughly, Xiaoyan himself is still young, he should find a nanny to take care of the child for him as soon as possible, at least that way, this situation will not happen tonight.

But it's useless to be anxious, I can only wait quietly.

In order to distract Xiaoyan's attention, Yin Jingnan asked some questions about his life these days.

"Are you still used to living in your new home?"

Xiaoyan didn't really want to talk at the moment, but since Yin Jingnan asked, he nodded, "Ah..."

Fortunately.

Yin Jingnan continued, "Apart from being with the baby, did you do anything interesting?"

Xiaoyan thought for a while, raised his hand and gestured.

"what……"

I bought some balls of yarn, learned how to knit on TV, and wanted to knit a sweater and socks for the baby, and a scarf for you.

Yin Jingnan laughed, "That's very good, the things you make with your own hands are very meaningful, and the baby will definitely like it."

The two had few topics to talk about, and they were able to chat together suddenly, Xiaoyan was very happy, and the fear in his heart dissipated a little.

It's just that the waiting process was too long, and the corridor of the hospital late at night was too quiet. With the passing of every minute, the deep anxiety became stronger again. Xiaoyan couldn't help raising his hand and gestured to Yin Jingnan.

"what……"

Will the baby leave me.

"No, you're thinking too much." Yin Jingnan raised his hand and stroked the back of the boy's head.

"Now that medical technology is so advanced, it's impossible for something to happen."

Xiaoyan nodded, stared at the ground and said nothing.

Two hours later, the lights of the emergency room dimmed, the door opened, and a male doctor in surgical gown came out.

Xiaoyan had to stand up to meet him, Yin Jingnan followed closely behind, Xiaoyan gestured anxiously to the doctor.

"what……"

How is my baby.

The male doctor took off the mask on his face, hesitated for a moment, and regretted.

"Sorry, it was delivered too late, so I didn't rescue it."

The voice fell, and the entire corridor was silent.

It took Yin Jingnan a long time to recover his voice, his face turned pale, and he said in a trembling voice, "...what did you say?"

"Sorry, we did our best," said the doctor.

"It's acute pneumonia, and babies have a very high chance of dying from this disease."

I don't know when the doctor left, Xiaoyan's eyes went dark for a while, and he felt someone helping him, he turned his head to look, and it took a lot of effort to see Yin Jingnan's face clearly.

Tears rolled down silently in the blink of an eye, Xiaoyan looked dazed, and gestured towards Yin Jingnan.

"what……"

What did he say?

I do not understand.

"Xiaoyan..." Yin Jingnan's heart felt like a knife was being twisted, and his Adam's apple rolled.

No one expected that things would develop like this.

Xiaoyan continued to gesture, and gradually burst into tears.

"what……"

Am I having a nightmare.

During the day, the baby is fine and needs me to hold it.

Yin Jingnan stretched out his hand to pull Xiaoyan into his arms, but Xiaoyan took a step back and dodged it. He continued to gesture, his voice was so hoarse as if it had been cut.

"what……"

I killed the baby, didn't I.

Yin Jingnan stepped forward worriedly, this time Xiaoyan didn't hide, and let him hold her tightly in his arms.

"No, it's not you, it's an accident."

Everything that happened at this moment also made him feel like a nightmare, but he had to be calm in order to support the boy in his arms.

But by now, it's too late.

Xiaoyan sobbed and withdrew from Yin Jingnan's arms, gesticulating.

I don't believe it, you must have lied to me.

Give me back the baby, I'm taking him home.

"Xiaoyan, don't do this." The corners of Yin Jingnan's eyes turned red.

The corpses of babies who died of natural causes were allowed to be taken home. Normally, they would be buried the next day. Yin Jingnan was worried that Xiaoyan would be too sad, so he chose to store the baby in the hospital, and only took him to see the baby for the last time.

The author has something to say

For the first time since writing this book, I felt so deeply sad, and it was strange that Wen didn't have that moment.

I'm dry.