summer and roses

What kind of person is Lao Mu?

I can't tell whether it is good or bad, maybe the world of adults cannot be black and white.

Lao Mu said that he had a hard background when he was a child, and his parents suffered from being illiterate, so they gritted their teeth and wanted to support him in studying. There are two younger brothers and a younger sister under him, and the family is actually a bit difficult.Later, Lao Mu continued to strive for self-improvement and was admitted to a good university. In the 90s, he followed the big boss to do business, and gradually became a group of people who got rich first after the reform and opening up.

He and Mucha's mother have been married for about half a year since they met on a blind date, and they were also a qualified good father from the beginning.Mucha had a carefree childhood, there was a car to pick her up and go to and from school, she didn't have to worry about eating and drinking, her mother was from a scholarly family, because she didn't need to work for her income, she studied photography and joined the association, no matter how you look at it, she looks like a family only available in TV dramas.

Unexpectedly, Lao Mu got in touch with his first love, and turned into a good husband and a good father. Although they were not short of their mother and child, the gap in family affection was hard to make up for.

"I heard from my mother that Xiaosan is not as beautiful as her or as educated as her books. She is in the same situation as Lao Mu. He went to work after finishing high school. Later, Xiaosan contacted my dad on his own initiative. How did we get together... …I don’t understand either. Before I went to City B, I heard that Xiaosan got divorced and took care of the children by herself. I said, why can I have a relationship with my dad and still bring a bottle of oil..."

Speaking of this, Mucha snorted coldly, buried her head and took a deep breath of the cigarette.

The sweetness of the blueberry flavor contrasted nicely with the night falling outside the window, You You stood on the balcony looking out of the community, and closed the curtains: "Your dad's car seems to have left...won't you make a phone call?"

"Screw!" Mucha's voice suddenly became louder, "Has he considered the feelings of me and my mother?! I'm only nine years older than that kid, how long?! I'm fucking in primary school! I just ……my mother……"

He suddenly exploded with emotion. He seemed helpless and sad when he lowered his voice before, but now he was suddenly sad.

Mucha couldn't continue speaking at the end, and sat back on the sofa.He put the cigarette butt aside and put it out, raised his hand to cover his face, his mind was in a mess, and his heart was hurting.

With what he knew a long time ago and the actual results in front of him, Mucha still underestimated his ability to bear it.

You Yi was taken aback by him, after thinking about it, he walked from the balcony to sit beside him, and grabbed Mucha's arm.He raised his head in confusion, the corners of his eyes were red, but he didn't cry. With a thought in his mind, You Yi hugged Mu Xia for some unknown reason.

He is not good at words, he is still young, has never seen many entanglements among adults, has no experience and does not know how to persuade him, so he can only clumsily press Mucha's head to his shoulder and chest, and comfort him in a hurry like a wounded dog Afterwards, there was a small animal with a stress response, yelling in a low voice, Mucha, Mucha.

"I'm fine." Mucha said, sniffling, and put his hand on You Yi's side, "I just can't accept it - the conflict between me and my mother is a matter of course, but what's wrong with my mother, he insists on doing this? "

You Yi asked: "Do you want to call Auntie?"

Mucha sat up straight, nodded with a tired face, and took the phone from the side.On the screen, Lao Mu missed several calls, and he seemed to give up at the end of the call. He didn't like to send WeChat with Mu Xia, so he probably wanted to let him have a quiet time.

He skillfully dragged out Ms. Liang Ning's phone number from the address book, and wrote "Boss Liang" in the note, but he didn't press the dial button for a long time—Mucha's intuition was that his mother must know, but in such a hurry What happened when they were going back to G city? Could it be that they want to divorce and ask his opinion?Lao Mu's parents can't agree.

"Call?" You Yi said, "I'll go to the study to stay when you call."

Mucha was laughed at by him, half of the boulder fell to the ground, and briskly dialed the number: "No, you don't understand when we're chatting."

You Yi put one leg across Mucha's knee, and took the remote control to turn down the volume of the football game broadcast on TV.He leaned on the back of the sofa, looked straight at Mucha, barely sat upright when he was on the phone, but his expression was unprecedentedly disappointed.

His facial features are plain, single eyelids, thin lips, straight nose, but when combined together, he is not so deserted.At this moment, Mucha frowned, with the corners of her slender eyes drooping slightly, and spoke in a low voice.

"I don't want to go back for the time being. I'm staying at a classmate's house. Don't worry. Be quiet. It's absolutely impossible to accept it so quickly." He still needed to vent, but immediately calmed down in front of his mother's fragility, "I don't agree. You divorced—everything is cheap, that woman...did he just know that the child is his own?"

After hearing what Liang Ning said, Mu Xia frowned even more: "Okay, it's okay, don't cry, we'll discuss it again. It's up to you whether you go home or not during the Spring Festival... Remember to call grandma."

After saying this sentence, he hung up the call, threw the phone to the corner of the sofa, and fell on You Yi's body.

Youyou rubbed his hair: "What did Auntie say?"

"I caught them on a date before I came here to study. My mother told her in-laws directly, and the two sides stopped for a while. Now that woman suddenly pushes the child out for a paternity test. I'm afraid she took care of the child herself and didn't have a serious job. Life is hard, I want my dad to get divorced soon." Mu Xia played with his fingers, not as irritable as before, "Actually, if you think about it carefully, the relatives at Grandpa's side are very satisfied with their daughter-in-law, so they probably wouldn't agree He does."

You Yi didn't understand their family affairs, so he had to say "Oh" when Mu Xia said anything.

The person lying sideways on the sofa turned over and hugged You Yi's waist: "I discussed with my mother not to go back to G City during the Chinese New Year, or if they go back, I don't want to... I will get angry when I see Lao Mu."

"Live by yourself?" You You pinched his nose, "Or come over to eat and drink?"

Mucha blinked her eyes, waved You Yi's hand away, and asked a little cautiously: "Is it okay to live at your house? If it's okay, I really won't go back."

You Yue smiled, looking around the living room and kitchen in his home, which was not very lively: "Okay."

With such a simple word, and the fluffy tone of voice, Mucha lay on the sofa, his eyes hurt a little from the warm yellow chandelier.He raised his hand and rubbed it, feeling that the corners of his eyes were wet. He watched the football game while cruising beside him. He could put his foot on the other's shoulder with one lift, and he had to shrink his legs because he scratched his feet in disgust.

Thousands of lights are on, and the winter vacation is approaching quietly. The path he takes is completely different from what he imagined.

Later, Mucha accidentally saw from a book that the influence of the so-called native family on ordinary people is deeply ingrained, and may not be able to get rid of it in his whole life.He reflected that his overly worrying about gains and losses probably had something to do with it, and his independent life attitude was also inseparable from Lao Mu's mistakes, not to mention that he often used the other party's behavior to warn himself.

These may be the marks engraved in his bones, which cannot be changed, and can only be accepted calmly and compromised slowly.

He met You You when his temper was most cloudy and uncertain, and the two people who had a lot in common got together. The edges and corners of their bodies had not yet been smoothed out, but they learned to shake hands and make peace with contradictions without a teacher.

If there is no cruising, Mucha thought, maybe there will be another person who will lead him to a mature future.

But it is already him, the established facts cannot be modified, and he is quite satisfied with the result—in Ringo's words, this is called fatalism. At this moment, he meets You Yue.

Mucha likes this statement.

You Yi doesn't know how Mucha communicates with his family, maybe the adults are already overwhelmed, anyway, Mucha came here with a change of clothes and winter homework without much effort.

"Go back before New Year's Eve, and come here on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year." Mu Xia nestled in front of the sofa, grabbing the takeaway spicy pot with You Yi.

He can already eat a little spicy food now, You You said that all the particularity in the past was hypocritical, and he should throw away all his reservations when he encounters delicious food.Mucha couldn't refute, so he had to use a piece of pork ribs to cover You Yi's mouth.

Spit out the bone, Youyou used chopsticks to look for the meat in the bowl: "So I still have to go home for thirty?"

Mucha: "Sure, I haven't reached the time when I can do whatever I want, can't I bear it?"

Youyou finally picked up a piece of lotus root, gnawed it like grinding his teeth, and said vaguely: "It's a bit... I'll go to my grandma's place on New Year's Eve, and Sister Yan will be there, and my parents will probably want to make a video call then."

The time of separation has been shortened from one month to one week, which is enough to make people happy, so much so that Mu Xia was stunned by the news to dilute the complicated emotions brought about by the family affairs.

He lives in Youyou's place, and the brothers and sisters of the Lin family heard that he can live alone when he doesn't want to go home and Youyou's parents are away, and they even joked that G City is better than us.I went out to play a few times. Of course, no one wrote the homework first. The holiday atmosphere is full. The cold and humid climate in the south and the rare clear sky seem to be able to dispel all the haze.

When you get tired from playing, you can play games at home, or Mu Xia can practice sketching and gouache, and squat next to him holding an iPad to watch new episodes that are too late to make up during class.

One day when the sun was warm, Mucha said to You Yi: "Is this what we call living together in advance?"

When these words came to the other party's ear, You Yi was struggling with the steak that was in urgent need of thawing. He subconsciously responded to Mucha, holding up his mobile phone to look up "how to thaw steak", and then immersed the meat and its packaging in cold water.

Holding his sketchbook in his hands, Mucha walked over and leaned against the door frame of the kitchen: "Are you listening?"

"Busy." You Yi said, "Listen, living together... We can talk about 'living' after we earn money. Now we just eat and sleep at home all day, Mi Chong."

Laughing dumbfounded, Mucha agreed with his point of view.

Youyou poked the beef: "It seems to be ok, let's put it for a while. Michong Xiaoxia, don't you want to draw?"

He flipped through the sketchbook, and after reading it, Youyou was speechless.On the blank notebook, a few lines outline a layout similar to the living room corridor. There is a confused figure in the kitchen, at a loss, like a novice who has finished using the float for the first time, an abstract but vivid draft.

Cruising the black line: "Why do you draw me?"

Mucha motioned him to wash his hands: "When I see you, I will draw you. When I go to university to take classes, I will learn about the human body. I hope we will still be together, so I don't need to find another model."

You Yi was taken aback, he didn't understand the meaning: "What human body...?"

Mucha: "Naked|naked."

After saying that, he closed the thick sketchbook with a snap, and the movement sounded like a spring thunder to those with ghosts in their hearts.You Yi blinked his eyes quickly, as if he was secretly brainstorming the picture after the two words, his face turned red in an instant, and he turned around: "Go out, it's very annoying, if you don't help, it will only add to the chaos!"

Oh, I'm ashamed, Mucha whistled, and hurried away holding the notebook before the other party became angry.

It was the first time Yu Yu fried steak, and the results were outstanding, at least surpassing the noodles in the clear soup.Mucha said it was all thanks to the seasoning pack and Kuaishou products, but he couldn't resist admitting that someone was more talented than him.

After he praised, Youyou was very happy: "Then continue tomorrow? I bought several kinds."

Mucha: "Don't... I want to eat hot pot."

You Cruising: "Hypocrisy."

He stared at the plate without speaking, under the dining table, Mucha stepped on You Yi's instep.I am very used to such small movements, and I am no longer at a loss at the beginning. It is a good sign that the physical contact has changed from unfamiliar to familiar and even habitual.

"Cruising." Mucha called him, rubbing his toes against his exposed ankle.

The person whose name was called looked at Mucha, the light in his eyes was gentle and gentle, without the school uniform, desks and dormitory stacked quilts to set off the atmosphere, the sense of daily life for no reason made people forget the words.

He didn't speak for a while, Youyou's eyes curled up: "What are you doing?"

Mucha looked away for a moment, then said softly: "I want to be with you all the time, you are so kind."

He doesn't mention forever and promises, and he chooses his words too carefully, avoiding vows.Usually he talked about his love and baby, but at this time he couldn't speak glibly. After Mu Xia finished speaking, he smiled and moved his feet away from the cruising slippers. He lowered his head and bit the last few bites of steak, feeling the air was quiet.

"I'm very happy." You Yi said suddenly, "You need me."

Then they stopped mentioning this little episode, Mu Xia felt that You Yi was not only his boyfriend, but also understood him too much sometimes, it seemed that You Yi could guess many endless things from just a few words.

A year ago, he would not have believed that he was lucky enough to meet this person at the age of sixteen or seventeen.

Mucha's flight back to G City was on the 29th of the New Year, as if he disliked his hometown, he was stuck in time to return, and he was stuck in time to leave, and he didn't want to stay for a day longer.You Yi sent him to the airport, and he didn't leave after finishing the formalities early, sitting on the stool outside the security check with Mucha in a daze.

"You go back." Mucha shook his hand, put it on his mouth and breathed out, "I'll go in later."

Youyou was pulled by him, his palm was warm and moist: "A little while later."

Mucha turned her head to look at You Yi's expression: "It's only been a while, I'll be back in a few days, what will you do after graduation?"

"I'm going to the university together." You Yi said naturally.

Mucha was stunned, he only knew his goal, but he hadn't made a specific plan, it was only after You Yi said this that he found out exactly where, a certain school, he was blank.But Mucha didn't show it, he responded vaguely, using the cover of the corner to kiss the cruising fingertips, rubbing the thin calluses at the root of the fingers.

"Hey." Youyou called him, "There will be a lantern festival by the river during Chinese New Year, come back early, we'll go see it."

Mucha: "We."

Youyou: "I, and you, don't call Lin Zhan and the others anymore, they follow every time, it's annoying."

Lin Zhan, who was far away in the city, sneezed.

A new security checkpoint was opened in the innermost part, Mucha stood up and picked up his backpack: "It seems to be leaving."

You Yi sat without moving: "Let's go."

Rubbing Youyou's hair, he cut it like a reform-through-labor boy in summer, but now it has grown so long that it almost covers his eyes.Mucha said without beginning or end: "Such hair looks better than short hair, don't cut it - let's go."

He briskly ran two steps to catch up with the end of the security inspection line. He didn't dare to turn his head to look for You Cruise. He wanted to see him again, so he took out his phone and turned on the front camera to shake the crowd behind him.

There are people coming and going at the airport, and the broadcast sound echoes in the departure hall. Which flight is delayed due to the snowstorm, which flight is about to take off, please pass the time to the boarding gate.Dialects from all over the world, local accents, and standard Mandarin are intertwined, causing headaches. Some people leave and some go home.

Mucha didn't find You Cruise from the screen, he was a little lost, but when he cut out of the screen, he received new news.

At Mucha's request, someone's WeChat avatar was replaced with a little tiger meticulously hand-painted by her boyfriend, which doesn't seem to be in the same dimension as the internet celebrity cat emoji.

"Sleep for a while on the road, and tell me when you arrive, kiss."

It's not his style, Mucha coughed twice.

But still a little cute.

The author has something to say: I wanted to write about living together, but I found out that there is nothing to write about living together with little brats, angry.