With the wind

Life is still going on, and the person who is looking forward to and waiting will also go far away.

That night, we had a big fight.Speak out what is in your heart.Maybe it's because they separated, and they didn't care about anything anymore, so they dared to say anything.It's really ironic that after we separated, we treated each other more honestly, because there was already an ending.

The warmth you have given, no matter what the purpose is, has warmed me. Thank you for weaving such a dream for me.

In the past, she liked to kiss my forehead very much. I didn't feel it at that time. Looking back now, it is so delicate and gentle.

When I was entangled, I always thought of what she did to hurt me.When we were separated, I could only think of warm pictures.Thinking of her beside me, she gently took my hand and kissed me secretly while I wasn't paying attention.

All the pictures are infinitely magnified, and the more I think about it, the sadder I become.I regret it, I don't care about everything before, I don't care about that girl, I don't care about those things, let us just be together regardless.

But these fragility, I choose to keep to myself.

"I disagree!" she said firmly.I seem to see her on the other end of the phone, silent, wanting to leave, but there is no way to make me change my mind.In the end she kept me.

"Does it matter if you agree or not? You don't have to keep those promises anymore. That's it." It's over, I won't change my mind this time.

When I was in the third year of high school, I would change seats after each monthly exam, and choose by myself according to the ranking of my grades.That time she said she wanted to be at the same table as me.So from that day to graduation, it has not changed, so we became the last tablemate in each other's high school career, and fell in love with each other inexplicably.

When I was in school, I would read some magazines to pass the time between classes and relax by the way.What I like the most is the test content in the magazine, and I want to peep a little bit of my heart.That day I saw the title of the quiz was like this, test your future economic level?

Interesting, I did it once, and the result was that I was doomed to be poor all my life!

"I'm going! Impossible! This must be fake!" I 'slapped' the book and threw it on the table.

"What's wrong?" She was sleeping on the table when I woke her up by throwing the book.

She is actually a very angry person when she wakes up. Once because other classmates woke her up accidentally, she lost her temper and scared people a lot.After we were at the same table, I seldom quarreled with her at first.When our relationship slowly warmed up, she restrained all her temper.Because she said she couldn't bear it.

I remember one time when I intentionally frightened her while she was sleeping, she said helplessly after waking up: "You are the only one who dares to frighten me like this, if others see how I will deal with her!".This is what I like.

"Hey, look at this, my test result is poor for a lifetime." I handed her the book and said bitterly.

"Let me take a look." She also became interested and did it again.The result turned out to be "rich life", and I felt unbalanced.

"Impossible, it must be fake! Fake!!!" The test doesn't mean anything, so I will inevitably feel jealous.

"It's okay, I will support you." She looked at me seriously.

I didn't expect her next sentence to be this sentence at all. I was a little overwhelmed and didn't know how to answer this sentence.I was stunned, and after a while, I pretended to be nonchalant and said: "I am difficult to raise, and I spend a lot of money! Just buy clothes and facial masks if you have nothing to do." My heartbeat has long been chaotic.

But she said nonchalantly, "It's okay, I'll spend less, and I'm afraid I won't be able to support you."

I have always wanted to have a home of my own, my own house, and my own life.And she was so caught off guard that she promised to support me and give me a home.But today, just now, I personally said that I don't want that family anymore, and I don't want her promise anymore.She said this was the first time she had made such a promise to someone.But I said no.

Since she seriously said to support me, she has really been thinking about our future seriously.She said that she would raise two cats in the future, and one of me.

I said why?I want a dog.

She compromised, well, then get a cat, a dog, and me.

She asked me, what is my ideal?

I smiled and said that I don’t have to do anything every day, just grow flowers, cook, bask in the sun, and read books.It's just not realistic.

The idea is so dreamy that I can only imagine it.

She said, why is it unrealistic?I support you.

This sentence again.I just wanted to test it out, is she joking or serious?Because I can never see through her.

But I heard this sentence again.At this moment, I really realized that she was serious, she was really thinking about our future, and she really planned me in her future.

She's still talking about the future.She dislikes the food I cook.Let me wait for her at home, and she will make it for me when she comes back from get off work.But I have to treat her pussy well!Don't abuse it, if I dare to abuse it, she will throw my dog ​​out!

Hearing this, I came back to my senses, immediately pretended to be vicious, looked at her, and said domineeringly, "How dare you!"

Our eyes met, and in the end she was defeated.She said that she hoped that when she came back from a business trip, the house would not be a mess and wait for her to clean it up.

I rolled my eyes, I can still clean up.Besides, how could I not work?Every day idle at home pretentious.

Looking at her serious expression, listening to her words.I also got serious, believing that she really likes me, and believing in the future she said.Also starting to take our future seriously, as she did.

With the phrase 'I support you', I once again felt her true love for me.So, later I believed in her and started to invest more in our relationship.Even so, I dare not try my best. I know her half-heartedness, so I have to reserve the last dignity for myself no matter what.

Unexpectedly, one day it proved that what I did was right.

Images of her saying she wants to support me keep appearing in my mind, her expression, her voice are still so fresh.This sentence is like a switch. Once touched, those memories began to pour out continuously until they overwhelmed me.Those clips of us being happy and happy together were edited and spliced ​​together, and played repeatedly in my mind, but the tears in my eyes were like cutting endless threads.At this moment I have been defeated.

She must not have imagined that at this time, I was already sobbing.In her impression, I should be a very cold-blooded person, and she would never think that I would cry because of her.

Cold blooded?That's not the right word to describe me.It's not too much because I am a decisive and vengeful person, and I will never forget to return those hurts to her when we part.It is inappropriate because I have all her feelings, I am sad, and I am also sad.In hurting her, I also hurt myself.

After I proposed to separate, I was sad, sad, sad, I wanted to live in the house she said, eat the food she cooked for me every day, walk the dog she raised for me, and tease her s cat.But this family, that person, from this moment on, will be farther and farther away from me, and one day, the traces left by this person in my life will disappear.

This night, I lay in bed and fell asleep very late.

When I woke up the next day, it was past ten o'clock.I turned on my phone, but there was no message.I get dressed and get out of bed.While washing up, I was thinking about what to have for lunch.

By the time I make lunch and get rid of them, it's past twelve o'clock.

Turn on the phone, still no news.I found that this state was wrong, so I cut off all sources of news, because if I didn't do this, I would repeat the action of turning on the phone countless times throughout the day.

I watched TV for a while and got a call from my mother.Let me go to my brother-in-law's house for dinner at night. Today our family will get together and reward me. My cousin and I are taking the college entrance examination this year.At this time, there are still five days before the results are announced.

In the afternoon, I set off to my uncle's house, which is not far from my house, but I still chose to take the bus because it was too hot and I was lazy.

At my uncle's house, I was playing with a few cousins, chatting and laughing with each other, and the time passed quickly.My little cousin and I are the last batch of college entrance examination candidates in our family.Among the older brothers and sisters, two are already working, and the other two are studying at university.Every time I'm with them, I always hate each other.Of course, as the youngest, I was the most hated!Who said the smallest happiness!Total nonsense!

Dinner is a large table of meals cooked by my aunt, and the family is lively.I temporarily forgot yesterday and those unpleasant things.

When I got home at night, I turned on my phone and finally received a message from her, which was sent two hours ago.

"Don't be so cruel? Come back to me... Are you really ignoring me?"

I smiled and texted her back: I didn't look at my phone, don't worry, I'll get back to you when I see the message.

Immediately received her reply: I thought you would never talk to me again.

Then, Lin Lin started chatting with me about things like before.

How could I not reply to her message?I can't be that heartless.In fact, I shouldn't reply, but I can't be so cruel to myself, and I am cruel to her. I still like her, but I have to slowly dilute this liking.