Lesions

Chen Weiyang's words made Qi Zixi stunned, he moved his lips, but couldn't think of suitable words for a while.He used to be proud of his family, but now he's suspicious of them.It's like a wound in my heart has been dug open, and the flesh and blood that I thought had healed are still bright red.

Since coming to the nursing home, the word "family" can no longer bring him any comfort.

With a dazed expression on his face, Qi Zixi squeezed out a smile, still trying to say something: "Yes...my parents, they..."

Chen Weiyang took his hand, put the cup in his hand, and accepted the words: "My parents passed away very early, and then I was adopted, and I have my current family." He said in a relaxed tone: "It's not smooth sailing for anyone, and that's okay."

Qi Zixi did not expect such a situation in Chen Weiyang's family.He thinks it is a very tragic and pitiful thing for his parents to pass away and be dependent on others.So there was sympathy in his eyes, as if in silent comfort.

"Don't look at me like that." Chen Weiyang laughed: "My adoptive parents are very kind to me, and I still feel very happy."

Driven by such emotions, Qi Zixi's expression also relaxed.He hummed, and said: "Before, before I came here, I also felt that I was extremely happy, and I could get whatever I wanted." He shook his head in self-deprecating manner, "It was only later that I realized that I was wrong."

Gently turning the cup in his hand, he took a sip, "What I'm most afraid of now is that they will forget me."

"No." Chen Weiyang said.

"I didn't think it would happen in the past." Qi Zixi's tone fluctuated, but he quickly took a deep breath to relieve it: "After all, it's not easy for me to get out of a mental hospital?" He tugged at the corner of his mouth, But I didn't laugh: "But look at me now, I've stayed here long enough, way longer than expected. This kind of endless days will make me... uneasy and want to blame them. I don't Know if they're working hard for me, get me out of here."

Seeming a little irritable, Qi Zixi scratched his hair.He squeezed the cup tightly, then raised his head and took several sips.Feeling disappointed and apologetic, he said to Chen Weiyang, "I'm sorry for making you here to listen to my complaints."

Chen Weiyang was very considerate of his feelings: "Don't doubt it, they must have considered you wholeheartedly."

"I don't want to doubt, I've been convincing myself. If I didn't hypnotize myself, I might not even have the courage to stay here."

"You will leave." Chen Weiyang comforted him: "You don't belong here."

"I know." Qi Zixi was very grateful, "I know that I have always been normal, and I definitely shouldn't be locked up like those people."

Chen Weiyang put his arms around Qi Zixi and stroked his hair, "Actually, you are right, you are very happy, you have always been. Someone cares about you and hopes that you will go home."

"You too." Qi Zixi said in Chen Weiyang's arms: "It's a happy thing to see my family every time I go back." He raised his head, "Chen Weiyang, let's talk about your family?"

"My family," Chen Weiyang asked with a smile, "Then what do you want to hear from me?"

"Every time the two of us are together, I'm talking about my affairs, and occasionally I want to hear about your affairs." Qi Zixi thought about it: "You can talk about your parents, and your current life."

"I'm just like all ordinary people." Chen Weiyang stroked the end of Qi Zixi's hair one after another, as if comforting and casual.

Under such a gentle force, Qi Zixi suddenly felt sleepy, or it was too comfortable.

"What's wrong?" Chen Weiyang asked.

"No." Qi Zixi wanted to drive away the drowsiness, so he tried his best to concentrate on listening to Chen Weiyang's words, but the other party's voice was even more hypnotic, making his eyes sleepy.

"My current life is really peaceful, it doesn't seem to be worth mentioning at all." Chen Weiyang said softly with his cheek against Qi Zixi's black hair, "And my adoptive parents, they have nothing wrong with them. Maybe, Too perfect is also a shortcoming? In comparison, my biological parents are as terrifying as ghosts."

Qi Zixi's consciousness was not clear enough, he thought he had heard wrongly, and wanted to see Chen Weiyang.But the body seemed to be completely out of control, as numb as a dead corpse.

At the critical point of mental struggle, he heard Chen Weiyang say: "Go to sleep if you are sleepy, you are tired."

This sentence is like a stone thrown into the deep sea, causing tiny ripples before sinking completely to death.

Qi Zixi fell into a coma.

Chen Weiyang lowered his eyes, he took the water glass that Qi Zixi was still holding in his hand, put him on the bed again, and looked at his sleeping face for a while.

He knew that it was the medicinal powder on the dried flowers that worked.

"I really envy you." Chen Weiyang said, "At least, I don't have to grow up with a mental patient."

"The so-called family, there is no sense of belonging at any moment. Even now."

Chen Weiyang said to the unconscious Qi Zixi: "My biological father is a policeman. Like most people in this profession, he is very busy and often not at home. My mother, she is mentally ill. Dim sum , toys, childhood, I didn’t have any of them. The most memorable thing is being alone with her, and I have to take care of her. I was about eight years old at that time.”

"You don't know." Chen Weiyang sighed: "She is... a mother who likes to abuse people very much. Look at my hands—" He rolled up his sleeves, stared at them for a long time, and said, "No more. The wound has healed gone."

"But what she does most often is hit me, or bite me, and she loves to bite me. My father, he doesn't love me at all, he doesn't care about me, he just blames me. I'm like a cheap accessory products. Never felt love, never.”

"My home is very humid, and I don't see the sun. My mother hates the sun. You can't go against her will, otherwise..." Chen Weiyang smiled: "I should be considered quite smart, so I know I can't go on like this. If you want to please her, you have to be very obedient, you have to bear with it. It’s just that you will be tired after a long time, and that kind of life is too tormenting.”

Talking intermittently, he suddenly stopped talking.Chen Weiyang looked out of the window, and the dazzling sunlight was shining on half of his body.

******

Be gentle with children.

They have not yet developed their own independent character, and the guidance of adults is very important.

But for Chen Weiyang, no one will guide him, no one will even accompany him.

All the while, he felt alone.

It is the loneliness from sunrise to sunset, without saying a word.

After staying with a mental patient for a long time, he is extremely insecure, but he is overly self-protective.

Fear and anxiety tormented him day and night.

When he was a child, he grew up step by step with abuse and wounds.

For patients, you can't expect too much love.For his father, too, he went from hope to despair.

In the dead of night, he would be especially at a loss.

He can't get love, and for this reason he desperately longs to be loved.

blind love.

He always prayed, more sincerely than believers.

Chen Weiyang once had serious suicidal tendencies.

Later, after his father died in the line of duty, his mentally ill mother was also exposed.

His difficult existence came to the fore and, logically, he was adopted.

Teng Shan's father is his father's boss.

When he saw that man for the first time, he was handsome and elegant, completely different from his father.

The man picked him up and said to him, "don't be afraid, I will take care of you in the future."

The Teng family was like another world to the young Chen Weiyang at that time.

They are the delicate and beautiful carousel in the amusement park.

The perfection is unreal, making people yearn for it but dare not approach it easily.

He still remembers clearly,

When he went to Tengshan's house for the first time, he liked and envied everything.

He looked at the house, the exquisite murals, soft rugs, and expensive furniture, all of which he had never owned before.

He was so envious that he was almost greedy, he looked at it over and over until his eyes hit Teng Shan on the second floor.

Teng Shan stood there and looked at him curiously.

At that time, Teng Shan was young, with white skin and big black eyes, like a glass doll.

Chen Weiyang fixed his gaze on his face for a long time, then walked around the whole house again.

In the distance, his adoptive parents were walking.

--very nice.

He said eagerly in his heart: I want everything.