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Chen Xiaorong frowned and looked at Qiu Xing for a while, basically confirming that this was the truth.

When she saw the video, she thought it might be true, but she didn't dare to make a decision without asking Qiu Xing to confirm it.As a manager, the artist under her suffered from depression, but she was completely unaware that she had also neglected her duty.

Chen Xiaorong snatched the phone back and turned it off: "Don't worry too much, the company will find a way to deal with this matter, don't read those comments on the Internet to affect yourself."

Hearing this, Qiu Xing was very moved, his nose was a little sore, and he said, "Thank you, Sister Chen."

At this time, Chen Xiaorong didn't blame him for not reporting it. He didn't blame him for accidentally being photographed. Instead, he took care of his emotions and simply comforted him. Qiu Xing also calmed down a bit.

Chen Xiaorong had just taken over Qiu Xing not long ago, and he didn't mince words with him, and directly asked the doubts in his heart: "This video should be someone who specifically blackmailed you, do you have a clue in your mind, who could this person be?"

Qiu Xing just watched the video, and it was shot completely, from the moment he came out of the dance classroom, to the consultation room at Anding Hospital, and then back to the dance classroom after he came out of the hospital.It can be seen that the person who took the picture was very patient. In order to make time and logic match, he kept squatting on him. It is impossible for the other party to miss Ning Jinyue coming to pick him up every day.However, no news about Ning Jinyue was released at all, and Qiu Xing already had some guesses in his mind for those who did not deal with him and did not want to affect Ning Jinyue.

Seeing that he didn't answer for a long time, Chen Xiaorong patted his arm: "It doesn't matter if you can't think of it, I will find someone to look it up." In order to ease Qiuxing's mood, Chen Xiaorong made a lame joke, "Someone deliberately hacked you , it means that you are about to become popular, trust my intuition."

Qiu Xing smiled with difficulty pulling the corners of his mouth.

Chen Xiaorong added: "Maybe your vacation plan will be postponed, we have to arrange an exclusive interview. Actually it's not a big deal, maybe you can get a lot of sympathy points." She tried her best to comfort her.

Qiu Xing nodded. In this situation, he is not serious enough to go on vacation as if nothing had happened.

Chen Xiaorong left in a hurry, Qiu Xing's cell phone upstairs rang immediately, and it was six o'clock, and all the calls came in.

Qiu Xing went upstairs, took the phone and checked, it was Liu Wei who called, and Liu Wei is now accompanying He Xiaodong to attend a music festival in other places.

Liu Wei also accurately conveyed his nervousness to Qiu Xing through the phone, and asked a series of questions like a firecracker: "Are you okay? The revelation is true? Are you really depressed? Why don't I know at all?" , Xiaoqiu, don't worry, I'll be back in three days, I..."

Qiu Xing rubbed his temples wearily, his head started to hurt again: "I'm fine."

"That is true?"

"It's just ordinary chatting, to relieve depression and depression. You have more water than I do in this kind of revelation." Qiu Xing lay on his back on the bed, looking at the ceiling expressionlessly.

Hearing this, Liu Wei seemed relieved, and asked again: "Then how to deal with it?"

"Chen Xiaorong said she knew how to deal with it."

"That's good." Obviously Liu Wei felt that Chen Xiaorong was more trustworthy than himself, and after relaxing, he complained to Qiu Xing, "Why don't you talk to me, psychiatrists are cheating money."

Qiu Xing blinked slowly: "Isn't it trendy? I'm such a fashionista."

"Hey, the key is that it was photographed. Xiaoqiu, are you really okay?"

Qiu Xing smiled: "Yes, my weight loss progress is slow, this is a big problem."

"It's good to have progress. I've been losing weight for many years, and the more I lose, the fatter I get."

Qiu Xing laughed dryly: "I'm fine, go get busy, are you up so early?"

"What, I didn't sleep all night. Well, I'll be back in three days, and I'll see you then."

As soon as Liu Wei hung up the phone, all kinds of calls came in.Qiu Xing knew that he was here to find out if he was really depressed, and when it was over, he would worry about you like Liu Wei, racking his brains for a few words of comfort, but none of them made sense, while those double-faced people are here to comfort you , On the other side, your information will be disclosed to others.

Qiu Xing turned off the phone irritably, took the tablet, and checked his profile on Weibo.

He hasn't completely got rid of the "vase", and no one thought that a "vase" like him could also make a movie with depression. There is no artist's life but an artist's disease.

Qiu Xing was originally not very popular with passers-by, and there were many sunspots, so one can imagine that there are many harsh words in this kind of news.He scrolled down one by one, his eyes seemed to automatically filter out those voices of support and comfort.It was anger at first, and numbness after the anger. For a moment, Qiu Xing seemed to feel that he had lost the ability to perceive the outside world.

It's not like he hasn't seen this kind of raging strange malice before. At that time, he was young and felt uncomfortable at first, but then he sneered at it, and finally took it lightly. He felt that it was a very stupid thing to let strangers' malicious hurt.

But now he couldn't stop doing this stupid thing, and then began to resent himself, why couldn't he be stronger and more confident.In the final analysis, it is still my own fault. There are so many people who live harder and more difficult lives than him. Why do others always face life optimistically?

Qiu Xing was a little hysterical. It was the first time he had the thought that if he died, he wouldn't have to bear it anymore.

During this period of time, he has been preventing himself from thinking this way, and has been secretly competing with himself. Every time he touches the edge of this thought, he shrinks back. Suddenly, such a clear idea popped up and shocked him.

Qiu Xing quickly stopped himself from thinking this way, he ran to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, and took out a huge bucket of ice cream from the freezer.Eating sweets contributes to a happy mood and he should be eating more of it now.

The ice cream is delicious, he should be alive and well.

After eating most of the bucket early in the morning, my stomach couldn't bear the stimulation and began to throb. Qiu Xing ran to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet while holding the toilet.The familiar feeling of despair came again, Qiu Xing sat slumped on the ground, leaning against the bathtub, his mouth filled with the sweet taste of vanilla ice cream.

He found that he was not good at all, his depression and anxiety, the resulting binge eating and vomiting, the resulting obesity, and the obesity aggravated the depression and anxiety.

Qiu Xing felt that he had entered an endless loop, and he would never get better, except...

He was so caught up in such despair that he didn't even hear his own door open.

When Ning Jinyue found Qiu Xing in the bathroom, he was still sitting on the cold marble floor, and the whole bathroom smelled of sweet and greasy cream.

Ning Jinyue also saw those news, compared to others, he was not so surprised.He had already felt that something was wrong with Qiu Xing during this period, but he couldn't explain it. Now he finally understood that something was wrong because Qiu Xing was forcing a smile, but he pretended so well that even Ning Jinyue, who thought he knew him very well, didn't notice it. .

Ning Jinyue didn't pull him hastily, nor did he ask any questions, but at the door, he called softly: "Qiu Xing."

Qiu Xing raised his head slowly as if his reaction was a little slow, his eyes were a little red, his face was pale, a layer of cold sweat broke out on his forehead, and a few strands of hair stuck to his forehead.

It wasn't until he met Ning Jinyue's eyes that his pupils shrank, and as if all his senses had returned, he hurriedly stood up: "Why are you here?"

"Are you ok?"

"I'm fine." Qiu Xing waved his hand and walked towards him, his feet went limp just as he took a step, he didn't realize that his lower limbs were already numb after sitting for too long.

Fortunately, Ning Jinyue rushed in quickly to support him.

Qiu Xing smiled at him apologetically: "My feet are numb."

"Then I'll carry you out."

"It's enough to hold him up," Ning Jinyue put him on his shoulders, Qiu Xing smiled, "It would be embarrassing if I couldn't hug him up?"

"I can hug him." Ning Jinyue said, after pulling Qiu Xing's arms around his neck, one hand clasped his back and the other his thighs, he really hugged Qiu Xing firmly in a horizontal hug, and walked out I glanced at the toilet.

He put Qiuxing on the dining table, opened the food packaging bag and said, "I brought you breakfast, the preserved egg and lean pork porridge you told me about last night."

Qiu Xing was a little stunned, did he tell Ning Jinyue this last night?

"Have you brushed your teeth? Go brush your teeth and drink porridge first."

After being reminded, Qiu Xing remembered that he had just vomited, and he went back to the bathroom to brush his teeth.

Hearing the sound of the toilet flushing, Ning Jinyue walked in, hugged Qiu Xing's waist from behind in front of the mirror of the washbasin, followed Qiu Xing's bent back, and crawled behind him feebly, covering his face Buried in Qiu Xing's shoulder.

Qiu Xing asked with foam all over his mouth: "What are you doing, get up, I'm brushing my teeth."

Ning Jinyue didn't move, his lips pressed against the skin of his neck, and the hot and humid breath sprayed on his skin.Ning Jinyue murmured to him: "Qiu Xing, I love you."

Qiu Xing's arm paused.

Ning Jinyue said again: "I love you so much, more than anyone else, including myself. You definitely don't know how much I love you."

"I didn't miss you for a moment during those years in the United States, but you are not mine at all. You don't need anything. You live a very good and happy life. The most important thing you don't lack is love. This makes me very desperate, the most desperate I thought about suicide at the time."

"When I put the muzzle of the gun in my mouth and pressed it against the roof of my mouth, I still remember tasting a smell of rust and gunpowder. Then I thought, I am not afraid of death, why dare I fight you? I Say to yourself, if Ning Jinming can give up everything for you like me, then I will give up on you, stay away from you forever, and bless you."

"But Ning Jinming gave up on you, so Qiu Xing, you are destined to be mine."

Qiu Xing was so startled that he swallowed two mouthfuls of saliva unconsciously, and swallowed the foam of toothpaste in his mouth.He stared at Ning Jinyue's eyes in the mirror in surprise, not knowing what to say for a moment.

After a long time, Qiu Xing finally remembered that he was brushing his teeth. He rinsed the froth from his mouth and asked, "Why are you saying this all of a sudden?"

"To tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. To let you know that you mean more than just to yourself, but to me, to your mom and everyone who loves you."

Qiu Xing frowned and stared at Ning Jinyue in the mirror. He had to admit that he had just been shocked by Ning Jinyue's confession, and at the same time deeply felt Ning Jinyue's heavy feelings on him.This feeling is a responsibility, but also a shackle, which weighs heavily on him and holds him firmly, making him unable to commit suicide or escape.

He understood Ning Jinyue's meaning, pushed him away with a cold face, went out and sat silently at the dinner table.