Mr. Orange

After returning to Ducheng from the small town, Gu Fei also fell ill.

When they found Pan Yan's residence, he had already left.

The landlord checked the things in the house and told them: "She didn't bring much when she came, and now there is nothing in the house except the original furniture."

The landlord is a 70-year-old man who usually lives next door. According to him, the tenant was still there yesterday, and he left today without knowing why. He also charged the tenant four months’ rent. .

Since then, the dawn of hope has been shrouded in gloom and gloom in an instant. Gu Fei's body has been severely overdrawn recently.

Nie Xiqing can be regarded as a frequent visitor to the hospital during this time. Grandpa Ding was just discharged from the hospital a few days ago, and Gu Fei came in again in a blink of an eye. Generally, adults have a high fever and have a high fever, so there is no need to make a fuss and go to the hospital, but Gu Fei I have also undergone heart valve surgery. Even if this surgery is completely successful for the current medical level, I can't be careless.

The person on the hospital bed was not sleeping soundly, and his frown never loosened. Nie Xiqing held one of his hands, trying to give him even a little bit of peace of mind.

Suddenly, Gu Feiye's phone vibrated, and a text message came in, which was a number without a note.

- Don't look for me, when to break up, when will I go back.

Nie Xiqing glanced at it and immediately knew who it was. Except for Pan Yan, no one should have sent such a message.

He couldn't help turning his gaze to Gu Feiye who was sleeping restlessly.

In fact, the most uncomfortable thing must belong to him. It is impossible to ignore Pan Yan, and because he cherishes this relationship so much, it is difficult to compromise.

How much have you lost weight.

Gu Fei also woke up this day, and Nie Xiqing fed him with a bowl.

"...I'll do it myself." Gu Fei was also a little embarrassed, "I didn't hurt my hand."

Nie Xiqing pretended she didn't hear his muttering, fed him half a bowl of porridge, went for a walk outside with her, and when she got back to the ward, she showed him the text message on Gu Feiye's phone.

Nie Xiqing asked: "Feifei, let me ask you, can you ignore her?"

Gu Fei also shook his hand, but did not speak.

Of course it can't, unlike Nie Xiqing and Lin Qiwu who have a weak relationship, who probably won't cry when they attend each other's funeral, Gu Feiye and Pan Yan have always had a close relationship, the more they care, the more restrained they are.

He simply couldn't give up on Pan Yan.

Nie Xiqing asked again: "Second question, can we find her immediately and send her to the hospital for treatment?"

Gu Fei was also taken aback, and slowly shook his head.

Nie Xiqing didn't continue to ask other questions he wanted to ask, such as - even if he found it, would he be able to convince her?If she can't be persuaded, how can she prevent her from following up? Is it necessary to watch her like a prisoner?

And all of this is based on getting people back first.

"Feifei, promise her first." Nie Xiqing said.

Gu Fei also widened his eyes.

When did you start thinking about making this decision?

It might be Gu Feiye’s nightmares in his sleep, the uneasiness in his high fever, his dismay after seeing people leaving empty buildings in the small town, or it might be that there is no matching identity information behind those strange numbers—in this case In an information society, how can a person who does not use identity information at all be found?

It was a very lucky thing to be able to find traces on the Internet last time. Will life give them a second lucky chance?

Since she will appear as long as they break up, at least let her appear first.

The two fell silent.

Nie Xiqing looked at Gu Feiye and gave him a comforting smile.

This is not a sudden hasty move, but a long time of deliberation, Gu Feiye's tortured decision after seeing him for so long.

During this time, Gu Fei even talked about it in his sleep.

Gu Fei has been carrying and persevering, and Nie Xiqing has always been watching.

Originally, he thought that if he could find someone this time, at least he would have a chance to talk face-to-face, but Pan Yan cut off his hope decisively.

It can't be dragged on like this any longer.

Nie Xiqing knew that there were some things neither of them wanted to say, so he came.

Gu Fei also felt his throat was gouged, and he suddenly shook his head: "I... no, I don't want it."

Nie Xiqing looked at his thin cheeks: "What if I can't find it all the time?" This kind of bloodless persecution makes you sad during the process, but regrets it in the end.

On the day when the news of Pan Yan's death came, as the "murderer" and the person who could have "saved" her, can you let go?

If you can't let go, what should you do?

This inability to let go will destroy you, because that's what you are.

Gu Fei was also speechless, but just stared at Nie Xiqing.

"Don't cry." Nie Xiqing stretched out her hand, trying to wipe the tears off his face, but Gu Feiye backed away and turned her head away.

It may seem to others that this question is difficult to choose, but it is not a proposition. After all, human life is at stake, and others can take a step back before life.

Nie Xiqing tried not to think about his own expectations as much as possible, and could only stand on this angle and choose a path that would make Gu Fei's life a little bit easier, at least to get over the immediate difficulties first.

Gu Fei also had a sore throat and a pain in his chest, but he still couldn't speak a word.

Human life is at stake, human life is at stake.

But this life can also be divided into an awe-inspiring life and a life that can be used as a bargaining chip. The former is the biggest, while the latter is like a joke.

Gu Fei also cared about Pan Yan very much, but he also felt that she took life too much.

He also cares a lot about his relationship with Nie Xiqing, but he has to watch helplessly that this relationship is about to pay the bill for his life.

separate?

How could this be?

Are you kidding me?

He is like a wounded beast, showing his claws for the first time in a desperate situation, no matter whether it is in vain, no matter whether he will not be able to hold on one day and give up the fight: "Nie Xiqing, listen carefully, I will not break up. You give up."

After finishing speaking, he went into the bathroom angrily.

Nie Xiqing leaned against the wall, looked at the sky for a while, and said in a low voice, "I don't want to break up." After a long pause, she said to herself again, "We're about to find out the real cause of his death..."

For old things, if you want to dig the grave thoroughly, you have to pay a price. The price can be big or small, no one can say for sure.

Maybe there was a swing, but because of the person who bared his teeth and claws at him just now, he changed his way of life, because for him at that time, he was the one who could give him happiness.

So what now?As a choice between the two, in such a stretched situation, no matter how pure the emotion is, it will be cast the shadow of pressure and burden, right?

People, from childhood to adulthood, in addition to learning various life skills and knowledge, in fact, they should also learn one unlucky thing, which is loss.

If Feifei really wants to learn to lose, then he hopes that what he learns is meaningful, not destructive.

but--

Nie Xiqing tried to give Gu Feiye a chance to breathe, and also tried to give herself another way of living a long time ago - crawling alone on the road passing by wild beasts, constantly hiding her tracks and looking for opportunities, until that day, no matter what Whether it is to burn jade or stone together, the throat of the beast must be bitten off.

Just as he was about to poke his foot out, he was pulled back by Gu Feiye's anger.

It seems that I feel relieved?

Nie Xiqing closed her eyes, the phrase "I will wait for you" that she wanted to say just now but was afraid that she would not be able to do it, now she has to say it no matter what.

He walked to the door of the bathroom and knocked gently: "Feifei, no matter how long it takes, as long as I'm here, I'll wait for you."

They are all mortals, and they are all greedy for each other's warmth.

Three days of cold war.

Gu Fei also unilaterally refused to talk to Nie Xiqing, and it wasn't because he didn't know what Nie Xiqing was thinking, and it wasn't because he was always angry. break up.

The pressure for a long time seemed to have reached its limit, and Gu Fei was also moody and turned into a walking bomb. All his patience was exhausted, and even the walls of the ward blocked his eyes, and he just felt breathless inside.

So on the fourth night when no one was around, Gu Fei finally changed out of his hospital gown and slipped away quietly.

The cold wind blows, and it seems to have slightly blown away the stagnation in Dim's heart.

He was wandering on the street, unable to decide where to go right away—go forward, there is nothing but bare trees; go left, there is a lot of noise; go right, there is... once The temple I visited with Brother Nie.

Gu Fei also finally chose a clean bar and plunged into it.

Which is more uncomfortable, heart pain or physical pain?Gu Fei also voted for the former, so he ordered a glass of wine and drank alone.

While drinking, as if he remembered something, he dug out the unfamiliar number and dialed it directly.

A mechanical female voice came from the mobile phone, saying that the other party had turned off the phone.

No surprise, after all, this number was called countless times by Gu Fei in just three days, and the phone was turned off every time.

Gu Fei also ordered another glass of wine.

Just one cup after another, in the end, he didn't remember how much he drank, it seemed that it was broken, and it seemed that there was no more, and his mind seemed to be thinking clearly about a question: "Am I procrastinating and dragging her to death, or should I listen to Brother Nie?" Yes, break up, beg her to come back, and cure her?"

If you choose the former, you may be unable to forgive yourself when you dream back at midnight for the rest of your life; if you choose the latter, you will put a pair of shackles on yourself, and kneel down to welcome the human prison. How long will things change, and then another form of regret.

Brother Nie had considered all these for him, and Gu Fei knew about it.

Sweating all over his body, everything in front of his eyes had double images, he climbed all the way, and finally came to the temple that he had visited with Nie Xiqing.

I still remember when I came here for the first time, how free I was, and I didn’t have any troubles.

When Gu Zhou found his precious brother, he was smelling of alcohol, staggering around the temple, babbling: "Brother Nie said, here you can pray for the health of your parents, and care about the marriage. I, I will come to pay respects." God, let's see if it works."

The light-headed and heavy-footed person walked awkwardly and did not bow at every step, which seemed very dishonest. It is estimated that no god is willing to bless this virtue.

Gu Zhou stepped forward and grabbed the person whose left foot tripped his right foot.

This broken body is still drinking?

fight?But at such an adult, it seems inappropriate to start playing directly.

It also took Gu Fei five seconds to see who was coming, and continued to mutter: "Brother? Brother... You are here, let me tell you..." Balabala made up words with unknown meaning, but Gu Zhou only understood One sentence, "I'm so greedy..."

Why not be greedy? On the one hand, I hope that Pan Yan will appear, that he will be in good health, that he can look away, and on the other hand, I hope that I can grow old with Nie Xiqing.

The two are gears of completely different sizes, and they can't get stuck at all, but he doesn't want to put them on both sides, and put them away after drinking to dream.

It was obvious that Brother Nie had already been the bad guy before and made the decision for him. He just had to follow Brother Nie's wishes and say "I can't help it" to invite Pan Yan back first.

It was he who disagreed, he was afraid of breaking up like a coward.

Gu Zhou listened to this little drunk's nonsense, observed for a while, and found that this person was only feeling uncomfortable in his heart, and seemed to have no physical discomfort, so he decided not to hit him, and helped him into the car.

With the lights on and off all the way, the car drove to the hospital.

The drunk in the backseat of the car was still muttering, Gu Zhou turned around and found that his younger brother had his whole face wet from crying.

Gu Zhou suddenly remembered the time when he came out of the closet—it was too long ago, and he almost forgot what it felt like after so many years, but he was hooked at this moment.

If it is said that Pan Yan and his wife used violence to suppress him back then, then this time Gu Fei also used a purely psychological attack. It looks peaceful on the outside. good.

How can it be good?At least at the beginning, he tore his face under the pressure, and finally ran away from that house completely. When he came to Gu Feiye, he didn't even give him a chance to turn his face.

What does this mean?

It means that Gu Fei can't escape, he will be trapped to death by this pair of emotional cards.

When the car stopped, even though Gu Fei was drunk, he still knew that it was time for him to get out of the car.

He opened his eyes and stared blankly at the dark night outside the car window.

Gu Zhou looked at him in a daze, and didn't urge him to get out of the car. Ten seconds later, he heard him say, "Brother, you know, maybe I'm just a white-eyed wolf and a selfish ghost. Just now, I actually hoped that at that time, she would simply ..."

"Feifei, can you hear me say something?" Gu Zhou understood.

Gu Fei also nodded slowly.

Gu Zhou opened the car window slightly: "When I was your age, I was very close to her. Originally, there was no problem with this, but you have to see clearly that there is an aggressive side in her character. You and her are too close. If you are close, you will have no sense of distance, and if your boundary awareness is weakened, it will be easy to be swayed by your thoughts.”

Yes, a problem that has not been realized for a long time.

Gu Fei didn't speak either.

Gu Zhou didn't wait for his response, he said with a serious voice, "Maybe this is a bit unreasonable, but Feifei, you remember, no matter what decision you are about to make, no matter what her final result is, except for personal In terms of feelings, you don't owe her anything; and once you and Nie Xiqing break up, he doesn't owe you anything about waiting for you."

"As human beings, each of us is an independent individual, understand?"

Gu Fei was also silent for a long time. He looked at Gu Zhou and suddenly asked, "Brother, can you tell me how you came here?"

Gu Zhou handed him a bottle of water: "It's been too long, I don't really remember. Well, it's getting late, I'll take you back."