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Bai Shuangshuang's sudden phone call made Tang Yu flustered.

Tang Yu could tell that before Ding Xu left, he clearly wanted to say something to himself.Some truths were about to come out, but Tang Yu began to feel timid about his hometown.He even began to be a little confused about how he survived these unbearable and lonely months.

Ding Xu didn't intend to leave right away. Before leaving, he tried to hold Tang Yu's arm, as if he was dying.

At that time, Tang Yu, for some reason, deliberately avoided Ding Xu's eyes.

For him, the panic in the past was like a gate across his heart, the door was locked tightly, allowing him to hide in it safely, and he was indifferent to the desire hidden in his heart.But now, facing Ding Xu's persecution and looking at him, Tang Yu found that he had to face his most secret greed.

In the past eleven months, work and life overlapped to solve Tang Yu's lack of heart, but once this moment came, the tight string that collapsed on his mind was "suddenly" loosened.

He avoided Ding Xu's gaze, trying to make the last struggle, he said: "Go, you have waited for her for so long, isn't it just for this moment?"

Up until now, Tang Yu hadn't remembered what kind of dispirited Ding Xu was in the end, and how he slammed the door and left.

He was sitting on the sofa in the hotel, and took out a copy of Chekhov's "Tragedies on the Hunt". He opened a page at random, and only one sentence came into view, which read "Life will digest everything, Need neither help nor consent."

Tang Yu snorted coldly, feeling how ridiculous he was!

He fidgeted and put the book back in its place.Tang Yu turned on the knob of the TV and went back to bed to lie down.

At this moment, he desperately needs to fall asleep, because he doesn't want to think about anything that upsets and panics him, he tosses and turns, his breathing is dizzy and disorderly.

Tang Yu was lying on the soft bed, clutching the quilt tightly, just wanting to sink deeply into some kind of gentle package.But his ears seemed to be full of small noises. He felt that there were people wearing slippers "slapping" dancing in the corridor, and someone next door was flipping through documents "slapping". After stopping for a while, he heard the trivial sound of fingers rubbing the seams of his trousers from all directions, one after another, just a little bit, it was enough to make it difficult for him to sleep.

Tang Yu's world suddenly became noisy. He didn't know what was wrong with him, and he couldn't calm down after tossing and turning.

In the end, he let out a muffled growl impatiently, and sat up from the bed.

Tang Yu pinched the remote control, tossing and turning to switch back and forth between the TV stations that repeatedly received international news in the middle of the night.

He hugged the pillow and stared blankly at the flickering screen of the TV without blinking.

In the news, there were beautiful scenery of the shoal, and there were also chaotic and tragic wars. Tang Yu watched with a blank face, but his mind was full of chaos.

Tang Yu's mind repeatedly played and recalled Ding Xulin's anger before leaving the door, and clearly remembered the hesitation in Ding Xu's expression, watching him hesitating and hesitating.However, Tang Yu didn't know the real reason for Ding Xu's entanglement.He only instinctively felt that all this would not be good, because he felt that hesitation itself might be an attitude.

Tang Yu didn't have the confidence to let Ding Xu leave his first love that lasted for many years. He found that he wanted more and more, and he was afraid that he would become greedy.

Ding Xu hasn't come back since he went out, and it's almost early morning.Tang Yu finally made a call to Ding Xu, but before he got through, he hung up with a "click", and the receiver didn't even have time to utter a full "beep", and it stopped abruptly.

Tang Yu didn't know what he was afraid of.In his subconscious mind, he always felt that his heart was full of unresolved conflicts and repressed desires.He was unaware of their existence before, but until now, he suddenly felt that they had already existed in his life, and they looked like they were born with him, like fate.

Tang Yu finally failed to survive the long night, the clock crossed 12 o'clock, and it was already the last day of the journey.

Tang Yu turned off the noisy TV, looked at the darkness outside the curtains, thought about it, and felt that no matter how much he thought about it, it would not help, so he simply ignored it and got up to pack his luggage silently.

Halfway through packing, the doorbell rang.Tang Yu just called the front desk to ask for a packing belt, and subconsciously thought it was room service, so she walked over to open the door.

But as soon as the door was opened, he felt someone outside the door rushing towards him, and fell on him drunkenly.

Ding Xu was so drunk that he was unconscious, almost completely fainted.Tang Yu was taken aback, and when she realized it, she just shook her head and sighed, then dragged Ding Xu to the bed and lay down.

Ding Xu was so drunk, of course Tang Yu couldn't say anything more, anyway, he wouldn't listen to what he said.But Tang Yu knew that he was angry in his heart - he drank like this with other people without any grievances.And what about myself?But she waited for him in the room for a whole night!

Tang Yu didn't plan to wash him, he didn't even plan to sleep on the same bed with Ding Xu, Tang Yu looked at half of the luggage received on the ground, and thought to himself!So be it!When it breaks, it breaks.He put Ding Xu on the bed, tucked the quilt for him casually, and was about to leave.

But before he could turn around, he was suddenly grabbed by the wrist with his backhand, and then pulled vigorously, dragging him onto the bed.

Ding Xu squinted his eyes and looked at him sideways, with the smell of alcohol all over his body rolling over like this.He leaned over Tang Yu, pressing him tightly, then without saying a word, he lowered his head and began to kiss him from top to bottom.

Tang Yu was taken aback by Ding Xu's sudden drunkenness. He was panicked and yelled at the unconscious man.He said: "Ding Xu! Look who I am!"

Ding Xu kissed in a disorderly manner, as if in sex, the tip of his tongue skimmed over Tang Yu's nose and then to his lips.He said, "You can't, hiccup, don't want me...I, I...like you, I...won't...let you go..."

Ding Xu's words were hesitant, but Tang Yu could hear them clearly.

He is used to seeing Ding Xu drowning Bai Shuangshuang's sorrows with wine, and he has heard such prayers countless times.Tang Yu finally heard the truth. On the last day of this trip that he thought was beautiful and sweet, he was able to spy on the only secret in Qing Ding Xu's heart.

He spied the white moonlight that he would never forget.

In the end, Ding Xu's every word, accompanied by the smell of alcohol, pierced into Tang Yu's heart like a needle.His eyes were a little red, with self-mockery and contempt, he found that he had lost a complete defeat in that war that no one knew about except himself.The victor swaggers at him in a place he may never reach.

Ding Xu was still babbling, but the speed of kissing showed signs of slowing down due to the sudden fatigue.

Tang Yu didn't want to listen to him anymore, and didn't want to imagine what Ding Xu had said to Bai Shuangshuang tonight. He didn't know why he had allowed Ding Xu to play tricks for so long, but somehow he didn't push him away.

And now, he decided not to think about it.

Tang Yu then opened his eyes, turned around and hugged Ding Xu's shoulder tightly.Then he turned over and actively and fiercely pressed on the lips that had kept him entangled in silence for a long time.

Ding Xu woke up in an instant, as if the light had come back to him. He didn't think about anything, and he didn't even want to distinguish whether this seemingly absurd scene came from a certain empty dream.He began to vigorously respond to the deep kiss sent by Tang Yu, and penetrated into each other's bodies inch by inch from the opening and closing of breathing.

The two were tossing and turning on the bed, and the whole room seemed to be left with nothing but chaos and endless irrational madness...

Ding Xu couldn't remember exactly when he fell asleep, and when he suddenly woke up in the middle of the night and confirmed that it was indeed his Tang Yu who was still sleeping in his arms, he finally felt relieved.

Ding Xu had mixed emotions in his heart, like a dream, he couldn't figure out what happened between him and Tang Yu at all.All the previous events were rehearsed crazily before his eyes, but he finally discovered that it was full of infinite hints until now.

Ding Xu turned around and gently embraced the sleeping man in his arms. He couldn't help but kissed his forehead and the corners of his mouth with a smirk. He couldn't stop smirking for a long time.

Because Ding Xu finally found out that from this moment on, he suddenly had the possibility of being with Tang Yu forever.

Early the next morning, Tang Yu and Ding Xu woke up and turned around.

As soon as he opened his eyes, the first thing that came into view was the mottled red marks on Ding Xu's naked torso, and a bed full of messy marks.

Tang Yu found that the last bit of privacy she had left was still not hidden.He didn't know how much he could remember about those misplaced madness at night after Ding Xu sobered up.

All he knew was that he shouldn't be here, and he began to feel annoyed at his selfishness, regretting that he lured Ding Xu into doing such a thing in a daze, knowing that Ding Xu was reunited with his girlfriend.

Tang Yu felt that in this relationship with Ding Xu, he finally lost his self-esteem that he had a good time with him.

He felt shameless when he met Ding Xu, so he tremblingly endured the exhaustion and pain in his body, got up and left in a hurry.

Before leaving, Tang Yu leaned down and kissed the forehead of Ding Xu who was still smiling smirkingly in his sleep.

He then softly whispered in his ear, "Goodbye." I don't know if it was to Ding Xu or to himself.