negative distance relationship

Lele never expected that the plot would develop like this.

Li Yangxu said: "I met this person once before, but I don't have a deep impression. He is a senior in our department. Daniel said that he met in a club."

This person is called Joss, who is a year older than Li Yangxu and the others. After Daniel and his family came out successfully, he would occasionally go to school with Joss. Li Yangxu once met him.

Li Yangxu: "Joss said that when he came out to his family at the beginning, his family didn't understand, but they worked hard to let his family see their loving and supportive side, and finally the parents accepted it."

However, when the two thought they could be together happily ever after, it didn't take long for Daniel to be tested for AIDS.

Joss was very shocked by this, because the two had taken safety measures every time, and he had just completed the company's entry physical examination not long before learning the news, and no problems were detected.

In this way, the reason is only Daniel.

Daniel knew that he could no longer hide it, so he confessed everything to Jostan.

It turned out that after the two came out to the family, they lived a beautiful life like a fairy couple, but after a long time, life began to return to the ordinary.

During that time, Joss was running around looking for a job after graduation, and Daniel was also busy with his graduation thesis. The two got together less often, and as time went by, Daniel began to think about his past life again.

He used to have sex often, and it can be said that he was addicted to it. The beautiful idea of ​​spending the rest of his life hand in hand with his boyfriend made him forget it for a short time, but once he remembered it, it was difficult to get rid of this idea.

Knowing that it is wrong to do so, Daniel still sneaks out to date others. After the first time, there will be the second time, and the third time. Every time Daniel regrets it, but he can’t stop like an addict. .

Daniel will always take adequate safety measures, but when he goes to Deshanto, he finally encounters a tiger. Finally, he meets a man once and takes off the condom halfway through. Daniel doesn't know this until he is done.

After the incident was over, he was terrified. He didn't dare to tell Joss, and he didn't dare to go to the hospital. He was afraid that if something was found out, his life would be completely ruined.

However, fate did not favor him in the end. Joss was very angry after knowing this, but after all, he had loved each other and walked through the days of coming out together.Fortunately, Joss had another physical examination and found no abnormalities, but Daniel's health deteriorated day by day, and he died after failing to survive for a few years.

Joss accompanied Daniel through the last days. Before Daniel left, Daniel wrote a letter saying that he would hand it over to Li Yangxu. Therefore, after finishing Daniel's affairs, Joss set foot on this land that had never been set before. land, found him.

Li Yangxu said in a tired tone, "The letter is in my pocket now."

Lele subconsciously glanced at the direction of the chair, a little curious about the contents of the letter, but even more curious about Li Yangxu's attitude.He didn't know that what he heard tonight was such a heavy story, and he didn't know what to say for a moment.

Lele always thought that this person was indifferent to everything, and he was indifferent to other people's affairs to the point of being almost harsh, just like he was to Liang Zhongzheng.On the one hand, this is due to his personality, and on the other hand, it is to protect himself, so Lele was so shocked when he tore up with Liang Zhongzheng for himself and Liang Zhongzheng in front of the company.

However, after a deep understanding, Lele can find that there is a little tenderness in this person's bones that ordinary people can't detect, like he will help himself, like he will try his best to fulfill his promise, just like now, because of someone who had a relationship with him I feel extremely painful because of the old people who have crossed paths.

He didn't know whether Li Yangxu's pain was due to the loss of his old friend, or because he saw his shadow in the other person, but Lele vaguely felt that there was probably a little bit of both.

He was not such a cold-blooded person, he said that he would return to the road with that person, but after so many years, he could still remember the past clearly.But he is used to hiding himself. This is an instinct he has developed since he was a child, so that when he meets a "similar" of his own, he seems to be able to spy on his future from the other party, which makes him shrink in the protective cover all the time. His world suddenly collapsed.

Li Yangxu was silent for a while, then his arms that were sticking together suddenly parted, and then he heard him say: "I'm sorry."

Lele was startled, and then he heard him continue: "I'm not a good person, it's unlucky to be touched by me, isn't it?"

Lele wanted to refute his words, but Li Yangxu didn't give him this chance, and then said: "Daniel is right, I am the same kind of person as him, with a corrupt private life and no sense of responsibility. But what he said is wrong... I Without his courage, without the courage to fight against the eyes of the world with the person you like, and even without the courage to like someone."

Lele reached out to touch Li Yangxu's hand, but the other party dodged it, but he had a hunch in his heart that if he didn't catch this person this time, he might regret it in the end.

So he plucked up the courage rarely, grabbed his hand and held it in his hand, turned to face him, even though the room was full of darkness, he still stared at him seriously and said: "You are different from him!"

Lele almost shouted, "It's not that you don't have a sense of responsibility, you are very responsible, it's because you put everything on yourself that you can't breathe."

"I don't know if you will go out to date other people when you are with me, but if you still have that energy, then I can only admire you, but let me say, I believe you don't."

It's not that Lele is arrogant, but they are both in a candid relationship. There are some things that he can easily feel, but he hasn't exposed them before, because he is afraid that this hard-won balance will be destroyed.

He held Li Yangxu's hand tightly again, and his voice softened a little, as if whispering in the other's ear: "So you are different from him, you can do better than him," he paused, holding back With a tingling pain in my heart, I said: "It's not that you don't have the courage to like someone, it's just...it's just that you haven't met the person worthy of your liking."

The room fell into silence again, and the wall clock on the wall made a "tick-tick" sound, which was especially obvious in this dark and closed space.

Lele felt that his palms were full of sweat, but he couldn't bear to let go, his heart throbbed, a little tingling, but with a strange joy.

Let's stop here, Lele thought, whether Li Yangxu wanted to go back to the "correct" path, or to find someone worthy of his liking, it had nothing to do with him.

The pain in the heart came one after another, causing Lele to curl up into a ball unconsciously.

It wasn't until this moment that he realized that he already liked this person so much.

Li Yangxu beside him was breathing calmly, as if he had already fallen asleep, Lele greedily moved a little over there, trying to grab the last tenderness.

Suddenly, the person who was still calm and motionless turned over and pulled Lele into his arms.

The blazing body temperature scorched Lele, and the skin-to-skin contact of the two people was so close that they could hear each other's heartbeat. Lele was hugged tightly in Li Yangxu's arms, and her curled body could not move at all, while the other's arm was still going on. Tighten, as if wanting to melt him into her body.

"Li, Li Yangxu?" Lele called out in a daze.

Unlike the person who was so calm as if he had fallen into a coma before, even though Li Yangxu tried his best to suppress his emotions, Lele could still feel his emotional fluctuations from the other person's heaving chest.

After a long while, Li Yangxu finally spoke. His voice was as deep and calm as ever, but what he said made Lele's eyes turn red——

"I can't give you any guarantees, and I can't maintain a stable relationship, but I don't want to find anyone anymore. That's it, are you still willing?"

The author has something to say: Lele: I don’t want to

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