my wolf

Xu Luowen tried his best, but couldn't open the door.

He was so anxious that he caught a glimpse of the fire extinguisher behind the bedroom door in a panic and hurried over to get it. He swung the fire extinguisher and was about to smash the door lock, but the door suddenly opened from the inside.

Pei Shuyan was standing inside the door dripping wet, with bright red blood dripping from his wrist. He smiled sadly and said, "Luo Wen, I am a coward. I dare not die. I still... want to live."

Tears welled up in his eyes, Xu Luowen covered the wound on his wrist with his hands, and said with a smile while crying: "You are not a coward, living is much more difficult than dying. Let me bandage the wound for you first, okay?"

Seeing him nodding, Xu Luowen immediately took him to the living room, found a medicine box, cleaned, applied medicine, and bandaged, all in one go.Fortunately, the wound was not deep and the artery was not cut.

Xu Luowen led the man into the bedroom again, found some clothes for him to change, took him to bed, lay down beside him, hugged him, and said, "Go to sleep, it will be fine when you wake up, as long as you are alive, there is hope."

Like a fragile and helpless child, Pei Shuyan hunched over and leaned against him, the dim light of the bedside lamp shone on half of his face, reflecting his panicked look.

"I killed someone." Pei Shuyan's voice was thin and tense, making everyone's heart tremble.

"I will accompany you to the Public Security Bureau to surrender tomorrow. If you surrender, your sentence will be reduced, and if you behave well in the future, your sentence will also be reduced...it will be fine, and one day it will be fine." Xu Luowen didn't know whether he was comforting Pei Shuyan or himself, Although this comfort is so pale and feeble.He always felt that all this was too unreal, like a dream, a nightmare.

"I don't need you to accompany me, I'll go by myself." Pei Shuyan said, "You go home, Baba will wait for you at home." He paused, "I'm sorry."

"If you want me to forgive you, just live a good life and don't hurt others, let alone yourself, you know?"

"Well, I will." Pei Shuyan smiled very lightly, "Walking on the boundary between life and death can really make people see many things clearly."

Xu Luowen patted him on the back: "Don't think about it, go to sleep."

Pei Shuyan stopped talking, maybe he was really tired, and after a while, there was the sound of quiet and long breathing.

Xu Luowen couldn't sleep.

When Pei Shuyan fell asleep, he got up quietly, took a coat, and tiptoed out of the bedroom.

After leaving the gate, Xu Luowen walked towards the mountain.

The night was dark, there were no stars or moon in the sky, and everything was silent, as if he was the only one left in the world, which made people panic for no reason.

He runs.

Both slippers ran away, but didn't care to stop to pick them up, and ran forward with bare feet.

Just ran to the trail at the foot of the mountain, and slammed into an embrace.

It was too dark, he couldn't see anything, but the familiar smell came to his face, and all the fear and trembling were appeased in an instant, like light driving away the darkness, and fire driving away the severe cold.

They hugged each other tightly in silence.

After a long time, Bai Lang said, "Is it cold?"

Xu Luowen replied: "Hold me tight so I won't be cold."

Bai Lang suddenly picked him up, went to a big rock beside him and sat down, took advantage of the situation and placed him on his lap, warmed his bare feet with his hands, then took off his shoes and put them on his feet .

Xu Luowen leaned quietly in his arms, allowing him to do these small but heartwarming actions.He suddenly raised a hand to cover Bai Lang's face, turned his face a little towards himself, then leaned over to kiss his lips, softly and tenderly.

Bai Lang tightened his arms, letting the person in his arms stick close to him without leaving a single gap.

Xu Luowen stopped in time before he wanted more. He rubbed the tip of Bai Lang's nose affectionately with the tip of his nose, and said, "You go home, and wait for the baa-baa at home, it will go back tomorrow."

Bai Lang asked, "What about you?"

Xu Luowen said: "I will go back tomorrow too, but it will be later, and I have to go somewhere with Pei Shuyan."

Bai Lang didn't ask any more questions, and said, "Okay, I'll wait for you when I go home."

After a moment of silence, Xu Luowen spoke with difficulty: "Your parents... are no longer here, 15 years ago..."

Bai Lang was silent for a long time, and after the long silence, he said lightly: "Got it."

These three words contained too many emotions that could not be expressed, Xu Luowen spoke carefully: "You don't want to know..."

"I don't want to." Bai Lang interrupted him softly, "I just want to live a good life with you, my son, my dad, and Aunt Shao, our family of five, I don't want anything else."

Xu Luowen suddenly felt relieved.

He was still worried at first, what would he do if Bai Lang got revenge after knowing the truth, but Bai Lang's decision was far beyond his expectation, he didn't know what Bai Lang had experienced during the long silence just now. He struggled a lot, but he was very grateful to Bai Lang for making such a decision.

Xu Luowen raised his head and kissed him again.

There was a sentence that lingered on the tip of the hooked tongue, but it was still unable to come out.

After kissing for a long time, Bai Lang stopped, stood up with Xu Luowen in his arms, and walked towards the villa.

Xu Luowen suddenly remembered what he said that day in front of his parents' grave, and called softly, "Bai Lang."

Bai Lang looked down at him: "Huh?"

Xu Luowen said: "We will also build a house here in the future, do you think it's good?" He raised his hand and pointed, "It's right there, on the other side of the lake, opposite to Tan Jiaying's house."

Bai Lang smiled slightly and said, "Okay, I'll build you a house with my own hands."

Xu Luowen was surprised: "Really?"

Bai Lang said, "Really."

Xu Luowen thought silently, if Bai Lang wanted to build him a house, what could he do for Bai Lang?After thinking for a while, a thought suddenly popped up: How about... giving Bai Lang another child?Xu Luowen was taken aback by this sudden thought, and hurriedly shook his head to drive out this terrible thought.

"What's wrong?" Bai Lang asked.

"No, it's nothing." Xu Luowen blushed quietly in the dark, feeling extremely ashamed.

When he reached the gate of the villa, Bai Lang put the man on the ground and said, "Go in."

Xu Luowen said: "I'll go in after seeing you go."

Bai Lang leaned over to kiss him, then turned and left.

"Wait a minute!" Xu Luowen called to him, ran over, took off his shoes, squatted on the ground to put them on for him, stood up and waved to him, "Let's go."

Bai Lang picked him up like pulling a carrot, went to the door, pushed the door open, put him on the carpet inside the door, then turned and left.

Xu Luowen watched his back disappear into the darkness, closed the door, walked to the door of the bedroom, opened a crack in the door and looked in, Pei Shuyan fell asleep peacefully, nothing unusual, he closed the door, turned and went to the second bedroom.

Although he didn't sleep much last night, Xu Luowen woke up very early, getting up when the sky was light.He went to the bedroom to take a look at Pei Shuyan first, to make sure that he fell asleep safely, and then went to the kitchen to make breakfast.

Xu Luowen made it as rich as possible, using all the ingredients.

No one knows when we will meet again after today.

After breakfast was ready, Xu Luowen went to wake Pei Shuyan up, and when he opened the door, he saw Pei Shuyan standing in front of the window, bathed in the bright sunrise.

"I've never felt that the rising sun is so beautiful before." Pei Shuyan turned his back to him, sighed softly, and said with infinite emotion: "There are three hardships in life, not getting what you want, meeting resentment and hatred, and parting from love. Buddhism is really wise. "

Xu Luowen walked over, stood beside him side by side, looked at the dazzling Chaoyang, and said: "If you can't ask for it, then learn to give up. If you hate it, then don't hate it. If you love and part, there will always be a day when we meet again."

Pei Shuyan turned his head to look at him, their eyes met, and the two spoke almost simultaneously: "It's easier said than done."

They laughed at the same time.

Xu Luowen said, "Let's eat."

He turned to leave, but was suddenly hugged.

Pei Shuyan hugged him almost with all his strength, begging in his voice: "For the last time, don't push me away...Luo Wen, I'm sorry, I'm going to break my promise, and from now on, I can't be your girlfriend anymore. Pei Shu said, I'm leaving your life... from tomorrow, forget about me, forget all my evils, and start your new life... I hope you can live happily, from now on , you can only be happy, nothing else."

Xu Luowen raised his arms and hugged him back, whispering in his ear: "No, I will never forget you, never in this life, you will always be my Pei Shuyan, the best Pei Shuyan in the world .”

Xu Luowen felt the tremor in his chest, heard his suppressed sobs, and felt tears streaming down his neck.

He hugged him tightly and said: "Promise me, you will work hard to be happy, no matter how bad the situation is."

After breakfast, drive away.

As soon as he entered the city, Xu Luowen received a call from Bai Lang, said a few words before hanging up.

Pei Shuyan asked, "Baabaa, have you gone home?"

"Well," Xu Luowen said, "it's safe and sound."

"That's good." Pei Shuyan said.

Xu Luowen glanced out the window, saw that it was the way to his house, and hurriedly said, "I won't go home, I will accompany you to the Public Security Bureau first."

"No," Pei Shuyan said, "I don't want you to see me being handcuffed."

Xu Luowen knew that once he made up his mind, it was useless to say anything, even though he was worried, he could only listen to his arrangements.

Not long after, the car stopped at the gate of the community.

Pei Shuyan smiled and said, "The Chinese New Year is coming soon, I wish you a Happy New Year in advance."

"Thank you," Xu Luowen said bitterly, but with a smile on his face, "I also wish you a happy new year."

Pei Shuyan opened his arms: "One last hug?"

Xu Luowen leaned over and hugged him.

Pei Shuyan said: "I want to hear you sing that song again, the one you sang when we first met, I was fascinated by the way you sang right away."

Xu Luowen sang softly in his ear: "It's a pity that you were not happy the day you met me, maybe because we met too late, but I'm leaving, but Nuannuan is leaving, is there another me here?" You give happiness by your side...but I just want to tell you that I will never quit, it is my happiness to make you happy..."

After singing, people have to leave.

Standing by the side of the road, Xu Luowen watched the car speeding away, and something seemed to shatter in his heart.