Chasing death and chasing north

The noon court was a bit longer than usual, and after it was over, I went to the Queen's bedroom as planned before. The maids saw the group of people from a distance, and panicked and knelt down on the ground.

I ordered Zheng Bingzhi to step forward to stop them from passing through, and walked on the long trail through the dark crowd of people lying on the ground.The scenery in front of me was as empty as other palaces. When I saw the railings of the corridor, I was a little stunned: the railings should be made of ebony in my impression, when will they be replaced with white marble?

When did the so-called "impression" happen?I stopped and stood there, after all, I couldn't remember what it was like the last time I came here.

The empress is virtuous, she gave birth to a son for me when she was in the feudal domain, and she also shared my troubles with me. After she was in the middle palace, she only received cold treatment for many years. If she is willing, she can write dozens of Nagato Fu.

Walking to her living room, the personal female officer and the internal servants were waiting outside the closed door together.

"What's wrong?"

The old eunuch moved his knees in front of me, and said: "Your Majesty, there is a court lady who committed a crime, and the queen is talking to her. The old slave is going to-"

The empress has always had the final say on the affairs of the harem, and he prolonged the end of the sentence, probably not thinking about the importance of the strict decree of the master's retreat, or the news of the emperor's arrival.

It seems that in their minds, the queen is heaven.I wasn't interested in giving him an idea, so I stood at the door, concentrating on the conversation inside.

"Which guard belongs to it?" The queen's voice was calm and solemn, as if she was born with the aptitude of motherhood.

Was that her tone before?Can not remember.

I stopped the old eunuch from moving, and let him kneel in front of him anxiously.

After a long time, the other party still did not speak, the queen spoke again, this time with tremors in her voice: "Could it be, could it be Your Majesty?"

I think I understand what she is asking.

No matter how the woman responds, the real answer must be no.I don't have the habit of sowing seeds everywhere, or rather, there is no way.

A shadow flashed in my mind, and my chest, which I usually can't feel the existence of, suddenly felt a violent agitation. I clenched my fists, feeling hatred and helpless for such a self.

"Do not!"

The woman's answer was more decisive than expected, as if she didn't want to have anything to do with me.

That's kind of interesting.Although no one dared to frame me, but facing such an "honour" guess, shouldn't she be more panicked?

"The palace is strictly restricted, and there are very few men coming and going. You only need to calculate the date of your pregnancy, and you will know the identity of the other party. You know that you can't protect him, and you still want to force your mouth for a while, and suffer more flesh and blood?"

"The servant only wishes to die."

The court lady was obviously hopeless, and she had to give up her flesh and blood.Whenever one of the guards seduced her successfully, he ignored it.The emperor is not strict, the palace is dirty, and the palace is in chaos—General Yubayashi Xiao Xingshun is not my confidant, Zhengchou has no reason to replace him, this time it is a wrong attack.

"You are working in Huifeng Garden, and Huifeng Garden is isolated from the outside world, so that man must be in Huifeng Garden."

When I first heard those three words, a ridiculous thought came to my mind, but this thought was immediately denied by myself.

It is absolutely impossible, needless to say that the guards are heavily guarded during the day, I have not stayed in Huifeng Garden for one night in the past four years, "he" has no chance to do such a thing anyway.

"When you were conceived, all the guards in Huifeng Garden had just been replaced, and none of you and the new guards had any relatives. You have always kept your own place, and you are not a girl from Menglang. Most likely you were taken advantage of and dare not speak up. Who is bullying you?" You? Tell me that I am the master for you.”

"Niang Niang, please don't pursue it any further." She was aggressive and finally made the palace maid cry.

This kind of thing is not unheard of before, and the queen always makes a big fanfare to ask the blame, but she is not too tired?Perhaps it was because life in the inner courtyard of the deep palace was boring, and even the smallest incidents would be treated as major ones.

"Why are you afraid of Ben Gong? Did you do it voluntarily?"

The maid sobbed silently.

The queen faced her, and I manipulated the power of life and death in the court, and saw the fear of the ministers, it was a normal mood.The first one in the world, it really has unlimited scenery.

At this time, the queen said softly: "You don't want to part with this child, do you? You have been protecting your stomach since you came in. If you say it, I will allow you to give birth to him, how about it?"

"Really, really?" The court lady hesitated, but suddenly screamed: "No! Impossible! He will never allow it! No need to say anything, please let the queen give this servant a death!"

I heard the thud of the floor being tapped.I am familiar with this sound, it is the sound of heavy kowtowing, and blood will soon come from the touch.

"He? Who are you talking about?"

There was unconcealable joy in the queen's tone, and I immediately guessed the intention of her questioning alone.

"When is she pregnant?" I opened the door and went in.It was a hot day, and huge ice cubes were placed in the four corners of the room, emitting white gas from each. There was a miserable young face in the white gas, and blood flowed from her forehead, which was extremely dazzling.

"Early February," replied the Queen.Her voice was heard in my ears, and the ingredients of schadenfreude were far more than panic.

Early February?In the second month of Dinghai, I stayed for two nights in Changping County under Jingzhao Prefecture to go to the family farming ceremony.Two nights in a mere area, how can such a disturbance arise?For a moment, I was not as angry as I was surprised.

"Drag out." I ordered in a deep voice, and the guards guarding the door responded by pulling the maid.

The maid stared at me, I looked back.I am no stranger to such resentful eyes, and I am not afraid of them.

"Wait! Your Majesty, this matter has not been investigated yet. I believe that the man who messed up the palace must be caught and severely punished, so as to set the record straight."

The queen protested loudly, holding me back from leaving.

I looked down at her shining phoenix crown. This is the honor and power I gave. For this honor, even if I don't touch her for the rest of my life, she will still be my woman.

"Queen."

"The concubine is here." The sanity finally returned to her mind, one of my women lowered her head, her shoulders trembled slightly, and her high-pitched voice became like a kitten.

"I heard that the head of the country has an old relationship with the governor of Monan?"

The queen turned pale.I picked up her chin and looked at her. This woman can't be said to be beautiful, but she is very dignified. The mother of a country should have such a face.Under my sight, her cheeks slowly became dizzy, and her eyes became crystal clear.

"Zitong."

"Your Majesty." She replied, her tone was very soft.

"Let's settle down, each of us." I patted the queen's thin shoulders, and walked out of the bedroom under her complicated gaze.

Walking into the Huifeng Garden, which is used for collecting books, General Xue Fan of Zuo Yulin greeted him at the door.

"How about it?"

"My lord, everything is business as usual."

"Remove all the current group of people."

Xue Fan looked at me in surprise, bowed his head and agreed.

Passing through the useless main hall, to the second entrance, several court ladies and eunuchs are busy drying books in the courtyard.

The books collected in Huifeng Garden are all rare and rare copies left by the previous dynasty, which are rare in the country, and are more than enough to deceive people.

"Go down."

Zheng Bingzhi said yes, and led these people away quietly.

I bypassed the fire-proof pool and walked across the patio on an unfurled rare book.

The warehouse door was open, and rows of bookshelves stood side by side, and the smell of old paper was unpleasant.Go up to the second floor, open the door whose red paint has peeled off, and see a wooden screen in front of you, behind which are still bookshelves.The collection of books on the second floor is rarer than that on the first floor. These books were originally placed in the dark floor between the two floors. After I ascended the throne, I moved there for other purposes.

Turn the mechanism on the left wall, and a square hole is exposed on the floor three feet away, allowing two people to turn around.I went down the stairs at the entrance of the cave, and I saw heavy curtains, and it was time to light the lamps, and the hazy orange light was slightly revealed from it.

I drew back the curtain and entered the hall.

The sumptuous food and wine were set on the table, without any gesture, the two maids and one eunuch saluted and left one by one.

"and many more."

The three stopped and bowed towards me.

"In the future, only the eunuchs will serve here, and the maids will not be allowed to enter."

"Yes."

I didn't look at the backs of them leaving tremblingly, turned around and walked to the desk.He sat in front of the table with his back arched, motionless. There was a chessboard on the table, and the black and white stones were stuck in a stalemate.

The knocking sound made his shoulders move, and the chess piece in his hand slid to the ground. Only then did I know that he was actually asleep.

I stooped to pick it up, and when I stood up he was looking up.As the candle shadow flickered, the eyes of the two collided.

Under his faint gaze, I stretched out my hand to smooth the folds of the fabric on his shoulders, and said softly, "Let's eat."

Without saying a word, he propped himself up on the desk and stood up, his footsteps were sluggish, and he was no longer the graceful demeanor that was called a dragon and a phoenix in the past.During the day when I was not around, the candles and incense he used were mixed with medicinal materials that softened his muscles and bones. After several years, he could only walk slowly like this, and it was difficult to run two steps.

He moved to the chair he usually used and sat down. He picked up the chopsticks and ate the food very slowly. I sat opposite him and didn't rush to move the chopsticks.His movements are really slow, if we start eating together, I will be the one waiting for him to finish eating in the end.

I leaned my elbows to look at him. The man in front of me still had an ordinary and indifferent face. His face was haggard. His energetic appearance was like a memory from a previous life, but I could never get tired of seeing him. It has been more than 30 years, no matter what time he was, I could never get tired of seeing him .

He has never been very good-looking. In the past, he was in the midst of wealth and wealth, he lived in a state of mind, nourished his body, and only then did he become rich and handsome. After staying here for four years, all dreams of glory and glory have come to naught. Looking at him now, he is even worse than The actual age is a bit older - so, he looks to be the same age as the Twelfth Emperor's Uncle?

I found such a boring thing interesting, and I chuckled lightly, but it didn't mean to attract his attention, but he acted as if he had never heard of it, drinking the soup quietly.

His right hand trembled habitually, and some of the soup spilled onto the table and sleeve.It was very embarrassing, any well-bred son of the royal family could not tolerate such a gaffe, at the beginning, he would stop eating because of it.

The first time I didn't take it into account was on a certain day in September of the second year here.At that time, he was much thinner than he is now. The night before that day, I fed soup into his mouth that was trying to close tightly, making the lips and tongue of both of them dripping with blood. Then, for the first time in bed, I Wanted him somewhere else.

This person was completely defeated by me, his status, wealth, family, everything was lost, and the only remaining dignity was suppressed by me. Those who flattered him and circled around him back then gave me the so-called loyalty: God I'm afraid there is no man who is less valuable than him, right?

It doesn't matter.Beautiful, ugly, rich or poor, I don't care what he becomes, but others are different.

Others will be hypocritical because of his high position and authority, and will be malicious because of his longing for glory. Now that he is here, he is like a useless person. Only I am by his side, and he can only look at me. No one will come to grab him anymore. No matter what, I can't take it away, as long as I don't mind his false name and this skin, if he doesn't accept my company now, where can he go?

How nice, there are only me and him here, even out of hatred, he can only miss me every day, even if he is full of unwillingness, he can only wait for me every night.Enough is enough, as long as it can go on like this for a lifetime, there is nothing more to ask for.

The north-south facing ventilation windows are one foot square, sticking high to the roof, and the iron fence tightly separates him from all connections with the world.just me.The only one who can have him now is me.

The deep satisfaction is ironing my chest, no matter what means I use, no matter how much abuse and ridicule I suffer, as long as this is the result, I have no regrets at all.For this result, I don't mind doing more.

I thought of the maid just now.That lowly woman seduced him while I wasn't around, most likely she had already taken a fancy to him, she deserves to be killed!

I wouldn't question him about it, the answer would only make the calm atmosphere unpleasant, and it must be someone else's fault, and he has no reason to be blamed by me.

Seeing that he ate more than half of it, I picked up my rice bowl.I have always eaten very fast. When I was a child, I was often teased by him, saying that there was everything to eat and drink at home, and the brothers next to me knew how to eat slowly, but I was the only one who was reborn like a hungry ghost.

It was a pleasure to be nagged by him. Although I argued every time as if I was not convinced, I never wanted to change this habit. Later in my military career, I paid attention to simplicity and speed in everything, so I got some convenience.

The two put down the bowls and chopsticks almost at the same time, I clapped my hands, and the little eunuch came to collect the leftovers from the table.

He returned to the desk again, staring at the chess game again in a daze, and I sat next to him, drinking freshly brewed tea while reading the memorial.

In the past few years, I never brought matters related to government affairs here. Since this year, some memorials that have nothing to do with the overall situation have been used by me to pass the time before going to bed.When it was still cold, I would sometimes hold him in my arms while watching, and tell him what was written on it. Naturally, he ignored me and always fell asleep quickly.

The medicine for softening tendons will make people lose energy. Although he is not as frequent as me, he was also a person who led troops to fight and killed the enemy in the past, but now he will only be in a daze.

Look, fell asleep again.Whether in a daze or dozing off, his quiet and obedient appearance is much more gratifying than before.

The cool evening wind blows in from the windows on both sides, blows up layers of curtains, blows the hair hanging around his cheeks, and the ends of the hair stick to his long and slender neck.My chest felt hot, and I leaned closer and whispered, "It's time to take a bath."

He showed no signs of being suddenly awakened, and looked straight at me with emotionless eyes, then stood up, and staggered a bit after all just falling asleep.

I threw away the nonsense papers about impeaching Prince Kanghou and kicking people in the street, and stretched out my hands to stabilize him.

He leaned into my arms expressionlessly.

Whenever this happened, in the first year, he pushed me away and cursed loudly; in the second year, he avoided me; in the third year, he frowned and pursed his lips in silence.

For four years, he has slowly changed, and the end of this change, will it be his acceptance of me?

It's extravagant hope again, Sun Zhaoan, you know that it is absolutely impossible.

I secretly poured cold water on myself, put my arms around my waist to pick him up, and walked towards the bath. He put his hands on my shoulders, naturally and skillfully.