think too much

18

It's not easy to please someone.With a face with great advantages, Lu Xingchuan pondered every step of the way in getting along, and rehearsed the last three steps of every move in his mind, and only then stabilized the shaky liking for Li Muran when they first met.

He was also young, and he also had the idea of ​​doing things aboveboard and adhering to principles for revenge, but he failed to stick to these ideas in the end.If he can finally do what he wants to do, I don't know how happy he will be.But that doesn't matter.

The responsibility imposed on him by the lives of each person on his body was not in the first place to pursue pleasure.

On the way back to the Wulin League, Li Muran never let up, and kept hugging Lu Xingchuan tightly all the time.He was practicing swords at a young age, his body was naturally tall and straight, and his hands were also covered with calluses.Lu Xingchuan was hugged by such a person, not to mention his mood, at least he didn't feel comfortable.

He moved a little, and Li Muran immediately tightened his hands nervously, and called him in a hoarse voice, "Xingchuan, are you bored? We'll be there soon."

"No." Lu Xingchuan simply put his whole body weight on the chest of the person behind him, and replied lazily, "Relax a bit, it's uncomfortable to lean against. After all, I won't be able to escape."

Lu Xingchuan felt that the person behind him gradually relaxed after a moment of tension, supported his shoulders, and found a comfortable position for him to nestle in his arms.The carriage was a little bumpy, and the swaying Lu Xingchuan gradually became sleepy.His body temperature is low all the year round, and even after many years of martial arts training, he is still more afraid of the cold than ordinary people.Now surrounded by warmth and comfort, he almost fell asleep.

"...Xingchuan."

"Huh?" Lu Xingchuan half-closed his eyes, and gave Li Muran a perfunctory voice.

"Xingchuan, you... hate... don't you hate me?" Li Muran's voice was barely audible at the end.He regretted asking such a stupid question.Lu Xingchuan's various behaviors were placed in front of Lu Xingchuan, and the answer was already doomed. Asking now, the hypocrisy is disgusting.

Lu Xingchuan closed his eyes and regained consciousness.Then he moved Li Muran's hands away, slowly propped up his body, sat up straight, and faced Li Muran.During the whole process, Li Muran was shaking like a sieve, waiting for a trial with an early decision.

"Hate...it's never enough."

"Xing Chuan?" Li Muran stared at Lu Xingchuan with wide-eyed eyes, before the joy in his eyes showed up, he was suppressed by Lu Xingchuan's next words.

"To be honest, there is no love or hate between you and me. It wasn't a deep friendship." Lu Xingchuan's face was calm and gentle, and he even smiled a little, "We haven't known each other for long, let alone for you. It's only worth a lie, and it's worthless."

"It's not a lie!" Li Muran hurriedly retorted, he said a word, but couldn't say anything else - no matter how much he said, Lu Xingchuan might not believe him anymore.

"What exactly do you want, so that you... will trust me again?" Li Muran has lived for more than 20 years and has never said anything that Li Muran has never said before. In front of Lu Xingchuan, he tried everything, but it was useless.If a wrongdoing can be exposed by talking, then this world is too gentle.

Li Muran originally thought that he only wanted Lu Xingchuan's people, as long as they were still by his side, there would always be hope for everything.But he has experienced Lu Xingchuan's warmth and Lu Xingchuan's care.He has enjoyed the best, but now he can't bear to face Lu Xingchuan's indifference and indifference.

"Xingchuan...I'm in so much pain. You always treat me well, always like that." He lowered his head and pressed his hands on Lu Xingchuan's shoulders, "I'm in so much pain, tell me what to do...you tell me OK?"

"Muran," Lu Xingchuan hesitated, and waved away Li Muran's hand on his shoulder.He looked at this man's pale face, his expression was dark and vague, seeming to be affectionate or ruthless, but he put Li Muran's hands in his arms, "I met you when I first entered the rivers and lakes. Why didn't I feel reluctant when I left the Wulin League?"

"I can let it go, and you can too."

"I don't know Chen Cheng very well, but I know he is a good boy, kind and sincere."

"If you have the chance to get what you want, treat him well."

"As I was willing to do for you."

After being silent for a while, Li Muran suddenly squeezed out a lifelong wail from the depths of his body.He twitched uncontrollably, looked up at Lu Xingchuan, tears of blood dripped from the corners of his eyes.

"Don't talk about Xingchuan anymore,...don't talk about it anymore." He was shaking violently, but he kept his wits about him, he was reluctant to break away from Lu Xingchuan holding her hand, "I don't want you to believe me anymore, I don't want you to love me anymore."

I just want you not to leave me.

Xingchuan, although you can let go, I can't let go anymore.

Li Muran pressed his cheek to Lu Xingchuan's chest very attached.So the blood stains also rubbed up.The whole body is full of the faint scent of Lu Xingchuan's body and the smell of blood mixed in by himself.Li Muran closed his eyes and smiled happily.

He likes it like this, Lu Xingchuan is unparalleled in the world, but he is stained with dirt on him.

19

This time when he went to the Wulin League again, Lu Xingchuan didn't see anyone except Li Muran again.Li Muran was probably really scared by his leaving last time, and now he has to take him everywhere.Shen Tianwang is still practicing in seclusion.Originally, it was not for Lu Xingchuan, an outsider, to see the business dealings and document submissions of the Martial Arts League.But as he wished, Li Muran would take him with him in everything, including dealing with affairs and correcting documents.

From this point of view, Li Muran's prestige is indeed quite high.It took a lot of time and energy to search for an outsider, and now the martial arts alliance does not hide secrets from this person.Everyone in the Wulin League must have no opinion, but it seems that no one really expressed their dissatisfaction.

This situation won't last long, but fortunately, Lu Xingchuan didn't need much time in the first place.

As long as Lu Xingchuan doesn't show his willingness to leave, he will get along with Li Muran peacefully.When Li Muran was dealing with the affairs of the alliance, every time he wrote two strokes, he would look up in the direction of Lu Xingchuan.Lu Xingchuan was holding the book in his hand, looking at the words written by Li Muran from the corner of his eye.Most of the time the two don't communicate.Occasionally looking at each other, Lu Xingchuan smiled at Li Muran.

It is true that the Wulin League is a colossus, but the more aspects involved, the greater the possibility of mistakes.Li Muran is naturally young, but his talent is not bad, and he handled everything properly.

He was only short of not being able to guard against Lu Xingchuan at all.Lu Xingchuan is so good-looking that he does not touch the world. When he is not smiling, he is cold and indifferent. When he smiles, he is sincere, kind and gentle.

When Xu Ze came to find him, Lu Xingchuan had actually thought about it.The manpower of Ningbi Palace is naturally reassuring to use.Lu Xingchuan can use the part that Xu Ze's subordinates have mastered without any worries.

But after thinking about it, he still had some worries that had nothing to do with the success or failure of the matter—after all, no matter whether it succeeds or fails, what he does is not a glorious thing, and he must draw a clear line with Ningbi Palace and Master.

Now, relying on years of investigation, verification, and speculation, he writes down the information he has obtained one by one, and spreads them one by one.Lu Xingchuan originally thought that he would need to devote countless time and effort to reach this step.But ever since he met Li Muran on that rainy day, a shortcut that had never appeared in even the craziest dreams slowly unfolded before his eyes.

Every time Li Muran writes two strokes, he has to look at Lu Xingchuan, affectionate but also timid.Lu Xingchuan looked back and smiled at him very happily and gently.

He was extremely grateful to Li Muran.

20

When Chen Cheng saw Lu Xingchuan again, he barely recognized him at a glance.This person has lost a lot of weight, the moonlight is shining down, the clothes don't fit well on his body, people are in the secular world, and the scenery is in the world, it seems a bit ecstasy.

"Brother Xingchuan?" He stepped forward, jumped in front of Lu Xingchuan and waved his hands.Almost on purpose, he was far more rowdy than usual.He was a little afraid of such Lu Xingchuan.There is not much smoke and fire on this person, and such a person standing there alone seems to have nothing to do with everything.

He didn't like seeing Lu Xingchuan like this.

Chen Cheng has always been in a daze.Originally, he only knew that Lu Xingchuan and Li Muran had a good relationship. After Lu Xingchuan left, Li Muran went crazy and wanted to find him back. Then he realized that this "good relationship" meant something else.

He is young and incompetent.Later, knowing that Li Muran finally found Lu Xingchuan back, he only knew that he was happy for the two of them.There is no chaos in the world for him, and it is natural to like each other when they are together.Eldest brother found Brother Xingchuan, and the two of them naturally liked each other.

But now, seeing Lu Xingchuan looking at the moon with no expression on his face, this clear and simple cognition is shaken.

"Chen Cheng." Lu Xingchuan paused before looking at him, "Long time no see." He reached out and rubbed the top of the child's head, pulling out a smile.In the martial arts league, the only one who has some friendship with him, except for the elder sister who loves to talk, laugh and meddle in other people's affairs, is this junior brother.

Lu Xingchuan really liked Chen Cheng.Most of this liking is a projection of myself.He knew it, but that didn't stop him from liking it.

"It's so late, why don't you sleep? The president is not tall." He compared the heights of the two of them, saw the child's puffy face, and poked the child's face with a smile.

"Brother Xingchuan...didn't sleep either?" Chen Cheng grabbed Lu Xingchuan's index finger angrily and held it in his hand.The man's hands were surprisingly cold.The little bit of coolness remained on his cheeks for a long time.Chen Cheng was a little worried, so he simply held Lu Xingchuan's whole hand and kept it warm in his palm.

The child's behavior has not yet taken off the childishness.For such a person, Lu Xingchuan actually has nothing to do.He thought that he probably did a lot of bad things, but his resolve was not firm enough. Feeling the slight warmth in his hands, he actually said some words just like that.

"Moonlight, no matter where the moonlight is, it's all the same." The clichéd moonlight sprinkled on Lu Xingchuan's face, carefully outlining the gorgeous and sharp outline, but the slightly curved corners of his eyes suppressed a sense of loneliness. "I'm a little homesick and miss my mother."

Chen Cheng didn't know how to answer.He wanted to ask where Lu Xingchuan's family was, and how his parents were doing now, but seeing that this person was still smiling but couldn't suppress his loneliness, he didn't dare to ask.

"Okay, go to sleep." Lu Xingchuan took his hand away and gently pushed Chen Cheng.

"Okay..." Chen Cheng boldly stood on tiptoe and kissed Lu Xingchuan on the forehead, "Brother Xingchuan, don't be sad, brothers and sisters, and me, we all like you very much."

Lu Xingchuan looked at the back of Chen Cheng leaving, and when he really couldn't see this person, he fell back - leaning on Li Muran's chest.

"It's so late, why don't you go to bed?" He asked Li Muran again what he had asked Chen Cheng, naturally he didn't expect the other party to give the same answer. "I'm not going. Don't be afraid."

"Are you homesick?" Li Muran woke up as soon as Lu Xingchuan left their room - he couldn't fall asleep without this person by his side.He hid in the dark, covered his breath, saw Chen Cheng holding Lu Xingchuan's hand and kissing Lu Xingchuan's forehead, almost mad with jealousy.But he held back and did not come out.

He was afraid that Lu Xingchuan would bother him—although Lu Xingchuan must have already tired of him.

"I'm not going to leave." Lu Xingchuan smiled, "Even if I want to leave, you will find me back, right?"

Li Muran's body froze involuntarily.His emotions have been stimulated too many times tonight, and he can no longer maintain his superficial calm.He violently picked up Lu Xingchuan, carried him back to the room quickly, put him on the bed, and immediately covered him.

"You know...that's fine, I won't let you go! Don't even think about it...Xing Chuan..." He kissed the side of Lu Xingchuan's neck until it almost oozes blood.The faint smell of blood blocked his mouth and nose, blocking his breathing.

Li Muran only felt his heart beating wildly, all his strength was drained, and he could hardly support his body.He looked at Lu Xingchuan.Lu Xingchuan has a peaceful face, neither loathing him nor rejecting him.

This An Ran made Li Muran more uncomfortable than disgust.The sweetheart is right in front of you, but just as far away as the moonlight, the fragrance of flowers, or the drifting snow, inaccessible, untouchable.

"Xingchuan, you're so pretty...you're so pretty, can you please smile..." He kissed Lu Xingchuan's face and body delicately.This man was so cold that his lips trembled and he couldn't speak clearly.

Lu Xingchuan was silent all the time, after all, when Li Muran was about to sit up with his legs apart, he sighed and gently hugged Li Muran's waist.

"Why are you bothering, Mu Ran?"

"Woo... Xingchuan..." All those emotions, pain, fear, and grievance, were soothed in this hardly gentle movement.Li Muran finally couldn't help crying, and while crying, he let his body cling to Lu Xingchuan, not daring to leave any gaps.

"Xingchuan..." He cried so hard that it was difficult to breathe, and his chest was so tight that it hurt, but when he touched Lu Xingchuan's cool body, he felt that he could bear it.

"Xingchuan, don't go, don't go..."

That night was the first time Lu Xingchuan hugged Li Muran after returning to the Wulin League.Li Muran was far more enthusiastic, sticky, and obedient than before, until he lost consciousness from exhaustion, and still held Lu Xingchuan's hand tightly.