loser

Luo Yiyang was hospitalized before he had time to do the "exercise in the car" that he had agreed with Xu Xiaoyang. He said that he met a gunman on his way and was shot through his shoulder by a bullet.When Xu Xiaoyang received a call from He Zhen, Luo Yiyang was already awake, but Xu Xiaoyang was still scared out of his wits, put down what he was doing, and hurried to the hospital. Unexpectedly, the first thing he saw was He Zhen hugging Luo Yiyang and carefully feeding soup In the scene, Xu Xiaoyang turned sideways quietly, leaning his back against the wall next to the door, his heart sank.

As a human being for the second time, I thought that the heart that had died once was already extremely hard. It was not until I met Luo Yiyang again that I realized that I still loved him at all. When I was entangled with him, even my soul was clamoring for that man. , Dreaming back in the middle of the night, the terrible scene of dying in a trance after witnessing Luo Yiyang and He Zhen's embrace in the previous life was replaying in my mind over and over again. After sleeping, the face softened into a puddle of spring water... The plan that could be completed in two months, but it dragged on for nearly a year and I couldn't bear to do it.He tried to hypnotize himself, not to love, but to hate, but still under the guise of revenge, he was lingering on the bed with him, having fun in the playground... The moment Luo Yiyang gave the ring, he even thought, forget it, What are you doing for revenge? Wouldn’t it be good to continue the relationship with this man like this? As long as you take him back to the United States and never see He Zhen again, won’t you repeat the mistakes of your previous life... But, now, Luo Yiyang and He Zhen went back to the old way again, he hated it so much, hated Luo Yiyang half-hearted, hated He Zhen for being loved by others, hated himself for falling twice in the same place.

"Do you want to lie down a little longer?" He Zhen's voice came from the ward, interrupting Xu Xiaoyang's fugue.

Luo Yiyang: "Sit down for a while, it's been too long."

He Zhen: "I'm not talking about you, that's a gunman. What is your status now, do you need to rush forward with your life?"

What identity?Isn't it the duty of the captain of the criminal police to be a gunman?Xu Xiaoyang, who had just sorted out his emotions, pushed the door in full of suspicion.

I don't know how much the conversation was heard, the two people in the room were obviously taken aback, their expressions were a little stiff.

"Xiaoyang is here!" He Zhen smiled awkwardly and stood up: "Then what... I said just now that Lao Luo has a boyfriend, and he is so desperate, even if not for himself, he has to think about you If not, you should persuade him."

That's right, Xu Xiaoyang walked up to Luo Yiyang, and before he could speak, his eyes were red.

Luo Yiyang felt distressed: "Xiaoyang, don't cry, I'm fine, I just drank chicken soup all night..."

He Zhen left the ward silently.

Xu Xiaoyang tried his best to take care of Luo Yiyang in the hospital, and stayed in the hospital every day except going home to prepare meals.Colleagues gathered in the hospital on weekends to talk about the recent news in the bureau, and to see Luo Yiyang and Xu Xiaoyang showing affection.One day, when Chen Cheng praised Xu Xiaoyang for being gentle and virtuous, and Xu Xiaoyang sneered at him, Luo Yiyang suddenly said seriously: "If I can't take care of myself for the rest of my life, what will you do?"

Everyone was silent when they heard the words.

"That's the beginning of a happy life! If I tell you to go east, you don't dare go west. I'm the eldest!" Xu Xiaoyang said embarrassingly.

Hearing these words, Ji Shuping's brain hurts.

"Then what if I'm also depressed and lose my temper all day long?" Luo Yiyang asked again.

"Then I will carry you from the wheelchair to the bed. I firmly believe that there is nothing that cannot be solved on the bed!" Xu Xiaoyang raised his eyebrows.

Everyone was bleeding.

Luo Yiyang felt a throbbing pain in his heart, he held Xu Xiaoyang's hand tightly and rubbed it repeatedly.

In the afternoon, Xu Xiaoyang went home to prepare dinner, and He Zhen took over to accompany Luo Yiyang in the ward.

"Why did you suddenly think of asking that kind of question this morning? You weren't seriously injured this time." He Zhen asked while peeling an apple.

Luo Yiyang raised his eyebrows, looked around, and He Zhen understood: "Don't worry, Xiaoyang's bugs have been cleaned up. I still have a sense of what I should let him listen to and what I should not let him listen to."

Hearing this, Luo Yiyang nodded reassuringly: "This question should have been asked when I was injured three years ago, otherwise we would not have come to this point. I have always treated Xiaoyang like a child, I feel that he can't bear the pressure of life. I was injured so badly that even the doctors couldn't guarantee whether I could walk normally in the future. I was really afraid that I would become Xiaoyang's burden. He is still so young, so I don't want to ruin his life. lifetime……"

"Do you regret it now?" He Zhen peeled the apple seriously without looking up.

Luo Yiyang sighed deeply: "Yes, I regret it, you have heard Xiaoyang's answer, he is an optimistic person, and he has a deep obsession with me. Xiaoyang won't suffer so much by acting in such a cheating scene, in the end I still owe him."

After peeling the apple, He Zhen brought a disposable small plate and began to cut into pieces: "I can't blame you all. You spoil him on the tip of your heart, but he can't even trust you. If he had been less suspicious and troubled back then , you wouldn't want to protect him when performing missions..."

"He Zhen, that's enough!" Luo Yiyang interrupted sharply.

He Zhen shook his hand, and the bright red blood dripped on the freshly peeled apple, spreading rapidly.

When Luo Yiyang saw it, he immediately softened his heart, and quickly grabbed He Zhen's hand to draw iodine for him.

"I'm sorry..." Luo Yiyang said softly after the dressing was finished.

"Since you and Xu Xiaoyang got back together, you have said sorry to me three times." He Zhen chuckled lightly, picked up his coat and was about to leave, but stopped when he touched the door, he hesitated and said, "You... Do you hate me?"

"How could it be! I'm afraid I can't even pay back what I owe you in this life plus the next life, so how can I hate you." Luo Yiyang said quickly, after a short pause, he continued: "Even if it wasn't you, it would be someone else. Xiaoyang has a natural personality. Sensitive and suspicious, I know this, I just don't want you to impose the responsibility for my injury on him, it's unfair to him..."

He Zhen didn't answer any more, and left the ward silently, leaving Luo Yiyang alone, torn apart by two guilts.

A few weeks later, the doctor said that the basic treatment was over, and if Luo Yiyang wanted to, he could go home for rehabilitation.So, the young couple happily packed up and went home, and lived the life of an ordinary couple. Xu Xiaoyang took care of the housework and kept the house in order. However, the better Xu Xiaoyang treats him, the more uneasy he feels. He is afraid that one day his happiness will come to an abrupt end. He is not afraid of emotional injury or life, he just hopes that this day will come more slowly, more slowly.

However, no matter how slow it is, what should come will eventually come.

On this day, Xu Xiaoyang, who went out to buy vegetables, did not return all night, and Luo Yiyang sat on the sofa in a daze all night.In the early morning of the next day, Ji Shuping came to Luo Yiyang's house in a hurry, and left a stack of printing paper in front of Luo Yiyang.

"What about him? He's gone?" Ji Shuping said in a bad tone.

Luo Yiyang nodded.

Ji Shuping was even more angry, pointing to the information on the table: "You can see for yourself! You will definitely lose your police uniform!"

Speaking of this, Luo Yiyang's eyes moved slightly, and he slowly stretched out his hand to pick up the document and read it.

"Even the supervisor and the provincial department have sent it out, it's really complete." Luo Yiyang hooked the corners of his mouth dimly.

"With such a large scale, such high pixels, and such a full range of angles, now you are considered popular." Ji Shuping said.

"I'll give you the resignation letter in the afternoon, and it's not convenient for me to show my face now." Luo Yiyang held back his words for a long time, which made Ji Shuping very angry, and he yelled: "For Xu Xiaoyang, you can't wait to leave Police station!?"

"I can continue to be brothers with you even if I leave the police station!" Luo Yiyang stood up and hugged Ji Shuping to appease Ji Shuping. Ji Shuping didn't dare to break free.

"Tell me, what are you doing!" Ji Shuping said in a dull voice, "Trying so hard to play house with him, you end up with nothing."

Luo Yiyang: "If his mental state can improve after venting his anger on me, it will all be worth it."

It was late at night on the third day after Xu Xiaoyang left, but Luo Yiyang was still sleepless.Suddenly the phone rang, and Luo Yiyang heard a haunting voice when he answered a strange call.

"Lao Luo, my parents found out about our matter. They took me away suddenly, and they didn't have time to tell you. Are you in a hurry?" Watching the scene where parents secretly meet their lover.

Holding the phone in one hand and an A4 paper in the other, Luo Yiyang smiled softly: "As long as you are fine, explain it to your parents... Also, take good care of your body, drink less and eat more."

"Hmm..." Xu Xiaoyang choked up.

The two were silent for a long time, and Luo Yiyang ended the call with "I'll wait for you to come back".

The A4 paper in his hand has been crumpled into a disfigured state. On it is Ji Shuping’s copy of an anonymous email reporting Luo Yiyang’s homosexual behavior. Luo Yiyang offended many people when he was a criminal policeman, including top hackers. It is not difficult to get these photos However, the email said sarcastically: Captain Luo acts tough and can be called a model criminal policeman.Except for Xu Xiaoyang, who else doesn't know that because of the accident that year, he has already left the criminal police brigade to work as an anti-pickup...