think too much

Xu Ze had imagined the matter of "communication of mind".Young people are tempted, and they are always very idealized. To be happy with each other, it will take a long time to die.But the object of his heart was Lu Xingchuan, and gradually, these fantasies were let go by him.

He only wants Lu Xingchuan to be at ease.

The rivers and lakes are naturally huge, but Ningbi Palace is terribly small in comparison.But Xu Ze didn't feel much about either of them.Ningbi Palace is naturally small, and his heart is even smaller, and it is almost enough to accommodate Lu Xingchuan.

For Xu Ze, everyone in the world, no matter how good they are, is just "good" to him, while for Lu Xingchuan, it's not about good or evil, it's just that special.

Others treat him three points well, he can remember that this is a good person, he should reciprocate.But when Lu Xingchuan gave him a look, the world was so empty that there was only Lu Xingchuan left.

There is good wine in Mobei, but there are girls in Jiangnan.Lu Xingchuan is not addicted to alcohol, but he especially attracts girls' attention.He walked with Xu Ze on the road, loitering all afternoon, his sachet and handkerchief could fill his chest.Xu Ze was naturally unhappy, and felt that he had some right to be unhappy now.He grabbed Lu Xingchuan's hand and just held it, fingers interlocked.After posing this pose, he walked happily and swaggered, wishing that the two of them would shake their hands to the sky.

When he got back to the inn, he held Lu Xingchuan's face confidently and kept kissing him, but when the man couldn't help but smile and pushed him away, he could hold his face and laugh silly.

After drinking the wine from Mobei, and meeting the girl from Jiangnan, Lu Xingchuan sat at the table with his head propped up and asked him some strange questions.

"You grew up in Ningbi Palace, and you rarely left since you were a child, didn't you?"

"Yes." He left Ningbi Palace for the first time for a long time to chase Lu Xingchuan.

"How is it now? Although the martial arts forest is disgustingly small, the Jianghu is huge. In Ningbi Palace, except for Master, you only get closer to me. Now, have you met anyone worthy of deep friendship?"

"No." He answered naturally, and only began to ponder after the words came out of his mouth, "Xingchuan, do you think I'm troublesome? You promised..." He knew that he shouldn't always bring up that promise, but other than that Besides, he had no bargaining chips, and he didn't have enough reasons to stay by Lu Xingchuan's side.

"I promised, but I didn't tie you by my side." Lu Xingchuan took Xu Ze's hand, held it lightly, and patted it soothingly, "When you were in Ningbi Palace, besides the servants and guards, it was me. I am naturally different from everyone else. But when you leave Ningbi Palace now, you may be able to see that people are not so different, and that you treat me well is not so, worth it." Although his movements were gentle , the tone is also gentle, but the words are straightforward.If Xu Ze turns against him because of this, it's okay, it's better than staying by his side all his life, doing nothing.

"What do you mean?" Xu Ze was so angry that his muscles tensed up and he trembled while panting.It took him a long time to calm down.As the tide of anger ebbed, grievances flooded up layer by layer, tremblingly resting his head on Lu Xingchuan's shoulder.In front of Lu Xingchuan, he has always been hard-nosed, but now he speaks, feeling a little panicked, "Are you... Is it because I made you angry, Xingchuan, don't be angry... If you annoy me, I will leave, I... "Xu Ze thought, it was good luck that hit him on the head, allowing him to see Lu Xingchuan's not so strong moment, and cheated him into a promise.It's good enough that he has these days, and he mentions it from time to time, it's like a threat to Lu Xingchuan, no wonder Lu Xingchuan bothers him.

Now that the best use was over, if Lu Xingchuan really didn't want to go with him anymore, he had no choice but to leave, and then secretly, a little further away, followed Lu Xingchuan and protected Lu Xingchuan.

"You," Lu Xingchuan really didn't expect Xu Ze to be so crooked.He stretched out his arm to half embrace Xu Ze, and patted the back of the man's head, "What have you been thinking about all day long? If I bother you and want to drive you away, don't I dare to speak up?"

"...Then why," Xu Ze suddenly had some hopes in his heart, but he was even more puzzled, "Why did you say that?"

"I just want you to know that at any time in the future, as long as you want to leave, as long as you regret how you treat me now, you can leave."

"Xingchuan, you... How could I regret it? This is an opportunity I have been asking for, looking forward to, and cheating. I am too happy to be happy, so how can I regret it?"

"Really? I know." Lu Xingchuan gave a short laugh, and finally continued to ask, "But why me? Why can it only be me? Or, you have devoted yourself to you for many years, and you will not miss it. There is no turning back, it can only be me?"

"Xing Chuan?" Xu Ze didn't seem to understand Lu Xingchuan's words, he was stunned for a while, and suddenly couldn't help laughing.

His Xing Chuan didn't bother him, it's because he hasn't asked Xing Chuan to trust him yet.So he still has a chance -- he still has a lot, a lot of time.

"Xing Chuan, my Xing Chuan..." Xu Ze forced himself to leave Lu Xingchuan's embrace, with his arms still around Lu Xingchuan's shoulders, and said seriously, "You always do this, you don't understand. Staying by your side is devotion, To say a few words of love to you is to give my heart? Xingchuan, if you despise yourself like this, I should be worried to death that a thief will appear anywhere and abduct you. "

His Xingchuan always has a cold and indifferent face, and he is hard to be tempted, but he just takes the half and half of others' good things seriously and keeps them in his heart.It is precisely because it is hard to be tempted that I care more about distinguishing clearly and paying more attention to rewards.

If Lu Xingchuan is You Yun, he is at best a beast.The clouds are floating in the sky, and I can't understand the trivial joys and sorrows on the ground.Yunju has no fixed place, and he will never accommodate the whereabouts of beasts.

He was naturally unwilling to be reconciled to Lu Xingchuan not being tempted by him, but his heart ached to death for Lu Xingchuan's deep thoughts, such deep care.

"Xingchuan, remember." Xu Ze's expression was so obvious that Lu Xingchuan was almost a little surprised, "I want to make you happy, so it can be regarded as my heart and my dedication."

"Only if you are happy, I will feel it is worth it."

This is true enough, but also too heavy.Lu Xingchuan's eyes were blank, and there was a vague affection on his face, "But why?"

"I won't tell. Xingchuan, you may not have so much love in your heart, and I don't know if there is a reason for love. I only know you... how many people I have met, but you are the only one."

Xu Ze didn't know if there would be a day when Lu Xingchuan treated him as much as he treated Lu Xingchuan, but it was indeed important, but it was not that important anymore.

What he said was the truth, all intentions are considered as long as they can make Xingchuan happy.

Although You Yun won't accommodate the whereabouts of the beasts, he won't drive them away either.Although there is a distance, it is gentle and distant.

"Xingchuan?"

"Ok?"

"It's so kind of you."

"……Um."