rainy tonight

When he opened the door and saw the person standing outside, Song Fanqing was startled, and immediately welcomed him into the room.

Song's mother wasn't there, and Song Fanqing was watching TV at home alone. He didn't expect Chang Jiayu to come over at this time, but he came here after being drenched in the rain all the way.

He didn't ask much, and first took a clean suit and handed it to the other party. Chang Jiayu thanked him in a low voice, and went into the bathroom.

Just walking along the way, his clothes were completely soaked. After taking them off, Chang Jiayu turned on the shower head, and the warm water slipped from the top of his head, along his cheeks to his neck, along his chest, back and legs It fell to the ground.

After the rain, the goosebumps on the skin slowly subsided, but the inside was not warm at all, the water was steaming, and the bones and blood were still cold.

Chang Jiayu restrained himself from thinking too much, but the corners of his eyes were always sore.

Dry the body with a towel, change into clean clothes, the underwear was not changed, and the waist and buttocks were wet.

He stood in front of the mirror. The person inside had a fair complexion and the corners of his eyes were reddish. Because of his low mood, there was no light in his eyes.

He himself didn't want to look too much, he sniffed and walked out.

Looking around in the yard, Chang Jiayu returned to the living room and asked, "Why did the pair of rabbits disappear?"

Song Fanqing raised his eyes, then quickly lowered his head, cut the peeled apples into pieces and put them on the fruit plate, and said softly, "I'm sending them back."

Chang Jiayu reacted belatedly, thinking that he and Song Fanqing's current situation is somewhat similar, the only difference is that Fei Dong never gave false hope, from this point of view, Song Fanqing is better than himself One point, Chang Jiayu thought a little desolately, stuffed apple pieces into his mouth, tasteless.

At night, Chang Jiayu tossed and turned on the bed in the guest room, unable to fall asleep.

As long as he closes his eyes, he will think of all the things that happened during the day, and his heart will shrink and hurt, which cannot be relieved by any posture.

He could still think of how many times they had exchanged kisses on the bed in the bedroom with their limbs entangled and their temples attached, and how many times he had let the other party penetrate into his body to entangle him.At that time, the affection was hot, but now in retrospect, it became a knife that pierced the heart.

"call!"

Chang Jiayu got up from the bed irritably, rubbed his hair vigorously with his hands, and sat cross-legged on the bed to let himself go.

I have slept with each other several times, and I am used to the warmth, and now I don't feel sleepy at all.

He sat on the bed and turned on his mobile phone, but he didn't know what to read. He scanned a few headlines that caught people's attention. Because he was absent-minded and didn't know what he was talking about, he turned off the phone and lay down again.

In the middle of the night, Chang Jiayu fell asleep in a haze.

The impermanence of sorrow and joy poured into the reality, disturbing the thoughts, but there was no dream.

Hearing the sound of birds, Chang Jiayu woke up in a daze, opened his eyes, and slowly remembered that he was staying at Song Fanqing's place, and he was still wearing his clothes.

He tidied up and got out of bed. Song Fanqing was already up, watering the flowers in the yard, and the two greeted each other.

After a while, Song Fanqing put the watering can in the corner, got up and said, "If you want to eat breakfast, let's go out and eat."

Chang Jiayu nodded and went out with him.

There was a small breakfast stall at the entrance of the alley. Chang Jiayu sat down and ordered a bowl of tofu nao and a few pieces of oil cake.

The oil cake was just taken out of the hot oil, and the sugar juice inside was a little hot, Chang Jiayu couldn't help hissing, and quickly took a sip of tofu nao.

After breakfast, the two walked back together again.

Chang Jiayu strode forward and said in a muffled voice, "It's embarrassing to live with you, but there's no other place to go now."

Song Fanqing said: "It's nothing, I have someone to talk to, it's good, and my mother would be happy if she was here, but what are you going to do next?"

Chang Jiayu hadn't figured out what to do.

He couldn't go back home, Chang Zhenfeng must still be angry now, the two of them would have to quarrel if he went back, as for Yan Jun... His mind is in a mess right now, he can't think clearly.

Let's talk about it when we think it through.

Song Fanqing has already decided to enter the medical department of F University, and he is not idle at home, looking for a few textbooks for basic courses to preview.

This kind of diligence Chang Jiayu sighed to himself, and he didn't have much interest in doing other things.Song Fanqing was reading in his bedroom, and he was in the living room with the TV on. After watching a game, he didn't even know how many goals the two teams scored. All he could think about was what Yan Jun said yesterday.

This was the biggest disappointment he had ever experienced in his life so far, and the huge sense of gap made Chang Jiayu feel blocked.

Yan Jun still can't give him love, everything before is just acting.His tenderness towards him was true, but the emotion behind it was not what he wanted.

I thought about it over and over again, and finally fell asleep on the sofa.

In a daze, Chang Jiayu saw someone walking towards him.

He was short of breath in his chest, turned over and ignored the person who came, but put one hand on his back and stroked it, then went up the spine and squeezed his neck.

"Jia Yu." The man called him in a low voice.

Chang Jiayu's body trembled, his nose sore, and he buried his face deeper into the soft pillow.

The person behind picked him up, and kissed him delicately on his eyebrows and lips, and even poked his fingers through the hem of his clothes, walking around his body with skillful techniques, as if he knew all about his sensitive points in the heart.

Chang Jiayu wanted to push it away, but he was so weak from the kiss that he let others touch him tremblingly.When he was confused and infatuated, he felt a pain in his heart and pushed the other party away violently.

The next moment, Chang Jiayu woke up, and immediately sat up from the sofa, panting heavily.

The dream just now was so real that he couldn't recover for a while, his eyes moved down, and he saw the reaction below him.

He gritted his teeth, ran to the bathroom with red eyes, came out half a day later with wet hands, and stood in the yard for a while in a daze.

How obsessed you are in your dreams, how depressed you are when you wake up.

The only constant in the dream and outside the dream is the eyes and voice that fascinated him.

correct!

Eyes and voices are not deceiving, nor are those emotional reactions when they are in love. It is not yet known whether Yan Jun has feelings for him.Even if there is really no extra emotion, he can't forget each other. The two have been together for so long, and if they continue to get along like this, is it impossible to have a relationship for a long time?

The corners of Chang Jiayu's mouth turned up, and he smiled a little foolishly. He realized it himself, and pressed his hand, but the smile did not disappear.

Yeah, why didn't he think of this level before.

It's useless to frown here, he has to ask again, ask the other party if he really doesn't feel anything at all, if not, ask him if he would like to try again.

He is not reserved, and he does it immediately when he thinks of it, and he doesn't get into the horns or worry about any self-esteem issues.

After saying hello to Song Fanqing, Chang Jiayu didn't take the bus or subway, but directly hailed a car, with a bit of anticipation and anxiety along the way.

After paying the fare, Chang Jiayu turned and walked forward, seeing Aunt Li crossing the road not far away.They were far away and didn't say hello, Chang Jiayu thought as he walked, today is indeed the day when Mrs. Li returned home from vacation.

While standing in front of the door, Chang Jiayu took a deep breath, took out the key and opened the door.

Yan Jun's slippers are placed in the shoe cabinet in the entrance.

There is no one in the room.

Chang Jiayu walked around, but there was indeed no one there, Yan Jun might be in the company, but he actually spared the whole day yesterday to be with him, but it was a pity that he was messed up.

Thinking of this, he couldn't help feeling soft.

He went upstairs to the bedroom, where his phone was on the table.

Chang Jiayu lay on the bed holding it, and wanted to send Yan Jun a text message, but he didn't send it in the end, because he still didn't want to affect the other party's work.

Lying like that for a while, Chang Jiayu heard the sound of the door opening. He jumped off the bed and ran to the window to see that Yan Jun's car was parked at the door, and a big red car was parked beside it.

There were a few dull thunders in the sky, and it might rain again.

Soon he heard voices from downstairs, and Fei Dong came along with him.

He unscrewed the doorknob and walked slowly to the stairs. Two people turned their backs to him, not knowing that there was another person in the room.

Fei Dong peeled two chestnuts casually, and handed one over. Yan Jun shook his head, he smiled and withdrew his hand, threw it into his mouth, and said, "Don't blame yourself too much, I think you're so kind to that child Jia Yu. It's good enough, there's just no way to give him more."

Yan Jun lowered his eyes and said in a low voice: "But it still made him sad."

Fei Dong took a sip of water, leaned on the back of the sofa and sighed: "You agreed to be together even if you didn't like it back then, so you should think about what might happen now. If I were you, you would either not agree, or just play tricks if you agreed. Do it all, don't let him know."

"I thought so too, but I couldn't bear to lie to him."

"That's right, Jia Yu and Guan Xun look so alike, how can you bear to look at that face, it's human nature, don't torture yourself. But then again, Guan Xun has recovered his memory now, and he still wants to be with you , it’s very difficult to choose.”

Yan Jun didn't make a sound, just took the cigarette Fei Dong handed over, lit it and inhaled slowly.

Amidst the smog, Yan Jun's face became increasingly unclear.

Chang Jiayu's heart was beating like a drum, his vision was a little blurry, and a string in his mind was stretched to the extreme.

Subconsciously, he raised his hand and touched his face, remembering it almost instantly.

The first time he saw Guan Xun, he had a strange feeling in his heart, as if he had seen him somewhere before.

"It's nothing, I just didn't expect that I've seen him, I have an impression, I happened to see him sitting in a coffee shop with Uncle Yan last time, I almost thought it was you at first glance."

"How do you think it's me?"

"Your looks and temperament are a bit similar, so I made a mistake."

That's right, Song Fanqing said the same thing. He and Guan Xun have a very similar face, but because of their different ages and experiences, there is a big difference in temperament. But at this time, he and Guan Xun when he was young may be even more resemblance.

The reason why he felt that he had met each other before was because he was facing a similar face every day.

The string in my mind was stretched to the extreme, and it broke with a snap, and my ears were buzzing, I don't know if it was because of the raging thunder outside the house or tinnitus.

Chang Jiayu leaned against the wall at the entrance of the corridor in a daze, and things that he hadn't thought about before gradually became clear.

Why is Yan Jun being so kind to himself?Just because he happened to like him as a kid?

Now it seems that it is not.

There is no unreasonable liking and preference in this world, Yan Jun treats him so well, he is so good that he is willing to wrong himself to be with him for so long, not only to give smiles and love, but also to have a good time with him.

Which elder would treat the beloved junior with such devotion?

No, no.If it is really the affection of Wangnian, it is impossible to do this step.

So there is only one answer, and it can only be this one.

The door closed and Fei Dong left.

Yan Jun sent him to the door, the car drove away, he turned back, and when he reached the living room, he saw a young man going down the stairs step by step.

Yan Jun's expression was startled, and he immediately came back to his senses, the light in his eyes flickered, Chang Jiayu had stopped before the name in his mouth was called out, Yan Jun noticed that his eyes were red, but there was no blood on his face , pale as snow.

Chang Jiayu looked at the man standing not far away, he pursed his lips tightly, and after a while he said in a hoarse voice: "I just heard your conversation upstairs."

He finished speaking slowly, without looking at Yan Jun's reaction, Chang Jiayu raised his hand and took off the pendant around his neck, held it in his hand and looked at it.

The white ground is inlaid with pink jade, which is extremely smooth to the touch.He actually looked it up on the Internet later, and found that this piece of stone that can be held in the palm of his hand is very expensive, and he can buy a house within the third ring road of City B. Such a valuable thing was given by Yan Jun as a birthday present He, it's a pity that the precious affection is all fake.

Chang Jiayu raised his head, looked at the person opposite, and said softly, "I look a lot like Brother Guan. Uncle saw me for the first time, did you think so?"

Yan Jun froze in place, unable to speak for a moment.

Chang Jiayu smiled suddenly, his handsome brows and eyes were raised, but the smile didn't reach his eyes.Looking carefully, his pupils were filled with empty and hopeless emotions.

He asked again: "When we are together, do you often think of him when you look at me? You treat me so well because we look alike?"

Yan Jun stared fixedly at the person a few steps away from him, as if there was a fishbone buried in his throat, making it difficult for him to speak.

Just when he opened his lips to answer, Chang Jiayu lowered his head and whispered, "If not, you don't have to hesitate for so long, my question is really unnecessary."

He stood with his neck down for a few seconds, and when he looked up again, his eyes were redder than before, as if they were covered with a layer of fog and filled with water vapor.

After Yan Jun saw it, his heart trembled violently. Chang Jiayu had already walked over, stopped in front of him, and handed him the pendant in his hand.

"This pendant is worth a lot of money. I'm afraid I can't pay it back, so let's return it to the original owner."

Seeing that Yan Jun didn't answer for a long time, he walked to the coffee table and put down his things, and walked towards the door, halfway there he thought of something.

He turned around and asked, "I got three promises from my uncle. You said at that time that you would promise as long as you can do it. I don't know if you still count?"

Yan Jun came back to his senses, his eyes were painful, and he said hoarsely: "Of course."

Chang Jiayu nodded, and said word by word: "That's good, then I want to make three wishes. First, I hope that we will break up right here, so that we can get together and get back together. The previous things will be treated as if they never happened; second. , I hope that we will no longer have personal relationships and not disturb each other's lives; I can't think of the third wish for the time being, so let it be void."

The edge of the shoe cabinet was so tight that his palms hurt, Chang Jiayu suppressed the surging emotions, and said in a low voice: "But thank you Uncle Yan for taking care of me this year." Although this kind of preferential treatment was stolen from others of.

After the door was opened, a gust of wind hit, and Chang Jiayu couldn't help shivering.

The strong wind rushed the salty water vapor in front of him, Chang Jiayu's eyes became hot, and he strode forward.

The consciousness of the whole person became chaotic, and the strength of the body seemed to be drained. Fortunately, such a distressed moment was covered by the twilight. When tears fell from the corners of the eyes, rain fell from the sky and fell on the between heaven and earth.

Standing in the turbulent night rain, which was like a flood, Chang Jiayu could hardly keep his eyes open.

He raised his head, huge cold raindrops fell on his face, and soon slid down his jawline into his neck.

Chang Jiayu thought in confusion, why did things become like this?

He thought that the love between two people did not exist, and now even the liking at the beginning was wrong.

It should be because he was too confused, he couldn't see clearly when he was trapped in love, but now that he thinks about it again, he is completely enlightened and enlightened.

The first kiss in the bar was his overbearing bow, but Yan Jun is so good at boxing, how could he not have a chance to push him away?

The occasional loss of focus, the focused gaze cast on myself when getting along, and those seemingly inexhaustible tenderness, all turned out to be looking at another person through myself.

The first time they met, he stole a kiss, but the person who was kissed was not angry;

The first time I went to his residence, I just looked at the rare and expensive string of Buddhist beads, and Yan Jun said that he would give it to himself, as if it was an ordinary thing, and as if he was a distinguished guest ;

It was the first time to celebrate the other party's birthday, Yan Jing once said that he would not accept birthday gifts, but his gift was successfully sent out;

Taking care of him when he was sick, guarding him all night after an accident, and pampering and pampering him many times...

It's too unscientific, Chang Jiayu raised his head and laughed silently, he didn't seem to have thought about it at that time, but now he thought about everything clearly, only to realize that he was really just having a dream.

Yan Jun and Guan Xun fell in love when they were young, and they both came out of the closet. If the car accident hadn't happened, what would have happened to him, Chang Jiayu?

But God has eyes, and there is no path to extinction. After many years, they meet again. Yan Jun has kept the token of his first love for so many years, and Guan Xun has also recovered his memory and wants to restore the old relationship.

How great.

In fact, from the beginning to the end, he was only regarded as a shadow, and the feelings that Yan Jun poured into him did not belong to him, but were stolen from Guan Xun.

The saddest thing is that he, a passer-by, has no self-knowledge, plunges headlong into this relationship, and always thinks that he is acting as the protagonist, but in the end he is just supporting others.

But what did he do wrong? He just fell in love with someone when he was young. The abyss.

Complicated thoughts were like fire and ice, circling and entangled in his consciousness.

There was endless rain in his ears, he felt his body was heavy, and he vaguely heard someone calling his name, but he soon lost consciousness.

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