Sharp first test

What Yang Shiqing himself didn't notice was that Ming Xu had unconsciously dragged his entire emotions away during this period of time.When Mingxu smiles, he is happy; when Mingxu treats him coldly, he is unhappy.Losing contact with Mingxu, Yang Shiqing felt depressed, and wished that school would start tomorrow so that he could go to school to see Mingxu.

All of this was seen by Yang Shijin. Yang Shijin understood his younger brother's personality and couldn't hide anything from his heart. Of course, he knew that something must have happened behind the two children.But after all, both of them are boys, not as delicate as girls, maybe it will take a few days to digest internally.Yang Shijin didn't take it to heart either.

But once when Yang Shiqing was eating, he accidentally bit a bone, making his teeth yelp with pain.Now Yang Shijin sighed, and asked: "What are you thinking about, and you don't concentrate on eating."

Yang Shiqing smirked a few times, and Yang Shijin joked, "Are you thinking about Ming Xu?"

Yang Shiqing's smile gradually froze, and he frowned, looking at Yang Shijin suddenly a little more defensive.This expression was unprecedented, and Yang Shijin was a little confused now.

Yang Shiqing ate a few mouthfuls and went back to the room.Yang Shijin followed to watch, but Yang Shiqing was lying on the table in a daze staring at a set of printed test papers.

"Starting to write test papers even during the holiday? This is not like my brother's style."

Yang Shiqing just said sullenly: "I have an appointment with someone."

"He Mingxu?"

Yang Shiqing's back stiffened, his thoughts were too easy to guess.

"What are you talking about, this is a good thing." Yang Shijin pulled a stool, sat down beside him, hesitated for a while, and said, "Hey, let me tell you, you two..."

Before he could finish speaking, Yang Shiqing's cell phone rang suddenly, and like a conditioned reflex, he snatched the cell phone and glanced at the screen, then silently raised his eyes to look at Yang Shijin.The noisy ringing made Yang Shijin frowned slightly, hesitant to speak.For some reason, Yang Shiqing subconsciously breathed a sigh of relief, hurriedly connected the phone and ran out, walked to the balcony, and glanced behind him from a distance, but Yang Shijin didn't follow.

It was Wenze calling.Yang Shiqing suddenly noticed that the last time he had contact with Wen Ze was only on the first day of the Lunar New Year.Time flies so fast and so slowly.

"Yang Shiqing, where are you now?"

"At home," Yang Shiqing paused, "Are you back?"

"Yeah." Wen Ze didn't seem to be in a good mood.

"what happened?"

"Are you free? Come out for a supper."

Yang Shiqing knew that something must have happened between Wen Ze and Liu Xi again.

Responding to a good word, Yang Shiqing hung up the phone and said to Yang's mother, "I'm going out with Wen Ze." He put on a coat, a scarf, changed his shoes and went out.

The weather in February is a bit chilly, and a few half-melted snowflakes float in the sky from time to time.Yang Shiqing put on a thick knitted hat tightly, took a taxi and went to the place he had agreed with Wen Ze.It is a lively barbecue restaurant.

As soon as he entered the door, Yang Shiqing felt a burst of heat hit his body.After taking off the scarf, Yang Shiqing saw Wen Ze sitting in the corner.Wen Ze was eating lobster with gloves on, while drinking a can of beer, his eyes wandering.

Yang Shiqing sighed, and sat down opposite him: "Did you quarrel with Liu Xi?"

Wen Ze smiled bitterly: "I haven't said anything yet."

"That's the only way Liuxi can let you do this."

Wen Ze paused, took another bite of the shrimp, and sighed: "I came back yesterday, and I went to find her as soon as I came back. I brought her a New Year's gift from my hometown, a bottle of sweet-scented osmanthus wine. I didn't expect her And... broke up with me."

It's not the first time that Wenze and Liu Xi have parted and reunited. Maybe many couples are like this. They can't get along or separate.But for some reason, Yang Shiqing used to be unable to understand Wen Ze's mood, but this time, he seemed to have a different feeling...

"I stayed in my hometown for six days and drove for six hours. I was dizzy from shaking. The first thing I did when I came back was to contact her. She was wearing an off-white coat and had long hair. She was very beautiful. I haven't spoken yet. Well, she suddenly said sorry, I was so scared..." Wen Ze suddenly couldn't bear to go on, just sighed and said, "She said she likes me, but her ideal future and mine The difference is too far. She said that she wants to take the postgraduate entrance examination, then go abroad, settle in a foreign country, and go home once a year. She said that if I insist, we will become a foreign relationship in the future. She said... She doesn't have that confidence. I think It's quite inexplicable, why did she tell me this at this point? Did she want to give me a New Year's surprise? Are you saying that girls like to think wildly and are sentimental? Or is it that I can't give her a sense of security? "

Wen Ze took another sip of beer sullenly as he spoke: "I feel like a failure..."

Yang Shiqing sighed, and reached out to pat Wenze's shoulder: "She may be a little impulsive, but her worry is understandable—don't be so pessimistic, it actually depends on your own choice. If you think she is more important , then you also strive to go abroad and stay with her. Or let her stay with you. As long as it’s not in a different place, wouldn’t it be fine?”

Hearing Yang Shiqing's idealistic words, Wen Ze couldn't help but pull the corners of his mouth and smiled: "You think it's quite simple. Both Liu Xi and I are very independent people. She doesn't want to give up her ideal of going abroad, and neither do I. I would like her to wrong herself for me...she thinks the same thing. In fact, when I was most confused, I also thought about it, why don't I just stop taking the civil servant test in Laoshizi, and just plunge into it and accompany her to take TOEFL, IELTS, and go abroad Studying abroad... But, this is not what she wants to see, she said she would feel guilty."

Hearing this, Yang Shiqing stopped talking.

Maybe Liu Xi really loves herself more than Wen Ze.

The last time Wen Ze and Liu Xi broke up, it was also because Liu Xi didn't want their relationship to delay their studies.At that time, Yang Shiqing couldn't understand Wen Ze's appearance. He ruined his bright future because of a girl who was so decadent.But for some reason, Yang Shiqing's mentality changed subtly this time, and he could no longer utter the ridicule.

Wen Ze sighed, but the almost inaudible sigh quickly melted into the noisy shouting of the supper stall, making it seem so insignificant.

"I have always felt that two people can love each other, and the basis of their mutual attraction is their commonality and natural understanding. But now it seems that maybe two people are too similar and it is not good... Liu Xi and I are. We are too strong and too strong. firm..."

Wen Ze muttered to himself, as if he was speaking to Yang Shiqing, but also as if he was speaking to himself: "I really want to be with her forever...but I'm really not sure. When I'm in college, I'm going to go outside. The world is so big..."

When you go to university, the outside world is so big.Yang Shiqing suddenly felt a little sentimental when he heard it.

Maybe Wen Ze really likes Liu Xi so much that he wants to keep her by his side all the time, for fear that one day if he gets lost, he won't be able to come back.

In the past, Yang Shiqing's perception of "love" was really vague.The world is not deep, and the love is just beginning.Maybe Yang Shiqing couldn't understand Wen Ze's distress, but he could understand Wen Ze's mood. "I want to be nice to a person, and I want to be with him forever."It is such a simple and pure idea that can drive people to have such crazy ideas and do such crazy things.

Just like himself.

Yang Shiqing was a little hypocritical and a little disappointed to realize that maybe he had been trying his best to ignore a fact that already existed for so long—it turned out that he never wanted to leave Mingxu's side.Mingxu has been absent from his life for six years, which is always a regret in Yang Shiqing's heart.But now Mingxu's meaning to him is even more different than before, Yang Shiqing wants to cherish their time together more than ever.

The silver nightmare left tonight, I'm afraid that meeting is in a dream.

The longing that seems to be implanted in the spinal cord is ecstatic and painful.

Is this what lovesickness feels like?

Many people say that people's love enlightenment mostly starts with the same sex.

Yang Shiqing didn't understand what this sentence meant at first, but now, he seems to be slowly beginning to empathize with it.

Regarding Wen Ze's matter, the protagonist actually already has a plan in mind.Wen Ze is an independent and assertive person, and Yang Shiqing can't help much.

It's just that Yang Shiqing's eyes hide one more thought.

On the penultimate night of the winter vacation, Mingxu finally contacted Yang Shiqing on his own initiative.

It was a bit cold and rainy night, and the sound of sparse raindrops outside the window made people feel cool.Yang Shiqing was lying in the not warm quilt when he was suddenly awakened by the sound of shaking.

Yang Shiqing's heart began to pound, and there was an almost impulsive premonition—it really was Mingxu!

"……Hey?"

Yang Shiqing thought to himself, is his voice trembling too obviously?

"Yang Shiqing," Mingxu's voice was exhausted, but with a slight smile, "...Sorry, it's me, did I disturb your rest?"

Yang Shiqing suddenly felt that everything was worth it, the 99+ unread messages, the screenshots of the test papers that disappeared, the manic worry and longing these days... all the negative emotions seemed insignificant at this moment.

"No." How could I bother you!

"I made you worry," Mingxu said softly, "I'm sorry."

Countless things he wanted to say were ready to come out, and the chaotic emotions were boiling in his chest. Yang Shiqing asked a question that he cared most about: "What's wrong with you? Mingxu, what happened?"

There was a long, long silence on the microphone.It seems that they are waiting for a buffer time, and they seem to be wordlessly phrasing their sentences.After a while, Ming Xu opened his mouth slowly and quietly.

"My mother...had an accident." Mingxu's shallow breathing came from the receiver, but it seemed so heavy and laborious, "I'm hospitalized. The situation is not good...I can't get away, I'm in a bad state...sorry .”

"Aunt Ming?"

With a bang, an unprecedented sense of shock and bewilderment invaded from the soles of his feet, enveloping Yang Shiqing's whole body.He had imagined the reason for Mingxu's sudden disappearance countless times, guessed all kinds of situations, but the reality was the worst kind.

Yang Shiqing's scalp was a little numb, Mingxu's words were very plain, but the information behind them was creepy.

"I asked the teacher for half a month's leave at the beginning of school. I can't come to school. My mother is alone in the hospital with no one to take care of me. I don't feel relieved."

Yang Shiqing opened his mouth, but couldn't speak, his throat was astringent and bitter.

"I'll call you to tell you, lest you worry..." Mingxu was silent for a while, and then said, "I'll send you the answer to the test paper."

Yang Shiqing's heart was filled with soreness, you are not here, what's the point of me having those answers! !

"Mingxu, where are you?"

"I just got home, and I'm going back to the hospital after taking a shower." Mingxu suddenly smiled, "In the hospital, I feel that time passes so slowly, and every day is a torment." With a smile, Mingxu's voice came again His voice sank and his voice was hoarse, as if he was really tired: "Yang Shiqing, I miss you so much now..."

I miss you so much and want to see you so much.

Unable to see Mingxu's face, Yang Shiqing suddenly felt an unprecedented sense of uneasiness.

"Mingxu," Yang Shiqing almost roared, "I'll go find you! Wait for me!"