my wolf

When I came out of Li Tan's house, there was heavy snow falling in the sky.

Bai Lang was still driving, and Xu Luowen sat in the back holding Baa-baa, who was already asleep.

Both of them were immersed in their own little world, and no one spoke along the way.

The car parked downstairs at Xu Luowen's house.

No one got out of the car.

After sitting silently for a long time, Xu Luowen asked, "What are you going to do?"

Bai Lang quietly looked at the boundless snowflakes outside the window, and after a while, he replied: "I'm going to K City."

Xu Luowen had already anticipated this answer, and he asked, "You don't even remember the past, so what can you do even if you go to City K?"

"Although I can't even remember my own name, I still remember my parents' names. My father's name is Bo Qinghui, and my mother's name is Cheng Jiawen. If you ask for their names, you can always find out something. And now I It’s an auxiliary police officer, so going to the local Public Security Bureau to ask for help can help.” When it came to work, Bai Lang unknowingly diverted to other places, “I’ve been working hard to learn how to read characters, and I’ve learned quite quickly. , I still have to learn more, I plan to take the civil service exam, and become a real criminal policeman in the next year at the latest. I like this job, and I feel that I am quite good at it, and I can do it well.” In the end, he And a little embarrassed, "Although my salary is a bit low now, I can still support you and my son. I have a good relationship with Brother Deng, and I can go to the construction site to move bricks on weekends. He also introduced me to a job in a nightclub. A lot of money. Don't worry, I will never let you and your son suffer a little bit."

Xu Luowen listened silently to his nonsense, his heart seemed to be soaked in warm water, warm, swollen, and a little sour.Suddenly recalling a very old movie, he smiled lightly and said, "Take care of yourself first." After a pause for two seconds, he added in an inaudible voice: "Fool."

The heater was fully turned on, and the cabin was warm. The breaths of the two blended together, silently teasing each other's bodies.

Xu Luowen held his breath and said, "Then when do you plan to go to City K?"

"The day after tomorrow," Bai Lang said, "go to work tomorrow to ask for leave."

"How long?" Xu Luowen asked.

"One week should be enough." Bai Lang replied.

Xu Luo heard "Oh" and asked again, "By plane or train?"

"Train." Bai Lang said, "I've never been on a plane, no way."

"Then you have to buy a train ticket now." Xu Luowen said.

"Go to the station to buy after get off work tomorrow."

"Who still buys tickets at the station now? They buy them online."

"I won't," Bai Lang turned his head sideways, looking at him with bright eyes, "You teach me?"

Xu Luowen tilted his head and looked out the window: "Let Captain Xiao teach you how to go."

"Oh." Bai Lang was silent for two seconds, "Then... I'm leaving."

Xu Luowen nodded, suddenly remembered something, and said awkwardly: "Wait, come upstairs with me, I have something for you."

"Okay." Bai Lang agreed with a smile.

They entered the house one after the other, and Ah Huang came to greet them wagging his tail.

"Don't change your shoes," Xu Luowen said while taking off his shoes, "Just stand here and wait."

Xu Luowen walked into the bedroom barefoot, put the sleeping Baa Baa into the cradle, then returned to the living room, took out a paper bag from the drawer under the TV cabinet, turned around and walked to the entrance, and handed the paper bag to Bai Lang: "Here, Your money will be returned to you intact."

Bai Lang didn't answer, turned around and left.

"Wait a minute!" Xu Luowen hurried to pull him, "I haven't finished talking yet."

Bai Lang stopped and turned to look at him.

Xu Luowen let go and backed away, opened a safe distance, and said, "I asked Xiao Run, the auxiliary policeman's salary is less than 10 a month, and your father is not in good health, so he can't stop taking medicine, and he can't eat and drink poorly. For daily expenses, your monthly salary must be beyond your means. And if you go to K City, you will need to spend money on food, clothing, housing and transportation. You take the [-] yuan back and spend it on the right place. I I earn much more than you, so I don’t need you to give me money.” He paused, and then said: “Also, don’t go to the construction site to move bricks, let alone go to nightclubs. Everything is strong."

Bai Lang stared at him blankly for a moment, and the corners of his mouth slightly curled up: "Are you...care about me?"

Xu Luowen didn't answer, and threw the money into his arms forcefully: "Hurry up and go."

Bai Lang said, "I will definitely earn a lot of money for you to spend in the future."

Xu Luowen said, "How many times have I told you that I don't want your money."

Bai Lang said, "I want to give it."

Xu Luowen glanced at him, and urged impatiently, "Hurry up, I'm going to bed." But when Bai Lang turned to leave, Xu Luowen called him back, "Well... tell me your phone number."

Bai Lang reported his mobile phone number, Xu Luowen saved it, and watched him leave.

Standing there for a while, when the light in the entrance went out, Xu Luowen went to the living room and sat down, and saw the plastic bag on the coffee table.It was brought by Bai Lang when he came in the evening, and he said it was something delicious for him.When I opened it, there were two roasted sweet potatoes inside, which had already cooled down completely.Pick one up and break it open, revealing the red flesh.Take a bite, it is very sweet.

After taking a hot bath and going to bed, Xu Luowen sent Tan Jiaying a WeChat message: Hey, did you sleep?

Tan Jiaying quickly replied: No.

Xu Luowen sent a video, and it was answered in seconds.Tan Jiaying was also lying on the bed, half of his face was illuminated white by the bedside lamp.Xu Luowen saw that his expression was not right, and the corners of his eyes were red, as if he had just cried.

"What's wrong?" Xu Luowen asked, "Have you quarreled with Xiao Xiang?" As soon as she asked, she saw tears glistening in her eyes, and Tan Jiaying turned her head and buried her face in the pillow to silence her crying.His heart ached in an instant, and Xu Luowen hurriedly said, "Hey, don't cry, I'll go over to accompany you now, okay? Jiaying, Jiaying..."

Tan Jiaying wiped her eyes, and said in a crying voice: "No, I'm fine at first, but when you asked, you hooked up the grievance again. It's okay, don't worry."

Xu Luowen asked: "Did you quarrel with Xiao Xiang because of going to N City?"

"Well," the tears kept falling. Tan Jiaying leaned forward and took out two tissues to wipe away the tears, and sat up and leaned against the bedside. How fierce, he never mentioned the word breaking up... Luo Wen, what should I do if Xiao wants to break up with me if he is really determined? I'm so scared, I can't live without Xiao thinking, I have long been spoiled by him, no one but him can stand my bad temper..."

Love is really not a good thing, no matter men or women, once you touch it, you will be finished, it will make you crazy and stupid, and it will push you from the clouds to the dust.But people are eager to have it, because it can make you bloom in the dust.

"Don't scare yourself," Xu Luowen comforted him, "I think it's because Xiao thinks he can't live without you, he loves you to death, so he's not willing to break up with you, he must have been stupid for a while. , I might regret it now, go and see him, if he fainted from crying in the toilet."

Tan Jiaying smiled through tears: "I'm not going to see him, I'm waiting for him to coax me."

Xu Luowen asked: "Hey, why did you quarrel?"

Tan Jiaying said: "I don't know either. Anyway, we started arguing and started fighting."

Xu Luowen was startled: "Did he hit you?"

"No," Tan Jiaying said, "I beat him."

"..." Xu Luo was angry, "Then why are you being wronged? Xiao Xiang should be the one who should be wronged."

Tan Jiaying was annoyed: "I've been lying in the guest room for half an hour and he still hasn't come to coax me, why can't I be wronged?"

Xu Luowen was not angry: "You can do it with all your strength."

There was a knock at the door.

Tan Jiaying lay down suddenly, covered her head with the quilt, and the phone screen went black.

It should be that Xiao wanted to coax people.

Xu Luowen was about to hang up the video, and wanted to see how Xiao Xiang coaxed people, so he didn't hang up, and started peeping with interest.

Xiao wanted to lift the quilt, and the phone screen lit up.

Xu Luowen saw Xiao wanted to push Tan Jiaying under him, and said, "Baby, I was wrong."

Tan Jiaying put on an airs and put on a bad face: "Where is it wrong?"

I heard Xiao want to say: "I was hit on the left cheek, but I didn't stretch out the right cheek to hit you."

Tan Jiaying and Xu Luowen laughed together.

Only then did Xiao Xiang find out that someone was peeping on the phone, and he buried his face in Tan Jiaying's neck and wailed: "Damn it! This time I'm so ashamed."

"What's there to be ashamed of coaxing your wife?" Xu Luowen smiled and exposed the child's old background, "Xiao Xiang, don't get used to Tan Jiaying too much, he was crying with me just now, saying he was afraid that you would break up with him, and why? Said he couldn't live without you BlaBla..."

"Xu Luowen! I'll fuck you!" Tan Jiaying reached for the phone, but Xiao Xiang stopped him first.

"What else did he say?" Xiao Xiang asked with a smile.

"Xu Luowen, how dare you say one more thing, I'll never stop with you!" Tan Jiaying threatened angrily.

"You heard me." Xu Luowen said with a smile, "You two should kill each other, I'm going to sleep."

Xiao wanted to ask: "Do you want to watch the live broadcast? It's especially pornographic, and it's free."

Xu Luowen laughed: "I still don't want it, I'm afraid of getting hot eyes, so I hang up, bye."

After hanging up the video, Xu Luowen smiled to himself for a while, feeling a little envious in his heart.Xiao Xiang and Tan Jiaying are the true portrayal of the kind of love he longs for.Love each other worldly in the worldly life, lively and lively, full of smoke and fire.

Then he thought of Bai Lang again.

Thinking about his bad, thinking about his good, thinking about the past, thinking about the present and the future, falling asleep thinking about it.

·

On the morning when Bai Lang set off for City K, he called Xu Luowen at the train station.

"I'm leaving," he said.

He should: "Yeah."

Other than that there is nothing else to say.

But no one hung up the phone.

The hustle and bustle of the waiting room came over, and after listening in silence for a long time, Xu Luowen suddenly asked: "A long time ago, you called me twice, why didn't you speak at that time?"

Bai Lang was silent for a moment, then said, "Because I'm afraid you won't be happy knowing that I'm still alive."

Xu Luowen said: "When you called me for the second time, I asked the owner of the phone to tell you something. Did she tell you?"

Bai Lang asked, "What are you talking about?"

Xu Luowen couldn't tell whether it was disappointment or what, he just said flatly: "It's fine if you don't know."

Bai Lang didn't ask any further questions, but only said: "When I come back, you tell me yourself."

Xu Luowen wanted to tell him that he was going to N City, but he swallowed the words again.

Bai Lang is not his, so he can't tell him.

"Hung up." Xu Luowen said, but hung up the phone without hesitation.

The day after Bai Lang left, Xu Luowen and Tan Jiaying set off for N City.

Because it is inconvenient to take Ah Huang and Baa Baa by plane or train, so it is right to drive there as a self-driving tour.

At the time of parting, Tan Jiaying hugged Xiao Xiangcry at the gate of the community, almost crying, Xiao Xiang was originally full of sadness about parting, but Tan Jiaying made Tan Jiaying cry and laugh.

After crying enough, Tan Jiaying said with snot and tears: "I prepared two gifts for you, and put them under the pillow in the bedroom."

Xiao didn't expect to receive a farewell gift. He was surprised and guilty: "But I didn't prepare a gift for you, what should I do?"

Tan Jiaying shook her head: "I don't want a gift, I just have you."

Xu Luowen was so numb by the two of them that he couldn't bear it, and when the wind blew, goose bumps fell all over the ground.He took out his mobile phone, turned on Netease Cloud Music, and played a song "You Are the Wind, I Am Sand" for the lovers.

"You are sick!" Tan Jiaying scolded while crying and laughing.

The atmosphere of parting was disturbed in the cold winter wind, Tan Jiaying secretly wanted to take a bite, and finally reluctantly got into the car and embarked on a journey to N City.

Xu Luowen's cell phone was still singing: "Ling Ling Mian Mian, you are the wind and I am the sand, little by little, the clouds and smoke of the past, the flowers of the past..."

"Can we change the song?" Tan Jiaying said angrily while driving the car.

"This song is so suitable for the occasion," Xu Luowen deliberately embarrassed him, "and I think it's quite nice."

"Do you want to change it?" Tan Jiaying gritted her teeth, "If you don't change it, I will cry for you."

Xu Luowen casually ordered an electronic music playlist, and said strangely, "Why do you cry so much now? You're almost becoming Lin Daiyu, you were not like this before."

Tan Jiaying said: "I am also puzzled, my brother used to be a pure man who bleeds but not tears, but now tears seem to be free of money, and they fall down every now and then. I can't bear the bitches. Myself."

"Don't tarnish the word 'pure man', okay," Xu Luowen snorted, "You haven't had anything to do with this word since you were born."

"Fuck, when you were a sophomore in high school, you hadn't smoked. You looked as thin as a bean sprouts. You were blocked in the toilet by a boy from Class [-] and forced to kiss you. Did I shoot you with a brick? That's not enough man. Son?"

"...You've said this [-] times, are you annoying?" Xu Luowen changed the subject, "Oh, by the way, what gift did you give Xiao Xiang?"

Tan Jiaying smirked: "A airplane cup, and a copy of "Four Kinds of Tranquil Instructions", a Buddhist scripture, reciting it every day can eliminate lust, and achieve a state of complete forgetfulness and extremely pure body and mind."

Xu Luowen was amused, and when the fun was over, he turned to look at Tan Jiaying: "Are you worried that Xiao Xiang will cheat?"

Tan Jiaying stopped laughing and sighed: "It's a lie to say that you don't worry. We are all men, and we are well aware of men's vile nature. Men, they just can't control the flesh between their legs. No matter how much he loves you, when the sperm is on his head, it's all fucking useless. Pei Shuyan loves you, but so what? You've only been abroad for half a month, and he couldn't bear the loneliness and slept with someone else .It is said that it is drunk sex, but if it is really drunk, it can still be hard? Nonsense. Drinking sex? Haha, it does not exist. "

Xu Luowen said: "It's all in the past tense, why are you still mentioning it?"

Tan Jiaying said: "Isn't this a rush to talk about it?"

Xu Luowen was silent for a moment, and said, "Suppose, suppose Xiao Xiang really made the same mistakes as Pei Shuyan, what would you do?"

Tan Jiaying said: "I have already imagined it. I am not as emotionally clean as you. I can accept Xiao Xiang's physical cheating, but at most two chances, but I can't bear the mental cheating once."

Xu Luowen smiled: "It's easier said than done, but if that day comes, you might not know what will happen."

"Hey, you're intentionally embarrassing me, right? My buddy is heartbroken about being separated from my husband. You don't want to comfort me, but you keep setting a flag for me. What do you mean?"

"Isn't this just nonsense? Why do you take it seriously?" Xu Luowen flattered with a smile on his face, "Xiao Xiang loves you so much, he is absolutely loyal to you until death, and you two are just fucking crazy The couple will definitely grow old together."

Tan Jiaying let out a "hum" from his nose, and said with a smile, "It's not too bad."

The phone happened to be a song that was hugely popular a while ago and both of them could sing, so they stopped talking nonsense and sang along: "Hey, I was doing just fine before I met you, Idrinktoomuchandthat'sanissuebutI'mokay..."

The two of them sang more and more excitedly, and Ah Huang in the back seat also became excited, making a mess, and then he was yelled at An Sheng with a bleating voice.

·

It was already past eleven o'clock at night when we arrived in N City.

Although Jin Jieru threw Tan Jiaying over here for training, she still couldn't bear to let her son endure hardships. The house has already been arranged, and it is a high-end community built next to the sea. Standing in front of the French windows in the living room, the sea is close in front of you. The taste, and the sound of the waves can be heard vaguely.

After driving for more than ten hours in turn, both of them were extremely tired. Naturally, they didn't have the heart to enjoy the scenery, and they didn't even bother to take a shower. They fell asleep on the same bed sprawled out.Xu Luowen even got up to feed Baabaa and drank milk once.

The two slept until noon the next day before waking up, full of blood and resurrection.

City C has a harsh winter, but City N is as warm as spring.

The two cleaned up and took Ah Huang and Baa Baa to the open-air restaurant by the sea for dinner.

Sunshine, sand, sea breeze, waves, handsome men, beauties, food.

Two words - perfect.

It would be more perfect if her husband was with her, Tan Jiaying thought to herself, on the first day of separation, she would miss him and miss him.

And Xu Luowen was also thinking about Bai Lang.

I don't know what happened to him in K City, and whether he found any useful clues.

After walking for so many days, I don't even know how to make a phone call, how stupid.

After two days of being happy, Tan Jiaying started to go to work.

Of course Xu Luowen wasn't idle either. He walked around the city with Baa Baa and took many photos. He picked out a few that he liked and posted them on Weibo.

Xu Luowen has two Weibo accounts, the large one is a serious photography blog, and the small one is for fun.The name of the big Weibo is just the name, the certification is "well-known photographer", and he has a small 50 fans, but he doesn't update his blog once in a few months, and his live fans are turned into zombie fans. It's rare to post a Weibo. Can't stir up any big splashes.

This time, the blog update attracted two phone calls.

One was from Jiang Yuhe, asking him to post on Weibo to promote the collection of photographic essays "Qi Qi". The promotional words and pictures have been sent to his WeChat, and he only needs to copy them to Weibo.

The other one was from Pei Shuyan, saying that he happened to be attending a medical seminar in N city, and asked him and Tan Jiaying to have dinner together in the evening, and he had no reason not to agree.

After hanging up on Pei Shuyan, Xu Luowen called Tan Jiaying and told him about the dinner appointment.

Tan Jiaying sneered: "Fuck, why did you just come to the seminar? There is no such a coincidence in the world. Pei Shuyan must have come to N City to find you on purpose. Go by yourself, just say that I am busy with work and can't leave , I'm not a light bulb."

Xu Luowen said: "What nonsense are you talking about? Why did he come all this way to find me? My relationship with him has long since ended, and he also made a new boyfriend..."

Tan Jiaying interrupted him: "I'll go, dare you not know?"

Xu Luowen was confused: "Know what?"

Tan Jiaying said: "On the second day of our last meeting, Pei Shuyan dumped that little boyfriend, and he broke up with him by phone. Xiao Xiang was right next to him at that time. Hey, I didn't tell you Is this the case?"

"...No." Xu Luowen was in a complicated mood.

Tan Jiaying said: "I guess Pei Shuyan still can't let you go, and wants to start over with you, you can figure it out, anyway, I won't get involved in your shit."

"Did you get involved less before? No, you have to stay with me." Xu Luowen was silent for a moment, and said, "I think it's better to call him home. I'll cook, what do you think?"

Tan Jiaying said: "Then I want to order, I want to eat spicy chicken, fish-flavored eggplant..."

Xu Luowen was not angry: "Fuck me, I'm bored, what to do and what to eat."

Tan Jiaying said: "If Pei Shuyan really wants to get back together with you, what are you going to do?"

"Of course I rejected him," Xu Luowen said without hesitation, "I ended up with him a long time ago, and it is absolutely impossible to start again." He stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, looking at the blue sea and blue sky under the sun, with a smile on his face. Smiling shyly, like an innocent young man who has just begun to fall in love, he said hesitantly: "Jiaying, actually I...I probably...maybe I like Bai Lang a little bit."