Chaoba

Sui Qiqing thought through all possible bad situations in his mind, he thought, as long as Sui Yiwei is still alive, no matter what, as long as he is still alive.

"Qing Qing?"

Sui Qiqing suddenly raised her head.

"The car I was in ran out of gas halfway, so I was late. Have you eaten yet?"

Sui Qiqing felt like he was dreaming, was the blurry person in front of him really Sui Yiwei?

"Brother." Sui Qiqing grabbed his sleeve, touched a living person, and his heart dropped heavily.A tear fell silently from the corner of his eye.

Sui Yiwei threw the luggage over his shoulder with one hand, and carried a heavy stack of books with the other.Sui Qiqing followed him with two stacks of books. He always felt that Sui Yiwei's back was in a daze, so he opened his eyes wide and stared at this back, for fear that it would disappear like a shadow once the light disappeared. .

Sui Yiwei led Sui Qiqing into a small hotel, walked through the narrow corridor, walked to a room, opened the door, and put the books and luggage on the floor.There is only a single bed and a nightstand in the cramped and damp room.

Sui Yiwei clapped his hands, "Okay, I'll go get some food first."

"elder brother!"

Sui Yiwei turned around in confusion, "What's wrong?"

Under the light, Sui Yiwei was dark and thin.

Sui Qiqing clenched his fists, "Why didn't you take me home?"

"Didn't you see that it's getting dark? The station has already closed. You should sleep here for the night first."

"What about you? Where do you sleep?" Sui Qiqing asked quickly.

"Don't worry about me, I have a place to sleep." Sui Yiwei was grabbed by the arm as soon as he turned around.

"What's the matter again? How did you become so annoying?" Sui Yiwei was annoyed.

"Is there something you are hiding from me?" Sui Qiqing stared at Sui Yiwei, "Is it possible that the master has..."

Sui Yiwei paused for a while, sniffed, "Yes."

Sui Qiqing pursed her lips. Although Sui Baozhu was muddle-headed and confused in his later years, he only ate and slept and herded sheep, but no matter how humble this life was, when he passed away silently, it was difficult not to let the bystanders who had been with him day and night Those who are sad.What's more, Sui Qiqing knew that Sui Baozhu was the only relative who loved Sui Yiwei. Sui Baozhu always couldn't recognize himself, but he never forgot Sui Yiwei.

Sui Yiwei glanced at him, lowered his head, and stuck out his tongue against his cheek, "Don't be sad, he's already living at such an advanced age."

"When?"

"Half a year." Sui Yiwei scratched his head.

Although Sui Qiqing felt uncomfortable, she more or less guessed it, and was already mentally prepared.But he knew that Sui Yiwei, who seemed to be indifferent, was the most uncomfortable. Who knew how deep the scars were hidden behind his understatement.

"Master, why... no?"

"I fell down, was paralyzed for half a year, and then disappeared."

"Let's go home tomorrow, you take me to the grave." Sui Qiqing exerted a little force on his hand.

Sui Yiwei shook his arms and didn't move away, a little impatient, "I'll talk about it tomorrow. I'm starving to death, you let me go and buy something to eat first."

"You came late on purpose today, right? Waited for the station to close on purpose? Is there something else you're hiding from me? Brother?" Sui Qiqing became even more anxious, fearing that Sui Yiwei would commit murder and break the law, dragging Sui Yiwei to his death Don't let go.

Sui Yiwei lost his patience, so he sighed and said: "I told you, don't be angry... Our family is gone, I sold it... Brother can't take you back."

Sui Qiqing suddenly lost his strength.

"Don't blame me, brother is helpless." Sui Yiwei raised his eyes and looked at him, "Master needs money for medical treatment, and you also need money for schooling... After the master is gone, you also need money for funeral. Zhu wanted to build a wedding room and wanted to expand the house, so I went to him."

During the third year of high school, Sui Qiqing was always trapped by love, which made him think that life was hopeless.So he didn't know that Sui Yiwei was trapped by money, which also made him feel hopeless in life.The first two years were fine, Sui Yiwei was still able to go to the town to sweep the streets and work as a temporary security guard, earning so little money, the family's food, drink, and takeaways were barely enough for Sui Qiqing's tuition.But in the third year, Sui Baozhu became paralyzed, and Sui Yiwei was tied up, so he had to wander around the village to borrow money, which caused his uncle to completely sever ties with him in front of the whole village. In the end, he had no choice but to sell it. Two trips of blood.Guojin couldn't stand it anymore and asked him to work in a mill to earn two catties of noodles.After Sui Baozhu's death, Sui Yiwei took 5000 yuan from Qizhu's family, buried Sui Baozhu in a grand manner, and paid off the debt. The rest was entrusted to Sui Qiqing to pay for the last semester's tuition.Two days later, Sui Yiwei felt that he couldn't live anymore, so he ran to the Mishui River alone, with one leg stuck in the ice hole.Sui Yiwei suddenly thought that although his life was meaningless, it was still a pity to die.After all, although he has lived his life like no other, Sui Qiqing's life has just begun, and there is still great hope.Why don't you just live on for a few more days, help Sui Qiqing live like a human being, and fulfill him with your cheap bones?So Sui Yiwei pulled that leg out of the ice hole again.The next day Sui Yiwei went to the mill to get some noodles, ate a catty of meat with Lao Qishe, stole two cabbages from Guangjun, cooked his last meal at home, locked the door, and threw the key to Wuzhu , followed Guojin to high school and watched Sui Qiqing.That day, Sui Yiwei did not go back to Suijiazhuang with Guojin, but started wandering in the city.

Sui Yiwei didn't talk about the embarrassing things that he couldn't see, he only said a few words about other things lightly, but the bitterness in it was not difficult for Sui Qiqing to understand.Only then did he understand what Guojin meant by those words.He's so stupid, compared with his brother's struggle to feed his family all these years, what are the emotional trauma he thought he couldn't get over?He really wanted to ask himself, how did he manage to spend his brother's hard-earned money in the past few years and at the same time hold bitter hatred and hatred towards his brother with peace of mind?In this world, anyone with a little conscience can't do it... That's why Sui Qiqing really saw himself at this time. He is the most selfish and heartless person in the world... His brother bumped into his hand, and his whole life I'm afraid I won't be able to catch it.

Sui Yiwei went out to buy some things and came back, and the two of them chipped in for a meal.Under Sui Qiqing's repeated questioning, Sui Yiwei finally confessed.It turned out that he had been working on a construction site for the past six months. Although he was a little tired, he could earn more than 1000 yuan a month, which was pretty good for Sui Yiwei.

The construction team where Sui Yiwei was working was on the street north of Sui Qiqing High School.Sui Qiqing knew that it was a newly built government office building in the city, because every morning when he ran morning exercises on the playground, he could always see buildings rising rapidly day by day, but he never knew that the person he was thinking of was hanging in the sky every day. Upstairs, the person he cared about was on the construction site 500 meters away, basking in the wind and sun... Perhaps he had accidentally seen his brother?

Sui Yiwei left after dinner, and went back to sleep on the construction site.Sui Qiqing lay on the musty-smelling bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze. After a while, he took out the five letters written by Sui Yiwei from his schoolbag.He has read these five letters countless times in the past six months, the edges of the paper are torn, and he can recite everything written in each letter.

After Sui Qiqing went to high school, Sui Yiwei dug out Sui Qiqing's elementary school textbooks, flipping through a broken dictionary to learn word by word. It took a lot of effort to learn, but it was still possible to write a letter later. .The letter was written on the grid paper used by Sui Qiqing in primary school.One letter in half a year, each letter is a thin piece of paper, and each pencil letter is written stroke by stroke, both serious and naive.In fact, the content of each letter is similar. Sui Yiwei always said that the family is very good, and the master is also very good. He earned a lot of money by working in the town. Pick him up at the station.

Sui Qiqing pressed his temples, and opened the last letter. He didn't realize until then that his brother didn't say a word to let him go home in this letter.

The family is gone, Sui Qiqing thought, from now on his family will be where his brother is.

Sui Qiqing checked out of the room the next day and found a temporary job as a waiter in a small restaurant not far from the school. She only paid 700 yuan a month for food and lodging.But because he was close to Sui Yiwei, Sui Qiqing readily agreed.

As soon as Sui Qiqing finished working in the restaurant, he would immediately bring some delicious food to the construction site.It took Sui Qiqing a long time to recognize Sui Yiwei from among a group of ashen-faced and strangely dressed people.Seeing Sui Yiwei sweating profusely pushing a truck full of cement back and forth, Sui Qiqing gritted his teeth, and hurried up, "Brother, you should eat something first, don't be too tired."

Sui Yiwei took off a glove full of cement, put his helmet on, and spat: "Why are you here again? Go away, don't get in the way. Let the foreman see you and tell me again."

"Brother, you eat, I'll help you." Sui Qiqing was about to step forward to grab the cart when he was kicked by Sui Yiwei and staggered a step.

Sui Yiwei put down the cart and took the things in his hand, "Okay, I don't care about food here. You don't come here in the future... By the way, you can take a leave from the hotel tomorrow, and I will find you later."

Sui Qiqing didn't want Sui Yiwei to work here any longer, so he quickly took a towel to wipe his brother's sweat, "Brother, don't do it here, why don't you find a light job?"

Sui Yiwei opened the lunch box and took a mouthful of rice: "Why do you say it's so easy? I'm an illiterate person who can't read big characters for light work? Besides, it's a lot of money, why should I leave?"

"Then...brother, you go to the restaurant and I'll do it here." Sui Qiqing wanted to push the cart again.

Sui Yiwei quickly sat down on the handle of the cart, and swallowed another mouthful of food, "Okay, go back quickly. Don't forget to ask for a leave of absence tomorrow."

Sui Qiqing had no choice but to let go, "What's up tomorrow?"

Sui Yiwei blinked slyly, grinned at the corner of his mouth, "What a great thing!"