unspeakable love

Xu Xiaochuan looked at Lin Kai a little at a loss, he is an out-and-out straight man, and Lin Kai's behavior towards him in public just now really made Xu Xiaochuan feel very embarrassed.

"Lin Kai, why don't you go see a psychiatrist! I think you are sick! You are really sick! Maybe it can be cured, you should try it! You are wrong! You will Ruined your life!"

What Xu Xiaochuan said made Lin Kai's face suddenly reveal an unbelievable expression, he turned his head and looked at Xu Xiaochuan in astonishment: "Xiaochuan, what do you mean?"

"Lin Kai, you shouldn't like men! Just now you saw how those people talked about homosexuality. This world simply cannot tolerate people like you. I think you are just sick. You should see a doctor. Maybe Homosexuality can be cured, you can change it, maybe you can fall in love with a woman, don't be obsessed with me! Even if we are together, there will be no good results!"

Xu Xiaochuan knew that what he said hurt Lin Kai's heart, but he had to say it, it was all from his heart, he couldn't fall in love with Lin Kai, and he didn't want to fall in love with Lin Kai. Having sex with a man, this kind of assumption will make Xu Xiaochuan feel very panic. He can't let himself become a shameful homosexual, and he also hopes that Lin Kai can come out of this whirlpool and become a normal person.

Xu Xiaochuan's words brought a bitter smile to Lin Kai's face: "Xiaochuan, is it wrong for me to love you? Why can't men be with men? Let me tell you! I, Lin Kai, will love you all my life Xu Xiaochuan! I can't change it! You can't cure my illness!"

Lin Kai's red-eyed domineering confession made Xu Xiaochuan's heart tighten. He had always hoped to be good friends with Lin Kai. He really didn't want to lose Lin Kai as a friend. Xu Xiaochuan looked at Lin Kai like this. Kai felt very distressed. He didn't know what he could do to make this man love him so deeply, but he was destined to fail Lin Kai's affection.

Xu Xiaochuan stopped talking, and the two fell into silence. The car drove fast on the wide road, and stopped at the gate of the villa after thirty minutes.

Xu Xiaochuan unfastened his seat belt, then opened the car door and walked into the house with Lin Kai.

Lin Kai was very depressed. He thought desperately that maybe Xu Xiaochuan would never fall in love with him in his life, and no matter what he did, it would be useless.

Xu Xiaochuan watched as Lin Kai walked into the kitchen, opened the refrigerator door and took out the beer, then turned around and returned to the sofa to sit down, opened the pull ring, raised his head and lightly opened his thin lips, and started to drink.

Seeing Lin Kai like this, Xu Xiaochuan felt unspeakably uncomfortable. He didn't want Lin Kai to be unhappy, but Lin Kai's unhappiness was precisely caused by himself.

"Lin Kai, stop drinking!"

Xu Xiaochuan rushed forward and snatched the beer can from Lin Kai's hand, then put it viciously on the coffee table, seeing Lin Kai being so decadent and haggard for a man like himself, Xu Xiaochuan was heartbroken.

With red eyes, Lin Kai raised his head to look at the lovely and delicate face above his head, a bitter smile curled up on the corner of his mouth.

Xu Xiaochuan sat down beside Lin Kai: "Lin Kai, I really don't know what I have to make you like me so much." Xu Xiaochuan looked at Lin Kai with puzzled eyes: "Look at me I’m not as handsome as you, my figure is not very good, and my ability to work is not as strong as yours. My family background is even more incomparable to yours. What is so good about me as a man that you can never forget? Why don't you like those tall and beautiful girls? How good are they..."

Xu Xiaochuan chattered on and on, he really wanted Lin Kai to let go of his obsession, and hoped that with his three-inch tongue, Lin Kai's head would be enlightened, and he would not continue to go all the way to the dark.

Lin Kai stared at Xu Xiaochuan's lips intently, looking at the two thin red lips, one piece and one closed. Lin Kai couldn't hear what Xu Xiaochuan said, he only knew that he loved this man deeply, and he loved every aspect of this man. Little by little, I love his three-dimensional and handsome facial features, his cute expression, and his voice. In short, I like everything about this person. Although Xu Xiaochuan belittles himself, in Lin Kai's mind, he is The most perfect.

Xu Xiaochuan was still chattering, Lin Kai sat up straight suddenly, his pink lips quickly kissed Xu Xiaochuan's lips and then parted, looking affectionately at the man in front of him.

Lin Kai's sudden action made Xu Xiaochuan's eyes widen in horror and bewilderment. Lin Kai's eyes were gentle and fiery, and he stared lovingly at Xu Xiaochuan's face, as if he couldn't get enough of it.

"Xiaochuan, you don't even know how much I love you! You don't understand! I love you! I really love you!"

After the affectionate confession, before Xu Xiaochuan had time to react, his lips were sealed by two wet and hot things.

Xu Xiaochuan panicked, Lin Kai's kiss was not as gentle as usual, but very fierce, Lin Kai's kiss made Xu Xiaochuan's mind go blank, and he was so dazed by his kiss that he was unable to resist.

Lin Kai seemed to be crazy today, which made Xu Xiaochuan panic, he had never seen Lin Kai so out of control.

Xu Xiaochuan almost exerted all his strength to push Lin Kai away viciously: "Go away!"

Pushed so violently by Xu Xiaochuan, Lin Kai immediately fell off the sofa and onto the carpet.He looked at Xu Xiaochuan sadly: "You will never love me, will you? Why don't you love me? Why? What's wrong with me?"

Lin Kai's sad voice was full of anger. He stood up suddenly, grabbed Xu Xiaochuan's shoulders with both hands and shook violently, his expression became ferocious and terrifying: "Why? Why do I treat you so well and you just don't love me?" Me? Are you hard-hearted? Huh?"

Lin Kai's tone seemed to be questioning, he glared at Xu Xiaochuan in despair and roared.

Seeing the agitated and out-of-control Lin Kai, Xu Xiaochuan couldn't help being furious. He didn't expect Lin Kai to be so selfish, why did he have to force him to become gay?Doesn't he know the reason why twisted melons are not sweet?

Xu Xiaochuan despaired of Lin Kai, thinking that he was really hopeless.

Lin Kai narrowed his eyes dangerously, his face was gradually magnified in Xu Xiaochuan's eyes, and before his kiss fell on Xu Xiaochuan's lips, he had already received a heavy punch on the left cheek: "Lin Kai Wake up! I will not love you!"

Lin Kai who was beaten did not fight back, he just sat down on the ground in despair, looked at the angry Xu Xiaochuan sadly and said, "But I can't do it!! Xiaochuan, I love you! I can't do it no Love you!"

Xu Xiaochuan looked at Lin Kai's sad and desperate expression, and the anger rising in his heart subsided again.

"Lin Kai, we can only be friends in this life! You give up!" Xu Xiaochuan sighed in despair, turned around not to look at Lin Kai's face, he looked out the window blankly, feeling very uncomfortable in his heart.

A bitter smile appeared on Lin Kai's face: "Xiao Chuan, I love you! I can't help but want to kiss you! I want you to feel as happy as me but I can't! You didn't respond when I kissed you I, I'm really sad, I..."

Lin Kai was a little incoherent, his heart was as uncomfortable as being cut by a knife, it was very painful.

Xu Xiaochuan stood with his back to Lin Kai, he was not hard-hearted, he remembered everything that Lin Kai did for his good, but he was not gay, so he couldn't love a man like Lin Kai, Xu Xiaochuan did No, both of them are in such pain, Xu Xiaochuan doesn't know how to make Lin Kai forget about himself, and make each other no longer suffer, he just wants to be good friends with Lin Kai.

The low air pressure in the room made Xu Xiaochuan a little breathless. At this moment, he didn't know how he should face Lin Kai. Maybe he should leave and let him calm down.

"I'll go out for a while, and I won't have dinner." After speaking, Xu Xiaochuan picked up the coat that had been thrown on the ground and put it on, then walked straight to the door without even looking at Lin Kai.

Xu Xiaochuan wandered aimlessly on the street, his heart was in a mess, the bunch of nasty love words that Lin Kai said to him have been lingering in Xu Xiaochuan's mind, if a girl confessed to him so affectionately, Xu Xiaochuan would definitely accept it ecstatically, but the object happened to be a man, and he was also his good friend.

I don't know how long I walked, the sky gradually darkened, night fell, the lights came on, the streets and alleys were lit up, Xu Xiaochuan's stomach growled, reminding him that it was time for dinner.

Xu Xiaochuan walked and saw a Malatang shop, he went in and ate a bowl of cheap and delicious Malatang.After eating and paying the bill, Xu Xiaochuan walked out of the store, and continued walking aimlessly along the road.

After walking for a few minutes, Xu Xiaochuan suddenly heard loud music. He raised his head and found himself standing in front of a gay bar. This is a gay bar.

Xu Xiaochuan's expression froze suddenly. It was his first time to come to this kind of bar. Driven by strong curiosity, Xu Xiaochuan walked into this gay bar. He really wanted to see what was different inside and what it was like. .

Walking into the bar, Xu Xiaochuan looked around curiously, and what he saw was a dark crowd, but it was different from other bars, there were no women but men here, and he had never seen so many gays in the dark crowd, which was very visually spectacular.

Xu Xiaochuan was very surprised that there were so many gays hidden in this city, and he would never meet them. He didn't expect there to be so many here. Do they all like men as much as Lin Kai?Xu Xiaochuan really wanted to find out what homosexuality is and why men fall in love with men. He sat down and ordered a glass of whiskey, and then sat alone at the bar and drank it.

Xu Xiaochuan looked around curiously. At this moment, he felt his shoulders sink and a hand was placed on Xu Xiaochuan's shoulders. Xu Xiaochuan turned his head in surprise and found a strange man standing with a wine glass. on your right.

"you alone?"

There was a wicked smile on the corner of the man's mouth, and he sat down beside Xu Xiaochuan while holding a wine glass.

Xu Xiaochuan suddenly realized that this was a gay bar, and he broke in because he was not their kind. The man who came to strike up a conversation with him must have regarded himself as the same kind. Xu Xiaochuan felt that he had to clarify so as not to waste his and that man time.

Xu Xiaochuan raised the wine glass in his hand, looked at the man and said coldly: "You misunderstood! I'm not gay!" After speaking, he raised his head and drank the whiskey in the glass.

Hearing what Xu Xiaochuan said, the man's face showed a look of surprise, and the corner of his mouth curled into a faint smile: "Since you are not gay, why did you come here?"

"I was just curious, so I came in to have a look."

Hearing what Xu Xiaochuan said, the man chuckled and did not walk away immediately, but turned his head to look at the handsome bartender and said, "Give this gentleman a glass of whiskey!"

Xu Xiaochuan was stunned by the man's actions. He had already told him that he was not gay, so what kind of trouble did he still not leave? Could it be that he also took a liking to him and wanted to break himself up like Lin Kai?

"I said I'm not gay!" Xu Xiaochuan showed an impatient look on his face.

The man raised his eyebrows and looked at Xu Xiaochuan with a smile and said, "You hate gay?"