my boy

Duan Yue committed suicide by jumping off a building, face up.

A person who deeply concealed himself chose to commit suicide in this conspicuous and ugly way.

I saw with my own eyes the moment he fell to the ground, red liquid splashed on my shoes and trousers.Dazzling colors flooded my retina, and together with the frozen expression on the corpse, they rushed into my brain and engraved all of this deeply in memory, continuously zooming in until there was only a piece of blackened crimson left.

It seemed that there was a heavy burden on my body, which made me unable to breathe, unable to bear all the weight, so I had to bend over, put my hands on my knees, stare straight at the pool of blood at my feet, and gasp for breath .

The stuff in my stomach was about to come out, and I pressed it hard against my throat, but I couldn’t move my eyes away, just staring at the puddle of brains and blood on the ground stiffly like a demon, until the people around me came forward and pulled me away. Open, call the police, and come to the police.

Yellow police tape, flashing police lights, and a police officer who handed me a letter and tissues.

That letter was held in Duan Yue's hand when he died. The policeman asked my name and handed me the bloody letter while looking at me. I opened it numbly and saw the beginning Yu Liang.

It's for me.

Yu Liang:

In the end, it wasn't until I died that I realized that the only person I could confess to was you.

You are not like the person who should appear in my life, and it is too late for me to act as a good student who is both good in character and learning and considerate every day.My clumsy acting skills have fooled all of you, maybe no one really pays attention to me.

I was originally a person who should not have appeared in this world, and exhaling one more breath would be unnecessary. I am afraid that after I die, there will not even be a place to put the body. Serious cynicism.

It's only natural.

And your natural selfishness makes me jealous and disgusted.There is nothing wrong with being born, but the person who was born has to face unfair treatment for him because of his family, just like a dog.

Sometimes cold violence can destroy a person more than real violence, and relative violence becomes real and a consolation.

But you broke the balance of my walking on thin ice, and made me feel that life is unfair and terrible when I think that maybe I can get it. I have nowhere to avenge my injustice. In the end, I'm afraid it's just a nuisance for others.

Wish I never came to this world, and I'm sorry for myself for coming.

Each of us is a person living in a stinking gutter.

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The letter was not signed, as Duan Yue said, she didn't want to leave traces in this world at all.After reading it, I didn’t know why I cried without warning. It wasn’t the way a man would cry without flicking his tears, but weeping loudly, so hoarse that the unknowing onlookers thought it was my brother who died.

Even I don't know why I'm crying like this, whether it's for Duan Yue or for myself.

Whether Duan Yue's body was taken back later, or whether he was buried at home, I have no way of knowing.

He turned his head and glanced at the position next to him. Since the showdown between Duan Yue and me, his behavior has not changed, but there is a barrier in the middle, and we have never said anything. Is it because he is ignoring me, or I am ignoring it.

Now this position will never be filled again, the sun falls on the table, and it shines on the words written with a marker on the corner of the table, which is Duan Yue's name.Due to the rubbing of the book, the handwriting was somewhat worn and broken, like a corpse that fell to the ground that day.

And after knowing what Duan Yue did, I didn't feel any resentment towards him. Maybe it was really like what he said to me in the corridor that day, I was doing it for myself, whether I was looking for him or killing Sun Muren For myself.

Fill loneliness or vent anger.

Gu Huai didn't say anything when he saw that I was sluggish these two days. After school today, I threw my schoolbag on the sofa and prepared to wash a peach to eat. The body was buried in that graveyard in the suburbs."

"Oh."

"Anyway, I can't find who is who."

"Oh." I didn't look at it again.

"Your pants are on backwards."

"Oh."

"What?" I looked down at my pants and saw the zipper.

"Gu Huai, you don't have any tricks, can I die?"

"No, I'm just worried about you and want to encourage you."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome. We'll try all the poses after you finish the exam. I've bought all the props."

"???"

After tangling back and forth for a long time, I still didn't burn Duan Yue's letter in the end. I folded the letter according to the original traces and pressed it in a large dictionary that I had never used, and then put it together with this dictionary. in the closet.

Duan Yue is very hardworking and likes to read books. Except for the look in his eyes on the stairs in the basement, he faces everything with a good temper. Heaving a sigh of relief, he took away the pen that had been poking on the paper, and the brackets on the homework book had been filled with a large lump of ink.

Forget it, I can't figure out the answer anyway, so let it stay there.

This math problem is the last one of the fill-in-the-blank problem. Generally, I don't take it to read, and in all likelihood, I won't do it unless I get it right.I looked at the calendar next to me, "It's April." Suddenly I was a little nervous, and my grades were average. Although it was much better than before, I still have to work harder if I want to get into a better school. I also didn't consider the key points of the counter-attack test, and realistically set the goal at a relatively better second school.

There are still two months left, I will be tighter and try to see if I can pass the exam. After all, I still don’t want to be a lump of mud in the eyes of my mother and brother-in-law who see people with nostrils.At least there is one that can be sold, although the second book is not enough for them to see.

"Hey."

"What's the matter, boy worry about classmates."

"Hey! You walk silently, don't you?" I was scared by the sudden voice, and I raised my voice and roared, and my voice was broken, and my tune was soaring to Siberia.

Hearing my yell, Gu Huai laughed behind me, "Your courage is only as big as a mung bean, and you'll turn into a red bean if you're so scared."

"Get out, I'll blame you if I fail the exam."

"Hahahahaha." Gu Huai smiled like an idiot and put a plate of sliced ​​apples on my table, "Eat more, be brave."

"Hey!"

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