i don't want to have children

Yu He didn't know how he got into the car.

The night was quiet and snowy, and there was little traffic on the road.My brother drove the car very fast.

When the car stopped, Yu He was still sitting on the back of the car, motionless.

Brother dropped the window and looked at the location.It is indeed the famous villa area: Yulan Garden.

But the guests behind seemed to be still in a daze, so he couldn't help asking: "Is this the place?"

Yu He discovered that the car had stopped and was at the gate of Yulanyuan.

"Oh. Sorry." Yu He went to open the door.

"60." My brother hurriedly said loudly.

As soon as the guest came up, he found something was wrong. It was cold, he was wearing thin clothes, and he looked out of his mind.When I arrived at the house, I didn’t find it and didn’t say anything. I didn’t even plan to pay the fare, so I was going to get off the car.

Yu He just came to his senses, hurriedly took out his wallet, took out a one-hundred-dollar card, handed it to his brother, pushed the door and got out of the car.

The taxi came and asked for change.Yu He has already walked towards the gate.

I don't know if this is a tip from the other party or just absent minded.Brother honked the horn.

As if he didn't hear, Yu He checked the door control and went straight into the community.

Brother shook his head.However, he has been in this business a lot, and it is not uncommon to see such guests.

This person looks like he has no worries about food and clothing, but his downcast expression is most likely caused by love.

Thinking of this, my brother felt a lot more at ease.

Single dogs also have the benefits of single dogs.

Yu He's feelings about himself are vague.From the moment he saw the photo, his sobriety and rationality shrank away.

I can't even tell what it feels like.It's just that there is a big stone on the chest.It was so dull that he needed to take a few breaths from time to time.

After getting out of the car, the cool wind blew, and Yu He woke up a little bit.But still can't concentrate on things.

His mind was full of the picture of Chu Lingdong and Tian Qiao together.

Obviously, today is Chu Lingdong's birthday.Although the two are not alone.

The photo was very dim because the lights were rarely turned on, but Yu He could vaguely recognize that the location should be Chu Lingdong's company.

Among the people around him, he knew Wu Ruanruan and Yu Sheng.There are some others I don't know, they should be employees of the company.

This should be an after work party.

These pictures, whether they are places or personnel, and Wu Ruanruan's WeChat with great fanfare, all show that these photos are upright and frank.

There is no unspeakable ambiguity, let alone personal relationships.

Yu He struggled with a sliver of rationality, and kept telling himself this, but now, his brain can't beat his heart.

His heart seemed to be tightly squeezed by an invisible hand, making his breathing difficult and his chest tight.

The footsteps were light and light, and a little weak.As soon as his reason rose a little, he was beaten down by another strong and ruthless subconscious mind.

Chu Lingdong, who hadn't appeared in front of his eyes for a week, celebrated his birthday with his staff and Tian Qiao tonight.

Chu Lingdong was put on a ridiculous birthday hat, and with a plastic knife in his hand, he was cutting the cake.

In the half-light of the candle, he lowered his head slightly, with a gentle and tolerant expression.There is no reluctance or embarrassment in the slightest.

Yu He's fingers clenched into fists in his pocket were a little painful because of too much force.His teeth were clenched too tightly, and his head was a little dizzy.

Yu He was just lucky that he didn't call Chu Lingdong half an hour ago.

He also repeatedly blamed himself, why did he think that he had privileges over Chu Lingdong?

Why do you think that Chu Lingdong would show that expression only when facing him.

Two crisp horns sounded from behind, and Yu He realized that he was in the light of the car lights.

He only cared about his miscellaneous thoughts, and didn't even notice that he was blocking the driveway.

Yu He avoided the side of the road.

But the car caught up and stopped silently beside him.

Yu He turned his head unconsciously, only to find that it was Chu Lingdong's car in the falling snow.

The window of the car came down, and Chu Lingdong sat in the driver's seat.

"Come up." Chu Lingdong ordered concisely.

Yu He just stood still, looking at Chu Lingdong.

Now this talent comes back from the company.There was no trace of carnival on his fair face and clear eyes.

You should not have been drinking while driving.

Now, looking at him with concern.

Yu He couldn't help but think of Chu Lingdong's downcast eyes and soft face in the candlelight.

My heart hurts.

"Come up. Isn't it cold outside?" Chu Lingdong said again.

It was still snowing outside.This person didn't know where he came back from. He looked at him, but didn't seem to look at him, as if he was out of his mind.

Yu He knew that if he really wanted to know the answer, as long as he opened his mouth, he believed that Chu Lingdong would definitely tell him the truth.

He believed the truth, it was just an ordinary matter, there was no misunderstanding, even episodes and incidents were not counted.

But the legs that were filled with lead, and the tightly pressed lips were all out of his will.

He could not move a step, nor could he speak a word.

Yu He's appearance is obviously not right.

Chu Lingdong frowned.

At this time, I don't know where he went or where he came back from.Make him a little worried.

Chu Lingdong simply put the idle gear on, took his coat, and got out of the car.Putting the coat on Yu He's body, pulling it again, and then pulling out Yu He's hands from his pockets.

My hand, which was always hot from conception, was now as cold as a rock.

Chu Lingdong put his hands in the palms of his hands and rubbed them together, and then he folded his hands again and rubbed them together.

"What happened?" Chu Lingdong looked at Yu He with his usual deep eyes.

Not knowing if it was because he was too cold, Yu He felt that the temperature in Chu Lingdong's hands was very high.

He regained his composure, "No."

Chu Lingdong didn't speak, but just looked at him.

Impossible nothing happened.He had never seen Yu He like this.

Even when he woke up from another world and opened his eyes to see himself for the first time, he was more shocked than lost.

And now it looks like he lost his soul.

Because I thought I would come over today, but I didn't call him for a day.This happened...

Chu Lingdong didn't ask any more questions, opened the rear door, picked up Yu He by the waist, and stuffed it directly into the car.

Chu Lingdong drove the car out, but the target was not the parking garage of his own villa, but the green area behind.

Evergreen hardy trees and landscape trees line both sides of the path.There was only a single street lamp on the side of the road.

In a circle of dim light, the snowflakes flew like countless butterflies throwing fire.

Chu Lingdong put the parking gear on and braked the car, but he didn't turn off the car. There was a strong heater in the car.

He got out of the car, opened the rear door, got in, and sat in the back seat with Yu He.

Only then did Yu He realize where he was.

"What's wrong? What happened?" Chu Lingdong held Yu He's hand and asked softly.

Yu He wanted to pull out his hand, but Chu Lingdong's hand was big and dry, covering the back of his hand, it was very comfortable.

Yu He couldn't move.

Yu He came back to his senses now and understood what was going on.

In Chu Lingdong's eyes, he probably thought that something important had happened.So I couldn't wait to go back, found this secluded place, and questioned him.

Yu He was a little funny, but also a little embarrassed.

"It's all right." Yu He's voice was a little hoarse, and it seemed a bit laborious to say these words.

"Where did you come back from?" Chu Lingdong stared at him and asked.

Chu Lingdong's topic was completely different from Yu He's state, but he rescued Yu He temporarily by mistake.

Yu He straightened his thoughts, and regained some sobriety, "Today I sent Chen Lanzhi back."

Chu Lingdong was obviously unexpected.He knew where Chen Lanzhi lived, a town in the surrounding urban area.The round trip takes more than five hours.

Yu He sent her back, and then took the car back without stopping.So at this time, I ran into myself who just came back.

No wonder, hands are so cold.

Chu Lingdong couldn't help looking at Yu He's feet again.

Still wearing comfortable rest shoes.In such weather, it must be as cold as a finger.

"Why did you suddenly send her back?" Chu Lingdong asked softly.

Of course Chu Lingdong would not think that it was Yu He's temporary idea.Although this person is kind to others, he has always had a clear purpose.It was impossible to simply send Chen Lanzhi back.

Chu Lingdong thought about what Chen Lanzhi said that time in the office, and Yu He's expression was obviously wrong.

What would make this person care?What will happen?

Chu Lingdong was a little uneasy.

"I just want to take a look." Yu He lowered his eyes.He originally wanted to say: Since he hasn't been back for a long time, he should go back.

But today, in front of Chu Lingdong, Yu He can no longer say such words that Xu An claims to be himself.

Yu He paused, "I want to see her living environment and have a reference for her treatment."

The answer Yu He gave was reasonable.

But Chu Lingdong still stared at him, "You look very bad."

Yu He said, "I'm a little tired."

Yu He told the truth, but concealed the reason.

He is now physically and mentally exhausted.

"I know I'm tired, so don't be so willful in the future." Chu Lingdong sighed, "Tell me where you want to go next time. I'll accompany you."

When Chu Lingdong said this, he kind of spoiled him and used his tone.

Yu He was a little dazed, and his gaze dropped to Chu Lingdong's collar.

For some reason, a poem I read when I was a student suddenly came to my mind: "May I be the collar in the clothes, Yu Fang who bears the flower head... May I be the belt in the clothes, and the slender body..."

Apart from professional books, Yu He didn't have a deep knowledge of poetry and novels, but this poem that occasionally fell into his eyes left a deep impression on him.

At that time, Tian Qiao touched Chu Lingdong's collar, whether the same thoughts and expectations were churning in her heart.

"You are so busy, how can you have time to accompany me." Yu He said hoarsely.

Chu Lingdong froze for a moment, then glanced at Yu He in surprise.The heartbeat suddenly became a little disordered.

Yu He's complaint was actually based on the fact that he had privileges over Chu Lingdong.

And Yu He has always tried his best to distance himself from Chu Lingdong, keeping him close.

This made Chu Lingdong face Yu He always as if separated by a layer, unable to fully touch him.

But now, from Yu He's words, Chu Lingdong heard something unusual.

This surprised him and made him a little flustered.

"I know, I haven't come to see you this week. I've been working overtime for the past few nights just to free up time. I'll be at home with you all day tomorrow."

Chu Lingdong suppressed his heartbeat and explained softly.

This week is not only full of things, but also some messy activities and inspections at the end of the year.It is necessary to be present at the event, because there are leaders of relevant functional departments in the city, and the safety inspection at the end of the year cannot be taken lightly.

The cooperation plan with Tian can only be discussed at night.However, several directors of the company disagreed, which made Chu Lingdong hesitate.

After all, the Chu family has always focused on high-end apartments, and rarely set foot in public facilities.

Moreover, it is the end of the new year, and the capital operation is really tight.

"So you're so busy that even Qingsheng is in the company, with Tian Qiao?" This sentence was finally asked by Yu He.

Chu Lingdong was a little surprised, but the next moment he understood, a smile crossed the corner of his lips soundlessly.

He didn't have time to think about why Yu He knew that Wu Ruanruan was celebrating his birthday, but was replaced by shock and ecstasy.

At this moment, he really wanted to rub Yu He's whole body into his chest, so that the two could become one.

"I'm sorry. I caused you a misunderstanding." Chu Lingdong apologized first.

Yu He still didn't realize the true meaning of his question and its significance to Chu Lingdong.

He didn't know, because of these words, he had completely exposed himself to Chu Lingdong.

Skinned and boned, only a bloody heart remained.

There is no protection or camouflage.

This means that now Chu Lingdong can easily take him as his own.

"It's my birthday today, and I didn't know about it until very late. Today, Tian Qiao came here on behalf of Tian's to negotiate a cooperation project. Several heads of the department had some differences of opinion, so the talk was a bit long. It was extended until the evening, and the meeting ended. Finally, the lights in the office suddenly dimmed, and a birthday song rang out. I still don’t know who’s birthday is..." Chu Lingdong stared at Yu He, "Xiao Wu knows that my birthday is today because the company works late, see I didn't have any arrangements, so she bought ready-made cakes at the cake shop downstairs. Tian Qiao was there because of accidental work."

Yu He stared at Chu Lingdong in a daze, not understanding why he had come to this point.

Regarding Chu Lingdong's explanation, he suddenly became embarrassed.

He realized what he had just asked and said.

that feeling...

He didn't need anyone to tell him, he was a little bit awakened.It feels like the vinegar jar has been overturned.

This realization made him a little bit unbearable.

But if you ask, it is also water that is thrown out, and it is impossible to take it back.

"Don't you remember your own birthday?" Yu Heqiang muttered, but he didn't dare to look at Chu Lingdong.

This sentence is actually a bit of a strong word.

In fact, if Yu Qianli did not remember his own birthday, he would not be able to remember it.

"That's because I don't know exactly when my birthday is. So I don't really remember it." Chu Lingdong paused. He didn't expect to bring up these past events one day, "I'm not me. Parents' own son."

Yu He suddenly looked at Chu Lingdong.A series of twists and turns made him a little overwhelmed.

"I grew up in an orphanage, and was adopted by Ms. Chen Tongjun, my mother. Because I don't know my birthday, I heard from the orphanage that when I was sent, I probably looked like it was before the Lunar New Year. I My mother just picked a day in this month to be my birthday. When my mother was alive, she celebrated my birthday every year. Since she and my father passed away, I haven't celebrated much." Chu Lingdong slightly smile.

At the end of each year, as a well-known enterprise, the Chu Corporation will participate in some charity activities.And one of them is to visit orphans in orphanages.

Chen Tongjun had only been married into the Chu family for the first year, and he went to the orphanage with the eldest son of the Chu family.At that time, she met Chu Lingdong who was only five or six years old.

At that time, his surname was not Chu, and the orphanage just called him "Lindong".Because of disobedience, he fought with people every day, which caused the hospital a headache.

When Chen Tongjun saw him for the first time, his face was blue and purple, with a Band-Aid on his face, which reminded her of the kitten and puppy she picked up.

Outwardly flamboyant, but inwardly extremely insecure.

From now on, Chen Tongjun will go to the orphanage to watch "Lindong" after a period of time.Half a year later, she asked him if he would go home with him and be her son.

Ms. Chen has been taking care of stray cats and dogs since she was a child, but this time she adopted the young "Lindong" back.

Childhood memories are very vague.But the time when he met Chen Tongjun in the orphanage, Chu Lingdong still has a vivid memory of it.

The blood of the Chu family did not flow from him, but because of Chu Jinshui's preference, he became the strongest contender for the successor of the Chu family. Of course, Chu Qianzi and Chu Yuming were unwilling.

He had no intention of doing this, but was forced into this vortex.

Chu Lingdong's narration left Yu He at a loss as to what to say.

He always felt that Chu Lingdong had an unusual attachment to his mother's feelings.

Chu Lingdong even maintained Ms. Chen's habit of adopting cats and dogs.Unexpectedly, it was because of this reason.

"Sorry." Yu He said.

Everyone has past events and wounds that they don't want to touch, no matter how tough Chu Lingdong is, he is only a mortal.

And when it comes to his mother, he reveals more of a weaker part of his heart.

But myself because of...

The impulse that he didn't even understand, was done in one go, and opened up Chu Lingdong's old wound.

Yu He felt apologetic to Chu Lingdong for his impulsiveness and irrationality.

"You don't need to be sorry," Chu Lingdong stared at him and said, "Because I will tell you sooner or later."

There was no unnecessary pain and sadness on Chu Lingdong's face, but only the relief and freedom of "neither wind nor rain nor sunshine".

Today, he has been able to look at all this with a normal heart.

To repay Chen Tongjun is to live well and live the life I want.

Yu He's eyelids drooped.He didn't dare to look at Chu Lingdong squarely.

"Is there anything else I need to explain?" Chu Lingdong had endless patience with Yu He.

"No." Yu He replied hastily.

"I still have more." Chu Lingdong said.

Yu He looked at Chu Lingdong.

"As for Tian Qiao, I don't have any thoughts or feelings about him. If you're not happy for me to see him, I can also guarantee that apart from business, I will try my best to avoid the two of us being alone in private." Chu Lingdong said.

He lowered his voice to the lowest and softest.There was also a strange light in the eyes staring at Yu He.

But this light is not dazzling, it is gentle and careful.

"I'm not unhappy." Yu He struggled to speak, and hid his eyes, "Your promise is meaningless to me."

Saying this, I also felt a little fake, so I shook hands unconsciously.

Realizing that he was too nervous, Yu He raised his head reluctantly, but met Chu Lingdong's gaze.

Chu Lingdong reached out and hooked Gou Yuhe's chin, "For the first time, I planned to be on the bed to make you more comfortable. But now I can't help it anymore."