Mr. Hat who was forced to lose his memory

There is also a characteristic in the Central Plains - every time you drink, you will get drunk, and every time you get drunk, you will go crazy.

In this regard, his friends who often drink with him and the owner of the bar quite empathize. When this person becomes drunk, he really can’t pull back ten cows, and he will also enter a state of indiscriminate attack.In layman's terms, when Nakahara Nakaya is drunk, you must be careful, because he will fight and quarrel, which often makes many friends unwilling to drink with him. The bar he often goes to It also almost closed down because of the few people who came.

"Chuya, stop drinking, you're drunk..."

"I... I'm not drunk!"

Looking at Chuya Nakahara, who has entered the state of drunken madness and completely ignores the state of others, and is still swearing fiercely at others, Honda Ju has no choice but to move his seat to the side silently to avoid being implicated.

The sake is very mellow and delicious, but it's a pity that the drinker's capacity for alcohol is not very good.

The bar owner obviously has known Zhongya Zhongya for a long time. He sat behind the bar and spoke to Honda Ju in a tone of admiration: "Many people dare not drink with Mr. Zhongyuan. You are still the first one, a strong man."

"How should I put it... In fact, I also have a friend who has a drinking capacity similar to that of Zhong, and he will go crazy when he gets drunk, so... I'm used to it." Honda Ju replied with some helplessness.

The friend was talking about Arthur Kirkland, of course.A long time ago, this Englishman came to Japan and lived in his house for a period of time, but the next day he said that his house was haunted, and the noise made him unable to sleep peacefully at night, which shocked Honda Ju.

Later, the two of them drank together in the bar. Originally, Honda Ju only ordered a glass of sake and was sipping it in his mouth. As a result, Arthur suffocated the whole bottle in one gulp. It was not enough, and another five bottles were served. Asking for the most expensive one made the bar owner smile.

As a result... Naturally, he fell into a state of drunken madness. Arthur smashed a lot of facilities in the bar and scolded the people he hated in his heart. He scolded Alfred, Francis, Ivan and others in turn, and then went He burst into tears, still murmuring inarticulately.Honda Chrysanthemum almost apologized to the bar owner, Dogeza, and later promised to compensate for all losses and renovate the bar, and finally made the bar owner put down the call to the police.

Carrying a drunkard back home was also difficult. On the way, Arthur almost vomited on Honda Chrysanthemum countless times, which can be described as full of ugliness.Arthur woke up from a hangover the next day and was naturally ashamed and indignant. Faced with the troubled Honda Chrysanthemum, he endured a headache that was about to burst and went back to England by boat that day in an attempt to escape reality.

What a headache.

"Chuya always...does this happen every time he drinks?" Honda Ju whispered.

"Oh... yes. Celebrate when you write a new work, celebrate when a new work is published, and celebrate when you meet new friends. Anyway, there are various reasons, and no one can stop him when he gets excited. So many people are reluctant to drink with him." The bar owner replied with some nerve-wracking, and then he glanced at Nakahara Chuya, who was already addicted to his own world, and then lowered his voice and whispered to Honda Ju, "Let me tell the truth, because of Mr. Zhongyuan, many people are reluctant to come to my bar, so the business has been relatively bleak, and it is about to go bankrupt. If possible, please persuade Mr. Zhongyuan, business is also the same It's not easy."

It was obviously something that had nothing to do with him, but Honda Ju couldn't help but start to worry about Chuya Nakahara, and apologetically agreed as if his own child had made a mistake: "I'm very sorry, I will persuade Chuya well."

I knew I shouldn't have agreed to the so-called drinking invitation, but in the end I still have to clean up the mess by myself...

After finally persuading Nakahara Nakaya to put down his glass and leave the bar, it was getting dark outside, so Honda Ju asked: "Nakaya, where do you live, shall I take you back?"

He was really worried about letting Nakahara Zhongya go back on the dark street alone in a drunk state. After all, it was freezing December, if he passed out drunk on the side of the road without any measures to keep warm , would most likely freeze to death unconsciously.

As a result, it was natural that he could not expect to get the news he wanted from a drunkard, so Honda Ju had no choice but to find a hotel outside, and paid for Zhongya Nakahara for one night in advance, and did not forget to leave a night before leaving. A note reminding him to take care of his body and drink less alcohol. After all, he is only 20 years old and his life is just in its infancy.

As for whether the note was seen by Zhong Yuanzhong who woke up the next day, and whether the content was taken to heart, that is beyond Honda Ju's control.

After that, Honda Ju never saw Nakahara Nakaya again, but occasionally he would read the poems published by Nakahara Nakaya in some magazines. This person does have a talent in poetry, and he captures the sounds of nature with a keen sense, and uses rhetoric Express your own unique feelings.In the fourth year of the Showa era, Chuya Nakahara founded the fanzine "Idiots" with his friends, and everything seemed to be going well.

——Until Honda Chrysanthemum accidentally saw Chuya Nakahara when passing a certain police station.

"...What's going on here?" Honda Ju looked at the short young man with his head drooping and looking listless.

"Ah, Mr. Honda. Because this person was reported to have broken something in someone else's house, and he didn't have anything to prove his identity, he has been detained until now." The police officer explained in a low voice.

Knowing that Nakahara had been detained for fifteen days, Honda Ju used his relationship to release him on bail.

After questioning, Honda Ju found out what had happened.It turned out that because the fanzine "Idiots" was established smoothly, Nakahara and his two friends went to drink and celebrate together. On the way back, the drunk Nakahara used an umbrella to smash a street lamp in a house on the road. .The owner of the family quickly arrested the three of them and sent them to the police station. Since his two friends were teachers, they were released after five days. However, Zhongya Zhongya had no identity and was detained for half a month.

After listening to the process, a thought flashed in Honda Ju's mind—drinking is a mistake. This is indeed an eternal truth.

……

Honda Ju did not expect that less than a year had passed, and he would meet someone he had met before in the same police station—three years ago in the Aomori Public Hall, that boy appeared in the police station with the appearance of a fan. The following is a detailed record of every sentence Akutagawa Ryunosuke said.But now, it was the situation of sitting in the cell with a silent face.

The young man is said to be only 21 years old, but he has committed the crime of abetting others to commit suicide.Although the man insisted repeatedly that it was a love affair, the police didn't believe his words, and only said coldly that we would notify you after the results came out.

Later, they detected the ingredients of sleeping pills in the thing vomited out of the young man's stomach, and they believed that he really wanted to "die for love" and committed suicide by taking sleeping pills with a 17-year-old girl, but he survived , but the girl failed to survive.

Afterwards, the incident naturally ended, and the young man was acquitted.

It was also at this time that Honda Ju knew the young man's name—Shuji Tsushima.

"...Why do you want to commit suicide?"

Sitting in a coffee shop, the young man lowered his head, silently stirring the steaming coffee in his cup with a spoon.There was no expression on his face, even when he heard such a question, he just raised his eyes and glanced at the other party.

In fact, until he sat down in this coffee shop, Shuji Tsushima kept smiling like a mask, and greeted each other with that sweet and lively tone.However, this point was mercilessly exposed by Honda Chrysanthemum.

——In front of me, you don't have to bother playing a buffoon to please others.

Like a needle pricking an inflated balloon, everything disappeared with a bang.

Was discovered.

After only meeting him twice, the other party discovered the disguise he had been relying on to survive.

Originally, it was something that would cause him to panic, but the strange thing is that in front of Honda Ju, Shuji Tsushima felt like—ah, finally he can take a little rest.

Obviously he is not familiar with Honda Ju, but his subconscious mind can always relax his vigilance against him.

"Why do you want to live?" Shuji Tsushima asked back.His voice has returned to normal, and it is no longer sweet and weak as usual.

To be honest, Honda chrysanthemum rarely considers this kind of problem.

He is the soul of the country that has lived for thousands of years. It has been alive since the birth of Japan, and death is very far away.To live——for Honda Kiku, it means living and dying with everything in Japan. As long as the country and people exist, he will not perish.

Therefore, Honda Ju did not give an answer for a long time.

Fortunately, Shuji Tsushima didn't seem to be obsessed with getting an answer. After finishing his coffee, he stood up and said goodbye.

Honda Ju looked at the back of the other party leaving, and then lowered his head, staring at the steaming coffee in front of him, lost in thought.

What is the meaning of life to me?

I have witnessed the departure of so many people, but I have been staying in the same place, my appearance may not have changed for a long time, and I am only accompanied by the land and the loneliness that is always with me.

But... Sometimes, the people I meet make Honda Ju feel a little nostalgic for the world.That's why he lives among the common people, instead of claiming to be of noble birth like a nobleman, thereby dividing the class from the common people.

After all, it's all because he loves this land deeply.

……

In Showa [-], Nakahara Nakaya was finally able to successfully publish the first collection of poems in this ill-fated life, "The Song of the Goat". He gave Honda Ju a copy and invited Honda Ju to go drinking at night.The collection of poems is a luxurious hardcover large format, which is enough to see how much thought the author has put into it.

Honda Chrysanthemum recalled many things that happened to Nakahara Chuya when he was drunk in the past, and it was extremely rare that he wanted to refuse.But since he had already accepted the poetry collection sent by others, he couldn't refuse directly, so he had no choice but to agree as if he was going to die.

On the way to the bar, Honda Ju said: "I heard that you got married recently, congratulations."

It seems that Chuya Nakahara is in a very good mood because the poetry collection that has not been published before can finally be published smoothly. After all, it is his hard work for many years.

"Yes, the child is already born, and I named him Wen Ye." Zhong Yuanzhong replied without hesitation, "I will go back to Yamaguchi to live for a while after I finish publishing the poetry collection, and I can take care of my wife and children. Concentrate on translating the remaining untranslated parts of Rimbaud's Poems."

During the two years of waiting for the official publication of the poetry anthology "Song of the Goat", Nakahara has also completed the translation of "Rimbaux Poems: Poems of Student Times", which was published by Mikasa Shobo.

Honda Ju didn't expect that he would just give him a collection of Rimbaud's poems when he was a child, but it would arouse his great interest in it, and he would embark on the path of poetry creation and translation in the future.

But everything seems to be moving in the right direction.

Zhongya Nakahara turned his back and suddenly coughed a few times, causing Honda Ju to look at him with some concern: "What's wrong, Chuya?"

"It's okay, I have a little cold recently." Nakahara Zhongya replied with a normal expression.

The moment he entered the bar, he wiped away some of the blood that had just been coughed up from his hands with the black front of his clothes.

The author has something to say: there are not many chapters left to end it