Bear Diary

Saturday, November 2010, 8

"I said I'm gay too." I looked into my dad's eyes and said flatly.

I tensed every nerve in my body, waiting for Dad to storm out, which was all I could think of his reaction.But what I imagined didn't happen. My dad, who was supposed to be furious, sat down like a deflated balloon after a few seconds of stunned, staring at me with wide eyes, which made me feel hairy.After a while, he got up suddenly, and the stool scratched the ground with a "chuck", and I bounced up like a cat whose tail was stepped on.As a result, my father ignored me, turned around and went back to the room, and closed the door, leaving me alone in the huge dining room.

I sat outside for a long time, but there was no sign of my father coming out. It was meaningless to think about staying, so I planned to leave.I went to the door of Dad's room and said casually, "Dad, I'm leaving. Don't tell Mom what you said just now. I will find time to tell her personally." Pause. "Actually, when I tell you this, I don't expect you to accept it. I just tell you. And it's innate and cannot be changed." Seeing that there was no response in the room, I don't know if my father heard it.Forget it, let's go.

Before I turned around and took two steps, my father opened the door. "Your...that is the Sazi man?" The door was only opened a crack, and I couldn't see what was going on in the room.

"You won't recognize it even if you tell me..." Of course I won't tell him, if he finds out, he will definitely try his best to find him.

Hearing what I said, Dad closed the door again with a bang.

When Serena came out of the closet before, I always had a lot of words to persuade him, but now it's me, but I can't think of a reason to comfort him.Dad's reaction like this is actually much better than I imagined. He didn't beat me up violently, severed the father-son relationship with me, and didn't lock me up and prevent me from going out.

But why do I feel so uncomfortable?And there is a bad feeling.If it’s a TV show or something, if the protagonist says he has a bad premonition, 99% of it will come true. I don’t know if this comes from life.He also said that to see Serena today, let's wait until tomorrow.Things are getting more and more chaotic, and I am getting more and more chaotic.

Serena, are you still angry?Can you really not forgive me?