unspeakable love

"Xiao Chuan, that's not what I meant! I don't want you to repay me with your body! I just don't want you to suffer, I love you!"

"Enough! Lin Kai, stop talking! It's disgusting! Don't you feel disgusted when you say such things to a man? Don't come to harm me! I'm not gay! I want to get out of here!"

Xu Xiaochuan stared at Lin Kai bitterly, and turned around to go upstairs after speaking.

"Xiaochuan, don't go!" Lin Kai wanted to reach out to hug Xu Xiaochuan, but he pushed him away.

Lin Kai stared helplessly at the back of Xu Xiaochuan's leaving, feeling as uncomfortable as if being cut by a knife.

Sitting on the ground in despair, tears fell silently, listening to the movement upstairs, Lin Kai knew that Xu Xiaochuan was packing his luggage.

As soon as he thought that Xu Xiaochuan was going to leave here, he would never be able to face him day and night again, and he would never be seen at the dinner table from now on, and he would have to eat dinner alone, Lin Kai's heart ached tightly in his hand. Together.

Xu Xiaochuan was a poor man, and he didn't have much luggage, so he packed it in a few strokes. After changing his clothes, he walked down the stairs with a suitcase that wasn't too heavy.

Seeing Xu Xiaochuan come down, Lin Kai stood up from the ground. Before Xu Xiaochuan left the room, he grabbed Xu Xiaochuan's arm: "Xiaochuan, don't go! I can't live without you!"

Lin Kai has never been so humble and helpless. Only Xu Xiaochuan in the world can make such an arrogant person like Lin Kai bow his head. He begged this man not to leave him, looking at Lin Kai's pleading eyes, Xu Xiaochuan Xiao Chuan was also distressed, but when he thought of the disdainful and contemptuous eyes he received in the company because of Lin Kai, and the mocking and contemptuous words of his colleagues, Xu Xiaochuan felt panicked, he could no longer live with Lin Kai, He is really scared!Maybe one day I might fall in love with Lin Kai and become a homosexual who is despised and shameless. Xu Xiaochuan can't let this happen. He wants to leave here before the situation gets worse and completely cut off his relationship with Lin Kai Kay's link.

Xu Xiaochuan looked at Lin Kai resolutely, and shook his hand viciously: "Let go! Lin Kai, let's pretend we don't know each other from now on! The clothes and watch you gave me, I have already put them on the bed. I will pay you back when I settle down, and as for the rent during my stay here, I will pay you back after I get paid, I don’t want to owe you anything.”

"Xiao Chuan, since you want to leave, can you promise me one last thing?"

Xu Xiaochuan turned his head in surprise and looked at the poor man behind him: "What happened?"

"Can you drink the last glass of red wine with me?"

Lin Kai's words made Xu Xiaochuan feel inexplicable. Although he felt very strange and didn't understand why Lin Kai did this, it was not an excessive request, so Xu Xiaochuan didn't refuse, and his silence represented acquiescence.

Seeing that Xu Xiaochuan didn't say anything against him, Lin Kai hurriedly turned around and walked into the kitchen to get the red wine. There was only one thought in Lin Kai's mind now, that he couldn't let Xu Xiaochuan leave, he absolutely couldn't lose this man.

After a while, Lin Kai came out of the kitchen with two goblets in his hands, and handed one of the glasses to Xu Xiaochuan.

"Xiao Chuan, let's have another drink for the last time! After drinking this glass of wine, we will be strangers from now on, let's pretend we have never known each other before!"

Lin Kai's eyes were full of sadness and despair.

Xu Xiaochuan took the glass, opened his thin lips and raised his head to drink the red wine in the glass. Lin Kai watched him drink the red wine in the glass, and raised his head to drink the red wine in the glass go down.

"I'm going..."

Before he finished speaking, there was a sound of a goblet falling to the ground. Xu Xiaochuan felt dizzy for a while. He felt his limp body fall into a warm embrace.

This glass of wine was tampered with by Lin Kai, he put medicine in it, that's why Xu Xiaochuan looked like this.

Looking at the unconscious Xu Xiaochuan in his arms, Lin Kai looked at him with such affectionate eyes, he couldn't help lowering his head and kissed that thin pink lips, this despicable act Lin Kai himself felt ashamed, but he couldn't control himself not to love Xu Xiaochuan, he couldn't let this man disappear from his life.

Looking lovingly at the man in his arms who was a head shorter than himself, Lin Kai easily picked him up and walked upstairs.

Gently put Xu Xiaochuan on the bed, helped him take off his shoes, and covered him with the quilt.

Lin Kai looked at the man on the bed tenderly. That delicate appearance had already been deeply engraved in Lin Kai's mind. Ever since he reunited with Xu Xiaochuan, Lin Kai could never forget Xu Xiaochuan's appearance. He was very lucky When I met Xu Xiaochuan, this man was poor, otherwise I wouldn't have the opportunity to take care of him.

Looking at this charming and magical face, Lin Kai couldn't help but leaned down, and his pink lips slowly approached Xu Xiaochuan's thin lips.

After kissing Xu Xiaochuan, Lin Kai left the room contentedly.

When Xu Xiaochuan opened his eyes again, it was already the next morning.

He opened his sleepy eyes in a daze, the events of last night came to his mind, he was going to leave here, but he fainted after drinking the red wine that Lin Kai handed over, Xu Xiaochuan just passed out at this time It was not easy to understand that glass of wine, Lin Kai fiddled with the wine.

"mean!"

Xu Xiaochuan felt angry, he stared angrily, clenched his fist with his right hand and slammed it heavily on the bed.

At this moment, footsteps suddenly sounded at the door of the room.

Lin Kai opened the door and walked in, holding a plate with fried eggs and porridge in his hand.

"Xiao Chuan, you're awake!"

Seeing Lin Kai walking in with a smile on his face, Xu Xiaochuan glared at him. He glared at Lin Kai with vicious eyes, his face full of anger.

"Lin Kai, you are so despicable! Why did you put drugs in your wine?"

Lin Kai put the dinner plate in his hand on the table, as if he didn't hear Xu Xiaochuan's words, he said to himself: "Xiaochuan, let's have breakfast! I prepared fried eggs and porridge for you, take a look What else do you want to eat?"

"Lin Kai, you're deaf! I'm asking you something! Why did you drug me?"

"Xiao Chuan, I don't want you to leave me! I want you to know that I really love you!"

Xu Xiaochuan showed a look of disgust, but Lin Kai's affection was exchanged for Xu Xiaochuan's disgust and contempt.

"Lin Kai, you make me feel sick! Do you know that because of you, my colleagues in the company looked down on me? It's because of you! Why did you kill me? Why did you like me? Why did you turn me into a gay?"

Xu Xiaochuan roared angrily to vent his dissatisfaction.

"Xiao Chuan, that's because I love you! Is it wrong for me to love you? Why can't I love you? Is it because you are a man? Is there any law that stipulates that men can't love men? What's wrong with me? Lin Kai just loves you!"

As soon as the words fell, Lin Kai hugged Xu Xiaochuan into his arms, and kissed Xu Xiaochuan's lips domineeringly. He wanted to tell Xu Xiaochuan in this way how passionate his love was and could not be restrained.

"Ah..." Xu Xiaochuan didn't expect Lin Kai to kiss him suddenly, his body trembled like he was about to fall apart.

After a while, Xu Xiaochuan reflected, his eyes widened incredulously, and his hands began to push Lin Kai desperately.

Lin Kai expected that Xu Xiaochuan would resist fiercely, but just when Xu Xiaochuan wanted to push Lin Kai away and punch him hard, he found that he had no strength in his body and could not use his strength. The effect of the medicine has not yet passed, that's why Xu Xiaochuan is like this.

Lin Kai kissed Xu Xiaochuan frantically, his kiss was hot and domineering.

The lips were sealed by Lin Kai, Xu Xiaochuan couldn't make a sound, he could only shake his head desperately, trying to get rid of Lin Kai's lips, although Xu Xiaochuan couldn't use any strength, but Xu Xiaochuan bite Link Kai took a sip.

"Ah!" Following Xu Xiaochuan's fierce bite, Lin Kai let out a muffled snort, a salty taste filled his mouth, he frowned in pain, and finally let go of Xu Xiaochuan.

Lin Kai's lips were covered with dark red blood stains, Xu Xiaochuan bit him hard, Lin Kai felt the pain was unbearable, he really wondered if his lips were bitten off by Xu Xiaochuan.

Xu Xiaochuan glared at Lin Kai bitterly and spat out a mouthful of blood, "Pooh", his face showed a look of disgust, being kissed by a man made Xu Xiaochuan feel very disgusted.

"Link Kai, you bastard!"

Looking at Xu Xiaochuan who was furious, Lin Kai's heart sank to the bottom. He was always easy to lose control in front of Xu Xiaochuan. Lin Kai couldn't see himself more and more clearly. He felt that he was a shameless bastard who was obsessed with Xu Xiaochuan did such an excessive thing.

"Xiao Chuan, I..."

"Lin Kai, what on earth do you want? Is that why you drugged me to treat me like this?"

The look of disgust in Xu Xiaochuan's eyes hurt Lin Kai deeply. The man who once admired him has disappeared. Now Lin Kai sees only anger and contempt in Xu Xiaochuan's eyes, which makes Lin Kai feel very painful. He didn't know what he should do to keep Xu Xiaochuan's people and heart.

"Xiaochuan, that's not the case! I'm sorry! I didn't control myself just now, I just don't want you to leave me, I really can't live without you!" Lin Kai looked at Xu Xiaochuan in panic and explained, he was sorry for the impulse just now And regret it.

"Lin Kai, don't force me to hate you! Just let me go!"

"Xiao Chuan, can we really not be together? Can't you try to accept me?"

"No! Lin Kai, I felt disgusted when you kissed me just now. I really can't accept a man."

Xu Xiaochuan's words made Lin Kai completely desperate. He knew that some things could not be forced, and maybe it was time to let go.

Lin Kai closed his eyes in despair, and tears flowed down immediately.

"Okay! Xiaochuan, let's go! I won't force you to love me!"

Seeing Lin Kai like this, Xu Xiaochuan felt very uncomfortable, but what Lin Kai wanted was love, and Xu Xiaochuan really couldn't give it to him.So he could only leave Lin Kai, lest both of them suffer.

Xu Xiaochuan got out of bed and put on his shoes: "Where's my luggage?"

"Downstairs." Lin Kai's voice was weak and full of sadness. He closed his eyes and didn't look at Xu Xiaochuan. He raised his head to keep the tears from falling, but the more he didn't want to cry, the tears couldn't stop flowing down.

This was the first time Xu Xiaochuan saw such a sad and helpless Lin Kai.

Xu Xiaochuan put on his shoes silently and walked out of the room. From the beginning to the end, Lin Kai didn't look at Xu Xiaochuan again, because he was worried that he couldn't help but keep him, so it's better to let him leave silently.

Hearing the sound of closing the door downstairs, Lin Kai realized that Xu Xiaochuan had left.

His heart fell into an ice cave, and tears of sadness and despair poured out of his eyes. The tears became more and more fierce, his heart was hollowed out, and his soul followed Xu Xiaochuan out of his body, turning into a soulless walking dead.

Opening his eyes and looking at Xu Xiaochuan's room, sitting on the big bed where Xu Xiaochuan slept, Lin Kai couldn't help but see Xu Xiaochuan's figure, thinking that he used to live here, and his breath still remained in the room, When people left the house, a feeling of desolation rushed into Lin Kai's heart.

Xu Xiaochuan walked out of Lin Kai's house with a black suitcase in his hand. He stood blankly on the street, the world was vast but he had no place for himself. Xu Xiaochuan didn't know where he should go.

With little money, Xu Xiaochuan knew very well that he could not afford to rent a sunny house, so he could only temporarily live in the basement, so he took the suitcase to take the bus, and then came to a housing agency to rent a basement.

The dark and damp basement can't be compared with Lin Kai's mansion at all. It's like falling from heaven to hell, but Xu Xiaochuan doesn't regret moving out. He can't accept Lin Kai, so he can't stay by his side. Everyone is nice.

After simply packing his luggage, Xu Xiaochuan settled down in this basement of a few square meters.

Although the basement is dark and damp, it is better than having no place to live on the street. Xu Xiaochuan is able to endure hardships and settle down with whatever happens. Although life is difficult, he has never complained. He believes that life will get better and better.

After leaving Lin Kai, Xu Xiaochuan's life is still the same, he goes to work in the company as usual.

A week passed in a blink of an eye, and Lin Kai never appeared again, and the gossip colleagues in the company stopped talking about it. Xu Xiaochuan couldn't hear the gossip, and felt very relaxed in his heart, but he didn't know why. It will hurt unexplainably.

Sometimes, Xu Xiaochuan couldn't help but think of that person, and wondered what he was doing now?After leaving Lin Kai, Xu Xiaochuan was alone, living a lonely and poor single life, which was boring.