Backtracking boat

Shen Mo exposed the long-buried past to Lin Yiqi, not to win sympathy, but he couldn't stand such accusations.He subconsciously wanted to open his mouth to refute, but a string of words slipped to his lips, but he couldn't pick out a powerful counterattack.After hesitating and tossing and turning, he lost his momentum and was robbed by Lin Yiqi:

"Isn't it? Isn't it the same for you to find a human-shaped marriage for your mother, and your father to find a same-sex wife for your grandfather? Oh, maybe you are better in nature? There is no cheating marriage, but I think it is also a marriage It's a kind of blasphemy. What's more, you once had the idea of ​​provoking Luo Xizi. Hey, as soon as I mention this, I want to beat you up again.

Your youth and youth were miserable, I admit this, but I have heard more tragic stories than yours, so in my opinion, those powerless and forced are all just excuses for your inability to resist your cowardly character.Your act of looking for a physical marriage may be able to soothe your mother's emotions, but if one day she learns the truth of the matter, will she be more sad and sad?Because her son finally inherited her husband's mantle in terms of emotional outlook. "

Lin Yiqi's merciless words were like a boulder rolling down, smashing bloody deep holes in Shen Mo's chest, making Shen Mo's nerves that had been paralyzed for a long time feel a heart-pounding pain again.He closed his eyes and turned his head without giving Lin Yiqi any reaction, for fear that a look would reveal his feelings, and there might be some grievances, but it couldn't cover up the overwhelming panic.

Lin Yiqi took a taxi with a cold face all the way to take Shen Mo to the gate of the community. The relationship that was once called a good friend now feels hypocritical even if they say goodbye.He didn't get out of the car, and said to Shen Mo, whose hair was full of loneliness, from the car window: "I can't figure out why Xiao Yi is so embarrassed by your crooked neck tree, but I wish you a better life. "

Shen Mo smiled: "Yiqi, you are a good person, very kind, I wish you happiness." Lin Yiqi twitched the corners of his mouth and asked the driver to drive.

When Shen Mo's figure disappeared from sight, Lin Yiqi came back to his senses, remembering the situation when Luo Qianzi asked him to resign the day before yesterday, unprepared, he looked at the resignation letter in his hand and asked if it was because of Shen Mo.Luo Xizi denied it, and only said that she needed to settle down, think about some things clearly, and change her life.At that time, I was so sad that I was about to cry, but I still pretended to be generous and said that I was welcome to come back anytime, and that I only wanted to be ordinary friends with Luo Xizi.At that time, Luo Xizi also said in that gentle tone: "Lin Yiqi, you are really a good person."

nice guy?Lin Yiqi thought with some self-mockery: "Everyone says I'm a good person, but no one loves me."

After Shen Mo got home, he called the leader and asked for a week's leave. The attitude of the leader on the phone was meaningless to him, and it seemed difficult to him to live well.

Xiao Lu, the physical marriage partner I found before, was very active and kept calling to ask Shen Mo about his future plans.Shen Mo hid a few times, hesitating and not knowing how to go on the next section of the road.Lin Yiqi's words had a great impact on him, not because of any new truths, but because he expressed a fact that he subconsciously agreed with but tried hard to avoid—in terms of personality and emotional outlook, he inherited his father, not his father. A mother who is more staunch and clearly loves and hates.

On this day, Zhang Fenghui came back, and it was actually Ren Hong who accompanied her.I haven't seen him for several months. Ren Hong looks good, and he can be seen as a man who has been nourished by his love life.He sent Zhang Fenghui home, stayed for a short lunch, and left in a hurry, saying that Ren Jibin had a fever and was still not recovering, so he was worried about leaving him at home.Shen Mo rolled his eyes to the sky when he heard this reason for dog abuse.

When sending Ren Hong out for a ride, he asked why Ren Hong got together with his mother.Ren Hong said that Zhang Fenghui took the initiative to contact him, saying that he wanted to know about Shen Mochu's life in high school.Shen Mo was startled, and grabbed Ren Hong's arm, wanting to ask but dared not.Ren Hong patted him reassuringly: "Don't worry, I didn't say anything. But..." He thought about his words, and reminded Shen Mo: "I think Auntie must have noticed something, you are a little bit mentally prepared. "

Ren Hong's words made Shen Mo even more preoccupied, and the mother and son spent a few days that seemed to be plain but undercurrents.Zhang Fenghui didn't ask Shen Mo why he stayed at home and didn't go to work on a good working day, and Shen Mo also pretended not to see the thoughtful eyes that Zhang Fenghui often looked at her.The string connecting the two is tense between the two, and it depends on who can't bear it and stretches out his hand to pluck it.

The next week's vacation was over soon, Shen Mo told Zhang Fenghui that he would start work next Monday, but Zhang Fenghui didn't feel relieved.On Sunday morning, I cleaned up the toilet for the glutinous rice balls, and thawed the refrigerator.Zhang Fenghui has been sitting by the balcony, holding the glutinous rice balls and thinking about something.Near noon, Shen Mo looked at the wall clock, and went to the kitchen to prepare for cooking. Zhang Fenghui waved to Shen Mo: "Don't worry, come here, Xiaomo, Mom has something to ask you."

Shen Mo walked over: "Say it."

Looking at her son standing in front of her, Zhang Fenghui lost weight twice in just one month, and the blueness in her eyes could not go away. How can someone in his 20s not have any vitality?She felt distressed and angry at him.He couldn't help but sighed, and asked, "Xiaomo, last time you said you found a girlfriend, what's going on?"

Shen Mo's heart trembled suddenly, and he bravely took out the photo sent by Xiao Lu in his mobile phone and held it in front of his mother: "It's her, a friend introduced it, what do you think?" Zhang Fenghui looked into his son's eyes without looking at the photo: "You What do you think, do you like her?"

Shen Mo forced a smile and said, "I think it's pretty good, depending on your opinion."

"Can I decide on my opinion?"

"...Yes, listen to you."

Zhang Fenghui suddenly felt an uncontrollable anger. Following the method of stabilizing her emotions that she had insisted on for a long time, she counted silently in her heart for a minute, then raised her head and smiled and said to Shen Mo: "Okay, you are so sensible. Thank you, I don't need to look at each other, I believe in your eyes. The two of you should get married quickly, and make an appointment with the parents of the two families tomorrow to officially set the wedding date."

Shen Mo was stunned, and after a while he froze and nodded.He looked out the window unsteadily. During the dog days, the cicadas were bothering and the sun was also annoying. He felt that he was about to dry out hiding in the house.Zhang Fenghui was next to her, slowly talking about the dowry gifts that need to be prepared for marriage, saying that it is best to try to conceive a child next year, and to have another in two years.He also said that the glutinous rice balls are too domineering, so it's better to take them back to his hometown, so that Shen Mo's family can live a happy life for two or three or four.

Shen Mo listened to his mother frame one scene after another, all of which were bricks to build his future life cage.He thought: "Isn't this bad? Didn't you know this a long time ago?"

Outside the window, a young couple led their child on the sidewalk of the community. They saw a husky wearing a mask on a stone bench beside the road. The man and woman hurriedly protected the child and hid aside.Shen Mo looked at this life scene that should have felt warm, and imagined that one day, he would also lead his wife and children and meet Tianshui on a certain road.His wife was afraid of dogs, so he guarded the front, avoided Tianshui, took a detour and walked on another road, leaving only Tianshui with a defensive back.Will Tian Shui run back to find Xiao Yi and cry?At that time, Tian Shui, do you still remember him?

Shen Mo suddenly collapsed, the phone slipped from his hand and fell to the floor with a bang.He knelt down in front of Zhang Fenghui all at once, and when he uttered the first word, tears flowed down his face, his voice trembling uncontrollably, and he said, "Mom... I'm damned! Is it okay if I don't get married? I don't get married." .”

Zhang Fenghui hurriedly wanted to pull her son up, Shen Mo knelt down and couldn't afford to live, once those emotions that had been suppressed for a long time were released, they would pour down like a flood that broke the embankment, destroying the embankment.He raised his hand and slapped himself hard on the face, weeping bitterly, talking nonsense, "I'm like my dad, you kill me. I can't get married. I have someone I love, especially love, Mom, I'm suffering here, I've been suffering all the time, I don't want to live anymore, you kill me."

Zhang Fenghui saw that Shen Mo's emotions were getting more and more agitated, and she couldn't persuade her at all. She tremblingly picked up her mobile phone and dialed a number, then knelt on the ground, crying and hugging her son, patting and comforting her with.

Shen Mo couldn't remember the last time he cried like this, he was like a fragment after drinking, completely erasing the situation at that moment from his memory.After waking up again, he found himself lying on the bed in the bedroom with all his clothes on. The room was dark, and it should be night by the sky.He sat up and touched his eyes, which were very swollen.Walking out of the bedroom door, I was surprised to find that my mother, Luo Xizi and Lin Yiqi were all in the living room.Seeing Shen Mo coming out, Lin Yiqi just rolled his eyes at him, and Luo Xizi next to him said, "Brother Mo, you're awake, Auntie is terrified."

Shen Mo looked at Zhang Fenghui, and when he saw his mother sitting on the sofa looking at him sadly, her swollen eyes began to turn acid again.He walked over in fear and whispered, "Mom."

With red eyes, Zhang Fenghui said angrily, "Don't call me mother, I don't have a son like you." Shen Mo felt anxious when he heard this, and wanted to kneel again.Lin Yiqi's eyes were sharp and his mind quick, he got up and gave a false kick: "Listen to what Auntie is saying, don't make trouble again."

Zhang Fenghui took the medicine in the cup that Luo Xizi brought over, drank a few more sips of water, and then looked at Shen Mo who had calmed down: "Xiao Mo, do you know what I hate your father the most?"

Seeing that Shen Mo lowered his head and didn't answer, Zhang Fenghui continued softly: "At the beginning, there were people who pursued me. If it wasn't for him, I might have found someone who was not inferior to your father, and lived a life full of quarrels and happiness." Ordinary life. Instead of being told after a few years that the feelings of the person next to my pillow are all drama. What I hate is that he cut off another possibility of my life, the possibility of true love. This is the same as what he loves Whether it's male or female, it doesn't matter."

Speaking of this, Zhang Fenghui sighed deeply: "I lived with your aunt these days, and I have a general understanding of your past affairs. Although your aunt cares about me, she is too extreme. I blame my mother for not being strong enough. Having this disease, I couldn’t be by your side when your puberty was formed. You have suffered all these years. Mom asks for your forgiveness. Don’t resent your aunt or your mother.”

Shen Mo put his hand on Zhang Fenghui's lap, unable to utter a word, and heard Zhang Fenghui say: "I thought a lot, and I came back after I figured it out. Xiaomo, now mother is telling you solemnly, mother hopes to see you Choose the life path you like, choose the person you like, and then live your life seriously and take your feelings seriously. Instead of learning from your father, you not only insult his feelings, but also insult and delay others.”

Shen Mo couldn't bear it anymore, tears fell down and wet the floor, Tangyuan curiously went over to smell it, and then walked away in disgust.He buried his head in Zhang Fenghui's lap, feeling his mother's hand stroking his head, and a question came from above his head: "Xiaomo, go home with mother, okay?"

"......it is good."

The author has something to say: the sub-cp small theater at the end of the chapter:

Tian Shui: "Where am I? I don't know where I am."

Tangyuan: "I'm going to move, I'm very annoyed."

Shot put: "I don't know where I am, meow~"