Do nothing

Although Yan Ke is not skilled, he is a descendant of Yan Jin after all.The dean is optimistic about him and intends to train him as a signboard, so he refuses to let him go for a while. Instead, he personally contacts a famous ear, nose and throat doctor for him, hoping that he will continue to stay in the province after he is optimistic about the ear disease.Colleagues in the respiratory department were also very sorry and contacted him in turn to persuade him not to give up his bright future easily.

Yan Ke thought to himself, let his father come forward if it doesn't work.After finally making up his mind to leave, Yan Ke has the feeling that if he doesn't seize the opportunity this time, he won't be able to leave in the future.

There is still one week left before Christmas, and this year's postgraduate entrance examination happens to be on December 12th, Xiaolu has reached the most tense moment of review.Yan Ke didn't want to disturb him, so he has been studying baking courses by himself these days.

On this day, he was communicating with dessert shop owners and food bloggers online, when Yu Cheng suddenly sent him a WeChat message asking him to meet.Yan Ke was startled.He hasn't contacted Yu Cheng since he established a relationship with Xiaolu. He heard that the little uncle fell a few days ago, so he didn't visit him either.

Regarding Yu Cheng, Yan Ke didn't know whether he felt guilty or guilty.He felt that he should find a time to make it clear with his junior uncle, but...how should I say it?

In fact, I have been secretly in love with you all these years, but who told you not to love me, so now Xiaolu and I are getting better, bye bye?

This kind of revenge-like declaration is very cool to think about, but Yan Ke is absolutely unable to say it when he really has to face his junior uncle.

Yan Ke vaguely felt that the little uncle asked him out this time because he wanted to keep him, but he didn't dare to think too much about it, for fear of being sentimental.What's more, Xiaolu knew that he had a crush on his uncle, so he went to the appointment at this time, he was worried that Xiaolu would misunderstand.

So he declined, saying he was not available.

Yu Cheng said: "It will be fine in a while. I have something to give you and something to tell you."

Yan Ke was cruel: "Xiaolu is in the hospital today, can you let him bring it back?"

He thought Yu Cheng would ask him if he didn't want to see him that much, but no, Yu Cheng agreed.

Yan Ke sighed with relief, but his heart was empty and lost.

Fawn came back in the evening and handed him an envelope.Nothing was written on the envelope, but it was sealed.The inside is also thin, and I don't know what is inside.

Yan Ke was surprised: "That's it?"

Ling Lu also felt strange: "Yes, that's it." He laughed again, "It can't be a love letter, right?"

Yan Ke was embarrassed and opened the envelope in front of him.Ling Lu held down his hand.

"Mr. Yan, you don't have to do this. I believe in you, and I hope you have your own privacy and space." He smiled at Yan Ke, turned and went to read.

Yan Ke's heart warmed up, and the corners of his mouth curled up in a gentle arc.

There appears to be a piece of paper inside the envelope, and a photo.Yan Ke poured out all the contents, and the photo was so light that it floated to the ground.

Yan Ke bent down to pick it up.As soon as he saw the photo, his face immediately changed.

During dinner, Yan Ke looked at Xiao Lu several times, but he hesitated to speak.Ling Lu had been waiting for him to speak, but couldn't wait.He lowered his head and pawed at the meal, and finally couldn't help it anymore, and typed out a line of aggrieved words: "Teacher Yan, I don't like this kind of atmosphere."

Yan Ke bit his lip and made up his mind: "I want to meet Yu Cheng tomorrow."

"I won't stop you..."

"I know. I should tell you the reason for meeting, but this matter involves the privacy of my uncle, so I can't say... I'm sorry."

Ling Lu smiled and typed: "Don't be sorry. He is your uncle after all, and you don't need to ask for my opinion when you meet. What's more, there are so many years of relationship between you, it's impossible to just let it go."

Yan Ke's heart trembled, and he couldn't help hugging him.Ling Lu leaned on his shoulder, smelling the sweet fragrance of cream on his body greedily, and said with a sad smile: "Also, even if you want to turn around, you don't have to feel sorry for me. I want you to be happy. I will respect you Decide."

This sentence is said lightly.However, Yan Ke couldn't hear it after all.

The next day.

Yu Cheng made an appointment with him at the izakaya where Yan Ke planned to confess.Yan Ke originally wanted to change the location, but he thought that there were few people here and it was clean, and the private rooms were closed. In order to take into account the privacy of the little uncle, he agreed.

Even though it's only been more than three months, coming here again seems like a lifetime away.The two butterfly paper lanterns in the corner are still there, and the candles are flickering tenderly.However, at this time, Yan Ke no longer had the kind of charming feelings in his heart, only deep worry.

"Little uncle, what's the matter with the photo?" Yan Ke put the envelope on the table, not daring to take out the photo.

The photo was so shocking that he dared not look at it again.I just remember that the boy in the photo was covered in bruises, sandwiched between two men, doing that.And the boy's appearance is clearly that of his uncle when he was young.

What has the uncle experienced?How can there be such a photo?Who took the photo again?Why show him?A series of questions made Yan Ke confused and confused, and what made him feel even more distressed was that the uncle was covered in scars in the photo, which was obviously forced.

Yu Cheng took out the pen and paper he had prepared earlier, and wrote briefly: "Yuezhi Academy."

"Have you been to Yuezhi Academy?! Did the people there do this to you?"

"Yes."

Yan Ke was both shocked and angry: "When did this happen? Do your parents know?"

Yu Cheng's handwriting is neat and neat, and he writes very slowly, as if trying to restrain some emotions: "16 years ago, when I was a sophomore in high school, my parents beat me out in an Internet cafe and sent me to Yuezhi Academy. I was raped for half a year, and the dean at the time took a lot of photos."

Yan Ke stared at the nib of his pen, and suddenly realized that it was the pen he had given him back then.The pen that caused an uproar on the Internet, he had done a cricothyroid membrane piercing.

It was his affectionate birthday present.

I have never seen my uncle use it, why today...why today?

Yan Ke's vision suddenly blurred.

Yu Cheng wrote more and more slowly, but he still wrote one stroke at a time, and wrote heavily: "The dean at the time is now the principal. After Yuezhi Academy was exposed, he blackmailed me with photos, and even sent them to My parents. Do you remember? Some time ago I said that relatives were coming, but I lied. I was dealing with this."

Yan Ke couldn't bear it anymore, and cried, "Why didn't you tell me earlier?! This kind of person should go to jail! He should be sentenced to death!"

He couldn't hear, so he couldn't control his voice.The waiter was startled by his sudden shout, knocked on the door and came in.Yu Cheng apologized to the waiter for him, and Yan Ke realized his gaffe.

He took the pen and paper, and wrote sobbingly: "Little uncle, you have suffered."

Yu Cheng smiled, then bowed his head and wrote: "It's all over. Beibei, I didn't tell you this to make you sympathize with me. I just want to say sorry to you."

Yan Ke raised his wet eyes and looked at him puzzled.

"I'm sorry. It's not that I don't understand your affection for me these years. I'm just afraid."

"I dare not touch you. You are so pure and beautiful, you are my light, my salvation, but I am too dirty. There is no clean place on my body. I dare not kiss with the mouth that has licked their dirty dick You, I don't want to hold you with the hand that masturbated to them, I'm too dirty, I can't wash it ten thousand times, how can I..."

Yan Ke couldn't bear it any longer, grabbed the pen and choked up, saying, "Don't say it...Little Master Uncle, don't do this, I'm so uncomfortable..."

Yu Cheng raised his head, his eyes were red.

I am sorry.

Yan Ke saw his mouth shape, he was saying sorry.

"It's not your fault..." Yan Ke broke down in tears, "You are obviously a victim, why do you have to apologize..."

Yu Cheng raised his hand, as if wanting to comfort him, but with a sad look on his face, he immediately put it down again.Yan Ke's heart ached even more unbearably, he grabbed his hand and pressed it to his face, choked up and said: "Little uncle, you are not dirty, don't say that about yourself, I can't bear it."

"Beibei..." Yu Cheng called him emotionally, then suddenly pushed the table away, pulled Yan Ke in front of him, bowed his head and wanted to kiss.

When their lips were about to touch, Yan Ke suddenly woke up and pushed him away.

Yu Cheng was taken aback, and let go with a wry smile.

Yan Ke explained in a panic: "No, I'm not... I didn't mean that, Little Martial Uncle! I... I'm already with Xiaolu..."

Yu Cheng said bitterly: "I know..."

Yan Ke couldn't understand his mouth shape, and said timidly: "Uncle, I can't hear..."

Yu Cheng smiled helplessly, took the pen and paper, and wrote: "I know you are disappointed in me. I have kept you waiting for so many years, but I didn't give you any response. You were right to choose Xiaolu."

Yan Ke was sad.

"But I regret it." A drop of tear fell on the paper, and when it met the pen and ink, it smudged.

Like a black flower.

Yan Ke stared blankly at the flower, and saw Yu Cheng's slightly trembling fingers:

"I regret it. Bebe, come back to me. Please."

"Come back to me and let's start over."

These few words were like a spell, which made Yan Ke lose his mind.He looked at Yu Cheng in a daze, saw his red eyes and the tear stains on his face.There are even some stubble on his lips, he has always been a person who pays attention to his appearance, why did he become so haggard?

It's because of me.It turned out that he loved me.

but……

Yu Cheng hugged him tightly.Yan Ke felt the heat in his neck, and his uncle's tears fell on his neck, breaking Yan Ke's heart.

People who have admired for so many years, such excellent people, are so fragile.

It turned out that he had experienced such a bad thing, so he dared not reciprocate my feelings.

but……

Yu Cheng whispered something in his ear, but Yan Ke couldn't hear anything.But he could feel the trembling and pleading of his uncle. This man, who was seven years older than him, let go of all his dignity and pride, hugged him tightly, and begged him to stay with tears.

How could he be so cruel as to refuse?

But—he has already been with the deer—

Yan Ke's heart was shaken.He didn't know what to do.He looked around in bewilderment, saw the bright moon quietly rising outside the window, saw the butterfly paper lantern in the corner, and the last thing left in his field of vision were the words written by his uncle.

Beautiful, heavy, words smudged by tears.

"Come back to me and let's start over."

That's the curse.

……

It was already ten o'clock in the evening when Yan Ke returned to the apartment.Xiaolu is still endorsing the book, waiting for him.

Seeing his swollen eyes from crying, Ling Lu wanted to ask him what's wrong.Unexpectedly, Yan Ke avoided his eyes and only said that he was tired.

"..." Ling Lu froze for a moment, with a sad expression on his face, "Then go and rest."

Yan Ke asked: "Are you still asleep?"

"I'll read the book for a while."

Yan Ke hesitated to speak, finally nodded and went into the room to sleep.

At twelve o'clock, Ling Lu turned off the lights, and climbed into bed softly.He didn't want to wake Yan Ke up, but he couldn't help it, and hugged him gently from behind.

Yan Ke didn't respond, probably fell asleep.

Ling Lu suddenly wanted to cry.But he didn't think it should be, so he held back.

Tears can be held back, but grief cannot.So until dawn, Ling Lu didn't fall asleep.

Soon after, the morning sun shone on Yan Ke's face.The warm light seemed powerful. Yan Ke woke up and saw the deer holding his hand and placing it on his chest and heart.

Yan Ke carefully opened Xiaolu's hand, turned around, and looked at Xiaolu's sleeping face for a while.Then kissed him on the forehead, quietly put on his clothes, and left.

Ling Lu didn't open his eyes until the sound of the door closing came from outside.I found a note on the bedside table, which was left by Yan Ke.

The sun is too harsh.Ling Lu pulled the quilt over and covered his face, and then began to sob and cry.