Mr. Hat who was forced to lose his memory

There was no one in the tavern, and the lights above were a bit dim, but when Honda Ju and Nakahara Nakaya came in, someone immediately stood up and greeted them: "Here, here!"

"This person is a companion I just met, called Kusano Shinpei. Without his help, the publication of "Song of the Goat" would not have been so smooth." Zhongya Nakahara introduced to Honda Ju.

"Hello, this is Honda Ju." Honda Ju nodded.

So Kusano Shinpei quickly asked the two to sit down, and he brought two companions over, sitting on both sides of the table and drinking wine.Kusano Shinpei also took the opportunity to introduce: "This is Tan Yixiong, and the person opposite him is..."

"—Shuji Tsushima?" Honda Ju took up Kusano Shinpei's words. He didn't know the other person, but he did know the person opposite. He had met him a few times before, and he didn't expect to meet on this occasion. .

"No." The young man retorted softly, "My name is Osamu Dazai."

"Yes, it's Osamu Dazai. Mr. Nakahara, you guys also know each other. I didn't expect Mr. Honda to know Mr. Dazai." Kusano Shinhei greeted the waiter, and ordered two bottles of wine for Honda Ju and Nakahara Nakaya. Had two glasses.

It was only then that Honda Ju remembered that Shuji Tsushima used "Osamu Dazai" as his pseudonym to publish an article for the first time in February last year, and he has continued to use this name since then.So he apologized: "Sorry, I was abrupt."

Zhong Yuanzhong also frowned, but didn't say anything, and could only say "hmm" a few times.The fine wine was right in front of him, and he took it and proudly sipped a small glass. When pouring the second glass, Osamu Dazai, who was sitting next to him, took the initiative to speak flatteringly, "It's the first time we met, Mr. Nakahara is just as rumored. The best of the bunch..."

"Don't say such respectful words to me anymore, what I hate the most is this kind of very respectful words." Nakahara also interrupted his words mercilessly, successfully making Osamu Dazai's smile stiff for a moment.

"Uh... yes, I'm very sorry..." Osamu Dazai lowered his head and stopped talking.

Seeing this, Honda Chrysanthemum thought to himself that it was terrible. Once Nakahara was drunk, he would pester the person closest to him indiscriminately, and he was upright by nature. people on the surface.If the Central Plains were to become arrogant and unreasonable, the first person to suffer must be Dazai Zhi who was closest to him.

In order to prevent a brawl in the tavern, Honda Chrysanthemum wanted to stand up and change seats with Dazai Osamu who was diagonally opposite him. At least Nakahara Chuya still respected him. He had beaten many people when he was drunk, but he had never beaten Honda Chrysanthemum. .

But before he could take action, Zhong Yuanzhong, who was getting more drunk, started to mess around as usual.Even though Osamu Dazai's voice became smaller and smaller, and he kept using ambiguous words such as "yes", "I don't think so" and "Is that so?" to avoid Nakahara Chu's increasingly sharp words, but the latter did not at all Wanting to let others go just like this, it just intensified.

"What, you bastard. You have an expression like a mackerel floating in the air." Nakahara Nakaya stared at Osamu Dazai's face and said bluntly.

Osamu Dazai kept silent, with an expression on the verge of tears, as if he had begun to regret why he had provoked a guy like Nakahara Nakaya who was so unreasonable when he drank.

"Hello? What kind of flowers do you guys like?"

Osamu Dazai looked as if he had jumped off a cliff, but he replied intermittently in a sweet voice, as if he was about to cry, "Peach... Peach Blossom."

"Hey, that's why you're talking about you." Nakahara Chuya's voice made people tremble, and the question became more and more outrageous, "Do you know what color war is?"

Without waiting for Osamu Dazai to answer, Zhong Yuanzhong asked himself and answered: "...brown color is the color of manure. Do you know?"

"Yes, is that so?" Osamu Dazai, who was forced to be an audience, responded in a low voice, trying to narrow his sense of existence.

After that, the development of the situation completely exceeded Honda Ju's expectations... No, it may not be accurate to say this, because Honda Ju really knows exactly what Nakahara Chu will do when he is drunk.In short, the scuffle happened inexplicably. Nakahara Nakaya broke a wine bottle, and the sound of ding dong jingle splashed the fragments, which made people's heart jump. Honda Ju quickly went around Nakahara Nakaya's back to stop his crazy behavior.

"Please calm down, Chuya!"

It was not easy for Zhong Yuanzhong to calm down a little after several friends took turns to fight. The wine could not continue to drink, so everyone broke up like this.Fearing that Nakahara would have an accident on the way back, several friends decided to accompany him back, while Honda Ju decided to go back with Osamu Dazai and parted ways with the others.

The streets on the road were empty, so Osamu Dazai completely removed the disguise he had been wearing on his face before, and his tone was no longer soft and sweet as before.

"His clothes glowed with oil under the electric light, and he looked like a slug shining like a slug. He really isn't someone worth dating." Osamu Dazai cursed with a gloomy expression—in front of Nakahara Chuya, he I absolutely dare not say any bad words. "I've never had such a distasteful fellow, and the way he messes around is unbearable."

Nakahara Chu does give people a different feeling, but it is quite rare for Osamu Dazai to hate and scold him so instinctively.

"Sigh... Chuya is indeed more... bold after drinking." Honda Ju could only reply with a dry smile.

Unexpectedly, the bad relationship between Dazai Osamu and Nakahara Chuya did not end here.

When drinking for the second time, Nakahara was also drunk, and started messing around with Osamu Dazai just like the last time.As early as when Zhongyuan Zhongye started to feel drunk, Osamu Dazai saw that the situation was not going well, so he slipped away from the banquet on the pretext of feeling unwell.

As a result, Chuya Nakahara was very excited this time, and insisted on going to Osamu Dazai's house no matter what, Honda Ju and Tan Kazuo couldn't persuade him, so in order to prevent accidents, they could only follow him closely at all times.

Chuya Nakahara knocked on the door of Osamu Dazai's house, and after a while, the person who opened the door was Osamu Dazai's wife.

"Sir, you are not feeling well and are sleeping."

"What? Asleep? It's fine if you scream!" Nakahara Nakaya thought to himself and wanted to go up to the second floor to scream Dazai Osamu, so Tan Kazuo grabbed his wrist and easily The short youth was thrown outside.

"You bastard!" Zhong Yuanzhong also punched him, but unfortunately it didn't seem to be lethal, and the expression on Tan Yixiong's face remained completely unchanged.

"Okay, you're good." Zhongyuan Zhong also muttered bitterly, while brushing off the snow from his body.

It was a snowy night outside that day, and the snowflakes fell on my body, leaving mottled spots on the ground.The Central Plains also saw this situation, squinted their eyes, and couldn't help but sighed softly: "Amidst the filthy sorrow, there is also a small snowfall today..."

It's over, I'm really drunk, and I don't forget to chant poems at such moments.

Honda Chrysanthemum had a headache, and he and Tan Yixiong stood up together.Before leaving, Honda Ju did not forget to apologize to Dazai Osamu's wife: "I am very sorry for disturbing you at night."

Although everything seems to be normal, since then, Zhongye's living conditions in Zhongyuan have taken a sharp turn for the worse.His beloved son, Zhong Yuanwen, was also hospitalized two years later due to a sudden illness. Even though Zhong Yuan Zhong stayed with him to see the doctor non-stop, Zhong Yuanwen died of tuberculosis in the end. Zhong Yuan Zhong also hugged his son when he was buried. His body refused to let go, and was finally persuaded to bury it.For more than a month after that, Zhongyuan Zhong also invited monks to come to his home for salvation every day, and wrote several essays to pay homage to the soul of the deceased son. This grief was not even after the birth of his second son Zhongyuan Aiya a month later. Completely healed.

When Honda Ju saw Nakahara Chuya again, his expression was very haggard, and it would not be an exaggeration to describe him as haggard.Because of the pain of losing his son, his spirit was greatly affected, and his neurasthenia became more and more severe.

Honda Ju asked very worriedly: "Are you okay, Chuya? You need to rest."

"My friend also persuaded me in the same way." The dark circles under Zhongya Zhongya's eyes were clearly visible. He pinched the center of his brows, and his tone was no longer as calm as before. "The translation of Rimbaud's Poems has been completed. It will be published by Noda Shobo. The original manuscript of my second collection of poems "Songs of the Past" has been entrusted to my friend. My mother wants me to go back, so I will go back to Yamaguchi to live in seclusion for a while, when I feel better Come back to Tokyo."

"Okay, please take care of yourself, write to me if you have any questions, and I will do my best to help." Honda Ju said.

However, what Honda Ju didn't expect was that that would be their last meeting.When I learned about Zhongye's activities again, it was the news that he had passed away.

Less than ten days after that meeting, Chuya Nakahara fainted in the square in front of Kamakura Station and was sent to a local nursing home for treatment. The doctor diagnosed him with acute meningitis.A few days later, Chuya Chuya's consciousness was completely clouded, and he passed away a week later at the age of 30.

The turn of events happened so fast that Honda was not even fully prepared for it.

Nakahara Chuya's former friend notified Honda Ju of the news with red eyes, Honda Ju was silent for a long time, and finally replied softly: "I understand, thank you for conveying."

He should have gotten used to it a long time ago. Human life is so short, and it will disappear one day so unexpectedly.

In April of the following year, a friend of Chuya Zhongyuan sorted out his posthumous work "Songs of the Past", and it was published by Chuangyuanshe.Honda Ju bought a copy and put it in his study, side by side with "Song of the Goat".

Friends I met in the past would send a copy to Honda Ju after publishing their own works, so the study has accumulated a lot of books.The study is the most important place for Honda Chrysanthemum. Without his permission, even the Emperor is not allowed to enter.

Looking at it now, there is a history behind every row of books on the bookshelf.Honda Chrysanthemum rubbed the spine of the book, feeling heavy and relieved in his heart.

Although those people have passed away long ago, their works will always be handed down and remembered by future generations.

……

In Showa 15, Honda Ju and Dazai Osamu met by chance on a street.

At this time, Osamu Dazai had already broken up with his first wife. After several suicide attempts, he also accepted the reality. He met and married his current wife through a blind date. Over the past few years, he has published countless articles in magazines and won many awards. received widespread attention.

"Long time no see." Osamu Dazai said.

"Indeed." Honda Ju nodded, "Want to have a drink?"

Osamu Dazai had no objection, so they went into a nearby bar and ordered two glasses of sake.

"Without the nonsense of the Central Plains, my ears are indeed much cleaner."

The few drinking experiences in the past and in the Central Plains obviously brought an unforgettable experience to Osamu Dazai, so he couldn't help recalling them in a quiet atmosphere.

Honda Chrysanthemum smiled wryly for a few times, took two sips before saying: "Chuya has passed away."

Osamu Dazai paused for a moment, obviously he did not expect such a result.

"...Really." Osamu Dazai lowered his voice, "When did it happen?"

"Two years ago, tuberculous meningitis." After Honda Ju explained briefly, he seemed to want to ease the atmosphere, and added jokingly, "So young people, don't drink too much, Chuya drinks too much. Even the tavernkeeper said that drinking like him is like knowing you won't live long."

It's a pity that it seemed to be counterproductive, and the atmosphere was quiet for a long time instead.A few minutes later, Osamu Dazai laughed a few times slowly.

"As far as death is concerned, it really is Mr. Nakahara." Osamu Dazai finished drinking the sake in the cup, lowered his eyes, and looked at the empty cup in a daze, "This is really a big difference. The death of Tachihara Michizao is called a genius by people, yes What do you think about this? I think he is completely inferior to Mr. Zhongyuan."

It was only at that time that Osamu Dazai would show some respect for the lost Chuya.

He poured a glass of wine into his glass, and when he spoke again, it had already become another topic.

"...Your appearance has not changed at all. So, who are you?"

Among the friends Honda Kiku met, there are those who are as nervous as Nakahara Nakaya, who have never noticed the abnormality of Honda Kiku's appearance for several years until their death; Keenly noticed that his appearance had never changed in any way.

He has never deliberately concealed his identity. Friends will find out if they find out, and forget it if they don't find out.Therefore, after being pointed out by Osamu Dazai, the black-haired young man rested his chin and said casually, "This--because I am actually a ghost that has survived for thousands of years. Don't look at me like this, I am actually an old grandfather."

Osamu Dazai didn't believe this unscientific argument at first, but he finally accepted this fact after he found that Honda Chrysanthemum's appearance hadn't changed at all in the past few years.

"Aren't you afraid that I will spread it?"

"Please don't do this, it will bother me."

After all, only a few people know that he is the soul of the country, and the acceptance of more people is far from that strong. Once it is announced and confirmed as a fact, I am afraid it will cause a huge sensation.

Fortunately, Osamu Dazai was just talking.

"How painful it must be to live as a collection of countries and bear the sins of everyone. Now, will you think about death someday?"

"I don't know, who can tell what will happen in the future?"

It is true that no one can tell what will happen in the future, and in the end Osamu Dazai also went to the end of his death.In Showa 23, after completing his posthumous work "No Longer Human", he left unfinished "Goodbye" and several suicide notes, and committed suicide by throwing himself into the river with a female reader who admired him. Six days later, the body of Osamu Dazai It was discovered that the day was his 39th birthday.

After that, many years passed, until Emperor Hirohito died of illness, and the Showa era officially ended.The next day, Crown Prince Akihito was inaugurated as the next emperor, and the name was changed to Heisei.

At the moment when he stepped into the new century, the existence of Honda Ju suddenly seemed to be wiped off the earth and disappeared completely. All nobles including the emperor, and all human friends who had known him forgot his existence. It seems that the national soul has never existed for thousands of years.

The author has something to say: the episode of drinking is a reference to the movie "No Man in the World" and a part of Tan Kazuo's "Novel Dazai Osamu".

By the way, toma sauce acted really well in the movie hhhhh