my wolf

Xu Luowen's voice became softer as he spoke, but Tan Jiaying didn't hear clearly: "What are you talking about? Speak up."

Xu Luowen refused to say it a second time.

Deep down in his heart, Xu Luowen was ashamed to admit and let others know his love.After all, it's not something to show off when you have a good impression of someone who has been stronger than yourself.

"No, it's nothing," Xu Luowen said, "I think you must be thinking too much. Pei Shuyan is the kind of person who is so chic that he is almost cold, and he will never get entangled."

Tan Jiaying didn't take it seriously: "I used to be cool and unrestrained, cold or cold? Breaking up is like playing, so cool. If you look at me now, if you want to quarrel with Xiao, you can cry like an idiot. When you love someone you love When it reaches the extreme, you will go crazy for him and become a completely different person, let's wait and see if you don't believe it."

After hanging up the phone, Xu Luowen called Pei Shuyan again and asked him to come to his house for dinner, and Pei Shuyan naturally agreed.

The refrigerator at home was already empty, so Xu Luo could go to the supermarket to buy groceries.

He made a list, then closed all the windows, left Ah Huang and Baa Baa at home, put on his coat and went out.

There is a large chain supermarket near the community, but he has only visited once, and he doesn't know the distribution of goods, so it is more difficult to find things.He wanted to buy a bottle of XO sauce, but he couldn't find it after searching twice in front of the sauce shelf, so he had to ask the shopping guide for help.It was already 05:30 by the time I bought everything on the list.He and Pei Shu made an appointment at seven o'clock, so we must hurry up.

Back home with big bags and small bags, I took off my coat and put on an apron to start working.

At six o'clock, Tan Jiaying came back.He's a good-for-nothing, he doesn't know anything, Xu Luowen doesn't expect him to help, just let him watch and don't let him keep running to the kitchen.

At 06:30, Pei Shuyan arrived with a bottle of red wine and a bunch of small white flowers.

"What kind of flower is this?" Tan Jiaying looked for a vase to arrange flowers, "It's so beautiful, it smells sweet and fragrant."

"Linglan." Pei Shuyan replied.

"Lily of the valley?" Tan Jiaying asked casually, "What is its flower language?"

Pei Shuyan was silent for two seconds before answering: "Start again, happiness returns."

Tan Jia smiled knowingly and said nothing.

Xu Luowen was busy in the kitchen and didn't hear what they said.

Pei Shuyan walked to the door of the kitchen, leaned against the door frame and asked with a smile, "Can you help me?"

"No need," Xu Luowen put the fried dishes on a plate, "It's done, wash your hands and get ready to eat."

Xu Luowen made Tan Jiaying's spicy chicken diced and fish-flavored eggplant, two of Pei Shuyan's favorite dishes, and his own favorite tea tree mushroom pork rib soup. Everyone took care of it.

"How many days will your seminar last?" Tan Jiaying asked while eating.

"Three days." Pei Shuyan opened the red wine with a corkscrew and poured a glass each.

"Then where do you live?" Tan Jiaying sipped his wine, "Well, good wine."

"XX Hotel," Pei Shuyan said, "it's not far from here, and it's also close to the seaside."

"That's a good thing," Tan Jiaying said, "Luo Wen is free, and you can ask him to play with you when you're bored."

Xu Luowen kicked him under the table.

Pei Shuyan: "...cough, you kicked me."

Xu Luo was embarrassed when he heard it, and Tan Jiaying grinned while biting a chicken bone.

Pei Shuyan didn't have any troubles on his face, and said, "The meeting schedule is quite tight, and I'm free today."

Although they broke up, even though Pei Shuyan brought his former cheating partner to him, Xu Luowen didn't think much of it. He could still be friends with Pei Shuyan openly, but after hearing Tan Jiaying's words in the afternoon, Xu Luowen felt uncomfortable, even looking at Pei Shuyan felt awkward.

A meal is extremely tormented.

After the meal, after sharing Yu Sheng's half bottle of red wine, Pei Shuyan suggested, "Would you like to go to the beach together?"

Tan Jiaying hurriedly said: "I have to video with my husband, you two go."

Pei Shuyan looked at Xu Luowen expectantly.

Xu Luowen couldn't think of a reason for the refusal at the moment, so he had to say yes, and when he got up, he gave Tan Jiaying a hard look, and Tan Jiaying pretended not to see it.

Walk out of the community for another 10 minutes to the beach.

The two walked side by side along the shoreline.

Tonight's wind was a bit noisy, and my hair was blown up, and I couldn't help shivering.

Slightly drunkenness came up, and the mind was a little dizzy, but the feeling was not bad.

Pei Shuyan took off his coat and put it on Xu Luowen.

Xu Luowen refused, but Pei Shuyan insisted, so he had no choice but to accept the kindness.

Tired from walking, the two sat down on the beach.

Facing the black sea, the spring is not yet warm and the flowers are not blooming, only the salty sea breeze is wrapped in the cold and cold.

Xu Luowen thought to himself, it would be great if he could sit with the person he likes and watch the sea.

The appearance of Bai Lang can't help but pop up in his mind, catching him off guard.

"What are you thinking?" Pei Shuyan looked at him sideways and asked softly.

"I didn't think about anything." Xu Luowen picked up a small shell, blew off the sand on it, and put it in his pocket.He bent his arms on his knees, rested his chin on one hand, and met Pei Shuyan's gaze, "By the way, is Xiao Xiang okay?"

The light from afar cast over and landed on Xu Luowen's sideways half of his face, enveloping exquisite facial features, and delineating the contours of light and shade.His eyes were filled with a little bit of water, and there was a faint smile, and the movement of his eyes was easily captivating.

Pei Shuyan lowered his eyelashes in panic, covering all his emotions, and said flatly, "He's fine, why do you ask him?"

Xu Luowen said: "Look at him, don't let him do wrong."

He spoke vaguely, but Pei Shuyan instantly understood, raised the corners of his lips and smiled, and said, "I can't even manage myself well, so why should I care about others?"

The atmosphere instantly became awkward.

Xu Luowen turned his head to look at the black sea, remained silent, secretly regretting that he shouldn't have mentioned this.

After a long time, Pei Shuyan sighed inaudibly, and said, "Don't worry, I will supervise Xiao for Tan Jiaying."

Xu Luowen said "Mmm" and said, "It's so cold, let's go back." He was about to stand up, but Pei Shuyan grabbed his wrist: "I have something to tell you."

Xu Luowen blurted out, "I don't want to hear it."

The feeling of uneasiness was so strong that he instinctively resisted.

"Whether you want to hear it or not, I have to say it." The tenderness is no longer, replaced by toughness and domineering, "Actually, Fu Dongxiao and I have never been together before. The reason why I took him to the party that day was just to provoke You. I want to make you angry, and I want to prove that you still care about me." Pei Shuyan smiled miserably, "But you didn't, you didn't even ask. That night, I felt like a ridiculous clown , I've never been so miserable in my life."

Xu Luowen was shocked and speechless.

After three years of dating, Pei Shuyan has always been gentle and introverted. He has never expressed his feelings so bluntly and strongly.

After a while, Xu Luowen said at a loss: "But...but we agreed to start a new life."

"I remember, I did say that. But the reason I said that is because this is what you want, and I will give you whatever you want." Pei Shuyan smiled very lightly, "I don't Deny, I also have selfish intentions in doing this, I want to see if I can live well without you, but it turns out that I must have you. Without you, I am like a walking dead, no one and nothing can make me Feeling happy, life is completely meaningless." Pei Shuyan grabbed Xu Luowen's shoulder and looked straight into his eyes, "Luo Wen, I can't go on like this, I can't bear a day without you, so I beg you , give me one more chance, come back to me, okay?"

His eyes were terribly bright, filled with ardent longing.

Xu Luowen didn't have the courage to look at him, and lowered his head to avoid his gaze.

Tan Jiaying often said that he was soft-hearted and a holy father. Xu Luowen admitted that he always couldn't bear to hurt anyone.However, when he is cruel, he will harden his heart and say things that make people sad.

After a long time, Xu Luowen plucked up the courage to raise his head, looked at Pei Shuyan, and said in a gentle but firm tone: "I'm sorry, Shuyan, you and I... are really impossible. Because I already have someone else in my heart."

The light in Pei Shuyan's eyes went out instantly, and the hand holding his shoulder suddenly let go.

The sound of the wind and waves seemed particularly noisy at this moment, almost obliterating everything.

Xu Luowen stared at the lover he once loved deeply, and the long-term memories flooded his heart like a tide. Joy, anger, sorrow, joy, ups and downs, turned into an invisible hand, kneading his heart lightly and hard, making his heart into a ball.

Unable to bear to see his painful appearance, Xu Luowen reached out to hold his face, gently stroked his cold cheek, and said in a low voice: "You can no longer be immersed in the past, you can no longer waste time and affection on me, There is no one in this world who has to do with anyone. We are all passers-by in each other's lives. When we are together, we are full of energy and happy. When we are separated, we are sad for a while, and then we pack up and meet new people. To find new happiness. People live like this, go forward and never look back."

Tears flowed down without warning, Pei Shuyan closed his eyes, weeping uncontrollably.

"Why...why...I just made a mistake once, and you sentenced me to death...Why can't you forgive me once? Why can't you give me a chance...Why? Why..."

Pei Shuyan cried like a child, asking questions one after another, hot tears fell on Xu Luowen's palm one by one, making him panic.He had never seen Pei Shuyan cry.Xu Luowen hugged him helplessly, and kept saying "I'm sorry".

Pei Shuyan quickly calmed down, wiped away his tears, and became that gentle and self-sustaining man again.

He asked: "Who is that 'other' in your heart...?"

Xu Luowen never expected that the first time he confided this secret concern would be Pei Shuyan. Although it was hard to tell, he had no other choice but to tell the truth. This was the best way to make Pei Shuyan give up on him completely. method.

However, before Xu Luowen could speak, Pei Shuyan said to himself, "It's Bai Lang, right?"

It's not hard to guess, Xu Luowen looked at him and nodded: "Yes."

Pei Shuyan smiled.

This smile was extremely short, but extremely weird, which made Xu Luowen suddenly feel a little horrified.

"I see," Pei Shuyan said, "That's it."

What's the meaning?Xu Luowen was puzzled, what is "like this"?

But he didn't dare to ask, he should keep silent at this time.

Pei Shuyan stood up: "Let's go back."

Xu Luowen stood up, "Okay."

Pei Shuyan looked at him: "Can I hold your hand one last time?"

Xu Luowen replaced his answer with action, and stretched out his left hand to hold his right hand.

Pei Shuyan spread his fingers, intertwined with him, and led him back.

The wind seems to be stronger than when it came, setting off surging waves.

The waves hit the beach, splashing big waves, which wet Pei Shuyan's trouser legs and shoes, but he didn't seem to feel it, and just clasped Xu Luowen's hand so hard that it hurt Xu Luowen.

It wasn't until the gate of the community that Pei Shuyan let go of his hand and said, "I won't go in."

Xu Luowen nodded, took off his coat and returned it to him. He wanted to say something, but after a moment of silence, he only said "goodbye".

Pei Shuyan smiled, leaned over, kissed his forehead lightly, then turned and left without saying anything.

Xu Luowen stood alone in the cold wind, staring blankly at Pei Shuyan's back as he walked away.

The street lamps stretched his shadow very long, adding a bit of depression.

Unable to bear to look any further, Xu Luowen turned and walked into the community, when his cell phone rang suddenly.I took it out and saw that the caller ID was "Wolf".Oh, this call is really timely.

Xu Luowen walked to the bench by the side of the road and sat down. There was a street lamp standing beside him. The dim yellow light covered him, casting a small shadow.

"Hello." Xu Luowen deliberately made his voice appear cold.

"I'm back." Bai Lang said.His voice was low and deep, full of joy and tenderness, like a cannonball, hitting a red heart accurately.

"Oh." Xu Luowen maintained his indifferent attitude.The wind made him chilly, and he curled up on the bench with his knees hugged.

"Open the door." Bai Lang said.

"What?" Xu Luowen was taken aback.

Bai Lang said, "I'm at your door."

Xu Luowen choked for breath.

He seemed to be able to see Bai Lang standing outside the door waiting for him to open it through the cat's eyes.

If he was at home right now, the moment he opened the door, would Bai Lang rush forward and give him a warm hug?

It's a pity he's not at home.

"I'm not at home," Xu Luowen said, "I accompanied Tan Jiaying to City N."

Quiet over there.

Angry?Xu Luowen thought, do you want to say something nice?

Before he could speak, Bai Lang said, "When will you be back?"

Xu Luowen thought for a while, and said, "Before the Mutation Day."

"Come back." Bai Lang ordered him domineeringly, "I want to see you."

Xu Luowen was caught off guard and was hit by a shell again.

In the past, he only felt that Bai Lang's domineering was disgusting, but now he has a completely different mood. People's hearts are really fickle and unreasonable.

"I have something to do, so I can't go back until I'm done." Xu Luowen lied while covering his heart, and then changed the subject: "Did you gain anything from this trip? Did you find any clues?"

Bai Lang said, "Nothing was found."

Although I had expected this result a long time ago, I still felt slightly disappointed.

Not knowing how to comfort him, Xu Luowen was silent for a moment and asked, "Are you okay?"

Bai Lang said, "It's good to see you, but it's bad not to see you."

Xu Luowen unconsciously raised the corners of his lips, his heart itching, as if ants were crawling.

He hugged himself tightly, and asked again: "Since you haven't found anything, are you still going to check?"

Bai Lang said: "I want to investigate, but I don't have a clue, I don't know where to start."

Xu Luowen thought for a while and said, "You can ask Xiao Run to help you. He is the captain of the criminal police, so he must have a solution."

"Good idea." Bai Lang paused, "How is your son?"

"Very good." Xu Luowen said.

"How are you?" Bai Lang asked again.

That tickling feeling is back.

Xu Luowen gave a "hmm" and said, "I'm fine too."

"I'll visit you on weekends," Bai Lang finished his statement. He might feel that he was being too arrogant, so he asked softly, "... How about it?"

Xu Luowen put his head on his knees and laughed silently, then cleared his throat with a cough, and said in a low voice, "The legs are on your body, and I don't care about them."

As soon as he finished speaking, he was suddenly patted heavily on the shoulder.

Xu Luowen screamed in fright, almost fell off the bench, looked up, and saw Tan Jiaying standing in front of him, holding Baa Baa in one hand and Ah Huang in the other, looking at him inexplicably.

"What are you doing?" Xu Luowen scolded, "I'm scared to death!"

"You scared me to death," Tan Jiaying said, "Who are you talking on the phone with so much concentration? You didn't hear me several times."

Only then did Xu Luowen think of Bai Lang on the other end of the phone, put the phone to his ear quickly, and said, "I won't tell you anymore, I'm hanging up."

"What happened just now?" Bai Lang asked nervously.

"It's okay," Xu Luowen said, "I was frightened by a little wild cat passing by."

After hanging up the phone, Xu Luowen got down from the bench, reached out to hug Baa Baa, wrapped it in his coat, and said, "Are you stupid? It's so windy outside, and I don't know how to dress my son when I come out. Don't freeze anymore." it."

Tan Jiaying: "Meow meow!"

Xu Luowen: "Speak humanly."

"Where is Pei Shuyan?" Tan Jiaying asked, "What have you two been talking about since you came out?"

"You're just a crow's mouth," Xu Luowen walked back holding his son in his arms, "You are a good spirit, not a bad spirit."

"Damn, did I really guess right?" Tan Jiaying was a little surprised, "Tell me, how did he tell you?"

Of course Xu Luowen would not tell him those words, but simply said: "As you guessed, he wants to start over with me."

Tan Jiaying asked eagerly: "Then how did you answer?"

Xu Luowen was silent for two seconds, and said, "I rejected him."

Tan Jiaying shook her head and sighed: "I didn't expect it, I didn't expect it. Old Pei Mingming is a playboy and he is going to follow the route of Mr. Haohao. I feel sorry for him, and suddenly I really want to be the CP of you two."

Xu Luowen: "Get lost."

After entering the elevator, Tan Jiaying asked, "By the way, who did you call on the bench just now?"

"Li Yan." Xu Luowen didn't know why he was lying, but before his brain gave the order, his mouth did so without authorization.

"You and Li Yan's CP is also very good." Tan Jiaying turned his back in an instant, "Although Li Yan didn't say it clearly, I can tell that he has been waiting for you."

Xu Luowen: "...you shut up."

Tan Jiaying glanced at him: "You are a disaster, and you have caused so many good men."

Xu Luowen: "..."

Tan Jiaying said again: "By the way, there is also Bai Lang. He has successfully evolved from a wild wolf to a loyal dog because of you. It's good for you. You don't even want to hide from his house."

Xu Luowen: "..."

Tan Jiaying continued to babble: "Tell me about you, besides good looks, whiter skin, better figure, softer heart, and better cooking, what else do you have good about you? Why did you become a heartthrob? Tom Su, both treat you like a sweetheart and pamper you?"

Xu Luowen: "...What is Tom Su?"

Tan Jiaying squinted at him: "Have you heard of Marysu?"

Xu Luowen nodded: "I have."

"One meaning," Tan Jiaying said, "but Mary is a woman, Tom is a man, that's the difference."

Xu Luowen: "... I have been taught, Teacher Tan."

Tan Jiaying hummed twice: "Virtue."

After entering the house, Tan Jiaying said, "Hey, seriously, you really plan to stay single forever, right?"

Xu Luowen was rarely serious: "No, I have you."

Tam Kar Ying said: "Don't make trouble, answer my question directly."

Xu Luowen smiled and said, "I'll answer your question when spring comes."

Tan Jiaying raised her eyebrows: "What do you mean?"

Xu Luowen said, "It's literally."

Tan Jiaying wanted to ask again, but Xu Luowen went into the room and turned him away.

Xu Luowen put Baa-baa on the bed, and lay down on it himself.Baa-blea climbed onto his chest and licked his chin affectionately.Xu Luo couldn't stop laughing when he heard the itch, he raised his baa, and said with a smile: "Why do you have the same problem with your wolf father, you always like to lick people, you are not allowed to lick, do you hear that?"

Baa-baa kicked her short legs and called "Wow, woof".

Xu Luowen: "!!!"

what happened?How did it become barking?It must have been spoiled by Ah Huang!

Xu Luowen imitated a wolf howl twice, and said, "You have to bark like that, but you can't imitate Ah Huang. You are a wolf, not a dog."

Baa-baa let out two soft wolf howls.

"That's right." Xu Luowen put it down, rubbed his face against its soft and warm little body, and couldn't help sighing, "Son, when will you become a human? I really want to see you change soon." It must be super cute as a baby."

Baa-baa came to lick it again.

Ah Huang slipped in without knowing how, and stood by the bed and looked at him eagerly.

Xu Luowen stretched out his hand to rub its head, and suddenly felt very happy.

He hasn't felt this way for a long, long time.

He seemed to hear the sound of happiness knocking on the door, like raindrops on the glass.

Turning his head to look out the window, it was really raining.

In this house with a view of the sea, he listened to the patter of rain, and was with a wolf and a dog, waiting for the coming of spring[Note].