Anyang of Our Boyhood

Since the court verdict was over that day, I fell ill the next day.I dreamed of Anyang, he told me to take good care of my family and myself.I also dreamed of my last life when I died.

I saw Ling Chen hugging me and crying all the time, Chris came in with someone, and when she saw my dead body, this Chris, who never shed tears easily, and always called herself Yujie, a big woman, cried hysterically.Chris's men grabbed Bai Chu, and Chris shot two shots at Bai Chu's knee. Seeing Bai Chu's pain, I felt a strange sense of joy in my heart.I heard that Chris asked his subordinates to send Baichu to some "happy place" to spend his old age. Think about it, this is the best ending for him. Like Chris, I can think a thousand things about people I don't love. This kind of method tortures the other party, wishing for the one he loves to hold the whole world in front of the other party, and humble himself into the dust.

I heard Ling Chen holding my dead body and saying to me: "Qianye, I don't love Baichu, I love you, I just want to have an equal position between us, you are so outstanding, like the dazzling Guang, no matter where I go, I attract people's attention. I try my best to catch up with you, and I try to be a person worthy of you, but no matter how I try to catch up, I can't catch up. I really want to treat you Say, can you slow down and wait for me..."

After Chris dealt with Baichu's matter on the side, she became even more angry when she heard what Ling Chen said, and said loudly to Ling Chen: "Waiting for you? What a big joke! Qianye, he treats you Isn’t it good enough? He puts all his feelings on you. If you are unhappy, he will try his best to make you happy. Have you thought about his mood when you are flirting with others? Are you ashamed to say that you want to be a supporting role? A person who deserves to be in Qianye? You will only feel sorry for yourself in your own world, and stop moving forward. You are with Qianye, and Qianye is afraid of touching your fragile self-esteem. Every time you go out with you, you must check in advance. There are cheap restaurants, and the clothes you wear should also consider the price. He is a president worth billions, and he wears cheap clothes every day. How dare you say that he is not good enough for you!"

Hearing what Chris said, I realized that I was so humble before.No wonder I let myself end up like this.

But Chris didn't care whether Ling Chen was in pain or not, she forcefully snatched my body from Ling Chen, and asked her subordinates to stop Ling Chen, I looked at Ling Chen, at the man I love, and I smiled , because I finally heard Ling Chen say that he loves me, I should be happy, but I can't be happy at all, I'm tired, I don't want to love Ling Chen anymore, love him, I'm too tired ...

I heard Chris say to Ling Chen: "You rely on Chiba to love you, he will never reject you, never leave you, so you put his sincerity on the ground and trample on it wantonly, you have I never thought that he is a person, not a stone, and he will hurt. He has imprisoned you for three years without telling everyone, do you think he will not know the little tricks you have done in the past three years? If I hadn’t noticed that the Ling family has been a little bit lately Something's wrong, I'm afraid I won't be able to see Qianye for the last time again. Do you think you can have a chance to have a place in the upper class just because of your shabby company? If you don't have Qianye, you have nothing! Chiba even died Don't forget to find a way to help you get rid of the crime, he loves you more than his own life."

.After saying these words, Chris walked away with my corpse, completely ignoring Ling Chen's pale face and despairing eyes behind her.

Suddenly I felt a huge suction sucking me in.I was pulled back to reality, I opened my eyes and saw Xiaosong.Xiaosong gently wiped away my tears, and the worry in my eyes was almost full.Xiao Song asked me if I had a nightmare, and I told him no, it was just normal saline.

Xiaosong did not expose me, but said to me in a gentle and loving voice: "Well, what you said is absolutely right." Hearing Xiaosong's voice, I suddenly felt that it was good that someone cared.Thinking about the dream about my previous life, I thought maybe the relationship between Ling Chen and I was never equal. The one who looks warm and cheerful, sunny and clean, actually hides a deep inferiority complex deep in his heart.I am a domineering, black-bellied and possessive person with a dark life, longing for someone who loves me.Two people with different personalities, one desperately tempted, the other bound each other by all means, this love will eventually destroy each other.

Maybe I don't like Ling Chen as much as I imagined. For me, Ling Chen is a life-saving straw in my dark life. A desperate person finally sees hope, how can he let it go easily?We still ruined each other after all, maybe for me and Ling Chen, one of us will leave eventually, then I will let go, Ling Chen, I don't love you anymore.

Xiaosong came to me whenever she was free these days, so my sister asked me where Xiaosong was without seeing Xiaosong?I had no choice but to tell my sister that I didn't know.After I got better, I came to the class. Usually, there would be a lot of noise after class, like the noisy sound of buying vegetables in a vegetable market, but now it is so quiet, I am really not used to it.

I went to the desk, took out the textbooks and was about to go to class. I took out something like an envelope, and it said "Anyang Dear Father" in Braille. I touched the Braille on the envelope, and it said: Anyang, if you If you have time after school today, please come to the school hall, I have something to say to you.

After "reading" the letter, I felt that many people in the class were looking at me. I touched the letter and found that it had been opened. I think I understand why the class is so quiet. The reason is gone.Someone opened a letter that someone else gave me, but found it was in Braille. I couldn’t read it and had to give up. I couldn’t hold back my curiosity and could only pretend that nothing happened.

After thinking about it, I decided to go to the school auditorium after school, some things should be said face to face.Make up your mind and get ready for class. "Ban Xiaosong, why are you always looking back at Anyang? Anyang is not a book, read your book." Xiaosong frequently looked back at me, which aroused the dissatisfaction of the geography teacher. The teacher saw that Xiaosong returned to the textbook and stopped talking about him.Finally, when the class was over, Joule hurriedly came over, flattered me a little, and asked me gossip: "Anyang, a girl came to you today and asked where your desk is? I saw her go to your class. There seems to be something stuffed in the table?" Before Joule finished speaking, I smiled and said to him: "So, you opened the letter the other party gave me and found it was in Braille, which I couldn't read. Now you want to ask me what was written in the letter. Right? Joule, I have nothing to say about the content of the letter, and please don’t touch my things casually in the future and respect my privacy, okay?”

What I said made Joule shut up successfully, and the "girl group" headed by Li Zhenma in the class said that I was a weirdo, and I ignored it.On the contrary, it was Xiao Song's eyes that gave me a very weird feeling, like seeing a husband secretly meeting a young lover being caught and raped by his wife in bed. (Why is this so weird?)

When school was over, I called and told my sister that I had something to do and I would be home later.When I came to the auditorium, I heard a sweet and beautiful voice say happily: "Student Anyang, you are here!" "Well, if you have anything to say, hurry up, it's not good for you to come home too late as a girl." "Student Anyang, I have liked you for a long time. When I was seven years old, I went to the same elementary school as you. At that time, you seemed difficult to get close to, but you were actually a very gentle person. I saw you send the injured homeless on a rainy day When the cat went to the hospital, I thought you were a very gentle person. At that time, I only thought you were cold on the outside and hot on the inside. You are a genius in everyone's mouth, but I am just a very ordinary and ordinary girl. I know you will have A different life from ours." The girl seemed to be lost in memory, and she said after a long time: "When I was in junior high school, I didn't expect to be in the same class as you. I thought you would skip a grade directly to high school, but being able to be in the same class , it’s great to be in the same school!”

"I once plucked up the courage to ask you why you didn't choose to skip a grade. You told me 'I want to live the life of an ordinary person'. I felt very distressed when I heard it. I watched you study the textbooks effortlessly. Every course It is full marks, the teacher praised me, I am really happy, when I appeared in the office with you, I was happy and ashamed. The happy thing is to see you at close range, not in the classroom where I am far away from you, The shame is that I don't want you to see me being lectured by the teacher."

The girl said that she was choked up, wiped her tears and continued: "When the teacher said that the excellent students should help the students with poor grades, I walked into the office of the teacher I hated the most and told the teacher that I wanted you to help me with my homework. I don't know Where did I get the courage to make such a request to the teacher. When the teacher finally announced the list in the class, I heard that you were the one who tutored me. I was as happy as a lunatic. The whole class was looking at me alone. But I wish there was a seam on the ground for me to get in. I don’t want you to see my ugly appearance. When everyone burst into laughter, I saw you smiling, and there were two shallow dimples at the corners of your mouth when you laughed , very beautiful, at that time I thought of a poem: the hardest thing to bear is the grace of a beauty."

When the girl said this, she seemed embarrassed, and passed away with a haha.I asked her why she said these things to me now, and in Anyang's memory, this girl was a famous "campus bully" in junior high school, and she was a "poor student" in the eyes of the teacher. It is said that her parents divorced and ignored her. , so I simply broke the pot, but after getting to know each other, I found that the other party is still very good.

The girl said embarrassingly: "When you tutored me, did you think that I was easy to learn and not as bad as the teacher said?" Indeed, in Anyang's memory, the other party was easy to learn.The girl smiled and said: "That was all pretended by me. I pretended to be studious and watched the news broadcasts I hated every day, so that I could have a common topic with you the next day. I didn't dare to tell you. , Anyang, I think I like you, but I am afraid that people will say that a poor student is ashamed to like a genius. I study hard, so that when I confess to you one day, others will say that they look good. But a car accident Stolen your eyes, some people in school were jealous of you, grabbed your sore spots and stomped hard. I don’t allow them to say that about you, I beat everyone who said bad things about you.”

"It doesn't matter if I get punished by the school. They can't see how hard you work, how sad you are. When you try to write your homework without relying on Braille, I cry. Anyang, I'm looking for you today I came here to tell you, I like you, I will always like you, thank you for making me the best me, and thank you for appearing in my life. Remember, my name is Xu Xiaoyou, an ordinary Yes, the one who fights fiercely, and likes Anyang's school bully."