january love

45

Samayoi

Duanmulian shrank himself into the quilt, completely unreal about the current life, Ye Qing was like an executioner bringing the nightmare into reality, even though the road under his feet didn't lead to the place he wanted to go before, but once he lost his way, Still be bewildered.

Think carefully about the reason for Duanmulian's truthful Qing Yeqing to do this. After all, the news of his marriage is too cruel for a man, but he never expected that the other party would make such an extreme move. Now that Duanmulian himself is in danger, he suddenly remembered When visiting the art exhibition with Ye Qing, he was a little envious of the painter Van Gogh who had nothing, so he was able to give it a go without any scruples. Now he is also looking down and out, but he can't find hope, and he doesn't know where to start, let alone Give it a go.

Duanmulian hated himself for being weak and incompetent and unable to compete with Ye Qing, and also hated that the fate of the two had ruined their original appearance.

Ye Qing came home in the evening and saw this little guy fell asleep under the blanket. It must be because he was too tired and shocked yesterday. He quickly lifted the quilt covering his head, printed a kiss on Duanmulian's sleeping face, and went to the study with the computer.

The next day Duanmulian still woke up in Ye Qing's arms, reflexively checked the time and worried about being late for work, then suddenly came back to put down the alarm clock, the man hugged him and rubbed him and got out of bed to prepare breakfast, Duanmulian sat in Ye Qing's sullen Under his watchful eyes, he drank a light porridge and put down the spoon. The man urged him to eat more and pretended he didn't hear him. Ye Qing knew that he didn't want to talk to him, so he left some food on the table and went to work.

Duan Mulian stared blankly at the steaming food slowly cooling down, feeling that he was incompetent and useless, he got up and pushed open the door of the study room, the layout inside was still the same, and the materials in the specially separated studio were all available, Ye Qing pasted the postcards of the 24 solar terms that he had drawn on the wall one by one, he walked up to look at it and found it boring, he pulled out his chair and began to doodle on the white paper without thinking.

I thought that without the constraints of the company and without the blame from my father, painting with peace of mind is the life I want to live, but why is he not happy at all now? Duanmulian doesn't plan to think about what is the reason, he doesn't want to blame anyone, blame everything You will suffer for yourself when you go astray.

When Ye Qing came back, he bought a bunch of desserts, but he couldn't find Duanmulian in the room. When he came to the study room, he saw the little guy was piled up with paint on the messy paper to cover the unsatisfactory flaws. Startled.

"You're back……"

"I brought you something you like to eat."

"No, thanks."

"You have lost a lot of weight, you should eat something well."

"Thanks to the kindness..."

Seeing that this guy became as respectful as before, Ye Qing felt very uncomfortable. He opened a box of delicate cakes and handed the fork to Duanmulian, and finally made up his mind to ask, "Are you afraid of me?"

Duanmulian slowly took the fork from Ye Qing's hand, hesitated for a moment, shook his head and then nodded lightly, he was asked this question when he just met this man, how did he answer then...

"I want to hear the truth, tell me, okay?" Ye Qing looked at him expressionlessly but tried to lower his voice to comfort him.

"A little bit..." Duanmulian unconsciously clenched the hand holding the fork. He sat upright and faced his buyer as a commodity.

"Then do you hate me?"

"it's OK."

"Even if I did such an exaggerated thing to you, don't you hate it?"

"I also... did too much to you."

Ye Qing didn't expect to hear this answer, this guy hasn't changed at all, always looking for reasons for being hurt by others, taking blame and self-blame is his most distressing weakness.

"You're so easy to bully." Ye Qing was half joking but frowned and held him in his arms. This strong and fragile child told him how to relax. He only wanted to repair and rebuild a complete and real Duanmu couplet. Duanmulian belongs to him alone.

Duanmulian snuggled into his warm embrace, but his heart was getting colder and colder. Before he could react, tears fell down his face, and he realized that the two lines of hot tears on his face carefully expressed the worries that had been troubling him, "Ye Qing... …I don't feel right."

Ye Qing noticed the crying voice that this guy tried to hide, held his pale face and wiped the tears with his sleeves. He knew that Duanmulian's stubborn temper never shed tears easily in front of others, and he understood that the backlog was too much to the limit. "What's the matter, tell me."

"Am I very useless now, a useless person?"

"Don't think so."

"What if one day you don't want me..."

Duanmulian sobbed softly, eyes full of fear, Ye Qing's face darkened, he patted Duanmulian's back reassuringly, "This day won't happen, you can help me draw like before, okay ?"

"No, I can't go back..." Duanmu Lian held back his tears and wiped his face vigorously. There was something different, as if he had lost something important and couldn't get it back. His heart was empty and there was only a shell left.

Ye Qing looked at the slightly trembling guy in front of him, and felt that it was the first time he encountered an incurable heart disease. This wound was caused by himself. He secretly resolved to use all his patience to heal it. Ye Qing couldn't see Duanmulian crying, because I feel more uncomfortable than I imagined.

Time passed by quietly, the cold winter seemed to freeze the relationship between the two of them, Ye Qing never asked for Duanmulian's body since then, everything was done according to the other party's wishes, he didn't say nice words, He can only prove his sincerity slowly, opening a person's heart from a little bit is his specialty, that's how he took down Duanmulian at the beginning, but now he repeats his old plan but it doesn't work.

Ye Qing took more time to spend with Duanmulian, but the other party didn't appreciate it and wanted to be alone all the time. He even suspected that this guy had developed a tendency to be autistic, until one day Duanmulian carefully told him that he wanted to drink with his head down. It was the first time a guy made a request to him, Ye Qing was a little relieved because he was finally willing to treat him honestly.