【Liba】Residual thoughts

(from the depths of the sea)

In the sunny restaurant, the young man sat alone at the dining table, looking at the empty seat across the way for a long time, and finally raised his head to ask the old butler beside him.

"May I ask if Mr. Liddy hasn't come back yet?"

"No... the young master came back last night. I thought you had already seen him."

"……yes."

Without asking any further questions, Banagher quietly ate his own breakfast.

Although he could faintly feel Riddhe's aura last night, it only lasted for a moment and then disappeared.He was there.It's just that he doesn't want to see himself.Thinking of this, Banagher felt that the delicious breakfast that was brought into his mouth became tasteless.

The reason to stay here seems to be getting weaker and weaker.

After breakfast, he went for a walk outside as usual.He didn't ask the old butler Liddy's whereabouts, because he felt that even if he saw him now, he probably wouldn't know what to say.So he had to go alone to relax.

Sunlight leaks from the densely packed treetops, reflecting on the ground to form mottled spots of light.This scene fascinated Banagher.Including the happy calls of birds jumping between the shadows of trees, the sound of woodpeckers knocking on tree trunks, and the sound of wind passing through the trees. These are things that are difficult to achieve in the universe, but they are on the earth Nothing more than normal.

He walked on, stepping across the green sea of ​​ferns that drowned the road.The sound of birds was getting farther and farther away from him.Two ears flashed behind a certain big tree, and he immediately recognized it as the fawn from last time.The deer popped out from behind the tree, stared at the boy for a while with too straightforward eyes, then turned around and walked into the depths of the woods.

etc……!He called out from the bottom of his heart, and his body automatically followed.But the deer was just running in front of his eyes, and he couldn't catch up no matter what.

There was a fear, the fear of being left behind.In his impression, he was abandoned countless times, by his mother, by his father, by Audrey, by Marida, and then by Liddy who brought him here.

Why do I have to be left again and again, and keep chasing the phantom of what left me.

Doubts come up like foam in the sea.But he himself understands that this question has been rooted in his bones, burning his soul year after year.Could it be because of my own problems?Could it be that I was born into this world to make everyone abandon themselves?

He kept running, not knowing whether he was running away or chasing something.Nothing undamaged exists anywhere, neither in himself nor in relation to Riddhe.

At this moment, the wind suddenly stopped.

The front suddenly opened up.He stopped, only to realize that the deer had led him to a clearing surrounded by giant trees.The sky peeped through the branches was still clear, but the birds were silent.His heart beat, he looked at the deer who was only a few feet away from him, and the other party lay down without paying attention, and ate the grass growing by the roots of the tree.

He turned around and suddenly realized that the deer had led him deep into the woods.If you go rashly, you may get lost, and you don't know how to get out.After a while, he sat on the ground and sighed helplessly.

"It's all your fault..." he complained to the deer grazing leisurely nearby, but even that didn't help.The deer, which was slowly chewing the grass, raised its head and looked at him with bright black eyes.A sense of peace of mind suddenly surged up.It seemed that only he and the deer were left in the whole world.They are locked in this space.But at least he caught up with it and was not left behind by others, and that was enough.For him, this is the most important thing.

But, will someone really come to find him?Getting lost in this place that no one knows is called Tiantian.If he couldn't find it, would he simply die in this place?

Without any sense of reality, his head was only thinking vaguely, but he couldn't arouse the will to escape.He put his arms around the neck of the fawn, and it had no fear or intention of running away, it just stared at him steadfastly.Those clear eyes reflected his own appearance, it was the face of a hesitant teenager.

"It seems that a long time ago... there was such a..."

The sun shines on the body through the leaves, as if someone is touching himself gently.The wind rustled the leaves again.Sleepiness came without warning.He closed his eyes drowsily, and the figure in those deer eyes shrunk little by little.In the end, what was reflected in those eyes was the self that was forgotten in the depths of memory and was still a child.

... Najib... Banerjee...

He tried his best to open his eyes, and the familiar figure of a woman was swaying in his blurred vision.It's mom.He happily held out his hand to his mother.It's very warm to hold your own hand.

Banagher worked hard today too, so he can already rest.

For some reason, my mother's gentle voice sounded so bitter.Then he noticed a tall figure against the light, standing on the other side of him.

dad……

He hesitated calling.The figure turned around, raised his hand, and touched his head.Then that hand took his other hand.The large palm is very warm.

I want to show you something today.He picked himself up all at once.Banagher was taken aback because his father rarely hugged him like this.But he smiled lovingly at himself, making his young heart leap for joy.

I can't help but want to stay in this big embrace for a little longer, a little longer.

His father took him into the garden.There are wild ducks swimming in the small artificial lake, and a small deer is eating the leaves on the branches with its head down beside a neat bush.The first time he saw such a beautiful creature, his eyes widened in excitement.

When Xiao Lu saw the stranger, he took a few steps back warily.Go, Banagher, and befriend it.His father let go of his hand, he glanced at his father timidly, felt the encouraging eyes, and then mustered up the courage to approach it a little bit.do not be afraid.He tried his best to meet those clear eyes, and stretched out his immature palms towards them.

After a stalemate like this for a while, Xiao Lu finally lowered his head and rubbed his velvety nose against his palm.The wet touch came from his palm, and he was amused to laugh.Gently hugging its slender neck, contentedly sticking to its warm fur.When he turned his head, his parents were standing not far from him, looking at him and smiling quietly.

The cub specially given to him by the father is as pure as the unicorn in the tapestry.Since when were the happy times with the parents and the fawn overshadowed by painful memories?People are really incredible creatures. Although they deliberately forget the past, what remains, apart from the indelible pain, is the longing and longing for warmth deep in their hearts.

Now it seems that although it is irreparable, it is an important past that cannot be forgotten.

That is, the deep yearning for the warmth that only exists in memory——.

>>>

"Excuse me, master."

Duyon knocked on the door, and opened it without waiting for Liddy's answer.Liddy looked at the nervous old butler in surprise, he was rarely so flustered in his impression.

"What's wrong? In such a hurry..."

"Master, Master Banagher is missing."

"what?"

"He went out for a walk after breakfast today, but he didn't come back for lunch. Now it's getting late, and I'm worried that something will happen to him..."

Liddy looked up at the wall clock, it was already four o'clock in the afternoon.Anyway, should be back.

"But where will he go?"

"I'll go out and look for it, you call other people to look around the house."

"Yes."

Liddy didn't say anything more, and walked out of the room with big strides.When going out the gate, Hans, who was fidgeting in the yard, yelled at him.

"Hans, can you find Banerjee?"

He patted it on the head, the golden retriever barked affirmatively twice, and rushed out with one stride.Without hesitation, Liddy followed Hans all the way to the boy's place.

>>>

—Banagher, happy birthday.

He turned his head, and his father and mother were standing there with gentle eyes.

——Do you like it, a birthday present.

He hugged the fawn that had been tamed by him and nodded desperately. For some reason, he felt that this might be the last birthday present in his life.But the faces of his parents were so kind, he tried his best to hold back the urge to cry, and squeezed out a happy smile.

If it can always be like this, it would be great for the family to be together.But time was running out.With unprecedented courage, he stepped forward with the small body of a child and hugged his parents tightly.

Dad... Mom...

so warm.He was attached to the body temperature of the adult's arms around him, and he didn't want to let go no matter what.As long as I let go of these hands, I will probably never see each other again.I don't want to be thrown into the dark abyss again.but--

What's the matter, Banerjee?

Mother's gentle voice echoed in my ears.He shook his head.

Mom... this must not be true.

He looked up into his mother's eyes.The smile froze on the mother's face, and gradually, the smile became bitter.

He understood that this was just a so-called dream, expressing the forgotten past in this form.Even if it was just a dream, he could still hug them tightly.Is this the time God deliberately arranged for him?So that they have no time to say goodbye, and they can get together for the last time in the virtual space.

With one hand covering his head, he looked at his father who only survived in his heart, his nose sore.

Dad... I have a lot to say to you.

Me too.It's a pity I haven't been able to have a good chat with you.A loving wry smile appeared on the man's face.

I... have been working very hard to live.I have accepted so many things... I have granted your wish...

I know.

I understand everything you do.He said so with a speechless gaze.Sensing his father's gaze, Banagher felt a surge of heat in his chest.

Am I doing well...?

The broad palm caressed his hair comfortingly, and his same eyes showed a pitiful smile.

You are doing well, my boy.

Tears welled up in my eyes.He was like a child who had done something wrong and was forgiven by his father, remorse and gratitude turned into entities and poured out continuously.Although I worked hard to live until today, but——

If only I had noticed sooner.I... can't save anything.

Watching family and friends die without being able to do anything.

He hated himself for being so powerless.

The dead are irretrievable.But Banagher, look up, there are still living people beside you... Those must be more important to you.

Father's words gradually faded away, and the hand covering his head lost weight.He subconsciously wanted to grab his father, but what he pinched in his palm was only a ray of residual warmth.He watched silently as they smiled at him until little by little they were swallowed up by the light.

However, I am homeless.He murmured, knowing in his heart that he was being left behind again.It would be great if we could go with them.Just like that time, wrapped in iridescent amniotic fluid, safe from all pain and sorrow...

However, if he went one step further, that voice would call his name——

"Banaji?"

Liddy followed Hans all the way to the entrance of the woods, and a nimble figure passed by not far away.

"It's that deer..." He didn't miss the animal that Banagher had met with before, the other party stopped to look at him, then turned around and ran deep into the woods.He followed without thinking.The deer trotted as if leading him, and he could only follow behind.This familiar feeling of chasing gave Liddy a chill in his heart.Certain memories that should have been locked away in the universe pushed him like waves.

No, you cannot be taken away.

Everyone is waiting for you.

I won't let you go there... Even if I go to the ends of the earth, I will bring you back.

Suppressing the panic and remorse in his heart, the agreement he said in the past was like an awl firmly piercing him.Yes, I hope that guy will come back.Otherwise, why did he spend so much effort to pull him back from the other side?

"I didn't bring you back to get you lost again, bastard!"

With emotions that were about to break through, Liddy Marcenas tried his best to keep up.

After pushing through layers of grass and tree branches, he found him.Banagher was lying on the grass, like a sleepy child who was exhausted from playing, stuck in a long dream.A cluster of bright and dark lights swayed on his face, baking a quiet and warm taste frozen in time.

"Sleeping in a place like this..."

He sighed, but couldn't bear to interrupt his sleep.He squatted down and thought about how to wake him up, but accidentally caught a glimpse of the tears sliding down the boy's face, like a meteor that disappeared in the sky in an instant.

"Wait for me……"

Riddhe's breathing became stagnant at the murmur of an unknown target.The sadness from the boy reached his heart.The shadow of the tree fell on the corners of the boy's eyes and the tip of his nose, soothing his sad sleeping face.Even though he slept in such a quiet place that did not allow any disturbance, was his dream still so sad?

At that moment, he suddenly understood that everyone was actually living in their own cage.It's just that most people can only see their own sadness, and are helpless in the face of the pain of others.

If only he could keep looking at himself.Faced with such a selfish thought, Riddhe smiled wryly, but he couldn't take his gaze away.The sleeping boy looked too pure and flawless, which matched the name of the pure white beast he was driving.At that moment, he understood Minerva's obsession with this young man, and he must have been attracted by such a clean quality.

It's unbelievable, obviously because of the family's grievances and various irreparable mistakes, he and him are destined to be two incompatible individuals.But why is there such emotion?Want him to look at you, want him to hate you so he can remember you, want him to be your thing.

In fact, it was me who had been watching him all the time.

No.

Can't get any closer.

If this continues, I will...

A surge of emotion overwhelmed Liddish.The boy's innocent sleepiness seduces him silently.If you give him a kiss, will he wake up like Sleeping Beauty in a fairy tale?

Obviously the one who planted the curse on him was himself.

Intertwined conflicting emotions surged violently in his chest, and if nothing was done to calm it down, it would probably explode.The blond man, who surrendered to his desire, finally bent down, as if wanting to take the shadow of the tree on the young man's lips as his own, and gently touched his lips.Those lips were as soft as in memory, perhaps feeling a little uncomfortable, the teenager immersed in his dream let out a small moan.

The world stands still.Time just rubs against each other in vain.Everything ceased to exist.The entanglement, hatred, guilt, and confusion he had towards him all disappeared at that moment.Instead, there is only love overflowing in the chest.

However, the wind suddenly made a noise in an incomprehensible way.Riddhe, who was interrupted by something invisible, woke up suddenly, his heart was beating wildly like a novice thief who had just committed a crime.But compared to those, what shocked him even more was the taboo feelings that he unconsciously revealed.

What the hell am I doing!Blaming himself so much, Riddhe felt ashamed.And Banagher who was kissed opened his eyes for no reason, and saw Riddhe standing stiffly aside with his hands down.

"Mr. Liddy...?"

There was indescribable frustration in the back of the man standing against the light, Banagher didn't know what happened, and got up from the ground in a panic.

"Sorry, I accidentally got lost... I fell asleep later..."

He embarrassedly straightened his messy hair, he didn't expect Liddy to come to him, and he felt a little joy besides the accident.

"Let's go back."

Liddy kept his back to him, and no emotion could be heard in his cold words.But that alone couldn't fool him.He clearly felt that the mood of the man in front of him had fallen into unprecedented fluctuations.Yet he could not understand why.

"...I'm sorry, I asked you to come to me on purpose."

Apologies received only silence.On the contrary, Hans, who had always been content with himself, cried out as if he wasn't used to the atmosphere.Without saying anything more, Liddy patted the big dog on the head to let it lead the way, and then the two of them and the dog walked out of the woods in silence.

On the way of silence, Banagher followed behind Riddhe, looking at his back stretched long and narrow by the setting sun, he felt his throat was blocked by something.

Why do you feel that you will never be able to cross the distance that is clearly only within your reach.

After returning to the mansion, the old housekeeper and a group of servants all showed expressions of relief when they saw them.Knowing that he made the Marcenas family move so much, Banagher was so ashamed that he wanted to crawl into the hole.

It's okay, it's good to be back.Duyon cast a consulting look at Liddy, indicating that dinner was ready.However, he reasoned that he was not hungry and let Banagher eat first.

Facing the indifferent young master, the old butler naturally had no choice.He turned to the teenager who was already hungry and growling, and took him to the restaurant for dinner.

"I'm sorry, I seem to have made Mr. Liddy angry..." Banagher sincerely apologized, and the butler smiled at him.

"Please don't take it to heart, young master, he is just worried about you." He said, "It's the first time I saw him so nervous, when I told him you were missing."

"yes……"

Banagher tried to make his voice sound more serious.But when he heard that he was nervous because he didn't see him, his mood improved inexplicably.

"By the way, a friend of yours called today."

friend?Banagher was startled, and then remembered Takuya and Micott who were far away in the universe.

"I have told them that I will contact them later." The housekeeper respectfully opened the door of the restaurant, "The phone is already in the room, and it can be used at any time if necessary."

>>>

The screen of the videophone showed the boy's freckled face, and the childish-looking girl beside him.Seeing his long-lost friend, Banagher felt a burst of relief.

"Banaji! Have you recovered your memory?!" The boy saw his face, and called out energetically, and the volume was so loud that Banagher shrank back.

"Um……"

"Great! We thought you couldn't recover, but we didn't expect it to be so soon... Micott, why are you crying?"

Takuya looked helplessly at the girl who suddenly started sobbing softly, and Banagher couldn't help laughing when he saw that.

"I'm fine. Thank you for worrying about me."

"We're friends, so we should be worried about you. By the way, how are you doing over there? Lieutenant Liddy's house must be very big, right? Is there a housekeeper and servants? That's great. I want to see it."

Confused by his series of questions, Banagher could only nod with a wry smile and answer "Well, not bad" and so on.The girl pushing Kaikai also occupied the screen, her suddenly enlarged eyes were full of tension.

"Let me tell you, Banagher, Second Lieutenant Riddy didn't bully you, did he?"

"Huh?" He froze for a second, then shook his head reflexively. "No, of course not."

The girl breathed a sigh of relief, "Is that so... That's good." Then there was a protesting voice from a boy next to him.

"Micott! Second Lieutenant Liddy is his savior, why would he bully him!"

"That's what I asked! After all, he took that girl to the earth before, and the atmosphere between the two of them was very strange after returning, so I wondered if something happened..."

After being reminded by her, Banagher remembered the time when Liddy brought Audrey to Earth, as if he had suddenly swallowed something indigestible, and he felt a sense of discomfort in his stomach.

On that ship, he once lost his memory, but he remembered that Audrey was by his side until she left without even saying goodbye.I must have forgotten everything and caused her a lot of harm, but I probably didn't even have a chance to apologize.

"I really hurt a lot of people unintentionally..." he said to himself.The two on the other end of the phone looked at each other, Takuya made a nonchalant expression, and said carelessly:

"Okay, okay, it's good that you recover anyway. Are you in good health?"

"Well, the doctor said it's nothing serious. It seems that once the memory is restored, the body will also recover."

"Oh, so when are you going to come back?"

"Come back?" He was taken aback, where did he go back?

"Go back to Industry [-]." Takuya took it for granted, "The reconstruction work is already underway there, and the progress is fast. Don't forget that we are still students who haven't graduated. Moreover, compared to staying on the ship, I still prefer I want to work in development after graduation.”

"No one asked what you want to do!" Micott complained.

"Why do you keep interrupting! That is to say, the technical college still retains its student status, and now it is calling students back to participate in the reconstruction work. What are you going to do? You can't stay on the earth forever, can you?"

Takuya's straightforward question made Banagher speechless.He lowered his head, not daring to look into his friend's straightforward eyes.

"It's true... I really can't stay here forever..."

"That's right. Didn't you say that you still want to develop the Jupiter circle? In short, come back as soon as you are well. We are waiting for you at Industry [-]."

"……Um."

"Wait." Micott suddenly stood in front of the screen, with a worried look in his eyes.

"Banaji, is something wrong?"

"Eh? No... I didn't..."

"Really, but it's clearly written on your face that you have something to do. Well, well, I actually want to say... Takuya and I have a good time on the ship, although we decided to return to Industry [-] in a few days, But if you have something more to do, Banagher—”

"Hey Micott, what are you talking about!" Takuya yelled from the side.After being glared at by the girl, he closed his mouth again.

"...In short, if you have something more you want to do, it's not too late to come back after finishing it. We will wait for you. After you come back, let's put everyone together...into the cemetery. Although even the body No more, but I hope at least to keep their names..."

The girl said in a sad tone.Of course Banagher remembered what she said about everyone.Like them, students of Anaheim Technical College were unfortunately killed in the attack of Industry [-].A corpse that turned into air in the blink of an eye, not even a dead person.That kind of death is still the most disgusting thing Banagher knows.

He still remembers.They still remember.The dark past will not disappear, it will only turn into a scar, branded on the dial called history.Maybe it will fade over time, but it will never disappear.

"Banaji, will you come back?"

Meeting the girl's almost begging eyes, Banagher nodded.Micott showed a cute smile.

"Then, it's an appointment."

He nodded and smiled at her.After saying goodbye, the screen went black.The room was quiet again, only Harrow was rolling around on the bed crying "Long time no see, long time no see".Banagher collapsed on a chair, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

By the way, it turns out that I still have a place to go back.

"Industry [-]..."

Not to mention the reason not to go back, after going back is to finish what should be done.But until then, it feels like there are more important things.

"what?"

There was a knock on the door.Who is it so late?With suspicion, Banagher opened the door, and the smell of alcohol immediately filled his nostrils.

"good evening."

The blond man standing outside the door leaned on the door frame with one hand, his eyes were blurred and his face was flushed.His body was staggering, and there was still a tranced smile on his face.Banagher frowned to know what he did without speculating.

"Mr. Liddy, are you drunk?"

The man smirked twice, his hands left the door frame, and the moment his body leaned forward, Banagher caught him in time, so his whole body was almost hung on the boy's body.

"Really... how much did you drink?" He sighed and tried his best to support the man, but the body that was much stronger than his kept slipping down.

"Wait, Riddy-san, please stand still!"

It would be better to make a cup of tea.Thinking of this, Banagher tried to move the man hanging on his body to the sofa, but in the next second, he was embraced by the man without warning.

"Mr. Liddy?"

The strong alcohol-smelling sniff on his neck made the boy's hairs stand on end, and he was in a hurry, not knowing how to deal with Liddy who was drunk.The arms that hugged him got tighter and tighter, and Banagher felt more and more difficult to breathe.Just as he was about to break free, a hoarse voice sounded from the pit of his neck.

"Banaji..."

He stopped moving because of the pain and self-mockery in that voice.

"If you weren't Banagher Links...if I wasn't Liddy Marcenas..."

"Eh?"

Unexpected speech.After a while, he realized, isn't this like a line in Romeo and Juliet.Banagher couldn't help but laugh.

"Mr. Liddy, you're drunk..."

"If I wasn't Liddy Marcenas...would you stay by my side?"

He slightly raised his face to look at the boy, his upright and handsome face was stained with deep sadness.This was the first time that Banagher saw through this man's wound so nakedly, it was so severe, like a bottomless bloody mouth, swallowing him inch by inch.

Breathing stopped for a moment.

——It turns out that a person can be in such pain.Deliberately suppressing one's own pain, the pain of harboring an indelible sense of guilt.

Two laughs came out of the dry throat of the man, and the fingers that grabbed the boy's clothes curled up stiffly.

"Everyone has left me... And you, you will leave me in the end too..."

no.not like this.He subconsciously protested.But no sound came out of the throat.

——Banagher, will you come back?

By the way, I agreed with Micott and Takuya to go back to Industry [-].But seeing Liddy like this, his heart throbbed again and again.

It would be nice to stay with this person.

Maybe he was talking drunk, but at this moment—maybe only this moment—he needed himself.

"No, I will stay with you."

He said softly, his arms struggled a few times in the air, and finally hugged his back like trying to comfort a child.The smell of alcohol oozing from that tall body made Banagher feel pity and peace of mind, he hugged him, not caring that he was stained with that strong smell of alcohol.

Sure enough, he still couldn't leave him alone.

As a result, he only made this response. In the next second, Banagher felt a burst of dizziness caused by the impact and pull of the external force. He was pressed hard into the soft bed.

He let out a groan, and the man's oppressed face was reflected in his clear vision gradually, his blue eyes were bottomless.An inexplicable sense of crisis gripped Banagher, and he shuddered.His hot hand was beside him.And his lips were almost on his nose.The strong smell of alcohol enveloped him like a nightmare, eroding his body pervasively, and gradually brought his brain to a standstill.

He doesn't understand what a man wants to do.

"Liddy... sir...?"

He looked nervously at the man on top of him, hoping that he would give him some reaction, but those dull eyes still looked at him empty, like watching a live fish struggling on a chopping board.

Then, without warning, his lips were blocked.

The wet and numb tongue with the taste of alcohol drove in without explanation, and the boy's eyes widened suddenly.The brain hadn't had time to digest the meaning of this behavior, and just blindly accepted the unilateral invasion.He heard the sound of saliva spreading from his brain like a tide.

"Uh, uh...!"

The temperature of the cheeks began to rise rapidly.Compared to the lack of oxygen, the shock of Liddhe kissing him forcibly made his mind go blank.Banagher reached out to push him away, but his wrist was roughly grabbed by the opponent and fixed on his head.He let out a groan, but his tightly pressed body couldn't do anything.

An unprecedented sense of fear made him tremble all over.But the man who suppressed him did not let him go.He constantly changed the angle and sucked his lips forcefully, which was really difficult for the almost inexperienced Banagher.He trembled and resisted continuously, and finally, as if it had come to an end, the man left him slightly.

Banagher took a big gulp of fresh air, and at the same time, Liddy's deep, sad voice rang in his ears.

"do not go……"

Startled, he looked up at the blond man who had just assaulted him.Liddy looked at him with desperate eyes that he had never seen before, desperate and lonely, as if he was the one who was hurt the most.The almost begging sound made Banagher's heart beat faster. Facing Riddhe like this, he couldn't push him away and escape alone.

"Don't run away...stay with me..."

He begged repeatedly, and the teenager looked at him in confusion, forgetting to even refuse.

"Mr. Liddy... um!"

In a blink of an eye, the lips were pressed down again, he pried his lips open, and his tongue sneaked into his mouth, licking the inner wall and roof.The deep and long kiss made Banagher feel as if a cluster of flames were ignited in his body, and a strange heat climbed up along the tailbone.He was so weak from the kiss that he was in a trance, and he could only let out messy panting between kisses.Liddy managed to leave his lips, but unexpectedly moved to the already red earlobe, and bit it.

"what!"

The moment he cried out, his face became hot with shame.Then the man's waist was pressed down, making him blushed and his eyes widened.Even through the clothes, you can feel the heat from the opponent's lower abdomen.

"why……"

Why did it become like this?There must be a mistake somewhere.It is obvious that Liddy has always liked Audrey, and it is obvious that he treats him so coldly - because he once made an enemy of him and killed his closest relatives.Wasn't he begging himself to stay because he was drunk?Isn't it because he has been so lonely all the time, so he treats himself as a pastime——.

Frightened by his own thoughts, Banagher trembled involuntarily.He should hate him, but the area that dominated hate was filled with deep pain.The pain of being abandoned caused many images that he didn't want to think of anymore.

"----don't want!"

He struggled desperately.No, I don't want to do this.Having a relationship with a man who doesn't like me in this state, is there anything sadder in the world than this?

But his resistance seemed to stir up Liddy's sadism.He rode on him, grabbed Banagher's waving hands with one hand, and pressed them back on the bed, while with the other hand he lifted up the hem of his pajamas, exposing the youth's clean skin.When doing these things, the expression on his face was always calm, even calm, but the lustful young man in those misty eyes was not mistaken.He felt terrified, so he could only choose to call out loudly.

"Mr. Liddy! Wake up! Don't—"

The ending sound changed when the man leaned over to bite his nipples, he had goose bumps all over his body, and his body curled up subconsciously.

"No, uh...don't...!"

His voice could not reach Riddhe, who was in a daze of alcohol.The man just added uninterrupted stimulation to that place, making the boy let out a burst of sensitive whimpers.He twisted his body, trying to free himself from this torture, but every resistance was completely suppressed by the other party. In the end, he could only pant tiredly, letting tears ooze from the corners of his eyes and wet his cheeks.

And just as his heart was cooling down, the man's low moans sounded from his chest.

"Don't run away... Banagher... please...