three year itch

Ji Lin was sitting on a bench in the park, holding a cigarette that was about to burn out between his fingers, and a star of fire flickered alone in the dark night.

Except for smoking a few cigarettes during his second year of middle school to look cool, Ji Lin rarely smokes, and he takes great care of his throat.

An hour ago, Chen Siwei kicked him out of the house.He could have hugged Chen Siwei's waist as usual, and said all the good and bad words, or simply made him gasp and speechless, as long as his little teacher kept him.But he just walked out in silence at that time, not forgetting to throw away the garbage bag at the door.

Ji Lin had never seen Chen Siwei's expression like that. He was desperate, exhausted, and deeply bored. He put on his clothes one by one, wiped away the tears on his face, and said calmly:

"you can go now."

After all, Ji Lin was young and energetic, and Chen Siwei's tone seemed to be dismissing a dog, so that he could no longer make a gesture of begging for mercy.He still hasn't figured out why Chen Siwei, who is fine in the morning, is a different person at night.

At first, he thought that Chen Siwei was angry because he had known his secrets for many years, but now he was thinking alone, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt wrong.

It seemed that Chen Siwei really didn't want him anymore.

He didn't know what he did wrong. Although he didn't think he was a gentle and considerate person, he was devoted to Chen Siwei. For him, he never went to bars and nightclubs again, and the group of drinking and meat friends before him also decreased. He was even thinking about their future, how to make Chen Siwei live with him at ease while ensuring his financial independence.

By the way, rest assured...

"Handsome guy, are you waiting for someone?"

Ji Lin's thoughts were interrupted, he raised his head irritably, and saw a petite figure.

At that moment, he almost recognized Chen Siwei, but soon he dismissed the idea with contempt.It was a young man in a vest studded with cheap sequins, with a lady's cigarette in his hand.

"Get out." Ji Lin recognized this is a coward at a glance, and impatiently threw the cigarette butt in his hand into the trash can beside him.

The sequined man stomped his feet, cursed, turned and left.

"Pull a fart."

Ji Lin did pull it, when he was a teenager.Any boy who is handsome, has good grades, and has money will be dragged away.At that time, he would deliberately pretend to be cold and indifferent to others, which made many little girls heartbroken.

But since he knew the truth about his mother's death in high school, he couldn't pull it up.At his uncle's house, he found his mother's early diary, which was full of secrets between her and her lover.This woman was forced to marry someone arranged by her family, and unwilling to be lonely, she reunited with her old lover.

"I really want to abort this kid, just thinking about his father makes me sick."

The beautiful fairy tales that his uncle had woven for him were completely shattered, and any love between husband and wife was false. He finally understood why his father never cared about him except for giving him money.

After that, Ji Lin was still confident and flamboyant, but he hid his arrogance better. He treated everyone politely, even if he hated someone in his heart, he would not show it on his face.

People who don't know him think he is easy to get along with, so his popularity has always been very good.

Even Chen Siwei, who was always giving him tasks in a long-winded manner, he dealt with it with a good temper, but he was very disgusted in his heart.

He hates cowardice, and Chen Siwei is a cowardly man.

That year, when Chen Siwei just became a counselor and organized activities for freshmen, the freshmen jumped out of the way and refused to accept the discipline of a novice like him.He was not tall, and his voice was small. Standing in the middle of a group of students, he was instantly drowned out, and his mosquito-like voice was not deterrent at all.

Ji Lin could have helped him at that time, as long as he said a word, everyone would be quiet.But he just stood aside indifferently, watching the little counselor make a fool of himself.

In the end, the monitors of other classes saw him as pitiful and helped him stabilize the order.Ji Lin had no choice but to be a "good guy". It's not good if the other squad leaders took action and he didn't do anything.

He only needed a few words to get the students' attention.He raised the corners of his mouth and glanced at Chen Siwei who was beside him. He knew that there was something contemptuous in his smile, and this delicate counselor would definitely notice it and feel deeply ashamed and annoyed.

Chen Siwei looked up at him, his eyes were full of gratitude, and there was also a bit of admiration, admiration for the strong.

Ji Lin actually felt a tinge of pride, although this was nothing compared to the praise he usually received.

After that, he often helped Chen Siwei organize discipline in public events.

You see, I can help you with all the students.

Am I great?

He started to get to know this novice counselor, and found that besides being obedient, he still has many advantages.

College counselors are often the targets of college students' favorite complaints. Some people neglect their duties, some seek benefits from scholarships and grants, and some target individual students because of personal grievances...

But Chen Siwei is undoubtedly a very responsible counselor, even though he does not seem very convincing.

There was once a student who had a sudden whim and wanted to apply for a summer camp qualification for a prestigious school. The deadline was at [-]:[-] am on Sunday. He called Chen Siwei on Saturday to get the grade certificate issued by the school.At that time, Chen Siwei was in the next city, and he rushed back to issue a certificate to him, even though it was originally his vacation.

Even if the students didn't sleep in the dormitory one day, he would call one by one to confirm the situation.

Ji Lin suffered from it. Not only did he hate cowardice, but he also hated being wordy, and all of these thoughts were taken up by Chen Si.

But gradually he began to look forward to his phone call, listening to him say cautiously:

You have to be safe outside.

Don't drive too fast, it's dangerous.

……

Once he didn't live in the dormitory for a few days, waiting for Chen Siwei to call him, but he never answered.

He was so angry that he made a bad face at Chen Siwei for several days, which made Chen Siwei confused and asked him what was wrong in a low voice.

"Why didn't you call and ask me why I didn't come home last night?"

Chen Siwei muttered, "Didn't you say last time that you don't want to ask you any more questions?" Last time he heard a boy say on the phone that Mr. Chen's cooking is really good, and he was so angry that he said don't bother me again. .

Well, well, he shot himself in the foot.

Later he found out that Chen Siwei was visiting a student who was injured during the physical examination in their school that day. The student's hometown was in a remote mountain village, and his parents couldn't make it. Chen Siwei was taking care of him.

Chen Siwei is such a good old man. With the meager salary among teachers, he does more chores than all teachers, and he is not necessarily respected by students as a teacher.

Because a responsible counselor must adhere to certain principles, this will inevitably be disgusted by some students, just like him in the past.

But he knew that those who didn't understand Chen Siwei before would fall in love with this teacher after four years of getting along, just like him now.

Because he is really good, so good that he can't bear to see him so tired, doing many thankless things.

Chen Siwei once asked him on the day he ran for the chairman of the student union,

"Don't you like staying in school the least? Why do you still want to be the chairman?"

Ji Lin showed a frivolous smile, "Who doesn't want to have a more exciting resume?"

But only he knew that he wasted so much time in the student union just to help Chen Siwei share more student affairs.

Chen Siwei drove Ji Lin away.

He looked at the empty room and felt that his heart was also empty.

This morning he overheard a conversation between Dean Ma and another professor.They were talking about their children, and Dean Ma mentioned that Ji Lin should get to know Professor Li's daughter.

Professor Li is a well-known daughter slave in the school. His daughter is studying in the School of Economics and Management of Wenhua University, and she is in the same grade as Ji Lin.Chen Siwei had seen a photo of Professor Li's daughter, she was indeed a beautiful woman, and she was said to be a courtyard beauty.

Even though it might just be a polite conversation between the two of them, he still started to panic, and all the anxieties in the past three years have surfaced bit by bit.There was never a real promise between him and Ji Lin, and he didn't dare to ask for fear of breaking the temporary security.

Ji Lin would say a lot of flirtatious words in bed, and Chen Siwei never dared to take those words mixed with eternity seriously.

In order to please each other in bed, what can't a man say?

Ji Lin will leave him one day, marry a wife and have children, and live a happy life.

He kept saying to himself, you have lived for 28 years, can't you still learn to withdraw from a relationship?

But what happened tonight made all hesitation and reluctance meaningless. He drove Ji Lin away in a chic way, but after he left silently, he squatted on the ground and cried bitterly.

After crying, he started packing Ji Lin's things and planned to send them to his dormitory tomorrow.

He tidied up Ji Lin's clothes one by one. This suit was worn by him to run for the chairman of the student union. He once threw this coat on his head on a rainy day. He always asked himself to tie this tie for him...

After collecting Ji Lin's things, he started writing his resignation letter again, intending to put it on the Dean's office desk tomorrow.

When he opened the door the next morning, he only opened a crack subconsciously.

If Ji Lin was outside, he would insert one of his long legs first, and then his tall body would squeeze in, pressing him against the wall for a kiss.

But there was nothing outside the door, not even the garbage bag that was put down yesterday.

Ji Lin really left.

Chen Siwei rode a bicycle to the school and found that today's journalism institute was extremely lively. It turned out that the former students were returning to their alma mater.They have already made some achievements in their respective fields. This time they came back to visit teachers and raise funds for the new building of the college.

Before Chen Siwei had time to submit his resignation letter, he was rushed by Dean Ma.He looked at the proud smiles of these students, and talked and hugged those teachers who had taught him.

He was a little bit envious in his heart, thinking that many years later, would some students return to their alma mater and think of him?

But after a day of reception, he found that none of these students mentioned the former counselor, who seemed to be a person lost in the corner of memory, as if he had never appeared in their college life.

He suddenly realized that the so-called counselor was nothing more than him looking at the student he thought he was, carrying a full bag and waving his hand, turning around and walking into the crowds in the distance, where he was nowhere to be found.

Years later, they occasionally recalled their college life, there would be thousands of pear trees on Jianling Mountain, ten miles of wind and lotus in Jingxin Lake, professors and lecturers who taught and educated people, and classmates and roommates who accompanied them for four years, but there was no insignificant one. counselor.

He thought that Ji Lin would not be much different from them, and perhaps he would avoid talking about him.

After all, it might be a bad memory for him.

No more hesitation, at the end of the day, he put the resignation letter on the dean's desk.

Ji Lin skipped class for a day, and he thought for a whole day by himself, and came to a conclusion.

His little teacher didn't want him, he was just upset.

And the source of anxiety must be his uncle.

He is a person who makes a decision and puts it into action immediately. After thinking about it, he went straight back to his uncle's house.

After a busy day at school, Ma Ben saw Chen Siwei's resignation letter when he came back to the office. He didn't appreciate Chen Siwei very much.

He returned home as usual, and when he opened the door, he saw his nephew kneeling on the ground.

"What are you doing?" Ma Ben was shocked. He was half a father to Ji Lin. Ji Lin was very stubborn when he was a child. He hasn't done this since he was [-], for fear of hurting the boy's self-esteem.

"Uncle, I want to confess something to you."

"I fell in love with a man and have been with him for almost three years."

"I want your approval, but if you don't, I'll stick to it."

The horse swayed a few times and almost fell to the ground. After being unbelievable, he became furious. He smashed the briefcase in his hand on his nephew whom he had always loved, and the documents inside were scattered all over the floor.

Ji Lin didn't dodge in the slightest, the hard leather horns of the briefcase directly scratched his forehead, and the blood snaked down from the wound.

But he felt no pain, he saw a letter on the ground.