Encounter

In fact, thinking about it carefully, Shen Mo's behavior has always been very strange, such as pulling him to sleep together as soon as they meet, and always doing some overly intimate behaviors outside, without hesitation and even actively declaring that he is her boyfriend .

Xia Yuming didn't think too much at first, but later he gave up exploring. He is weaker than him, knowing or not knowing will not make any big changes.

It's just that he didn't expect that the real reason was actually this. At first glance, it sounded too absurd.

Ridiculously ridiculous.

Who will die if you fall in love?There is only one unique demon like Shen Mo in this world, right? There is no other precedent before this, right?How did Bian Ming come to his conclusion?If Shen Mo himself said it, how credible would it be?

And Fanxi believed it.

The most absurd thing is that Fanxi actually believed it. It was just written in a notebook?

Xia Yuming was stunned for two or three seconds, then laughed lightly, the grunting sound went around several times in his throat before being swallowed back.

"You know that Fanxi read the handbook and thought that you would fall in love with Bian Ming's reincarnation and fall into eternal sleep because of it, so you followed the plan and acted by my side, making Fanxi misunderstand that you would not wake up. You are so smart , In this way, you will change from being the enemy of the dark to the enemy of the light.

You can hide here and quietly watch what Fanxi will do without your restriction.This is the real temptation, isn't it, Shen Mo? "

Shen Mo didn't answer, there was rumbling thunder outside, and the lightning flashed, lighting up the whole room at once.

Why don't you answer?Is it because I feel that the goal has been achieved and there is no need to explain it to me, a small person?Then why are you still here?Still feel guilty, so simply do not speak?

How could it be a guilty conscience?There is no need for a strong person to feel guilty about a weak person who is not threatening. Xia Yuming felt that his thoughts were funny, so he grinned and continued, "I'm afraid you let Fanxi know this secret, right? Don't you think it's ridiculous?" Is he really going to believe such an absurd statement?"

Shen Mo still didn't move, her smooth long black hair hung behind her back, faintly flowing with luster.

Winter has just passed, and the earth is still not hot. It is still too cold to sit on the ground.Xia Yuming stood up from the ground, the pain just now hadn't completely disappeared, and he could still feel the lingering pain between breathing.He walked to Shen Mo's side, and broke Shen Mo forcefully.

He didn't use much strength, he held the man's shoulders to his side, and the man turned around.

As expected, Shen Mo's eyes were open, that pretty face showed no expression at all, it was completely numb, but after meeting Xia Yuming's eyes, he turned away, looking at the void on one side.

It looks a little guilty like this.

Really guilty, Xia Yuming felt strange, so he sat on the edge of the bed.

"Shen Mo." He calmly repeated what he said just now, "Would he really believe such an absurd statement?"

Shen Mo didn't speak, neither did Xia Yuming, outside the window there was lightning, thunder, and wind and rain, and the voice was terrifyingly loud.

After a while, Shen Mo finally spoke, "What I told you before, what the Bian family knew, that Bian Ming's reincarnation would unlock my seal, and his attitude towards the reincarnated person are all true. The only thing I kept from you was this."

"Well, I know." Xia Yuming answered.

After hearing this, Shen Mo turned his eyes to Xia Yuming again, "Did you never trust me?"

Xia Yuming picked out a pinch of long black hair from Shen Mo's hair and played with it without saying a word.

He thought the question was ridiculous and meaningless, so he didn't want to answer it.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Shen Mo sighed and said, "Yes, I really can't trust you, you are really smart and sensitive."

Xia Yuming watched the satin-like long hair slipping between his fingers and being picked up again, without saying a word.

"What I told you is true. The reason why the Bian family thinks that Bian Ming's reincarnation can set me free, and their attitude towards Bian Ming's reincarnation are all true. I just kept some things from you. For example, Bian Ming once left a notebook written in secret language, which described in detail how to make me "die".

He speculated at the time that if I fell in love with someone, after this person died, I would fall into eternal sleep because of excessive sadness.

Bian Ming is a very playful person, he deliberately took this as a prophecy, changed the specific statement, and wrote this conjecture as a prophecy in his own handwriting in secret language.

He also said that since I had significant entanglements with him in both lives, the person I fell in love with later must be his reincarnation.

In fact, all this was just a joke he made.If it wasn't for Bian Fanxi, I would have almost forgotten this joke.

Bian Fanxi was born more than 40 years ago, with a strong connection with Buddhism, and the whole Bian family was ecstatic.Sometimes people's hearts are fate. I have lived for a long time, and I have seen many things, so I can speculate on some people's thoughts, so I foresaw everything today.

Just in case, I've laid out since then.He purposely led people to discover that manuscript, and deified Bian Ming, who was already very mythical, in the clan.And you left the Bian family when you were born, causing people to have various speculations.

When I became a demon in Bian Fanxi, I specially let him get something to unlock the secret language.After reading Bian Ming's letter, he was convinced, and with my previous series of actions..."

"I see."

It turned out that everything had already started to work long before I was born.

Xia Yuming let go of the lock of hair in his hand, and for a moment he felt both lucky and unlucky. Unfortunately, he always thought that the smooth life was already in crisis somewhere he didn't know. Fortunately, even if it was dangerous, he Still living unconsciously for more than 20 years.And after that moment of emotion, he regained his composure.

"Then Shen Mo, why did you stay and explain all this to me?"

"I'm hiding from you, Xia Yuming, but what I said is true and I didn't lie to you." Shen Mo grabbed the corner of Xia Yuming's sleeve and explained eagerly, "I think you are interesting, and I want to get close to you. These……"

"Do you like me?" Xia Yuming interrupted Shen Mo, "Do you love me?"

Shen Mo froze for a moment, then shook his head.

Xia Yuming looked at Shen Mo, he felt that Shen Mo was very different from when he first met, even if all the tricks were exposed now, and he no longer needed to perform, he still didn't have the indifferent and alienated look at the beginning, on the contrary, he was much more Be gentle and careful.

"You don't like me, but you find me interesting, so you want to get close to me?"

"Ah."

"yes……"

After a moment of silence, Xia Yuming said, "You are really weird. You don't like me, but you want to get close to me and find me interesting."

There was a clatter of thunder, which illuminated Shen Mo's face pale.

Xia Yuming looked at Shen Mo who was trapped in the soft bed, bent down and stared at Shen Mo, "I'm really interesting, that's right."

Shen Mo is very good-looking, with fair skin, picturesque eyebrows and eyes, long black hair spread out like ink, so beautiful that people can't take their eyes off.

Xia Yuming's fingers touched Shen Mo's face, and he looked at the powerful and beautiful creature below him fearlessly and playfully.

He used to be able to deceive himself and tell himself that maybe Shen Mo really wanted to help him.Only now, this self-deception has also been torn apart.

Man is a profit-seeking animal, and everything he does has a selfish purpose.

Shen Mo's goal was revealed, and what he wanted to do had been achieved.

What will I do after that?what can we do about it?

Xia Yuming thought that he would feel uneasy, afraid or desperate, just like when he learned about his parents' intentions not long ago.

But at this moment, he found that he was neither afraid nor apprehensive, but felt boring, absurd and exhausted.

Shen Mo didn't like him, but thought he was a little more novel, so he was not allowed to die for the time being.

He doesn't like him, he just finds him interesting temporarily, is that right?

Such a question popped up in his mind, which was brought up again and again by him when he was a teenager, and finally dismissed as childish and forgotten when he grew up.

People, why do you want to live?

A meaningless question, but one he never found an answer to.

Why should he live?Why are you struggling so much to live?Is there any point in living so eagerly?

He suddenly felt very tired, how difficult it is to live like a human being.What is the meaning of being alive? It is worth his hard work.

Looking back on the past, in fact, if you think about it seriously, even in the smoothest days, there is more discomfort than joy, and suffering is greater than happiness.He thought of the times when he was with his parents when he was a child, and the pursuit and threats he encountered after meeting Shen Mo. Looking at Shen Mo's face, amidst all kinds of intertwined memories, he suddenly remembered the philosophy books he read when he was the most ill-moaned boy. There is such a saying: "Life is like a pendulum swinging between pain and fatigue."

It's ridiculous, it's ridiculous.

Relying on Shen Mo's interest that he doesn't know when it will disappear, he keeps this weak life briefly and humblely, and then what?Then what?

Xia Yuming let go of Shen Mo and took a few steps back, leaning against the wall.

Before that, he had some use value, but now, he has no value other than being interesting.

It's so tiring, it's so tiring to live, he doesn't even know why he's so tired.

He was not shocked by this truth, but the suppressed boredom and exhaustion surged up again.

He remembered that he originally wanted to sit and wait to die, so why did he suddenly give up this idea?Oh, yes, because that kind of life is too boring and bewildering, he can't go on.

See, in fact, even if everything goes smoothly, he can still live such a boring life.

He's such a boring shell.

How could someone like him be interesting?

"Shen Mo, you don't like me, but you find me interesting?"

Xia Yuming asked again.

Just being interesting, just being interesting is not enough.

Shen Mo got up, the quilt slipped off, he nodded and said, "Well, I think you are interesting, and I want to get closer to you."

"Then, do you know what liking is?" Xia Yuming continued to say seductively.

It's just interesting, how can Shen Mo protect him, and how long can he protect him?

"Although I have never liked anyone, I have seen a lot of them. Bian Ming also described it to me. To like is to stay with someone, and to look at that person brings joy to my heart. He said to me, if his With his wife gone, even if there is a house full of beautiful women and gold and silver, he will probably feel lonely when he is alive. This is what he likes."

"Really, but I know I like it, it's not like that." He lied to Shen Mo, he discovered a secret, he found that although Shen Mo lived a long time and read a lot of things, in fact, his empathy ability is very low , so many things can be seen through, but can't really understand.

What's the point of living?It's meaningless, living is such a meaningless thing, but isn't it because of such a meaningless thing that he works so hard and suffers so much?

It's really absurd, even more absurd than the story Shen Mo told him.

Even so, he still couldn't just die.

He suddenly saw his selfish and cowardly nature. He was afraid of the suffering he would face while alive, and the pain he would experience when he died.

So he once again, following his instinct, said despicably, "You think I'm interesting, get along with me where others can't see, and give up sleeping, because you think I'm more interesting than sleeping?"

Shen Mo was stunned and said, "Yes."

Just being interesting is not enough, he wants Shen Mo to like him, or think he likes him.

How despicable, he is obviously not that greedy for life, but he is so afraid of death.

How cowardly and disgusting.

"But I'm not funny at all, Shen Mo."

Shen Mo looked at him, his eyes soft under the light of thunder and lightning, "It's nothing."

"Shen Mo, I think you like me."

lie.

"I really haven't." Shen Mo shook his head without any doubt.

"But I like you."

Deceiving.

"Neither have you."

"I have, Shen Mo, I have." Xia Yuming looked directly at Shen Mo and said, "I have, if we were all ordinary people and we were not in such a situation, I would have made it clear to you, do you understand? .”

Shen Mo was stunned for a moment, then looked at Xia Yuming puzzled.

"I don't like you very much, I won't die for you, I don't want to be with you forever, I just feel uncomfortable for a few days when you reject me, but I will tell you, I like you. Because I want When it comes to dating, you are good-looking, and your temper matches my appetite. I would like to try with you, you are attracting me.

The beginning of what many people call love and liking is nothing more than that.I'm lonely and want to find a suitable person to warm each other up.Then get along with each other over time.I will find that we are very suitable, and slowly, I can't live without you.After that, I reached the realm you mentioned. "

"Life and death follow each other, and the case is equal to the eyebrows. Most people want to get to this point, and they are like this at first."

This is not a lie, Shen Mo suits his taste, but Xia Yuming is not very interested in love, and he doesn't feel lonely when he is alone, so he will not confess his love to Shen Mo.

But he had to say it.

It's not enough just to be interesting, you can't make the other person like you, at least let the other person think that he likes you.

How despicable, he somewhat despised and did not understand himself who would make such a decision.

How contradictory.

He neither wanted to live, nor could he resist the instinct to escape from death, so he took one step at a time.

He didn't know what he was doing.

But he did.

How complicated.

"Is that right?"

Shen Mo seemed to be convinced by him, and looked at Xia Yuming in confusion.

"Yes."

"So Shen Mo, you still say, you don't like me?"

Shen Mo pulled Xia Yuming, hugged him, and said after a half silence, "Then I should like you."

Xia Yuming laughed silently, look, this demon is really easy to deceive, he laughed and cried again.

But he didn't know, the eyes of the devil holding him were clear and gentle, and it was clear that he hadn't been taken away by his simple trick.

The author has something to say

I hurriedly found a job that I was completely unsuitable for and didn't like at all, and it was very painful.Because of the intensity of the work, there is really not much time left for me to code.I will save the draft for the next short story before sending it out. It will not be so slow like this one.I am so sorry