Encounter

"The sun is on. It rained so much yesterday that I thought it would drown the whole world."

Xia Yuming pushed Shen Mo away and smiled at him, "The porridge is about to come out, I'll turn off the fire."

"it is good."

Probably because Xia Yuming's expression was too calm, Shen Mo's heart was full of embarrassment after confessing, he was a little shy and a little eager, he had never felt such a mood in his life for a long time.

He smelled the smell of food overflowing from the kitchen, and felt that the sunlight could be so warm for the first time, his limbs felt weak from the warmth.

"Xia Yuming."

"what's up?"

"Xia Yuming."

"Ok?"

"Ayu."

"I'm here."

"I am very happy."

"I'm also very happy that someone will tell me that they like me."

The sunlight flowed over the chopping board, flowed over the stove, and finally stopped on the skin. Xia Yuming stared blankly at his hands for two or three seconds, and suddenly felt that he had figured out something, but he obviously didn't think about anything just now. , he made a decision for himself, he felt a little uncomfortable and more relaxed, "Thank you for liking me and people like me."

Shen Mo had a hunch that something was wrong, but seeing Xia Yuming's smile that was almost warming in the light, he couldn't tell what was wrong, "I will like you even more in the future, until one day I can never leave you again, so Xia Yuming, do well ..."

"You won't." Xia Yuming handed the porridge in his hand to Shen Mo, "For a person like me, it's already the limit for you to like me a little bit."

"No, I..."

"Thank you, no matter why you said these words to me, you are the first person to say that you like me, even if it is fake, I like it very much."

"It's not fake, what I said is not fake, I..."

"Let's eat, I'm a little hungry."

After all, Shen Mo didn't finish this rebuttal, he didn't know what to say, and it seemed that no matter what he said, he couldn't convince the other party.

What can we do?

Shen Mo didn't know.

It is impossible for a tiger to understand an antelope, and a powerful demon cannot understand what a weak human being is thinking.

But there is always a chance, say twice if you can't do it once, say three times if you can't do it twice, protect human beings and treat this person well, one day your heart will be accepted and known.

What should we do?

The sticky porridge lingered on the tip of his tongue, and Shen Mo's heartbeat was a little fast and his voice was a little loud. He secretly raised his eyes to look at Xia Yuming, and found that the other person's face was relaxed, and he was eating neither fast nor slow.

Since meeting Xia Yuming, Shen Mo has never seen him so relaxed. Is it because he believed his words a little bit, or did yesterday's incident make him happy?

Shen Mo had no way of guessing the other party's thoughts, after thinking about it, he decided to do what happened last night again after dinner.

Xia Yuming likes it, and he likes it very much, isn't that great?Everyone likes to do happy things.

So after eating, Shen Mo pushed Xia Yuming onto the sofa.

Xia Yuming was very cooperative and even proactive this time.

The two of them worked all day, from the living room to the bedroom, and fell into a deep sleep after finishing.

Shen Mo is a lazy monster. He loves to sleep when he is happy and sleeps when he is tired, so he sleeps defenselessly. He doesn't know that when he falls asleep, the eyes of the sweetheart beside him who has just confirmed his heart are open most of the night , Finally picked up the phone, put on clothes and left home.

The breeze in the summer night is gentle and cool, and it seems to be caressing when it passes by people.

Xia Yuming opened his hands, letting the breeze pass through his fingers, as if he was holding someone's hand, he raised his hands like this and smiled softly.

He turned on the phone and dialed his father's phone number, but was hung up, so he called his mother again and was picked up.

There was a long silence on the other side before a human voice sounded, "What are you calling for?"

"I originally wanted to say a lot, ask questions, complain, and confide, but the moment I heard your voice, I felt that it was unnecessary."

"Then why are you calling? You always like to do meaningless things."

"Yes." After a pause, Xia Yuming suddenly laughed, and said in a very ordinary tone, "I slept with Shen Mo, it was very comfortable, I like it very much."

"Being tempted by a demon, are you proud?"

"No, it's just that I suddenly feel that I'm actually disgusting. I haven't felt happy for a long time, and I haven't liked anything. It turned out that the only thing that made me feel interesting was this kind of thing."

"As long as you know."

"The flower demon is right, if there is an if, one day, I will eventually go to the point of hurting others and destroying others.

In fact, I am no different from the flower demon who lives on nutrients from the dead, I even started to smell the stench of my own corpse.I originally wanted to complain about everything in this world. I originally thought that I should have the right to live, but I kept ignoring that people have original sins. "

"I can't help you if you think so. People who complain about others are always lamenting the hardships of life, and people who are positive are always happy. It's their own choice to live in what kind of situation, no one else is to blame."

"Yeah, I know."

"Tell me you know, do you really know?"

"I'm here to say goodbye this time."

There was a second of silence on the other side, "This is your own choice."

"Yes, this is my own choice."

"Your choice has nothing to do with us, your life is your own."

"Yeah, it has nothing to do with anyone. I can't decide my birth, I have to choose my death."

"In the next life, don't be my son anymore."

"In the next life, don't be my parents anymore."

Once a person decides to die, everything becomes easier. There is no need to put on a mask to embarrass oneself in the crowd, no need to worry about where tomorrow's self will encounter dangers, and no need to face those Unknown, no need to recall those known.

Life is a bitter medicine wrapped in sugar. People always forget its essence because of the confusing sweetness outside. They deceive themselves day after day that tomorrow will be better.

But life is never kind to anyone.

After hanging up the phone, Xia Yuming looked at the empty road dimly illuminated by street lights in the early morning, and said in silence for a while, "Are you in the dark? Or were you really arrested by the police?"

After Xia Yuming finished speaking, he saw a person appear out of thin air in front of him.

"I figured it out."

He figured it out, walking the tightrope for so long, fear and worry every day, why bother, he was tired, he figured it out.

At that moment, he felt extremely relaxed.

Going to death, sometimes, is actually such an easy thing.

When Shen Mo realized something was wrong and hurried over, Xia Yuming was already standing beside the flower demon, and the last look he left for Shen Mo made his steps stop.

The way Xia Yuming looks at Shen Mo is not the way a person looks at his lover, nor the way he looks at a life-saving medicine. Shen Mo would rather he look at himself like this, but he doesn't.

Xia Yuming looked at Shen Mo, as if he was looking at a beautiful object, or as if he was looking at a pet he liked a little.

Just one glance, and then walked towards the flower demon without hesitation.

It is human nature to want to live, but living is harder than dying.