【Liba】Residual thoughts

glare.gentle voice.rainbow.explode.Tremors in a vacuum.Light.Shock.scream.Shock.

Then there is endless blank space.blank.blank.

"—"

Banagher Links once again woke up from a dream that had been repeated countless times.

When he woke up, he gasped for breath and reached out to wipe the sweat from his forehead.He tried to catch his breath and focused his gaze on the slightly trembling hand.The chaotic noise remaining in the ear receded like a tide, and the brain was still buzzing.He's used to this fading noise in his head, but every day he wakes up wanting to reach out and grab the pieces, like they have some meaning in themselves.Of course, today also ended in failure.

It was a morning that had been the same every day since waking up.

What fills the eardrums is the brisk chirping of birds outside the window.The birds flying among the shadows of the trees brought refreshing vitality, and the boy who opened the floor-to-ceiling curtains and felt the sun pouring on his body narrowed his eyes.While feeling the "sense of disconnection" that he couldn't get rid of every day, he determined his own location.

Here is the earth.

It has been a week since I came to this mansion in South America.Under the leadership of Liddy Macenas, as a commoner, he was able to come to the mansion of the chairman of the Federal Central Assembly for a literal "recuperation".When he suggested this to himself, there was a sincere look on his face.Probably because of this, Banagher did not refuse his offer.

Even so, after a week here, the memory has not been restored as imagined.Although the fresh air on the earth, the lush forests and grasslands, the comfortable accommodation environment and the delicious meals all gradually restore the weak body and mind of the teenager, but some vacancies in the depths of the brain are far from being filled by these.

That was the fragment he left behind in that pitch-black universe, called "self".

It is said that when he was first recovered, he was already unconscious.He was in a coma for nearly five days before waking up.When I woke up, facing the crying and laughing men, women and children in front of me, my brain was just blank——

He doesn't remember anything.

He, who couldn't even remember his own name, reacted dully to the girl who hugged him excitedly.Seeing the tears overflowing from those emerald eyes, he thought that he must have lost something very, very important.

And the blond young man who pulled the crying girl away stood by the bed and looked at himself with complicated eyes.Those blue eyes made him tremble.

Is it an illusion?Why is the man looking at him so painful.

After the doctor's examination, he learned that this handsome man was called Liddy Marcenas.At the same time, he is also the one who rescued himself.

Nothing left a tangible imprint on his mind.Including what happened to me, what the machine called the Unicorn did to me, how I was rescued, and for whom, my identity, age, location and whereabouts are completely unknown .But only the pair of azure eyes with almost distorted pain was his first memory after waking up.

By the way, it's not that I don't remember at all.At least he felt that the other party's voice calling his name was very familiar.

Banerjee.Your name is Banerjee Links.I am your comrade in arms.He told him so.

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Have you ever heard of the term "residual thoughts"?

The psychosensory frame has the property of reflecting human will, and at the same time absorbs human will.The Psycoframe can unleash enough power to dislodge astral bodies, at the cost of absorbing the human will that acts as the core.

Dr. Hassan explained.Liddy, Minerva, Captain Otto and Zinnerman formed a circle around him, everyone had complicated expressions on their faces.

It is probably because his consciousness is concentrated in the unicorn with the psychosensory frame after resisting the blow of the colony satellite laser with all its strength—but it is necessary to separate the consciousness from the body and let the consciousness return to the body. In the physical body, it is easy to cause the collapse of consciousness.The result of losing memory is also a reasonable thing.

Fortunately, he still seems to remember the common sense of life, so that he can't take care of himself.This is already a blessing in misfortune.

Dr. Hassan shrugged, but his tone was heavy.The air froze for a long time, and Zinnerman spoke slowly:

That kid... Banana Guitar can't remember anything?

Nor can it be said so.After all, it is difficult to judge the possibility of recovery after consciousness.

that--

Even so, he is very weak now and his immunity is extremely low. If he is forced to restore his memory by forceful means, the result may be counterproductive.

Does that mean you can't stimulate him?Captain Ott touched his mustache, and the dark-skinned doctor nodded.

Although telling him about the past and stimulating his memory is a common method, but considering the memory he carries...it may be a certain shock in retrospect, maybe even the body will not be able to bear it.

A group of people fell silent again.Thinking of all the things this child has suffered: relatives and friends around him died one after another, countless betrayals, carrying the expectations and hostility of the whole world, cruel battles, and being forced to face the truth of the world.To tell him this is cruel not only to himself who has lost his memory, but also to the person who told him.

But, could he go on like this... Can't remember anything?

Minerva clasped her hands tightly, with an unacceptable sadness in her eyes.It was expected that she would react in this way.

He promised me that he would definitely come back... but now this... this...

Enough is enough, Audrey.

Riddhe grabbed her shoulder and said word by word: Banagher can come back alive, that's enough.

Banagher, who was sleeping behind the curtain, listened to this conversation in a drowsy state, and he himself couldn't remember.He felt very tired, physically and mentally exhausted, as if he had been wandering outside for a long, long time.For this he needs a good night's sleep.Probably because they spend far less time waking up than sleeping, so they are so relieved to discuss this kind of thing in a place they can hear.

However, Banagher couldn't remember any of the things they said.He just kept dreaming, in the dream he was wrapped in rainbow-like amniotic fluid, heard the gentle voice of a woman, explosions, bright lights.

Then, a man's voice was heard.The hoarse shout echoed uninterruptedly.At first all he could hear was a faint rumble, as if thunder came from the farthest distances.In the next many dreams, the voice gradually became clearer.He recognized that it was Ensign Liddy calling his name.

One day when he escaped from this dream, he happened to see Liddy sitting beside his bed.Seeing that he opened his eyes, the blond youth raised his drowsy face.

woke up?Do you want to drink some water?

He nodded, and Liddy picked up the sippy bottle on the side and held it to his mouth.With a straw in his mouth, Banagher secretly glanced at the man beside him, and happened to see him staring at him in a daze, and quickly looked away.

That...Mr. Liddy?

Ok?

Where is Mademoiselle Minerva?

Because usually when he opened his eyes, he saw the young girl by his side, but today he was a little surprised by the change of person.

The man's blue eyes dimmed a bit, he put the water bottle on the table, and whispered, she went back, together with Mr. Zinnerman.

gone back?Not knowing where she belonged, Banagher blinked.

Liddy hesitated to speak, his expression showed a little bit of embarrassment.Seeing this, the young man realized that he asked something that shouldn't be asked, so he quickly closed his mouth.

Once the medical room fell silent, the sound seemed to be sucked away by a vacuum.Just when Banagher was hesitating whether to simply fall asleep, the man beside him hesitated to speak, but the tone was earnest that he was not familiar with.

Do you... want to go to Earth with me?

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"Master Banagher, are you awake?"

After three regular knocks on the door, the old housekeeper's voice sounded.Even though he had been a guest here for a week, Banagher still couldn't get used to having an old man call him that.He said "Come in" and put on his light coat.There was still a faint chill in the early summer morning, and the housekeeper had repeatedly instructed his body not to catch the cold.In front of the kind old man, Banagher always acted like a white rabbit.

Duyon was satisfied to see that the little guest was fully dressed. "If you clean it up, please go downstairs for dinner, Master Liddy is waiting for you," he said politely with a gesture of invitation.

Following the old butler, Banagher slowly walked down the stairs and came to the restaurant where he usually ate.The Marcenas house is very big, when Banagher first arrived here, he was often confused by the complex layout of the house, and this restaurant is just the most common one among many restaurants.Normally, only Liddy and him would eat here, and the servants would leave after setting the tableware and food.In a typical American-style restaurant, the small long wooden tables are covered with clean checked tablecloths and a bunch of fresh flowers that vary every day. The sunlight flows through the room through the white lace curtains.Sitting down on the chair, the golden yellow bread and butter in the basket came into view, as well as the poached eggs and milk that had been placed before my eyes.Such a scene cannot be seen in the universe, nor can such delicious food be eaten, so Banagher cherishes the time of eating.

Of course, there is another reason for being attached to this period of time, and that is the blond young man sitting opposite.Banagher looked at Riddhe who was buttering the bread, and timidly said "Good morning".The other party looked at him, and the movement of his hands stopped.

"Good morning, did you sleep well last night?"

"Uh-huh……"

"Yes, that's fine."

Saying that, Riddhe seemed to feel relieved, and handed the buttered bread to the boy in front of him.The latter took it, muttered "thank you", and then took a big bite of the bread unceremoniously.

Seeing him eating breakfast with a big appetite, Liddy showed a slight smile, and then picked up the knife and fork to eat his own breakfast.

The southern sun is always too bright, and the golden sun pours on the young man unobtrusively, making the blond hair even more dazzling.The earth and the sun and the morning dew create moist air, and the aroma of bread mixed with it is refreshing.Enjoying the moment of peace and tranquility, Banagher slowly drank milk while holding the mug, staring at the man who was eating in a daze.

Why he promised this person to come to Earth, he himself didn't know.But at that time, I had nowhere to go. Although everyone on "Nahel Argama" was very friendly to me, everyone looked at me as if they were looking at a wound that could walk.Because I forgot everything, I don't know the meaning of these eyes.Over time, Banagher felt restrained and at a loss.He doesn't even remember who he is, and even has doubts about the meaning of his existence here.With an empty heart in his arms, Banagher felt that he had fallen into utter loneliness, knowing that he would not get any answers even if he asked.

He didn't know that he had lost the home he could go back to.

Micott and Takuya on the ship came to visit him and brought him a spherical toy called Haro.It is said that it is something that I have always carried with me, so it is probably very important.He couldn't recognize his former friends. Looking at the girl who pursed her mouth and looked like she was about to cry and the boy who was frowning, he could only silently say sorry dozens of times in his heart.

The feeling of powerlessness is almost overwhelming.At this time, Lieutenant Liddy made a proposal to take himself to Earth.Because it is his home.Only then did Banagher know that the pilot who rescued him was the legitimate son of the current chairman of the Council on Colonial Issues.

The doctor said that going to the earth is a good choice, there will be a better treatment environment, and the relief of physical and mental fatigue will also help restore memory.Banagher was shaken by the incident on the ship, but what really made him make up his mind was those blue eyes that showed sincerity and sadness.

He thought, he wanted to trust this man.

"Mr. Liddy, were you on good terms with me before?"

Banagher tilted his head and asked this when he came to Earth with Riddhi Marcenas.The blond-haired youth frowned, with a serious expression on his face.

"Ah, I'm just asking casually, it's okay if you don't want to answer..."

Not wanting to disturb him too much, Banagher quickly waved his hand.But he turned his face away and lowered his eyes thoughtfully.

"It's not a good relationship... But, that's all in the past."

After dropping such an ambiguous sentence, Liddhe didn't look at him again.Although I don't understand the clear meaning of this sentence, but judging by his appearance, there is probably something unspeakable hidden.

But... since Riddhe-san also said that it's over, it probably isn't something to be concerned about...?

Since he is his comrade-in-arms, then just believe it.

It is not about trusting others unconditionally.It’s just that Banagher Links, who has no relatives and no one to rely on, can only choose to believe in Liddy Macenas who is connected with his past and the world.

At least for now, he is his only reliance in this world.

"What's wrong? Is there something on my face?"

Riddhe noticed the eyes fixed on him, and raised his head to meet the other person's gaze.The young man suddenly moved his eyes away, and his cheeks were also stained with a faint red.

"nothing……"

"If you feel uncomfortable, don't hold back."

"Ah."

"The weather is also very good today, will we go out for a walk together later?"

"OK, all right."

After coming to Earth, Banagher liked to stay with Riddhe.Within a short week of getting along, the almost meticulous care made him completely believe in the gentleness of this man.Because of the other party's invitation, he smiled happily.

Everyday, ordinary conversations that occur every morning, which they could not have imagined two weeks ago.And buried under this stable and calm surface, will there be a quietly collapsing reality?

At that time, the boy who was kept in the dark by the world didn't know this.