unspeakable love

"Okay, then I'll have dinner by myself tomorrow night."

Xu Xiaochuan suddenly felt very sad. He thought that Lin Kai would not have to eat dinner alone when he came back, but he didn't expect that he would get farther and farther away from him. Xu Xiaochuan felt that he would lose this friend soon, maybe very soon. Soon to be moving out of here.

I am just Lin Kai's tenant now, and he already has someone to associate with, so it seems inappropriate for me to continue living here.

Thinking of this, Xu Xiaochuan's heart felt congested, he couldn't eat any more, he only hurriedly ate two pieces of pizza, then he stood up hurriedly, looked at Lin Kai and said, "I'm full! Back to the room." After speaking, he walked upstairs with a dejected expression.

Back in the room, Xu Xiaochuan closed the door, and leaning against the cold door, a bone-piercing chill rushed over, making Xu Xiaochuan feel as if he had fallen into an ice cave.

Why does my heart hurt so much?Why did Lin Kai's words just now make him feel so uncomfortable?Xu Xiaochuan didn't know what was wrong with him?Why did the thing that I had been hoping for finally come true? Lin Kai finally stopped loving him and found his true love. He should be happy for him, but why did he feel sad?

Xu Xiaochuan hates himself like this very much. He feels that he has become as hypocritical as a woman, and he doesn't know what he really wants.

After returning from this business trip, Xu Xiaochuan found that Lin Kai had undergone earth-shaking changes. He felt that Lin Kai was very indifferent to him and became more and more unfamiliar to him. He couldn't see what Lin Kai was thinking.

When he came home at night, he opened the door and the room was deserted. Xu Xiaochuan had already made mental preparations, because Lin Kai had already said hello last night, and he would not come back for dinner today. This meeting should be at A high-end restaurant had dinner with that Lu Lingfeng.

When Xu Xiaochuan thought of this, his mood became depressed and lonely. Sitting alone at the huge dining table eating instant noodles, Xu Xiaochuan felt very uncomfortable.Maybe it's because he is too attached to Lin Kai, Xu Xiaochuan feels that he can't go on like this anymore, he must learn to be independent, because Lin Kai can't live with him all his life, he will live with his lover Here, at that time, I will be superfluous, and I am just a tenant. What reason is there to stay here so shamelessly?

Thinking of this, Xu Xiaochuan stood up from the chair, and then threw the instant noodles that had eaten two mouthfuls into the trash can outside the door. He decided to cook by himself. It's as difficult as I imagined, nothing is difficult in the world if there is a caring person, Xu Xiaochuan thinks that he can take care of himself, he can cook a delicious dinner for himself.

After working in the kitchen for a long time, Xu Xiaochuan finally cooked a decent dish for himself, three delicacies from the ground.

Looking at the fruits of his labor, Xu Xiaochuan couldn't wait to pick up his chopsticks and taste it. The taste was good, but a little salty. Xu Xiaochuan was already very satisfied to be able to make it like this.

After eating the meal he cooked, Xu Xiaochuan cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks, and put them in the cupboard.

When he walked into the living room, he looked up at the quartz clock hanging on the wall, and found that it was already 08:30, and his favorite variety show had already started.

Xu Xiaochuan hurried to the TV and picked up the remote control. After turning on the TV, he couldn't wait to tune to that station, and then leaned on the sofa excitedly to watch it.

The TV show, as always, made people laugh out loud, and the host's humorous way of hosting made the audience like it very much. Xu Xiaochuan also laughed.

Seeing something so funny, Xu Xiaochuan couldn't help but share it with Lin Kai: "Lin Kai, look at him..."

Turning his head, he found that there was nothing around him, where was Lin Kai's shadow?The smile on Xu Xiaochuan's face suddenly froze, and a feeling of loss came to his heart.

At this time, how I wish there was someone around me who could share my happiness with myself. The world of one person is really lonely.

Xu Xiaochuan turned his head and continued to look at the TV screen. At this time, the female guest appeared on the stage, and the audience screamed one after another. The female guest was wearing a bikini, and the graceful figure made all the men on the scene look surprised. The look, the eyes are shining with happiness and excitement, no wonder the atmosphere at the scene is so warm.

But Xu Xiaochuan didn't know what was wrong with him, why was he not as excited as others when looking at this beauty in a bikini?He didn't feel anything, he didn't feel anything about this sexy and charming woman, didn't he like women?

This suspicion made Xu Xiaochuan break out in a cold sweat, and made him feel fearful and hesitant, oh my god!How is this going?Did I unknowingly become gay?

Xu Xiaochuan didn't dare to think about it anymore, he hurriedly came back to his senses and continued to focus on the TV, staring at the female guest with good eyes. Xu Xiaochuan felt that the female guest must be not beautiful enough, so he just There will be no response.

At this moment, the host had just finished speaking, and as a piece of explosive music sounded, another tall, delicate-faced female guest in a bikini came onto the stage, which once again caused screams and cheers from the scene.

Xu Xiaochuan fixed his eyes on the female guest, but he still didn't react at all. He was neither excited nor excited. Seeing such a beautiful woman without emotional fluctuations is really unreasonable. Xu Xiaochuan felt that he It's over, he seems to have really lost interest in women.

This terrible conclusion made Xu Xiaochuan feel fear and despair, impossible!How can I lose interest in women when I keep saying that I don't love men?

Just when Xu Xiaochuan was thinking wildly, the sound of keys turning the lock suddenly sounded at the door, Xu Xiaochuan hurriedly turned his head to the door, he knew very well in his heart that it was Lin Kai who came back, and Xu Xiaochuan felt very happy when he realized this When Lin Kai came back, he felt inexplicably happy in his heart.

"Lin Kai! Come back..."

Xu Xiaochuan smiled and looked at the man who walked in from the door. Before he finished speaking, he saw Lu Lingfeng behind Lin Kai.

"Hi!"

Lu Lingfeng looked at Xu Xiaochuan with a polite smile, and greeted him warmly.

Xu Xiaochuan's expression froze for a moment before he reacted and hurriedly showed a polite smile to Lu Lingfeng: "Hello!"

Lin Kai and Lu Lingfeng walked to the sofa and sat down opposite Xu Xiaochuan. Xu Xiaochuan noticed that the two were very close, and he knew that they were very close at first glance. He recalled what Lin Kai said to him last night , Xu Xiaochuan realized that the relationship between Lin Kai and Lu Lingfeng was no longer as simple as ordinary friends.

After sitting down, Lin Kai looked at Xu Xiaochuan and asked with a smile: "Xiaochuan, have you had dinner yet?"

Lin Kai's smile is still so gentle, but his eyes are no longer so fiery and ambiguous.

"Well, I ate it."

Xu Xiaochuan squeezed out an unnatural smile. At this moment, he suddenly felt that he was very redundant, like a particularly bright light bulb. He wondered if he should avoid it a little bit, so that Lin Kai and Lu Lingfeng could get along alone. What about space?

Just when Xu Xiaochuan was about to stand up, Lu Lingfeng suddenly looked at the TV screen, then turned his head to look at Xu Xiaochuan and said with a smile: "So you like watching this show too!"

"Well, yes." Xu Xiaochuan said with a smile.

"My younger brother also likes to watch this show. He said it's very funny, and the female guests usually wear very revealing clothes."

Lu Lingfeng started chatting with Xu Xiaochuan, and Xu Xiaochuan felt that it might not be the time for him to leave, so he looked at Lu Lingfeng and continued chatting with him with a slight smile: "Well, that's true! Female guests usually wear very revealing clothes, this time It has attracted a lot of male viewers, and the ratings are still very high.”

"It's a pity that I don't like women. This kind of variety show doesn't appeal to me." Lu Lingfeng shrugged his shoulders with a wicked smile, and said that he turned his eyes to Lin Kai who was beside him. Smile.

Xu Xiaochuan saw Lin Kai looking at Lu Lingfeng with the gentleness of those familiar eyes. Those eyes used to be so familiar. Lin Kai only showed those eyes when he was facing him, but now it is no longer his own, but belonged to another man.

"Ling Feng, I'll get you some fruit!" After speaking, Lin Kai smiled gently and stood up from the sofa.

Ling Feng?It seems that the relationship between the two is indeed very close, and Xu Xiaochuan's heart suddenly clenches tightly together.

Seeing Lin Kai walk into the kitchen, Lu Lingfeng turned his head to look at Xu Xiaochuan and said with a smile, "You are Lin Kai's best friend, right? Tell me what Lin Kai likes to eat the most?"

Lu Lingfeng's words made Xu Xiaochuan's expression froze: "Ah? This..."

"I have confessed to Lin Kai today, I like him, and he likes me, we are together now, I want to love him well, I want him to be happy, so I think since you are his best Friends, you should be very clear about Lin Kai's preferences, can you tell me?"

Xu Xiaochuan looked at Lu Lingfeng's serious expression, he knew that this man really liked Lin Kai, but why did he feel uncomfortable when he realized this?Why don't you want to tell him when you know Lin Kai's preferences?

"This... Lin Kai likes..."

Of course Xu Xiaochuan knew Lin Kai's preferences very well. How could he not know what Lin Kai liked after the two had lived together for so long?But there was a voice in my heart that kept telling me not to talk to Lu Lingfeng, not to talk to him about these things.

Just as Xu Xiaochuan hesitated, Lin Kai came out of the kitchen with a fruit plate.

"What are you two talking about?"

"Oh, nothing!"

Lu Lingfeng hurriedly sat down and turned his head to look at Lin Kai with a slight smile.

"Let's eat grapes!" Lin Kai looked at Lu Lingfeng and said with a smile.

Lu Lingfeng picked up a grape with thin lips, put it in his mouth and chewed it: "Well, it's so sweet! There's also a faint smell of roses."

"This is Muscat grape." Lin Kai said with a smile.

"Well, it's delicious!" Lu Lingfeng said with a smile, picked up a grape and brought it to Lin Kai's mouth: "Come on! I'll feed you!"

Lin Kai was a little embarrassed by Lu Lingfeng's actions, and he glanced at Xu Xiaochuan who was sitting opposite him in panic.

It was the first time that Xu Xiaochuan saw a gay couple show affection in front of him, and Xu Xiaochuan was shocked both visually and spiritually.His face flushed immediately, and he was even more shy and embarrassed than the two parties involved.

"Well... you guys chat slowly, I'll go back to my room to rest first." After speaking, Xu Xiaochuan hurriedly stood up from the sofa with a blushing face, and hurriedly walked upstairs as if he had done something wrong. go.

Back in the room, Xu Xiaochuan's heart was still beating non-stop. Seeing Lin Kai and that Lu Lingfeng kissing me, Xu Xiaochuan felt very heartbroken.

Ever since Lin Kai and Lu Lingfeng formally dated each other, Xu Xiaochuan found that Lin Kai often came home late. He basically didn't go home for dinner, and he usually came home very late. Every time he came back, there was a touch of happiness on his face. sweet smile.

One night half a month later, Lin Kai was still late as usual, and Xu Xiaochuan was sitting alone on the sofa watching boring TV programs.

The sound of the key turning the door lock sounded, and Lin Kai came back.

Xu Xiaochuan subconsciously turned his head to the door: "Lin Kai, you're back!"

"Ah."

There was a gentle smile on Lin Kai's face. After changing his shoes, he walked towards the sofa and sat down beside Xu Xiaochuan.

"Xiao Chuan, I kissed Lu Lingfeng tonight!"

As soon as Lin Kai finished speaking, the piece of pizza in Xu Xiaochuan's hand fell to the ground with a "snap".

"Yes...is it?" Xu Xiaochuan's head thumped, like a thunderbolt from the blue, which shocked and saddened him.

"Xiao Chuan, I think you are my best friend, so I think I should tell you about my affairs. Now I have finally found my own happiness. I am very happy! Are you happy for me too?"

Lin Kai stared at Xu Xiaochuan's face and asked seriously.

"Gao... happy! Of course I'm happy for you! You finally found a good man who loves you, I wish you all!"

Xu Xiaochuan looked at Lin Kai and forced a smile, but that smile was uglier than crying.

"Ling Feng is really kind to me, he is very gentle and romantic, I am very satisfied to have such a partner."

Seeing Lin Kai's happy face, Xu Xiaochuan felt a pain in his heart for no reason, why did he say this in front of him?Xu Xiaochuan didn't want to hear it, and he didn't know what was wrong with him. As long as Lin Kai mentioned Lu Lingfeng in front of him, Xu Xiaochuan felt bad. He even became hostile to Lu Lingfeng, and began to hate this man.