[Black Basket] Sakura's Basketball

Ah Zheng finally stopped.

I took a deep breath, calmed down, and raised my hand to push Ah Zheng away, but my hand stopped when it touched his shoulder.Ah Zheng kept his head buried by my neck, I couldn't see his expression at all.He said that he didn't like it when I turned around and didn't speak when I had a fight, because it would make him feel more uncomfortable.

It's a very bad habit, but the truth is, if I don't leave, I can't even control what I say.

I hesitated for a long time, but I forcibly resisted my first reaction to push him away, and reached out to hug him.

Ah Zheng, who had been frozen for a long time, also reached out and hugged me tightly.

After we each calmed down, we let go of our hands. Ah Zheng got up from me. I pulled up my clothes, turned over and got off the bed, leaned on the edge of the bed, picked up the folding knife, and walked slowly to the corner farthest from Ah Zheng. , squatting down with his arms against the wall, hugging his knees, holding the knife tightly, and buried his head between his arms.I'm also at my limit.

There was a knock on the door.

"Open the door." It was Akashi Masomi who had returned.

None of us moved.

"Open the door for me!"

After waiting for a while, we still had no one to answer, so Akashi Seishomi slammed the door open with another bang.I looked up, and there was only Akashi Seishomi outside the door, and he dismissed the rest of the family, not embarrassing Ah Zheng and me.Akashi Masomi swept his eyes and walked towards me with big strides.I shrank back subconsciously, but my back was against the wall, and there was no way I could retreat. Akashi Seishomi stopped immediately after seeing my reaction.

I turned my face away, stroked my forehead with my left hand, took a deep breath, then exhaled slowly, and said calmly, "Excuse me." I put the folding knife in the pocket of my nightgown, stood up against the wall.

Akashi Seishomi nodded to me, then turned to Ah Zheng, looked at him for a while, raised his hand and was slapped, slapped.Ah Zheng was slapped so that his whole face turned away, and half of his face swelled immediately, but he remained expressionless, and no one knew what he was thinking.

"I'll talk about it later." Akashi Seitomi snorted coldly, "Sakura, what are your plans now?"

"..." I dare not say anything in front of Ah Zheng.If he loses his temper again now, he will definitely be cut to death by Akashi Seishi.

"Get out for me." Akashi Masaki said to Ah Zheng.

Ah Zheng walked out silently, but stood between the door frames, didn't stay in the room, and didn't leave completely.I took a dark breath and said, "I want to leave tonight."

"Clean up, I'll take you to the hotel." Akashi Masomi nodded again, and walked out of the room to let me pack my clothes.He stared at Ah Zheng coldly, then turned around and said, "I'll call you a doctor first."

I paused and nodded.I didn't want to let my parents know about this, so I couldn't go home, and going to a hotel was the best choice; with the reputation of the Akashi family, if I had to go to the hospital with injuries, tomorrow's newspaper headlines would definitely be our family.

I turned around and went to pull out the suitcase to pack my things. Akashi Seishomi called the housekeeper, Mrs. Inoue, to come in and help me, and pushed Ah Zheng away.Mrs. Inoue wiped away her tears and tried to persuade him.I sighed secretly, turned around and patted her on the back of her hand.

"I'm sorry to make you worry." But I can't stay in this place where no one would dare to knock in the door when something happens, or I really have to hold a kitchen knife to sleep.The daughter-in-law is always an outsider, and when something happens, the family members still take care of Ah Zheng first.Except for Akashi Seito, none of them would come in because of me; even Akashi Seito, it's not just for me, I've always been very clear about this.

Who says I am not sensible.

"Young Madam, if you have anything to say, please talk to the Young Master." Mrs. Inoue pulled my sleeve, "How can you leave the house? Just listen to my advice and stay here first. How can a young couple not quarrel? You We have a long time to come, and we can't leave even if we have a cover. This will hurt our feelings. Listen to me, huh? You can't leave, no matter how troublesome it is, it can't be like this .”

"I need time to calm down." I don't want to see Ah Zheng.Looking at the long silk skirt on my body, the fire in my heart suddenly rose up. I raised my hand and took out all the skirts in the closet and suitcase and threw them on the ground. I found a pair of trousers, bent down and sat on the bed and put them on. .

"It's hard work. The master and the young master have been free recently. You are..." Mrs. Inoue sighed, "Young madam, if you don't like something, just tell the young master. The young master will definitely coax you, huh? This is the first time that the young master has lost his temper. You are a good boy, you will be sensible, right? The young master has worked very hard for you, how can you not be considerate of him? "

I know how to be sensible. As I get older, no one with a good mind can be sensible. Cut it.

What I am looking for is not a home that allows me to learn to be more sensible. At home, I just like to lie around and roll around.I never asked Ah Zheng to be sensible to me.After getting married, Ah Zheng never once expressed to me that he was disappointed, and even other unsolvable things, because I couldn't understand more and more, he gradually stopped talking.There used to be things about the basketball team. In the past year after he graduated from college, Ah Zheng only had a gentle side in front of me.He didn't say anything about the company's daily affairs, but I'm not surprised, I just didn't expect him to refuse to tell me about such a serious matter.The meaning of Akashi's family to Ah Zheng is almost everything he has achieved.

Facing me like this, it's normal to be tired.

I guess I accounted for more of my disappointment with myself.

──But I'm not so good as to feel sorry for myself, little bitch.

──If you fight with me, eat yourself!

I picked up the suitcase, and without looking at Mrs. Inoue again, I half-dragged and half-dragged the suitcase towards the elevator.Walking, with a click, the wheels of the box fell off.

"..." I looked at Mrs. Inoue with a wooden face.

"..." Mrs. Inoue turned her head away with a straight and loving face.

The suitcase was broken at some point.Smiling, I took out the pencil case from the backpack, took out a sketch pen, held the pen in my left hand, and stretched it out in front of Mrs. Inoue. With another click, I broke the sketch pen in half with my bare hands.Mrs. Inoue's eyes widened with regret.I carried the bag on my back expressionlessly, bent down, and forcibly picked up the suitcase and put it on my shoulder.My whole body hurt like falling apart, I gritted my teeth and carried the suitcase into the elevator.I fuck you.

Going downstairs, I randomly entered a guest room and waited for the family doctor to arrive.

I knew that Ah Zheng was outside the door - I knew it from the sight of Akashi Seitomo standing by the door who kept looking out of the door for the knife.

Afterwards, the others avoided, and after the bruises and abrasions on my body were treated by the doctor and Mrs. Inoue, Akashi Seishomi walked in again and sent me out.I stood up leaning on the armrest of the chair, and when I was about to pick up the suitcase, Akashi Seiomi took it with one hand.

I looked at Akashi Masomi who was picking up the luggage very neatly.

──Are you finally going to drive me away?

──Why is there "finally"?

"I'll take you to the hotel." Akashi Seishomi took me to the garage, didn't even ask the driver to take me off, but drove himself.

"Thank you." I bowed to him, looked into the corridor, and saw Ah Zheng standing beside me without saying a word, looking at me, but didn't follow him.I turned my head and stepped out of the house.

I feel bad.

Now that I think about it, it’s okay to say that it’s okay to cross the boundary at the beginning, but it’s too difficult for others. Ah Zheng and I were originally in a relationship of crossing the boundary.

I've said shitty things before.

"Restrain yourself." After opening the car door for me, Akashi Seitomi still did not forget to teach me, "No matter what your true feelings are, if you show your true feelings in front of inappropriate people, that is a mistake. How many times have I told you, Sakura, be good Reflect."

"..." I rolled my eyes away, "Yes, I understand." Are you asking me to be more aggressive with your son?

"When your elders teach you a lesson, keep your eyes on each other."

"Yes, sorry."

"Crying is crying, and not crying is not crying. If you don't want to cry in front of others, don't act like you can't cry, or just cry, with a crying tone of grievance and pretending to be strong. Do you want to let me cry?" Do others sympathize? It looks too ugly! Now that you have made your choice, just hold your head up and act as if nothing happened!"

──The momentum was suddenly suppressed.

He was right.

"Yes." I took a deep breath again, trying to calm down and not think about Ah Zheng's expression.When the emotions calm down, the pain in the body will rise, oh fuck, Akashi Seijuro's hands are so strong!

──That idiot!

I turned my head and looked out the car window. It was already noon, the streets were bustling, and the world was still going on day after day.Well, at least I don't have to go to homework today.

"I'm happy to run away from home," Akashi Seitomi, who was driving, looked at the back of his head in a trance, and scolded his head and face, "Are you still a child! What you have to do when something happens is not to escape, but to face it. If you run away, give it to me." It looks like you’re running away, so reflect on it before you speak.”

"When you can't bear it, you have to run away. Do you want me to face Seijuro now? If you are willing to give me a chainsaw or a machine gun, I can still think about it."

He snorted coldly, "Do you need time to calm down, or do you want to escape? You know it very well. Are you still confident in running away?"

"Yes," I looked up at the rear mirror and met Kami Akashi Seitomo's eyes, "I want to run away when I'm tired. I'm not stupid enough to crush myself. One angle is selfishness, and the other angle is that it's just a matter of holding on." It hurts both of us, leaving calm is not a wrong choice. I admit to both angles, I will apologize for not being able to solve this matter, but I will not apologize for protecting myself and Seijuro. Neither To protect yourself, do you count on others? Of course, you have the ability to stand before others when you put on your own armor."

I was angry, but sadly, I found that what I think about the most and feel the most uncomfortable is Ah Zheng's expressionless face.

Some people say that if you fall in love with someone, you will forget yourself. I sneered, but the only thing I can think of now is the expression on Ah Zheng's face when he put the knife in my hand and let me hold it tightly.

But I found out that I love him more than I imagined.

Suddenly I felt ridiculous that I was useless.

I want to see Ah Zheng.

"..." Masayoshi Akashi pressed his phone and said, "I ordered fruit cake for you. When you arrive at the hotel, eat it first."

"..." Huh?Doesn't he often see me eating too much and it doesn't please his eyes?

"You have been stimulated too much today, let me calm down and talk about it."

"……"Hello.I said angrily: "You remember to find a doctor for Ah Zheng before scolding him." I was annoyed and scared at the time, and I didn't hurt him as much as I did.

──When will I lose in a fight?

──Bite you to death.

"..." Akashi Masomi looked at the rear mirror with no expression on his face.

"what."

"I just didn't expect you to be an unexpected bully. Sakura, you mishandled your interpersonal relationship, lost all sense of propriety, and lost ground. You should reflect on yourself. If you act like this, you will never be able to control your husband for the rest of your life."

"……"Hey.

──Hey!

"Self-cultivation, Qi family," Akashi Seishomi turned his gaze back and concentrated on driving, "Peace the world."

"..."

"do you have any opinion?"

"You really are this kind of person." The meaning of the daughter-in-law is to help your son manage the house well and then let him go out to work in the Akashi family's business. Hey. "Thank you." From another angle, Akashi Masomi also cared about me.

Well, two people have responsibilities to be considered a family.Although I haven't found a way yet, it's true that I want to protect myself and Ah Zheng at the same time.

Always said he wanted to tell me everything about him, said he wanted me to love everything about him, but that idiot obviously didn't mind letting me see him when he was frustrated.

When I arrived at the hotel and Akashi Seitomi left, I fell to the ground and covered my face with my hands.I took a few deep breaths, then raised my head, stroked my forehead hair, stood up against the wall, looked at the sunlight outside the large floor-to-ceiling glass window, raised my chin slightly, and stood with my hips crossed.

"Go to bed." I picked up my phone and sent an email.

Before I could put the phone down, it vibrated, and there was a reply message: "Frankly, I can't do it, but I hope you can. I love you, Saki, good night."

Twenty hours later, after sitting for a whole day without eating anything, I replied, "I love you."

After resting for a few days, I went to school to deal with returning to school in the fall, and I also looked for a part-time job again.Raku Watanabe, a senior in the former design office, helped introduce several jobs to me, but after meeting the other company, the Akashi family would definitely be mentioned not long after, so I had no choice but to hold back.Was ridiculed by Watanabe for my inability to handle my identity, I admitted it with a wry smile, and then, this gentleman helped me find a job in a design studio he was familiar with, concealed my identity based on friendship, and asked me to use my old surname When entering the company, all brand-name clothes on the body should be changed.

For security reasons, I still have to live in a hotel under the Akashi Group, which saves me a lot of accommodation expenses, but I gradually use my own salary to cover the rest of the living expenses, and I no longer use Akashi’s money. Mentioned to parents.I have never been in any embarrassment in my two lifetimes, only then did I realize that it is not easy to save money on food and clothing. It is not easy for me to support my life alone. Not to mention that I will not be able to maintain the previous quota. Even ordinary living and reading, I can’t afford it now .As for the tuition fee, since my household registration is the Akashi family, of course I can't apply for the government's bursary, so I used the savings from the past.

Speaking of which, savings can only be saved under the protection of parents and Akashi's family.

I, who has been talking nice things, turned out to be really incapable of taking care of myself.

So, I went to look for more part-time jobs. Due to the disability of my right foot, even convenience stores turned me away on the grounds that they could not pack the goods.Considering my ability and the face of the Akashi family, I still gave up my job as a salesperson and decided to work with the private handyman who worked part-time next to Raku Watanabe, helping him, sewing sample clothes, cutting threads and so on.

In September, after finding three part-time jobs and returning to school in the fall semester, I finally settled down.

In these two months, Ah Zheng and I haven't met face to face, but we send emails every day.I can't find a way to be with him, but it's definitely right to brush up the favorability and store feelings first.

──Because we definitely still have work to do.

That night, I was biting a [-]-yen piece of bread and fell on the bed. I was sending emails to Ah Zheng when a call came from my cell phone.It is Sato Kaneji who went to foreign countries for development.

"Mr. Sato, hello." Well, for a long distance call, does the person answering the call have to pay for the call?

"You haven't slept yet! I don't care about you if you get old before you get old in the future, fuck."

"I have something to say." Say it quickly.

"Cough." Sato Kanesi coughed, "Hey, wifey girl, are you interested in participating in the uniform design of the Japanese national basketball team? Of course, with your qualifications, you can't get into the design part. Even if you come in It’s just enough to get started. But, you should be interested? I said you idiot, you have never had the chance to touch the design of sports clothing after following Le Zai in the past few years, right? You haven’t graduated this year, tsk.”

"national team?"

"Ah, they will go to the United States to play a friendly match in three months. They said they wanted to change into a new team uniform and invited me back to Japan. Do you want to come? I remember you seem to know someone from the national basketball team, right?"

"Is it the men's or women's basketball this time?" I stuffed the bread into my mouth.

"...What kind of tone, it sounds like you know both sides? No wonder you can't find anyone to invite you with your personality."

I raised my eyebrows.Will call me suddenly, Sato Kaneji probably heard Watanabe Raku say about my embarrassment.In the design office where I used my old surname to work, I, a person who has not graduated, is just a handyman. Last time the cleaning lady asked for leave and didn't come, the company people even asked me to wash the toilet.

"...Don't you want to be so sharp! I just missed a sentence, fuck, fuck!" Seeing that I didn't speak, Sato Kaneji also realized after a while, and said unnaturally, "Hey, I didn't say anything about you What. It’s normal to do these things if you don’t mix yourself up. You’re a woman and you don’t have special talents. In Japanese companies, you’re just serving tea and pouring water. Is there any more embarrassment? If people know that my students have mixed up in this field, I will lose face. Cut."

"..." Sure enough, Watanabe Le must have even told me about washing the toilet, that person is really afraid that the world will not be chaotic.

"...Ah, ah, I didn't say anything about you." Sato Kaneji became awkward again, "Don't think about those things, anyway, in a word, do you want to come! With me, at least I won't... He paused and raised his voice, "Anyway, you just want to come or not!"

I'm afraid that saying these things will hurt my self-esteem.I laughed out loud.

"...Your brain is really wrong, laugh and laugh."

I smiled and said: "Mr. Sato, I knew the position I was applying for when I went to see the job. I'm not saying that I like serving tea and pouring water, but this is what I knew to do from the beginning. I expected to clean the toilet, but it is not beyond the scope of my job, and it is not insulting. If you ask me, cleaning the toilet is more practical than walking around all day and watering potted plants. To be honest, I don’t understand why they hire female staff Purpose. Skills are not as good as people, instead of looking for answers from others, it is better to be yourself first, I am fine, you don’t need to worry.”

"..."

"what."

"I really can't see that you, a childish guy, have this kind of awareness. Is it because you are a wife? Shouldn't I find a perfect girlfriend, but marry back first and then train me?"

I calmly said: "Go to hell. Do you have to behave like a robot every day to be called an adult? Just let yourself be molded, don't drag me."

──It seems that people still misunderstand me a lot.

I suddenly remembered a set of anime I watched a long time ago. There was a line in it: My self-esteem is not here.

After hanging up, I pressed my cell phone on my stomach to reply to Ah Zheng’s email, while blankly missing the Italian chocolate mousse cake at home.Fuck you, I now even have to worry about buying a bottle of water whether it's cheaper at the supermarket or the convenience store is on sale.I rubbed my face against the soft, slippery quilt.Because I couldn't afford cosmetics and skin care products, and I was studying and working day and night, my face became quite ugly.

After answering the email, I put the phone away, turned over and lay on my back, stroked my forehead hair up with my left hand, looked at the tall building, and laughed out loud.

Don't underestimate people, who will lose here.

A week later, I quickly finished the work at hand, took the approved leave slip, carried the bag on my back, and told my boss that I had to leave first.

"Have you nailed all the documents?" The boss is a very rough old lady.

"Yes."

"Color it?"

"Yes."

"Let's go then, there's not much for you to do."

"Thank you, goodbye." As soon as I turned around, I was stumbled by the trash cans lying in the aisle. I lost my balance on my left foot, and my right foot couldn't support it. As a result, I fell to the ground.

A passing colleague helped me up, and the old lady curled her lips and whispered, "If Le Tsai hadn't introduced you, I wouldn't have invited you. You look weak and can't do anything. Women should be soft on the outside and soft on the inside." Just now, I don’t know which school taught you until you are 25 years old, or you are still working part-time, so there is nowhere to go.”

I frowned, thanked my colleagues and left.

If I can't do well by myself, I can't blame others for saying that I don't have a tutor, and the other party is not someone I can argue with.After hiding my surname, I found out that if I wanted to get a serious intern job in the previous design studio, unless I met a good person like Mr. Sato, otherwise, I would not be able to get it.If I can't do my specialty, I will fall into the position of the tea girl, and I will be less able to work than others because of my disability, and I will not be able to run errands.After Mr. Sato left Japan, because of the management of Akashi Seishomi, I was able to skip the stage of doing chores and do design work directly.

──The so-called less struggle for 20 years?

I covered my bleeding nose with a handkerchief, grabbed the bag with the other hand and half-hopped out of the road, reluctantly hailed a taxi, and rushed to the national basketball team training center in Tokyo.

Of course I was very upset.

However, there is still Mr. Sato in this world.

This world still has me.

Still have uncontrollable dreams.

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