Chaoba

"What are you doing packing up? Got into high school? School is about to start?" Sui Yiwei watched Sui Qiqing's face carefully.

Only then did Sui Qiqing let out a "hmm" from his nostrils.

Sui Yiwei suddenly felt a little sad, and regretted not being at home with Chouwa, "Then... when are you leaving? I'll see you off?"

"Leave after packing up. You don't have to see me off. I'll go to the station by myself."

"Ah? This... let's go..." Sui Yiwei watched the ugly baby neatly packed a bundle, which contained a quilt, a mattress and a few clothes. He looked around the house and thought he couldn't get it out. something else.Sui Yiwei clenched his right hand tightly.

Sui Qiqing tore a piece of cloth and handed it to Sui Yiwei, Sui Yiwei quickly took it with a "hehe" smile and wrapped it around his right hand.

"Then how often will you go home in the future? One month or two months?"

Sui Qiqing paused with his hands, "I won't be back during the winter and summer vacations."

"Ah?" Sui Yiwei's eyes widened, "Aren't you back for Chinese New Year? Why?"

"I want to work some time during the holidays to earn tuition fees. Besides, the round trip fare is quite expensive." Sui Qiqing said the words she had thought up long ago without blinking her eyes.

"Ugly baby, don't worry about the money. I will definitely find a way to pay for your tuition." Sui Yiwei said quickly, "Why don't you come back during the Chinese New Year, so that the whole family can be reunited, or the master will miss you too."

"No, take good care of the master for me."

"Then...then you come back next summer vacation? You really don't have to worry about money, I..."

"Study in high school is very tight, and I also want to use my vacation time to study hard at school." Sui Qiqing didn't dare to look up into Sui Yiwei's eyes.

"Then...you haven't come back for three years?"

"Not going back."

Sui Yiwei twitched the corners of his mouth, and managed to force a smile: "Okay, that brother will go to school to see you, and I will give you something delicious..."

"Don't come!" Sui Qiqing quickly interrupted Sui Yiwei's words as soon as he raised his head.

Sui Yiwei looked at him in astonishment, and only then did he realize that the ugly baby was blaming him.

"Don't come," Sui Qiqing lowered his head again, hardening his heart, "Your coming will affect my studies. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have done so badly in the senior high school entrance examination." Sui Qiqing knew, he said this reason, His brother will give up.

Sure enough, Sui Yiwei was silent for a long time before saying, "Okay... I won't go... I won't bother you. Then you study hard, and if you miss home, send a letter home."

Sui Qiqing thought disdainfully, are you literate?

Under Sui Yiwei's insistence, Sui Qiqing still agreed to let him go to the station together.Along the way, the two were silent.Sui Yiwei carried the burden of bedding and walked side by side with Sui Qiqing.When walking with Sui Yiwei before, Sui Qiqing always stepped hard to catch up with his back. At that time, Sui Yiwei's back seemed so tall and indestructible to him.Now, he finally didn't have to chase his footsteps so hard, and walked side by side with him only to find that his brother was not much taller than him, and his brother was far from being as strong as he imagined, and sometimes his brother was really weak , A soft word can crush him to death.The asphalt road looks like it has no end, but Sui Qiqing knows that as long as it is a road, there will always be an end, and the road he and Sui Yiwei walked together will also come to an end.

Sui Yiwei bought the ticket, packed Sui Qiqing's luggage, and stood beside the car.Although Sui Qiqing was sitting on the seat by the window, he could see Sui Yiwei as soon as he turned his face, but he deliberately didn't look at him, only the corner of his eye could see him.

Sui Qiqing silently hoped that the car would start soon, because he really couldn't bear this kind of suffering, and he was afraid that if he stayed any longer, he would be shaken again.

After finally listening to the sound of the engine starting, Sui Qiqing felt that he would be relieved immediately, but he didn't want Sui Yiwei to open the car door and jump up.

Sui Qiqing stared at him blankly.

"Hey, what's the matter with you? We're about to start, get off!" The driver turned around and yelled at Sui Yiwei impatiently.The people in the car all mumbled and looked at Sui Yiwei.

"I'll just say a word to my brother, just a word, and I'll go down after I finish." Sui Yiwei bowed cheekily to give the driver an apologetic smile.

Sui Qiqing hurriedly lowered her head not daring to look at him, "What's the matter? Let's go."

"Ugly baby," Sui Yiwei bit his lip, carefully looking at Sui Qiqing's face, "Brother knows that I've been pretty rough these days...you...can you forgive me? Don't blame me, brother really I know I was wrong. Forgive me, can you do it this time? My brother has really changed, and I promise, I won’t learn from that bastard Sui Tianbao.”

Sui Qiqing lowered her head and saw that there was a big hole in Sui Yiwei's cloth shoe on his right foot, and his big toe covered in mud stuck out.Sui Qiqing bit the tip of her tongue tightly to keep silent.

"Have you finished talking, hurry down! We must start on time!"

Sui Yiwei waited silently for a while, and finally sighed almost inaudibly, "Then take good care of yourself at school...I'm homesick, come back anytime..." Sui Yiwei jumped out of the car with big strides as soon as he finished speaking.

The car finally started.

Sui Qiqing looked at the back of her hand motionlessly, tears falling drop by drop.He never blamed Sui Yiwei, and his failure in the high school entrance examination had nothing to do with Sui Yiwei's depravity.It's just that he can only use this gesture of not forgiving his brother to widen the distance between them. Sui Qiqing is not stupid, on the contrary he is very shrewd.He felt that he could no longer allow himself to sink into Sui Yiwei like this, and if he continued like this, sooner or later, he would be destroyed by Sui Yiwei.He had to run away, he had to stay away from his brother, it was the only way out he could think of.He had already suffered so much when he was a child, and he didn't want to suffer from Sui Yiwei in the future, so he could only pull away and save himself...he couldn't care about his brother anymore.

Sui Qiqing hadn't been home for two and a half years in high school. He said he worked part-time during the winter and summer vacations, but the little money he earned was enough for him to eat. In the end, Sui Yiwei paid the tuition and miscellaneous fees.Sui Yiwei asked Tian Yuan to send them here, and Sui Yiwei sometimes asked Tian Yuan to bring some clothes and food.Tian Yuan is the youngest son of Guojin, a few years older than Sui Qiqing, but at the same level as Sui Qiqing. He was originally two points behind in the senior high school entrance examination. Guojin paid 2 yuan to send him to this key high school.Sui Qiqing never sent a letter home, but received five letters from Sui Yiwei.Seeing only the crooked words "Sui Yiwei" on the envelope, Sui Qiqing lost the courage to open the letter and threw it in the back of the cabinet.Sui Yiwei kept his promise and never visited him.Sui Qiqing originally thought that the three years of high school were long enough to forget his brother, but after more than two years passed, he was not sure, because Sui Yiwei's appearance was blurred in his mind. But the person and things represented by the pronoun Sui Yiwei have never disappeared.Does this count as forgetting?

Sui Qiqing's grades in high school have always been very stable, and he remained at the top of his grade. Coupled with his poor family background and his birthmark, all of them made him a legend among his classmates.High school is different from the closed Suijiazhuang. There are many people who want to get to know Sui Qiqing, but Sui Qiqing didn't make any friends in high school.Those who tentatively want to get close to Sui Qiqing thought at first that Sui Qiqing had low self-esteem because of his family background and appearance, but people with low self-esteem would often respond with gratitude and joy to those who took the initiative to strike up a conversation, and Sui Qiqing was very grateful to them. The strike-up was met with ignorance.Only then did they realize that Sui Qiqing was not inferior, but aloof, and they didn't look down on them at all, and as time passed, they didn't even bother to talk to him.In fact, it's not that Sui Qiqing doesn't want to contact people, but he always feels that Sui Yiwei has treated him so well, but he still abandons Sui Yiwei, so why should others be worthy of his sincerity?Sui Qiqing always has an illusion that as long as he treats others a little bit better, he is sorry for his brother.Therefore, while Sui Qiqing excludes Sui Yiwei from his own world, he also abandons all the people and things that are kind to him. He exiles himself in a world that is only his own. As his punishment for abandoning Sui Yiwei.

Sui Qiqing sat in the last row of the classroom, near the door.With the noise of the students fighting and fighting, the door creaked, and the cold wind engulfed in made Sui Qiqing tighten his coat tightly.

"Qiqing, come out, I have something to tell you." Tian Yuan poked his head in the back door and called to Sui Qiqing.

Sui Qiqing thought that Sui Yiwei had asked him to bring something again, so when he went out to see, Tian Yuan was empty-handed.

Sui Qiqing frowned, "What's wrong?"

"My dad drove to see me at noon today. My dad just bought a new car! Your brother said he would come with him too. Go out with me after class at noon."

Sui Qiqing was silent for a while, his first reaction was to refuse, but what he spit out was the word "good" impatiently.

Sui Qiqing secretly blamed himself for a while, and immediately found a seemingly high-sounding but ineffective reason for himself. He wanted to test the results of his self-discipline over the past two years to see if he could show a normal emotional face To Sui Yiwei.

Sui Qiqing saw Sui Yiwei standing at the school gate from a long distance.Although he couldn't see Sui Yiwei's appearance clearly, Sui Yiwei's figure seemed to have a wonderful power, which could pull Sui Qiqing out of the crowd.

When Sui Yiwei saw Sui Qiqing, he waved vigorously at him.

Sui Qiqing lowered his head, and unconsciously quickened his pace. When he finally got to Sui Yiwei's side, Sui Qiqing dared to look up at his brother. Only then did he realize that Sui Yiwei had lost a lot of weight.Sui Yiwei's complexion also looked very bad. In such a cold day, his face was still pale, and his hair seemed to be unkempt for a long time. It was messy. A big padded jacket that didn't fit well was open, revealing his inner clothes. The threaded sweater showed Sui Yiwei's thinness even more.

Sui Qiqing hadn't seen him for more than two years, but in his dreams he often dreamed of Sui Yiwei's clean and tidy appearance. Now when he saw his brother's scruffy appearance, he felt a little annoyed and uncomfortable. , Hate him for not taking good care of himself.