Do nothing

On Tuesday, Zhang Xingduan went to the outpatient clinic for something.It was almost a little bit after finishing the work, he walked back along the passage of medical staff, and saw Yu Cheng walking slowly towards here head-on.

"Hey, Director Yu. Are you going to the outpatient clinic today?" Zhang Xingduan greeted with a smile.

"Yeah." Yu Cheng's expression remained the same, except that his pace was a little slow.

"No, aren't you outpatient on Monday?"

"I changed shifts with someone. I wrestled two days ago, and my legs and feet are inconvenient."

Zhang Xingduan pretended to be surprised and said: "Ah? You fell down, is it serious?" He stretched out his hand to help him.

"No need to help." Yu Cheng said calmly, "I can walk, but it hurts."

Zhang Xingduan shrugged and retracted his hand.Suddenly noticed the bathroom in front of him, so he smiled and said, "It's so hard to urinate, why don't you ask for leave?"

"Cory is busy, there is no shortage of people."

"You are getting better like this."

"It's okay, it's just a skin injury."

Zhang Xingduan curled his lips: "Okay, model worker, then I'll leave you alone, see you later."

Yu Cheng smiled: "Goodbye."

Zhang Xingduan walked forward for a while, turned his head and turned into the corridor closest to him.There are consulting rooms on both sides of this corridor, and the respiratory clinic is also here.When he passed Yu Cheng's consulting room, he glanced inadvertently and found bread and mineral water on the table.Only took a sip of water.The bread is the simplest and most common kind sold in hospital convenience stores. It can only wrap the stomach, not to mention the taste.Zhang Xingduan had always dismissed such things, but seeing it appearing on Yu Cheng's table now, he felt an indescribable feeling in his heart.

——Is this what he eats?

Zhang Xingduan stood at the door of the consulting room and watched for a while, and suddenly wanted to buy a meal for Yu Cheng.

But he held back, and left decisively, indifferently, without looking back.

Soon, Saturday will arrive.Yan Ke has been receiving treatment from the ENT department for the past few days, but unfortunately with little success, he still can't hear anything.Ling Lu's worries are increasing day by day, but Yan Ke is fine, he is more worried about how to explain to his father.

On Saturday, the two arrived at Yan's house early.My mother is away on a business trip again, and only my father is at home.And my father had already washed the tea set, just waiting for them to come.

According to the agreement, Ling Lu told Yan Li about Yan Ke's deafness.Yan Li's expression became more and more dignified, and when Ling Lu finished speaking, he picked up the teacup and drank it down in one gulp.However, when he poured the tea again, his hands were shaking.The tea was even poured out of the tea set.

Yan Ke had never seen his father lose his composure like this, and guilt immediately filled his heart.

Ling Lu couldn't bear it, but he still said, "So... Teacher Yan wants to resign."

Yan Li was startled: "Resign?!"

Ling Lu glanced at Yan Ke, who nodded.Ling Lu said: "Let him tell you himself?"

"Isn't he inaudible? How can I...?"

Ling Lu said: "I'll create a WeChat group, let's communicate with him by text. Uncle Yan, can you give me your phone?"

Yan Li sighed heavily: "Okay." Then he handed over his mobile phone and took out his reading glasses from his breast pocket.

Yan Ke watched his father put on the reading glasses, his expression suddenly a little sad.He immediately bent down and rummaged in the coffee table drawer, quickly found a pen and paper, and then tugged Xiao Lu's sleeve.

Ling Lu was taken aback.Yan Ke wrote big on the paper: "Let's write."

When Yan Li saw that line of writing, he suddenly couldn't hold back his emotions.He turned his head and took a few deep breaths, and after a while he turned around and nodded.

Yan Ke didn't dare to look at his father anymore, bowed his head and wrote:

"Dad, I'm sorry, I want to quit my job. Not only because of deafness, depression, but also for other reasons."

"Some things have happened recently that make me feel that the profession of a doctor is too heavy and I can't bear it. Sorry, I write slowly."

Yan Ke wrote down the whole story of the Yang Minghuan incident word by word.Yan Li watched without saying a word, and it was only at this time that Ling Lu knew what happened the night Yang Minghuan was discharged from the hospital automatically.

"...until now I don't know what is the right thing to do? He is my patient and friend. I want to relieve his pain very much. But if I do, maybe it will really cause respiratory depression, Hastening his death. There was nothing wrong with second-line concerns, he just wanted to minimize the risk. Thinking about it now, maybe there is no right or wrong in that kind of life-and-death situation. Every decision is very difficult, because it is the weight of life."

Yan Ke wrote here, stopped writing, thought for a while, and then continued to write:

"I used to think that I was just inexperienced and inexperienced. After this time, I realized that I was cowardly. I didn't have the courage to bear the lives of others, and I didn't have the courage to face disappointed family members. I thought I was suffering from depression. In fact, I got it the other way around. It was because I was afraid to face reality, and I wanted to escape but couldn’t escape, that’s why I got sick.”

"Dad, I'm sorry, I failed your expectations. I really want to be the kind of person you want me to be, but I can't do it. I'm sorry, I didn't work hard enough, I have a weak personality, and I already know where the problem is. But I can't change it, I'm really such a bad person..."

Snapped.A tear falls on the paper.

Yan Li couldn't stand it anymore, pressed his hand, and said in a deep voice, "Ake, stop talking..."

Yan Ke couldn't hear, and continued to write persistently: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be sick, and I didn't mean to make myself deaf. But now I really feel relieved. Dad, I can't be a doctor anymore, can I not be a doctor?" ?”

Yan Ke finally stopped writing and looked at his father with red eyes.Yan Li turned his face away, took a deep breath, and didn't speak.

Ling Lu really wanted to help persuade a few words, but he held back.What Yan Ke said in his heart, even he felt heartache unbearable when he saw it, let alone his biological father?

He felt that Yan Li would agree, and he had confidence in this father.

The three of them were silent like this.I don't know how long it took, Yan Li finally let out a long sigh, reached for the pen and paper, but still turned his back to them, bowed his head and began to write.

After he finished writing, he patted the coffee table, then got up and left.

Yan Ke and Ling Lu looked at each other apprehensively, and finally mustered up the courage to pick up the paper.When he saw it, Yan Ke burst into tears.

I saw that there were flying dragons and phoenixes written on it:

"The handwriting is too ugly, practice calligraphy for me after resigning!"

Sure enough I agree!

Ling Lu was so happy that he hugged Yan Ke, kissed him on the cheek, and said with a smile, "That's great! You can open a dessert shop!"

Yan Ke pointed to his ear helplessly.Ling Lu chuckled, took a pen and wrote neatly on the paper: "Well, it's pretty ugly. Practice hard!"

Yan Ke saw that Xiaolu's handwriting was really better than his.Immediately burst out laughing, and punched him pretending to be angry.Ling Lu held his hand, opened his mouth to say something, and immediately realized that he couldn't hear, so he reached for the pen, and suddenly felt that this was so troublesome.

She simply pulled Yan Ke into her arms again, hugged him tightly, and replaced words with actions.

Yan Ke leaned on his shoulder, feeling happy and warm.Everything is so beautiful, it seems that the whole world is brightened up.

Suddenly, Yan Li turned back from the stairs, and when he saw the two boys who were hugging Qingqing and me, his whole body froze immediately.Yan Ke happened to meet his eyes, and immediately pushed Xiao Lu away in fright, his whole face turned red.

Ling Lu turned his head inexplicably, and met the embarrassed Yan Li.

"..."

Ling Lu silently moved two steps away, put his hands on his knees, and sat upright.

"No, it's okay, you...continue." Yan Li tried his best to maintain the demeanor of an elder, turned around, and stumbled on the stairs.

"dad!"

"Uncle Yan!"

Yan Ke Linglu got up at the same time and hurried to his side.Yan Li hurriedly stopped and said: "It's okay, it's okay!... Oh, by the way, I originally wanted to tell you that his mother will be back tonight, and I will discuss with her about resigning. You... what should you do?" Well go!"

Ling Lu was taken aback.After Yan Li finished speaking, he hurriedly left, as if he was afraid of seeing another scene of no evil.

Yan Ke tilted his head: "What did he say?"

Ling Lu came back to his senses, and burst out laughing.

That night, Yan's mother rushed back from other places, and Yan's father told her what happened today.Yan's mother was distressed and emotional, but in the end she summed it up with a very proud sentence:

"Look, I told him he would choose Xiaolu! You still don't believe me!"

Yan's father was upset: "I didn't say anything..."

"Liar! You are clearly partial to Yu Cheng!"

Yan's father sighed: "Ah Cheng has already said that to me, I can't provoke him anymore, can I? Besides, I just said that I don't care about their young people's affairs, and I didn't..."

"Aren't you bullying Xiaolu enough? Xiaolu is so kind to our Beibei, but you are still cold to Xiaolu. Do you think you have no heart!"

Father Yan was speechless.A sentence suddenly popped up in my mind: The mother-in-law looks at her son-in-law, the more she looks at her, the more she likes her.

So, it was decided to resign.

On Monday morning, Yan Ke went to see the dean with his disease certificate and resignation application.The dean expressed regret and did not approve immediately, but just asked him to think about it again.

By noon, news of Yan Ke's deaf resignation had spread throughout the province.And after spending the whole morning in the outpatient clinic, he was the last one in the hospital to know about it.

He sat alone in the consultation room, watching Yan Ke reply to everyone's "concerns" one by one in the staff group, with a blank expression.

The author has something to say: Yu Cheng: The wings are hard.

Beibei & Xiaolu: [shivering]