please stop being jealous

I don't feel much about getting off work late, because I go to work late except for weekends, which are eight in the morning and six in the morning.

So I have no idea, and never thought that Xu Luo would feel lonely in the apartment alone.

But it wasn't supposed to be like this, her best favorite, shouldn't it be when she was alone?

After listening to Xu Luoye's answer, I couldn't calm down. I thought she lied and went to the professor's place, just to avoid me.

It turned out to be closer to me.

The unhappiness and discomfort in my heart disappeared at this moment, and there was no shadow, but I left a soft sigh in the wind.

Xu Luo also relies on me after all, this is not my imagination, but the truth.

It's just that the truth made me feel a little short of breath, and my heart seemed to be tightly held by someone.

What I want is not this kind of dependence similar to family affection.

Xu Luo didn't wait for my movement, she turned around again, and it could be seen that there was a trace of unnaturalness on her face.

After all, you thought you could hide it from me.

I raised a smile, put away those strange thoughts in my heart, and said, "Got it."

I won't get angry, and I won't blame her for anything.

It's not that I don't know about Xu Luoye's family situation. She has always been a left-behind child. After she went to middle school, she went home less frequently. What's more, she is still studying in the city, so she has even fewer chances to go home. .

I can't count how good I am to her, but it is also the person who has been closest to her in the past few months. She will share some affection with me, which is nothing strange.

It took more than an hour to go out to eat noodles. After practicing calligraphy in the study for a while, I drove to the company to work again.

The summer cram school has always been very popular. I used to take two classes a day to save myself the annual leave, but now I have to do it every day.

I talk too much, and my hands are a little tired. I used to drink three bottles of Nongfu Spring a day, but now I need five bottles a day.

Another bottle was empty and I threw it in the trash.

Kong You was looking in the mirror, and she was leaving get off work in 10 minutes. After a while, she put down the mirror and looked curious again: "Mr. Yu, tomorrow will be August, do you feel that this year has been special?" quick?"

I rubbed my forehead, thought for a while, and answered seriously: "A little bit." I paused, "And I'm still a little tired."

What Xu Luoye said to me today immediately appeared in front of my eyes.

Kong You rubbed her neck, she sighed, and said, "I think I'm fine, but you're different, you're going on a business trip again, that's the real tiredness."

I twitched the corner of my mouth: "Who said it wasn't?"

The business trip notice was issued during the meeting today. A chemistry teacher from another campus and I were arranged to attend training at the education headquarters in Yuncheng.

Maybe it's because I didn't do as well in terms of business ability a while ago.

Fortunately, the business trip was on August [-]th, and I had already attended Huo Lingshu's engagement banquet at that time, otherwise I would definitely refuse this business trip.

The school will not force teachers to go on business trips, so they can actually refuse, but generally no one will refuse to go, because the subsidies given are very good.

Originally, I thought of Xu Luoye, and there was a little hesitation, but I also felt that it would be nice to give me half a month to sort out my thoughts, wouldn't it?

But the thought of telling Xu Luo about this matter gave me a little headache.

Especially the image of her hugging her knees alone in the bedroom or living room, waiting for me to go back, I can't get rid of it.

This is also a point where I struggle with my feelings for her, because I can't tell whether my love for her accounts for a large proportion.

It's so hard to tell.

I drooped my eyelashes, exhaled a sigh of relief, and when nine o'clock came, I took my bag and left the office.

Instead of going home directly, I sent a message to Song Chicheng, a tool person, before I got off work, asking her to come to Hou Jin's shop to talk to me about something.

I seem to have lost my judgment. At present, looking for Song Chicheng is the most suitable choice.

Hou Jin wasn't here today. She went to watch a movie with her girlfriend, but she ordered the clerk to bring me juice and not let me drink.

She told me the specific reason in WeChat, saying that every time I drank alcohol, I had to be delivered by the clerk when I went home, and the fare was not reimbursed.

Accusing my stinginess between words, I raised my eyebrows and sent her a 100 yuan red envelope.

She scolded me again for not treating her as a friend.

Who is this.

If I'm Huo Lingshu's little follower, then Song Chicheng is my little follower who has been on call since I was a child. Except for the few years when I went to college for graduate school, the other times are the same as now. Send a message, As long as he is free, he will basically come.

I was the person he trusted most in this world. When he realized that he liked the same sex, the first person he told was me, and he also said who he liked.

Due to Huo Lingshu's different status, I didn't tell him that I like Huo Lingshu, but at the same time, I also revealed that I am just like him.

Since then, our boat of friendship has grown stronger.

"Sister, you mean, you are very confused now, are you really attracted to her, right?" Song Chicheng started to ask me after listening to my confession.

In front of me is fruit juice, in front of him is wine, he looks very sober, but I am slightly drunk.

"Correct."

The light was dim, and Song Chicheng shrugged his shoulders: "But I think you should confirm her feelings for you."

I waved my hands: "No need to confirm, it's family affection, really." I slowed down, "Xu Luo's parents are not a thing, and they never came back since she was very young. She has always been a grandparent. The one who brought up, if it weren't for her grandpa's accident and urgent need for money, I wouldn't have the relationship I have with her now."

Song Chicheng's double business went online: "Then what's the relationship between this?"

"You do not understand."

"When people are far away from their loved ones, they will transfer their affection to another person, and I am the lucky one."

"I really don't understand you women. If it's me, I'll fight with each other on the bed."

I:"……"

"Don't be speechless, you should realize now that your relationship with your little lover has changed." Song Chicheng frowned, "Is her family still short of money? You give her 15 a month, In half a month, I will give her [-]."

15 is enough for Xu Luo to pay off the debts owed by the family.

What he said was like enlightenment, and I was instantly sober.

I already sent a message to Xu Luo when I went back late tonight, as if reporting the itinerary, but when I told her about it, I felt a little guilty.

I knew she didn't like being alone in the apartment, but I went back late anyway.

I talked to Song Chicheng again, and finally I made a decision in my heart.

After sending Song Chicheng home, I parked the car in the parking lot of the community after ten o'clock.

After sitting in the car for a few minutes, I covered my face, took a deep breath, opened the car door, and went upstairs.

When I stood in front of the door, I was a little hesitant again, not sure if I would have sex with her tonight.

Enter the password and enter the door to change shoes.

This is something I do almost every day.

There is no sign of Xu Luoye in the living room, which is expected, because Xu Luo also sent me a message saying that she will study in the study.

I washed my hands, wiped them clean, and stood at the door of the study.

Two seconds later, I raised my hand and knocked on the door lightly. I didn't need to wait for her to say "Go in", I twisted the doorknob and locked it into the study.

As I have seen many times in the past, Xu Luo also has a book in front of her, holding a pen. If I hadn't come in, she would definitely be immersed in writing.

When she saw me, she bent her eyes a little, and there was a faint smile inside.

I sat across from her, calmly took out the copybook and pen, and asked casually, "What is so happy?"

"No." Xu Luo also straightened her lips instantly.

I smiled, stopped looking at her, and calmed down to practice calligraphy.

She also continued to write her own things, and I wrote for a while before I said quietly: "By the way, let me tell you something." I didn't need her to give me any response, I still lowered my head and didn't look at her, " In fact, you also feel it yourself, our relationship has long since deteriorated."

From the corner of the eye, Xu Luoye's hand stopped and stopped moving.

I swallowed without a trace, and continued: "The people in your school watch you very closely. If our relationship is exposed one day, it will have a great impact on you."

"So?" Xu Luo also spoke, and it was obvious that her voice was not very calm.

Some trembling.

I chuckled lightly, put down my pen, raised my eyes, and looked at her: "So I think the relationship in the contract can be revised."

Xu Luo also looked puzzled: "Revise?"

"Yes, if you agree." I suddenly felt a lot more relaxed, "We can become limited cousins, and I will help you until you graduate, and after you graduate, our relationship will be broken. "

After I finished speaking, I exhaled lightly: "What do you think?"

She sniffed, her eyes gradually turned red: "What if I disagree?"

I smiled slightly: "I will order a song "No If" for you."

It's not like I haven't seen Xu Luo look so distressing. At that time, she was still playing tricks on me.

"Have you heard of "No If"?" Xu Luo also asked me.

I shook my head: "No, I made it up, does this song really exist?"

Even if I go to KTV, I'm still the one who fishes in troubled waters.

Xu Luo also laughed twice when he heard the words, and dimples appeared on his cheeks again.

She raised her head slightly, looked at the ceiling, and her slender neck was imprinted in my mind.

I have always referred to her as cousins, I am used to it, and she should be used to it, right?

Although when I was talking about this incident, the sadness in my heart increased little by little, and now I am almost out of breath.

But I think this decision is right.

It cannot be denied that when facing Xu Luoye, I will want to taste her soft lips again, and I will also think of her low/groaning begging for mercy that night.

What is even more undeniable is that I am indeed not a qualified donor - I have given her too much care.

This is also one of the important reasons why she will trust me and rely on me.

You can't be a beneficiary with a heart, otherwise you will end up like me and don't know how to end it. I can't do what Huo Lingshu did, kicking the other party off with a liquidated damages.

It may have been as long as a century, and Xu Luo also gave me an answer.

She looked directly at me, with no more tears in her eyes, and said calmly, "I agree."