my boy

The following days were like boiled water, and occasionally a few scorching water droplets would be splashed out from boiling. It was okay during the holidays, but I still had nightmares, but I couldn’t see Sun Muren’s face clearly anymore. Once I woke up profusely with sweat, half sat up with my arms propped up, and looked at the mirror on the ceiling showing the master’s flamboyant personality. I stared at that small bright spot in a daze.

"Dreaming again?" Gu Huai turned sideways to face me.

"Well, the old way."

"Oh, you woke up again?" I squinted at him, and Gu Huai smiled, propping his head up and half-opening his eyes as if he hadn't woken up, "Sister Yu, what are you still worrying about?"

I sighed helplessly, looked at him and said speechlessly: "Do you think that everyone who is as big-hearted as you can run thousands of mud horses? I didn't beat people up, I killed a person .”

"Oh, even if you kill me, you still have to dream every day to meet someone?"

"..." There's no way to talk, this bastard can't communicate at all.

Looking at Gu Huai's face with the biggest expression on my face, I felt that there was a huge gap between us, and finally I patiently explained to him, "I actually regretted it the next day after I killed someone, especially when I thought of the possibility of being killed." Catch me, I’m scared right away. Don’t laugh, really. I’m really afraid of being arrested. I’ve been dreaming about the police coming to my house for questioning for two days. ...The whole person regrets so much, I am just an ordinary person, when the enthusiasm in my mind passes, I will definitely know what I have to bear for these things when I wake up."

I glanced at Gu Huai and continued, "So the first reaction is naturally to be afraid of regret. After all, I have been immersed in the current social morality for a long time, legal sanctions, and big and small consciousnesses all tell me that this is wrong, and I have no To the point of obliterating conscience, so the conditioned reflex will..."

"If you were given another chance, would you kill someone?" Gu Huai interrupted me and asked.

"meeting."

After hearing my answer, Gu Huai sneered twice, "Then why are you talking so much, just playing fart?"

I looked at him and curled my lips, expressing that I couldn’t communicate. I thought to myself, maybe Duan Yue was right. I didn’t do this for him. I was really selfish. I just wanted to vent my anger. Can pitifully find an excuse to vent the injustice in my heart.

"Can the legal society control everyone? How many rape/rape/criminals are full of luster now? How many raped/rape girls committed suicide?" Gu Huai changed his position and sat up with his pillow halfway up, not in a hurry He said, "You are not some saint who wants to save all living beings. You are an ordinary person who wants to save all living beings. You are an ordinary person, and you will die if you squeeze it." After speaking, Gu Huai made a pinching gesture with his thumb and index finger.

"What we do is just to find justice for ourselves and fight for our own interests. The society is so big and chaotic, are you fighting for something and waiting for the police to rescue you? I don't know how many corners this is happening. Dirty thing and the victim suffers all the pain. Sometimes it's better to fight yourself than to wait for help, social morals are nothing, you have to obey them one by one, waiting to be eaten clean by these sewer rats ?”

I turned my head and looked into the eyes of the man in front of me, like a pool of deep water, even if the moonlight shines directly into it, there is no gleam of light, the depth is so deep that people can't stop, but I want to find out.Stared at by such eyes, I opened my mouth and couldn't speak.

"You're not selfish, what I'm talking about is selfishness. A half-grown child knows what a fart, and he's worried about killing someone."

"......" What I said before was still human, so I don't know what I'm talking about now.I pulled up the quilt, turned around and lay down, expressing my refusal to continue communicating with my body.

After a while, Gu Huai stretched out his hand and patted me through the quilt, "Anyway, the police have closed the case, you...don't think about it anymore."

I didn't answer him and pretended to be asleep.

Gu Huai's nonsense is actually comforting me. When translated into adult words, sometimes violence is the best weapon. When reasoning can't convince me, the most direct and violent way is also the most effective.I opened my eyes and stared at the window for an unknown amount of time, but in the following days I was able to sleep well intermittently.

The person is already dead, how much time do I have to waste for such a scumbag.

It's really not worth it.

When my condition has adjusted, it will almost start school.Gu Huai sent me to and from school every day, in the name of cultivating relationships, and finally urged me to do my homework.It was as if I had found a second father, and one day I couldn't stand it anymore, "Are you my father, stop fucking sitting next to me."

Gu Huai smiled like a loving father, "Son, Dad has been fucking abstinent for half a month because of your college entrance examination."

Yes, during the winter vacation, the two of us had the so-called adult activities under the condition that both parties were emotionally stable. The result was mixed with joy and sorrow. The joy was that I didn’t have any trauma and someone cleaned up for me. I was worried I have a lot of opinions on this posture and position. Seeing squatting at Gu Huai's house eating and drinking, I reluctantly did the following, but the awkwardness in my heart still can't be erased. After all, my self-definition is not zero.The most important thing is to stuff such a big thing into it, it’s f*cking patronizing and uncomfortable, where’s the pleasure/feeling?

So both sides were not very happy, and finally I helped Gu Huai with my hands once.

"Your hands are better than your ass."

"roll."

The above is my sexual experience, not as sexual/interesting as I imagined.Afterwards, neither of us did it thoroughly, mainly because I found all kinds of excuses to reject the py deal. During those days when Gu Huai saw me, he sighed as if I owed him two hundred hangs.

Blame me?

Then school started, and I said that the college entrance examination was coming and we had to concentrate on studying. The reason was so high-sounding that I couldn't refute it. Gu Huai finally agreed.Every day after school, Gu Huai came to pick me up and would bring me an apple. At the beginning, I didn't eat it and it was cold, but this bastard brought me a banana the next day.

"It can be eaten in one bite without chewing, and it will refresh your brain by the way."

I rolled my eyes in my heart, peeled off the skin and started to eat. When the weather got warmer, Gu Huai continued to bring me apples. If I didn't know that his family is famous in the political world, I would have doubted that his family grows apples.I gnawed on an apple and said inarticulately, "You need a signature from the housewife for all grades." During the speech, a few drops of saliva popped out, and Gu Huai quietly avoided it, "How much did you take?"

"390 two."

"Oh, full marks."

"..." Dare to Love still remembers the perfect score in primary school, "I saw Duan Yue at school today, and he even greeted me as usual."

Gu Huai put his hand on my head, and I hurried to the side to hide, only letting him rub to the side. "Why? Speak carefully, hold back your hands and feet." "It's not that I haven't touched it before, it will be extremely reserved." Then before I could speak, "Why, someone talking to you made you feel a little bit Tiny ripples?"

"Fart, I just feel awkward. How can he greet me like nothing happened?"

"He's not you, do you think everyone kills someone like you to make a holiday nightmare?"

"Fuck you." Gu Huai just poked at people's sore spots with his mouth.In the future, if there is a job dedicated to making people angry, he will definitely be able to do it.

"Hey, I think the contrast is too big. Why do you think it's like this?" I've already developed the habit of babbling nonsense to Gu Huai like an aunt.

"It's not that the contrast is too big, it's that you're blind. It's not that it's like this, it's that he is like this." Gu Huai pierced the wound on my side sharply. I was speechless by what he said, but I still It's awkward, after all, I still like Gu Huai.Seeing someone you like turn into an unexpected appearance always feels like you have never known him before.

Later, I also thought about the relationship between me and Duan Yue carefully. The relationship between us has never officially started, but it is not an ordinary classmate relationship. This cannot be explained by a breakup.Because there was no serious start at all, but Duan Yue didn't reject my ambiguous hint, but he didn't accept it either, and I was self-righteous in his vague attitude for more than half a year.

As for being with Gu Huai now, I don't think it's a so-called relationship.I don't know why Gu Huai treats me like this at all, and I never asked, and I was not even curious, I just stopped by his place to find a place to rest, and I can say a few words with someone to fill the emptiness.I don't know what Gu Huai needs. We seem to be unlucky travelers who happened to meet in a large wilderness under heavy snowfall. We huddled together in a cave to keep warm.

Just like the reason why many couples do not break up is mostly because they are used to being together, the two have become psychologically and physically dependent, and finally got married.And love, it's almost gone.

"Where are you doing?" Gu Huai looked back at me, I looked at the red street lights on the side of the road, threw the finished apples into the trash can and walked across the zebra crossing side by side with Gu Huai.

"I was thinking about today's homework. The teacher said that all the wrong questions should be corrected. Isn't this sick? How can I correct all the mistakes?"

"Student, your thinking is very dangerous. The teacher asked you to find your mistakes. If you can't finish correcting today, you won't sign."

"Fuck you???" I turned my head to look at Gu Huai, who was smiling very much, and a string in my heart seemed to be gently plucked by the wind.

It's kind of indescribable.

In the end, when I lost my mind and left only two big questions and one fill-in-the-blank problem behind the math, I was pardoned and signed.Is anyone's college entrance examination candidates living like me, because they are not allowed to eat because their handwriting is not good-looking, and they have to wash the dishes after finishing their homework.

After eating, Gu Huai soaked the dishes in the sink, and after I finished my homework, I went to wash the dishes, "As a man, you should take on your own responsibilities. I order takeaway and you wash the dishes." What nonsense logic.I really want to put a bowl on this thing's face.

Later, once I saw Gu Huai making a statistical chart on the computer, I asked him what he majored in, and he said it was market finance, and he told me this and that with great interest, while I watched the mess on the computer The curve is very ignorant, and in the end I didn't understand a word anyway.

In order not to save face, I said noblely and coldly: "Oh."

"Oh, oh you're big, what are you?" Gu Huai never hesitated to expose my pretentiousness.

Just like this, Duan Yue committed suicide when the old cadres basked in the sun in the afternoon. When they first stepped into the city in this most energetic season, Duan Yue committed suicide.

The author has something to say: Happy Children’s Day everyone =. =

I will try to write an extra episode when the time comes

I added some volume in the future, so I don't make up the number of chapters.let's streamline