Love him deep into bone marrow Jian Hanfeng Chengyou

Indeed, as Yin Jingnan said, he would not treat Xiaoyan badly in life. One week after giving birth to the baby, Xiaoyan was sent to the top confinement center in Beijing.

There are people serving the three meals and taking care of the baby, so Xiaoyan won't feel at a loss when he starts crying.

Perhaps Yin Jingnan wanted to make up for him, turned down most of the not-so-important work, and spent an afternoon every day by Xiaoyan's side with him and the children, which would give Xiaoyan the illusion that they were really a family of three.

It's snowing outside, it's winter.

The room is very warm, and Xiaoyan doesn't feel cold when lying on the bed wearing thin cotton pajamas.

The baby's crib was placed against the wall, and he had just had milk, and now he was opening his eyes energetically, staring curiously at the father next to the bed, Yin Jingnan knew that children under the full moon could not laugh, but He teased him happily, stroking his son's face with his fingertips.

"The baby is so cute."

It was rare to see Yin Jingnan so happy, Xiaoyan also laughed.

Unexpectedly, Yin Jingnan turned his head suddenly, Xiaoyan's smile disappeared from his face, and he lowered his head hastily.

He just likes children, not himself.

"Are you hungry?" Yin Jingnan asked.

"I just bought Hefangzhai's egg yolk cake on the way here."

Xiaoyan shook his head, raised his hand and gestured.

I just had lunch and I'm not hungry yet.

Have you eaten yet.

"I've eaten at the company." Yin Jingnan stood beside the crib, holding his son's little hand with his big hand, and asked Xiaoyan, "Are you still used to it here?"

Xiaoyan nodded and gestured. "ah……"

The environment here is very good. In addition to the main meal, there are extra meals and snacks, which are very full.

Thank you for taking care of me.

"It should." Yin Jingnan smiled.

Then the two of them had nothing to say, the baby in the crib started to feel drowsy, Yin Jingnan twisted the quilt for him, turned to Xiaoyan, sat down beside the bed, and said in a low voice.

"I probably won't be here for a while."

Xiaoyan looked up in a daze, with obvious panic on his face, and gestured.

Where are you going?

Yin Jingnan looked at him and said.

"The company is very busy and I have to work overtime, so I don't have time to come."

"Take care of yourself."

Xiaoyan clearly looked very reluctant, his eyes were red, but he still nodded and gestured.

"what……"

I see.

Work matters, and that's okay.

Seeing him like this, Yin Jingnan softened his heart. In fact, the company had nothing to do, so it was perfectly alright to spend half a day with Xiaoyan, but he felt that he should let Xiaoyan get used to life without him in advance, lest he would not be used to it when he really separated later.

He was so cruel, he didn't let go, he raised his hand to touch Xiaoyan's round earlobe.

"Don't worry, I will accompany you until dark today."

At three o'clock in the afternoon, Yin Jingnan had snacks with Xiaoyan, and Xiaoyan fell asleep under his light touch.

The boy curled up on the bed, and Yin Jingnan smoothed the hair on his temples, his eyes were rarely soft.

In fact, Xiaoyan didn't fall asleep, every moment he was with Yin Jingnan felt rare and precious, how could he be willing to waste time sleeping, he was just pretending.

If Yin Jingnan hadn't picked him up, Xiaoyan might have been much stronger than he is now. He wouldn't cry when he was starving and freezing outside, and he wouldn't cry when he was beaten and scolded when he took the buns from the store and had no money, even in wind and rain. He wouldn't cry when he was wet and had no place to live, but now, just because Yin Jingnan wanted to leave him, he couldn't bear it.

That kind of injury is stuck in the flesh and blood. Yin Jingnan warmed him up and made him feel what love is. Now he wants to take back all that. It is impossible not to feel pain.

Tears slipped silently from the corner of Xiaoyan's eyes, Yin Jingnan wiped them away with his fingertips, and frowned slightly.

"Don't cry."

Anyway, it was all exposed, Xiaoyan stopped pretending to be asleep, and opened his bloodshot eyes to look at Yin Jingnan.

He is more and more like Cheng Wen in this respect, and he doesn't make a sound when he cries.

Yin Jingnan pulled a piece of paper from the bedside table to wipe Xiaoyan's tears, with a helpless tone.

"It's fine, why are you crying?"

Xiaoyan knew that he was ugly like this, so he covered his face with a quilt and tried hard to hold back his tears, but failed in the end.

Yin Jingnan reached out and tore off the quilt, "It will be stuffy."

Xiaoyan wiped away tears with the back of his hand, raised his hand and gestured hoarsely at Yin Jingnan, "Ah..."

I'm fine.

It's just that I feel a little uncomfortable, and it will be fine in a while.

Then he turned his back to Yin Jingnan and did not move.

Yin Jingnan knew why Xiaoyan was crying, so he didn't expose it, and just quietly accompanied him.

Everyone needs to grow up.

So is Xiaoyan.

Yin Jingnan kept his word, and stayed with him until dark.

The table was very quiet during dinner, the two ate their own portion of the meal in silence, Yin Jingnan put a piece of braised pork chops into Xiaoyan's bowl.

"Try this, it feels good."

Xiaoyan lowered his head and took a bite. It was indeed delicious. With sore eyes, he looked at Yin Jingnan and opened his mouth.

"what……"

Thank you.

He didn't make gestures, Yin Jingnan knew what Xiaoyan meant, and smiled.

"you are welcome."

"Eat quickly."

Xiaoyan hoped that he would eat more slowly, so that the two of them could stay together a little longer, but no matter how long the dinner was, it would be no match for the darkness.

Looking at the completely dark sky outside, Xiaoyan couldn't eat anymore, and his attention was on the person opposite. When Yin Jingnan put down his chopsticks, Xiaoyan raised his hand and gestured.

"what……"

Are you going.

"Yeah." Yin Jingnan pulled a tissue and folded it up, and wiped his lips.

Xiaoyan's eyes were red, and he continued to gesture.

"what……"

Then when will you come next time?

Yin Jingnan pondered for a moment, "I don't know, it depends on the situation."

Xu Shi couldn't bear it, and tried to explain it again: "It mainly depends on when the company's affairs can be dealt with."

Xiaoyan nodded, holding back tears and gestured.

Then I wait for you.

"En." Yin Jingnan responded lightly.

He threw down the tissue, got up and was about to leave, when Xiaoyan suddenly stood up, chased after him and hugged him.

Yin Jingnan paused, gently but firmly removed the hands wrapped around his waist, and turned to face Xiaoyan.

The boy seemed to have grown a little after he brought him home, but he still looked very thin in front of Yin Jingnan, and his pajamas were loose and empty. Yin Jingnan found that he was always crying recently.

Maybe it's because I just gave birth and I'm not that strong psychologically. I heard that pregnant women are like this, but Xiaoyan is a boy, so he should be better. As long as he can endure this period, he will be fine in the future.

Yin Jingnan spoke softly.

"Hey, take care of yourself and your baby."

"I'll try to find time to see you."

Xiaoyan may not know that Yin Jingnan is perfunctory. Although he doesn't understand many things, once he falls in love with such things as feelings, he will learn them without a teacher.

I forgot where I saw this sentence, maybe I saw it on TV in the supermarket, if a person cares about you, he will come to you even if he crosses thousands of mountains and rivers, but when the other person doesn’t love you, any Anything can be a reason for him to avoid you.

But people who are often in it always like to deceive themselves and others.

That would be a little better.

Xiaoyan forced a smile at Yin Jingnan, and said awkwardly.

I might miss you a little bit.

"I know." Yin Jingnan's voice was still very gentle.

"But you also need to know that I am not the only one in your life. You can find something else to do, such as watching some interesting TV movies, or focusing on your children. After a long time, life will not be so It's hard."

Will it really happen?

Xiaoyan doesn't know.

He only knew that when Yin Jingnan was not around, he really missed him very much.

But so what, Yin Jingnan left anyway.

Confinement babies go to sleep when they are full, eat when they wake up, and the staff of the confinement center help take care of them, so it is not difficult to take care of them.

Xiaoyan listens to Yin Jingnan's words, and when she calms down, she will turn on the TV and choose an interesting movie to watch carefully, but most of the time she will be distracted while watching it.

Seeing the protagonists in the play are in love with each other, he can't help but think of Yin Jingnan. The little mute also has such a tall and handsome lover. He is cold and gentle, perfect and has almost no flaws. The only flaw is that he doesn't love him.

It would be great if they could be together in the end, just like in the movie, they fell in love after experiencing many hardships, he is not afraid of suffering, he is only afraid that he will not even have a chance in the end.

Xiaoyan didn't know what to do to win the other party's love.

He asked the staff of the confinement center to help him buy a lot of paper stacks of stars, and a beautiful glass jar. When he missed Yin Jingnan, he would stack the stars. Maybe when the jar was full, Yin Jingnan would come to see him .

At first Xiaoyan couldn't read, but a few days ago when he was helping his baby prepare milk powder, he suddenly found that he could read the words on the milk powder can.

And it's English.

Perhaps the lost memory is gradually recovering.

Xiaoyan didn't think much about it.

He was very happy that he could read and write, so that he could be closer to Yin Jingnan.

Xiaoyan began to write on the blank space on the back of the star paper.

There was white snow floating outside the window, Xiaoyan sat on the bed with a small table on his lap, and wrote on the piece of paper with a pen:

[December 12th, it snowed again today.It should be cold outside, and I miss Anan very much today.

I don't know if Anan put on more clothes, don't catch a cold.

Anan has to take care of himself. 】

The length of the piece of paper is only this, and I can’t write any more. Xiaoyan carefully folded the written pieces of paper into small stars, put them in the glass jar at hand, and then took out a new one.

keep writing.

【Will Anan come to see me tomorrow?

The baby seems to have grown a lot. 】

But after a week, most of the stars in the glass jar were filled, and Xiaoyan had tried to fold it as slowly as possible, but Yin Jingnan still didn't appear.

Xiaoyan didn't know what he was busy with, so he had to fold slowly, and then slowly, fearing that if the bottle was full and Yin Jingnan hadn't come, after a long time, the wish he made to Little Xingxing would not work.