i don't want to have children

Chu Lingdong leaned his body slightly, holding Yu He tightly with one hand, staring into Yu He's eyes, filled with various complex emotions.

Pain, helplessness, and more deeply buried love and attachment.

But Yu He's mind was blank.

Only the slight pain from the shoulder that was tightly grasped by Chu Lingdong made him aware of his existence.

When Chu Lingdong called him by his name suddenly, Yu He was shocked and at a loss what to do.

From the very beginning, Yu He knew that Chu Lingdong did not regard him as Xu An, and he had no intention of disguising himself as Xu An in front of Chu Lingdong.

Even if you want to pretend, you can't.

He won't, and it's impossible to live and do things like Xu An.

On the other hand, when Yu He gradually had Chu Lingdong in his heart, he was even more unwilling to leave the slightest shadow of Xu An on him.

He even somewhat rejected this face and body.

The figure he didn't want to fall into Chu Lingdong's eyes was Xu An's appearance, Xu An's figure.

That night when it was snowing, Yu He saw Wu Ruanruan's WeChat and mistakenly thought that Chu Lingdong and Tian Qiao were celebrating their birthday together.

He staggered, lost his mind, and was forced into the car by Chu Lingdong.

The heater was warm in the car, Chu Lingdong locked the door, and forced Yu He to a corner, with nowhere to escape.

He had to face up to his own heart, and had to admit Chu Lingdong's position in his heart.

He had to face the fact that he actually liked Chu Lingdong.

But even so, he still could only face Chu Lingdong with Xu An's face and body, and accept his kisses and caresses.

In the ebb and flow of joy, a hazy consciousness clung to him like an obsession, and Yu He couldn't help asking, "Do you like this body?"

At that time, Chu Lingdong's answer of "I like you" saved him from that obsession.

There was a time when Yu He was worried about gains and losses. He was looking forward to returning to his body and returning to his original life, but he was also worried that after returning this body to Xu An, it would change the trajectory of all his life and make him feel bad for Chen Ling. Winter is gained and lost again.

At that time, Yu He was greedy and full of contradictions, unwilling to give up everything, and could not give up.

But Yu Qianli's treatment plan, like a blow to the head, made Yu He wake up.

Who are you?

Returning is a must, and Chu Lingdong will not give up.

He and Chu Lingdong have gone through so many twists and turns and trials, the only one who is qualified to stay by Chu Lingdong's side is himself.

Yu He began to look forward to the success of the treatment, looking forward to standing in front of Chu Lingdong with the posture of "Yu He", taking out his heart, and holding it to him with both hands.

Yu He had planned all of this, and only waited for Yu Qianli's treatment plan to start.

But now, right in front of him, Chu Lingdong called out his name accurately.

Chu Lingdong didn't know when he knew his identity.

It's just because I didn't tell the truth, so I didn't expose it, I just watched myself silently.

Thinking about it now, it's not that Chu Lingdong didn't give Yu He a reminder, it's just that he greedily enjoyed the love and care from Chu Lingdong, became lazy and careless, unwilling to think deeply about everything.

On the second day of the Lunar New Year, the two went to pay New Year's greetings to Yu Qianli, and he was a little surprised at the grandness of Chu Lingdong's gift.

Now Yu He understands that Chu Lingdong is paying New Year's greetings to Yu Qianli as a "son-in-law", so when he said, "Why are you so polite," Chu Lingdong will reply, "This is not the first Is this the first official visit?"

When Chu Lingdong named the meat ball, it was already a more obvious reminder.

But because of Yu He's ignorance and ignorance, he didn't think about it at all, but simply refused because he didn't want the meat ball to have any connection with his name.

Yu He turned a deaf ear to such obvious indications and hints, blinded by a single leaf.

He was too used to his situation now.

She was so used to staying by Chu Lingdong's side in this way, that's why she turned a blind eye to all of this.

"Why do you think so?" Yu He's voice seemed to hang far away, sounding very erratic.

"I knew you were not Xu An very early. You and Xu An have nothing in common. From the moment you woke up and looked at me for the first time, that feeling has been deeply ingrained."

Chu Lingdong let go of Yu He's shoulders.The memory softened his expression.

The first time Yu He looked at him after waking up, he was thinking at that time, after knowing Xu An for so long, it was the first time that he felt that these eyes could be so beautiful.

Calm and indifferent, but with a child-like clarity, he couldn't move his eyes away.

"On the way, you went to work in Jieyutang without telling me, and worked as an assistant for Mr. Yu. I had some doubts about you at the time, so I asked someone to check you. The person who came back reported that your medical skills are very good, which made me more sure of this. The core of Gu's body is no longer Xu An...Xu An didn't graduate from high school, nor did he have any career related to medicine, not to mention Chinese medicine, medical records, he doesn't even know how to write a personal resume."

At that time, Xu An was probably looking for an opportunity to get close to him, and begged himself several times to arrange a job for him.

That day, just a few days before and after the death of his mother, Ms. Chen, he was a little depressed. Because of the relationship between Xu An's mother and Ms. Chen, he temporarily softened his heart and asked Xu An to submit a resume to the personnel department.

But in the company, except for Chu Lingdong, Xu An probably didn't want to get in touch with anyone.He went directly to the office and took the resume into Chu Lingdong's hands.

At that time, Chu Lingdong frowned as he looked at the unreasonable and chaotic resume, and really couldn't think of a suitable position in the company.

Xu An raised his face and smiled, brother, why don't you ask me to be your assistant.

Chu Lingdong just called Wu Ruanruan without saying a word.Let Wu Ruanruan lead him out.

Unexpectedly, a week later, there was a bar incident.

Thinking about it now, it is still unbelievable and unbelievable.

He has always been vigilant and careful, and he also has an uncontrollable contempt and disgust for Xu An.

He avoided Xu An, but that night, he accidentally drank the wine Xu An sent.

Maybe it's just because he really wanted to get himself drunk that night...

"Although I have always known that you are not Xu An. But who you are, I have no way of knowing. But I don't care, and I don't take it to heart," Chu Lingdong lowered his voice, looking at Yu He with more hazy and soft eyes, "No matter who you are, as long as you are by my side, that's enough."

Chu Lingdong's words were a confession.

During that time, he hadn't learned how to get along with Yu He, and he didn't know how to express it, and Yu He was full of prejudice against him.

He and Yu He could only stumble and fumble for the way of communication between them in the conflicts and confrontations again and again.

As for Yu He, who had been at a loss because of being too shocked, his expression softened a lot because of Chu Lingdong's gentle words of love.

Yu He knew that Chu Lingdong liked him, but he didn't know that he fell in love with him very early.

"It wasn't until the old man's birthday banquet that I began to suspect that you were Dr. Yu."

"Why?" Yu He asked.

At Chu Jinshui’s birthday banquet, Chu Qianzi’s son, Chu Buyun, had a sudden asthma attack, and the first aid spray was missing. At the critical moment, Yu He carried out the “cridotomy” emergency treatment for Chu Buyun. Operation.

Although this operation requires high details, it is not a big operation and can be performed by surgeons with rich clinical experience. How could Chu Lingdong conclude that he is Yu He who is in a coma just from this operation? Where is the doctor?

"Before I say this, there is one more thing I want to tell you..." Chu Lingdong stared deeply at Yu He, "We have known each other for a long time."

Yu He couldn't breathe for a moment.

Those unresolved cause and effect, which made him puzzled, suddenly came to fruition because of Chu Lingdong's words.

There are actually traces of his encounter with Chu Lingdong.

With such a consciousness, Yu He's heart seemed to jump out of his chest.

Now, all the truths were thrown in front of Yu He one by one by Chu Lingdong, making him dizzy and overwhelmed.

"Why don't I remember that I knew you." When Yu He heard his own voice, it was still very far away.

At the same time, he let out a breath slowly.

He remembered that when Chu Lingdong first came to Jieyutang, Yu Qianli asked him how he knew Hehe.

At that time, Chu Lingdong replied yes, he was Dr. Yu's patient.

"Before that, I had never seen you at all. Although you told grandpa that you were my patient, if I had seen you, it would be impossible not to remember you." Yu He said.

At that time, he was still full of prejudice and dissatisfaction with Chu Lingdong, but he still thought in his heart, if he had seen such a beautiful face, it was impossible not to remember it.

Yu He's words denied Chu Lingdong on the one hand, but on the other hand, they clearly admitted his identity.

He was the comatose Dr. Yu.

Yu Qianli is his grandfather.

And Chu Lingdong... is still his lover.

"Doctor Yu..." Chu Lingdong curled the corners of his mouth, revealing a nice smile.

Suddenly he raised his hand, took off the windbreaker on his body, then took off his suit, loosened his tie, and went to unbutton his shirt.

Under Yu He's confused and shocked eyes, Chu Lingdong's firm and smooth upper body was naked in front of Yu He's eyes.

Although I don't know how many times I have seen it, this pair of chest still brings Yu He stability, reliability and warmth.

Chu Lingdong's hand touched his chest and slid to the left chest.

In that place near the heart, there is a ten-centimeter scar.

Yu He was already very familiar with that scar because he and Chu Lingdong were intimately facing each other and slept in the same bed every day.

He remembered that Chu Lingdong said that he had been in a car accident, and this scar should have been left in that car accident.

And after many times of passion, when he was hugged by Chu Lingdong on his chest, he used his fingers to rub the scar repeatedly.The scars are not yet a year old, and there are some slight hyperplasia.

Yu He calculated in his heart that it would take a year or two to grow completely.

"You gave me this scar...you gave me my life." Chu Lingdong looked at Yu He and said.