loser

The days pass by in a mediocre manner, and it is another year in a blink of an eye.Luo Yiyang, who thought that he would spend his whole life in this kind of sweet and painful watch, got the big news that Xu Xiaoyang married a blond gentleman.He finally lost control. The first time he dialed that number, he felt nervousness, excitement, pain, and longing alternately, and his hands trembled so much that he could barely hold the phone.

The phone was finally connected, and Xu Xiaoyang's lazy voice came from the receiver.

Luo Yiyang said: "I have been waiting for you to come back." There was even a cry in his voice.

Xu Xiaoyang chuckled: "I said earlier that what I want is onenight, but you want to live forever because of wishful thinking, why bother?"

Beep beep...the phone hung up.

Now it’s all right, the last thought of supporting him is gone, Luo Yiyang handed Chuyang over to a professional manager, and he completely emptied himself, holding the wine bottle every day, nestling on the sofa and looking at Xu Xiaoyang’s photos, recalling The sweet past of their "two lives".

Luo Yiyang was originally light-bodied, and he was almost drunk when he got drunk. He Zhen didn't interfere, and took care of the daily life of the drunk every day. After all, people need to vent. From the first time he broke up with Xu Xiaoyang to now, Luo Yiyang has already Repressed for five full years.

But a day or two is fine, a month or two months is fine, Luo Yiyang has been drunk for more than half a year, and his whole person has almost lost his human appearance.He Zhen persuaded and persuaded, scolded and scolded, but it was because he couldn't bear it that he didn't do anything.

In the end, He Zhenheng made up his mind and let's drink together.

"Old He, I'm sorry for Xiaoyang. Didn't he say he wants to take revenge on me? What's the point of this! As long as he is willing, I can give him my life, as long as he can stay... Why didn't he take revenge? Why did he stop?" Luo Yiyang waved the wine bottle, his nose and tears mixed together.

He Zhen half-closed his eyes, drunkenly and viciously spat out a word: "Bitch!"

Luo Yiyang laughed loudly when he heard the words: "Yes! It's cheap! Who says it's not!"

He Zhen also laughed: "Come on, let's two bitches, cheers!"

Luo Yiyang: "Do it!"

The two of them blew on the bottle, and as they blew, tears blurred their eyes...

He Zhen drinks a lot, Luo Yiyang faints after half a catty, He Zhen only faints after two catties, sleeps when he faints, drinks when he wakes up, faints after drinking... Finally, when the two were found, one was unconscious and the other gulped. vomiting blood.

He Zhen was sent to the hospital because of stomach bleeding, and Luo Yiyang stood in the hospital corridor, looking hungover and slovenly like a homeless man.

When He Zhen opened his eyes, Luo Yiyang was beside him.

As soon as He Zhengang moved, Luo Yiyang woke up, and quickly asked: "Are you awake? Is there any discomfort?"

He Zhen smiled, his voice was too hoarse to speak.

Luo Yiyang quickly poured a glass of warm water, imitating He Zhen's previous appearance, helped him up and wrapped him in his arms, fed him water little by little, and whispered in He Zhen's ear while feeding: "Old He , what are you doing..."

For the next few days, Luo Yiyang was inseparable by He Zhen's side, and he finally reflected on it. Since Xu Xiaoyang no longer needs him, and He Zhen refuses to change his mind no matter what, then try to let nature take its course, at least not He Zhen should suffer more injuries.

He Zhen looked at Luo Yiyang who was busy in the ward, and felt bitter in his heart. The once cunning and capable man was worn out by the hurt of love, but even so, he still thought of Xu Xiaoyang on the other side of the ocean, and never stopped. Ken accepts his asylum. Such infatuation really makes him both love and hate.

In a few days, it was the day when He Zhen was discharged from the hospital.

On this day, Luo Yiyang woke up early, the cat had a good freshen up in the bathroom, and then went to cut his hair, and his whole body was instantly refreshed. Although he was much thinner than before, the person in the mirror was still an out-and-out handsome guy.Luo Yiyang remembered that He Zhen liked to eat sweets, so he found a famous porridge shop, packed two portions of lotus seed and white fungus soup, and took them to the hospital.

Luo Yiyang's change of heart was expected by He Zhen. He may not care about himself, but he will never care about the people around him. He Zhen's bitter plan has won a big victory.

Seeing He Zhen holding the soup bowl and drinking it deliciously, Luo Yiyang said: "I came here in a hurry today, and I will make it for you myself starting tomorrow. It is much more delicious than this."

He Zhen smiled and nodded.

"You eat first, I'll go through the discharge procedures for you." Luo Yiyang turned to leave, but He Zhen grabbed his arm.

Luo Yiyang turned his head, smiled softly and said, "Hey, eat first, I'll be back to pick you up in a while, let's... go home."

This was the first time Luo Yiyang was gentle with He Zhen, He Zhen almost burst into tears, he quickly lowered his head, waved Luo Yiyang out of the ward.

Considering that because of Xu Xiaoyang, He Zhen moved in and out of Luo Yiyang's house before, it was really not a happy memory, so after He Zhen was discharged from the hospital, Luo Yiyang took the initiative to move into He Zhen's house, and the two lived together in the same room and different beds. Life.While taking care of Chuyang, Luo Yiyang did not forget to take care of He Zhen. He Zhen's stomach was hurt by drinking. For this reason, Luo Yiyang cooked porridge, soup and egg custard with his own hands every day, and fed He Zhen in different ways. He would also serve it before going to bed at night. Serving a cup of hot milk, sitting on the edge of the bed and watching He Zhen finish his drink before leaving, these things, he would never pretend to be in the hands of others.

The special soldiers who used to come and go in the wind and rain are now fragile in Luo Yiyang's eyes. He Zhen is a little awkward, a little unaccustomed, and a little... happy.He tried his best to recall Xu Xiaoyang from the past, imitated his appearance, and loved Luo Yiyang more calmly, even if it made him uncomfortable.

Luo Yiyang's goodness is meticulous. In addition to his own nanny attributes, he often sneaks out from his busy schedule and uses all his spare time to create small surprises for He Zhen, such as the anniversary of acquaintance, the anniversary of retiring from the army, birthdays, and company establishment days. He Zhen received a lot of various gifts, each of which was regarded as a treasure and placed on the bookshelf in He Zhen's bedroom. What clothes, what food the two of them ate, He Zhen had engraved them in his mind, Luo Yiyang never dared to listen carefully, he was afraid that he would fall into He Zhen's fiery love before he was ready to take on the future of the two of them.

The news of the two living together was eventually found out by Ji Shuping and others.Unlike when he was facing Xu Xiaoyang, He Zhen seemed to receive everyone's unanimous blessing.

On the occasion of He Zhen's birthday, old friends who have experienced various changes get together again.

"Come, come, let's go together and congratulate the team on their 36th birthday!" Chen Cheng was as excited as a child.

Ji Shuping, Yuan Min, Chen Cheng and others seem to have returned to many years ago. Some of them have been promoted, some have changed jobs, some have achieved success in their careers, and some have brought their families. But at this moment, no matter what role they are, They all turned back to the stupid soldiers of the past.

"I wish our birthday star a long life and all wishes come true!" Yuan Min raised his glass and said to He Zhen, when he said that his wishes came true, he even winked at Luo Yiyang, making He Zhen blush .

As expected, after an afternoon of drinking and drinking, He Zhen's family was littered with corpses, and none of them slept well.This reminded Luo Yiyang that when he celebrated Chen Cheng's birthday, Xu Xiaoyang was still by his side... How long has it been since he thought of Xu Xiaoyang? I remember that day, Xu Xiaoyang didn't eat much, so he took him to the mall and bought a ring... ...As deep as love is, pain is as deep as bone. If it weren't for He Zhen's dedication without regard for rewards, I guess my life would really be a dead end.

Luo Yiyang walked up to He Zhen and held his hand.Although he didn't drink, he had been having fun all day, and He Zhen was also a little tired, so he fell asleep not long after lying down.He Zhen, who is sleeping soundly, has faded away from the harshness of a soldier, and looks as gentle as a child. This is the person who participated in all the glory, decadence, happiness, and sadness of his first half of his life, but he never stopped to take a good look at the people around him. .Luo Yiyang kissed He Zhen's fingertips, and said in his heart: Thank you, He Zhen, please wait a little longer, and I will definitely return you a wholehearted Luo Yiyang in a short time.

While feeling emotional, the phone in Luo Yiyang's pocket started to vibrate.After speaking a few words, Luo Yiyang put down the phone, gently grabbed the car keys, and went out.

Luo Yiyang thought about being beaten, scolded, and dumped the check, but he didn't expect He Zhen's mother to kneel down for him.

Mother He knelt in front of Luo Yiyang, crying: "Luo Yiyang, our family is sorry for you! Xu Xiaoyang has provoked you again and again, causing you a lot of harm. Auntie knows it. Auntie is sorry for him, sorry, child!" As he spoke, he knocked his head twice.

"Auntie, what are you doing!" Luo Yiyang knelt down.

"But Luo Yiyang, Xu Xiaoyang has already returned to the United States, and he has mental problems, so it can be regarded as even. He Zhen has been with you for so many years. If you don't get married and have no children, you not only gave up your future, but also caused stomach bleeding. No matter how big the hatred It's about time, He Zhen is innocent... Please, let us He Zhen go, please..." He kowtowed again.

Luo Yiyang stayed where he was, and even forgot to help him.

After separating from He's mother, Luo Yiyang sat in the car alone until evening. He thought a lot in a mess, and called Xu Xiaoyang during the period, but was hung up by the other party. After that, he sent another text message: Xiaoyang, you Are you happy now?After about half an hour, the other party replied: Very happy, thank you.He smiled silently at the text message, and then fell asleep in a daze. In his dream, he returned to the age of 18.

When I met He Zhen for the first time in the dormitory, the two hated each other for some reason. He mocked the other party as an incompetent second-generation official, and the other party laughed at him as a soldier who was fooling around.

Later, when the results of the military training came out, the two had a tie. He Zhen said to him, "It seems that you are not useless." Those beautiful eyebrows were full of innocence and pride.

The empty heart was suddenly filled very, very full, and he finally grasped the throbbing that had been deliberately ignored for a long time.

After sleeping for an indeterminate amount of time, Luo Yiyang was awakened by the phone call, and He Zhen's roar came from his ears: "Where did you go!"

"I went out for a walk and left my phone in the car." Luo Yiyang pretended to be pitiful

He Zhen was helpless: "Come back soon, what time is it?"

"Are they all gone?" Luo Yiyang asked.

"Well, they're all gone." He Zhen said.

"Don't fall asleep, wait for me, I'll go back now." Luo Yiyang said.

Originally an hour's journey away, Luo Yiyang arrived in 10 minutes after driving. He put down the key, closed the door, looked straight at He Zhen, and said, "I made a decision today... to make up for the time we missed. !" After speaking, he rushed to He Zhen and gnawed wildly.

He Zhen was bewildered, completely bewildered, so that Luo Yiyang kissed for a while and He Zhen didn't respond. Luo Yiyang was unhappy, stopped, patted He Zhen's face, and said, "Give me a reaction!"

"Ah?" He Zhenru woke up from a dream: "It's getting late, go wash and sleep!" Then he pushed Luo Yiyang to the bathroom, and went back to the living room to watch TV.

Luo Yiyang turned on the faucet, and a hundred thousand muddy horses galloped in his heart, what's going on, what's going on!Lao Tzu volunteered to sacrifice himself, but he didn't give it up!Could it be... He Zhen didn't like me at all, but found an excuse to take care of me?No way... It's okay to pretend for a while, but after so many years, is it possible?Another [-] mud horses galloped by.

Luo Yiyang decided to try him.After taking a shower, Luo Yiyang sat with his upper body naked, wearing only a pair of big shorts, next to He Zhen who was still in a daze, next to him, He Zhen was very hot, and was shocked by Luo Yiyang's wet and cold skin, and shivered.

He Zhen was trembling all over, lowered his head, glanced at Luo Yiyang from the corner of his eyes from time to time, and then retracted like an electric shock.

"Forget it, since you don't want to, I'm going back to the room!" Luo Yiyang made a gesture to leave.

He Zhen was in a hurry, grabbed Luo Yiyang, put him on the sofa with all his strength, and bullied himself: "Luo Yiyang, you know, I don't need your pity."

Luo Yiyang snorted: "You who just took off your military uniform and were hospitalized are more pitiful than you are now. I deserve it now... um, um... light... um, light... your lips are broken..."

After a lingering night, He Zhen finally came to his senses, it was not a dream, and the person in his arms was not a dream!

He Zhen hugged Luo Yiyang who was still asleep and kissed him hard. Luo Yiyang was woken up and turned over dissatisfied.

He Zhen hugged his back and said softly, "How did you figure it out?"

Luo Yiyang said sleepily: "Yesterday, I saw your mother."

"What?" He Zhen was startled: "Then you..."

Luo Yiyang turned over abruptly again, and held He Zhen in his arms: "I also just understood my own mind."

He Zhen's face was pressed against Luo Yiyang's chest, listening to his lover's strong heartbeat, He Zhen felt more at ease than ever before: "It's finally time for you."

"I'm sorry. You have no regrets for me, but I'm still not as brave as you..." Luo Yiyang gently stroked He Zhen's hair, and said firmly: "Trust me, I will never let you be wronged again"

He Zhen nodded, and hugged Luo Yiyang even tighter with his backhand.