touch the back of the unknown

The next second I turned around, I knew that fate's test for me was colorful.

Shen Yu stood opposite Yan Wu, who was pushing the cart, his expression uncertain.

I know the reason for his unsteady complexion, because there is a girl beside Shen Yu.

The class flower of Class [-] is in Yuyuan, and she looks very good-looking.At this moment, she was awkwardly holding Shen Yu's hand, obviously she also knew about the matter between the two of them.

Then I walked towards Yan Wu, Shen Yu gave me a slightly surprised look, Yan Wu was holding the handle of the electric car tightly.

An Shun rode a mountain bike and stopped next to Yu Wan, and said with a smile: "Hey, this is not Yu Wan, you also go to the movies, boyfriend? Shen Yu, you have a girl."

Immediately relieved the embarrassment, Yu Yuwan responded with a smile, Shen Yu acquiesced, and Yan Wu's expression was obviously even more wrong when he heard the word "boyfriend".

An Shun waved to me again: "Yo He Yi," he waved to Yan Wu again, "Watch a movie with my friends, haha."

The expression is almost perfect, and it matches what I have.

I put my arm around Yan Wu's shoulder and said with a smile, "Yes, yes."

"Yan Wu, you still want to buy me coffee, let's go."

I ignored Shen Yu, pushed my car straight forward, Yan Wu followed me, An Shun said goodbye to Shen Yu and Yu Yuwan, followed Yan Wu on a bicycle, and the girl with him rode an electric bicycle and He is tied.

"Thank you." I said to An Shun in the wind.

At this moment, An Shun's eyes were deep and surprising, and the dramatic smile just now was gone, "Come on." He and the girl rode towards the opposite direction.

Yan Wu followed me silently, and I said: "Go to the bookstore, I want to buy some books

Mistake, misstep, misstep, I wailed in my heart, when I went to find Shen Yu that day, Yu Yuwan was by his side, I suspected that Shen Yu hadtily found a girlfriend just to make Yan Wu give up and clarify his sexuality, Who knew it was such a coincidence, I knew I would have watched a movie another day.

I was picking up books in the bookstore, and the Chinese New Year was about to come. All kinds of couplets and calendars filled the bookstore, blocking the bookcases.I stood on tiptoe and smoked the book.

I bought Wang Xiaobo's "The Silent Majority" and a collection of poems by Hai Zi. This "The Silent Majority" is the third one I bought. Each book has a different appearance. The first one was confiscated by the teacher. I lost the second one, and now it is the third one, which is better than the second one, but not as good as the first one.

Yan Wu has always maintained a silent state, like a pillar standing still.

I was sitting in Yan Wu's bedroom with a cup of coffee, and his mother and father were not at home. I opened the poetry collection and said, Yan Wu, I will read you a poem.

Yan Wu sat on the floor with his chin resting on his knees, and his eyes didn't know where to look.

Damn, it turned out that it was Yan Wu who came to talk to me, and I kept silent, but now it's the other way around, it's really retribution.

Could it be that Yan Wu wanted to do this, let me get used to him, and then ignore me one day and let me talk to him?I figured maliciously.

Human habits are terrible.

"In spring, all ten Haizis will be revived"

"In Bright View"

"Laugh at this savage and sad Haizi"

"Why did you sleep for so long?"

"In spring, ten Haizi roared in low voices"

"Dancing and singing around you and me"

"Tousle your black hair, ride you and gallop away, dusty"

I paused and skipped to the last sentence.

"What do you mean by dawn?"

What exactly do you mean by dawn.

I read in a low voice, and the voice echoed in the small room.

What on earth are you sleeping for so long?

I raised my head, and Yan Wu had already walked to his bookcase, and took out a collection of Pushkin's poems, yes, it was Pushkin's, but he put it back again, and took out a collection of Tagore's New Moon and Flying Birds, But he put it back again, narrowing his eyes slightly, looking at the books in the bookcase, as if searching for something in his memory.

I looked at his profile, and the sunlight came in from the window on the wall behind me, blurring my world.

"Surrender without a fight is hypocrisy,"

"Detachment not tempered by catastrophe is frivolous,"

Yan Wu lightly touched the glass of the bookcase with his fingers, and he stared intently ahead, but there was nothing there except the light reflected by the glass.

He spoke slowly, steadily, and his voice was magnetic, but he didn't continue, and I continued.

"Mingzhe who escapes reality is cowardly."

Fu Lei wrote in the preface of "Biography of Celebrities", I have memorized this passage many times, and silently wrote it on the draft paper after each exam in the senior high school entrance examination.

I have spent many nights, in many endless darkness, at the desk, looking at many different words I have copied, listening to the songs I have repeated countless times, crying under the lamp, tears hitting the On my left arm, there are many hideous wounds, some have just scarred, some have just fallen off, some are new blood, they are mixed with tears, my blade is lying quietly beside me, I am desperate, no I would like to close my eyes, the liquid blurred my world, I tried hard to see the words in front of me, but I couldn't.The curtains covered everything outside, it was late at night, everything was silent, only the sound of tears hitting the paper.

I have ever felt the most extreme despair.

So I never got my hopes up.

I suddenly realized that I had never understood Yan Wu. Even after such a long time, he was just like a program, like a formatted thing. What I had been in contact with was only the most superficial of him, and I had never gone deep into it. I never probed into his heart, as if he was a very facial figure, never three-dimensional, and never real.

I was shocked by what I found.

I observed Yan Wu, his fingers unconsciously knocked on the glass of the bookcase, his eyes were not focused, his waist was straight, the corners of his mouth were slightly curled up, he looked a little cold, what was he thinking?Do you want Shen Yu?I feel a little uncomfortable thinking about it, uncomfortable from the bottom of my heart.

What am I to him now?Friends?only friends?or brother?

go fuck bro!

I growled inside.

But I still dare not face up to my heart, nor face up to what I really think.

I was so hypocritical, frivolous, and cowardly.