Let me live [Quick Transmigration]

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He sank in the crystal clear water.The ambient light transitions from light blue to purple like morning glory to indigo blue like a mineral solution until eventually all light is gone and it's pitch black.

There are no other living things here, and there are no hot springs or ocean currents that bring warmth, just a silent and cold dead place.The wide rift valley continued to extend downward toward the center of the earth. On the way down, he passed a whole set of sea animal skeletons stuck between the rock walls. There was no trace of being eaten or corroded by creatures, and they were washed as white as jade by the currents.He stretched out his hand to brush the broken cracks on the graceful bone, imagining what kind of attack ended its life, and how long it took to completely peel off its flesh.

Then he continued to sink.

The sea in this world is different from the sea in which he was originally born.The real sea water, not the one he created, gave off a strange smell, and he hadn't even noticed this difference before.The power of the ocean touched and tested him curiously, and then accepted and obeyed him. He stretched out his body in the open sea area, and a large piece of substantial darkness spread, allowing him to experience the long-lost pleasure.

How long has it been like this?Unrestrained, unconcerned, unhindered, integrated with the inanimate current, and freed from all troubles by giving up thinking.Even the shape and name were abandoned—as if returning to the beginning when consciousness was just born.This is indeed very relaxing, as if floating between half-dream and half-awake, with a lightness that can't help being fascinated.

But it would be too superficial to regard this as happiness.It may have only been a few hours since he dived to the bottom of the sea, and he can't help but miss the feeling of having another person by his side, not letting him always feel that something is not right with him, like the one who should be snuggled up The heat source left, as if losing a part of a limb that was once connected by flesh and blood, it became empty and cold.

He has tasted pure sweetness...and indistinguishable bitterness, and he can no longer get used to such completely tasteless blandness.

But only in such darkness, knowing that the outside world has been sealed and stagnated, can he calm down completely.Think carefully, think carefully... He let the undercurrent of the seabed support his almost weightless body when it turned into a shadow, slowly drifting towards nowhere. The God's projection asked him "Do you want to give up" before, that probing smiling face.

It's always easiest to give up at any time—but that's only a partial truth, and only holds true if the desire isn't strong enough.What he pursues is never "easy", but the result of "possession".What can make him hesitate is that excessive force in the pursuit leads to bad side effects.

He has always been the active, active and decisive party.Lu You would give up accepting a relationship because of his distrust of the future. Before anything happened, he would start to fear that it would not end well, and blame all his shortcomings on his own fault; but he was not troubled by this worry at all.Such self-confidence—such arrogance may be the initial cornerstone of their relationship.

And Lu You is the kind of person who will concentrate on it once he decides to approve it.He is like a clam with algae attached to its shell. The outermost layer is a soft camouflage covering the hard shell; but as long as the shell is smashed and pried open, the inside is soft meat without any resistance—it hurts They will only swallow the pain silently, and wrap it up smoothly, which is also regarded as acceptance.

… He drew these points from his recollections for planning future operations.Although his most successful experience in the previous reincarnations—that is to say, in terms of emotions—was achieved under the threat of death, he did not want this element to reappear, that is, he gave up the safest option of going back to the original path. Turn on Lu You's defensive method; but after all, the experience and memory are still there, and it is already as great a convenience as cheating to get part of the answers before the exam.

But... If the experience of his relationship with Lu You is really regarded as an answer sheet, it will be full of traces of alterations and cracks, especially in the initial period.It’s not that the birth of a human made him have many problems along the way, but Lu You, who was walking with him, sometimes wouldn’t say it even if he noticed it, but tolerated him—maybe it’s the inertia that can’t be changed, or maybe it’s because he really doesn’t feel anything , but the problem will not disappear by itself, it will only worsen under indulgence.

They fit so perfectly—almost the perfect fit for each other—but this fit, from beginning to end, tinges a little morbidly.Like two parts that are twisted and fit together unexpectedly, but they can't change the incompatibility with the surrounding world.

Did they support and correct each other and become better people?Or are they just embracing each other tightly, falling into the abyss without knowing it?

The monster's pitch-black body that merged with the current fluctuated slightly.He thought he was human enough, but it was still difficult for him to answer after asking himself.However, human beings are always full of mistakes and omissions when they talk about feelings. Maybe chaos is the real characteristic of human feelings...?He stirred up the waves, turned over slightly under the heavy sea water, and faced the sea surface that was too far away to see anything at this moment.

Could there be a better future than the one he experienced...

In fact, there was a solution to his dilemma.

He can hand over the choice back to Lu You himself.

In those dark reincarnations, he eliminated an unknown number of threatening monsters and directly created a vacuum centered on the city. This may be the only positive impact.Thanks to this, perhaps after the next reincarnation begins, he can do what he couldn't do before—become an invisible guardian, protecting him secretly without Lu You's detection.

The promises made by God will not be broken.Even if the past has been changed, as long as the time requirement is fulfilled, that projection will fully awaken Lu You's memory.The most likely situation is that Lu You will keep two different memories of the past. If after comparing, he feels that he prefers the world where "Qi Zhengyun" has never appeared...

His train of thought got stuck here.Could it be that if this is the case, can he simply give up and leave?

And - if he didn't show up and Lu You fell in love with someone else unknowingly, would he really be able to tolerate watching such a thing happen without doing anything?

He only weighed these two problems for half a second before throwing them out of his mind together with the so-called "solution".After all, he was selfish, and he couldn't separate himself from thinking about Lu You—he couldn't feel any guilt about it.

In other words, I always feel that if I really try this way, it will be a very bad thing for Lu You...

The alternation of day and night does not matter on the dark seabed. He can tell the passage of time by sensing the rotation of the earth, but he fails to do so.He drifts, waking, thinking—thinking about how to approach, love, and then relive the pain of losing the loved one from the corresponding awakening memory; Under the entangled fate...

God's hands guide the trajectory of the past and the future, and hold the puppet strings of the performers on the stage.If the soul pursues absolute freedom, I am afraid that even if it gets a happy ending, it will still rise up and resist.But he couldn't firmly deny whether, deep in his heart, he really didn't have a trace of gratitude for this "control"——

He sank slowly to the bottom of the sea.Face up, facing the sea, as if you can see the sunlight that gilded the water waves thousands of meters above.If only those entanglements never existed, he thought.If Lu You was in the same world with him in the beginning, in a sea area...

In a daze, he seemed to have started to dream.The sea water in the dream exudes a familiar atmosphere, and there are bits and pieces of light floating in the impure darkness.It should be little jellyfish emitting fluorescent light, but in his dream he was certain that they were light and free souls.

Among the creatures of the deep sea, the monster, which was not considered ferocious at all, stretched out its tentacles in its nest made of whale bones, letting them drift with the current.Those shimmering lights were far away from him, but there was a small group of them that did not fear him at all, and slowly floated over to touch its smooth scales.This transparent soul is warm, like the water flowing around him when he passes through a hydrothermal spring.It rolled up the front end of a tentacle to form a small "nest", and the soul landed obediently, and safely placed itself in the well-sized depression.

They cuddled up to each other quietly in the water that became very shallow at some point, leaning against each other and dreaming in dreams.The sun makes the sea water look extraordinarily transparent, and schools of silver fish swim around.

This is a very happy dream.After waking up, he stared at the impenetrable coldness and darkness around him, feeling lost.In the end, he let go of this bit of reluctance, and sank into a deeper and more stable dream again.

The dreams that followed were not all good.The images that flashed in the coffee cup that Jiuwu handed him swelled up, enveloping him entirely.A world without Lu You, a world where Lu You has nothing to do with him, and even a world where he killed Lu You with a feeling of indifference.The picture is like the fragments in a kaleidoscope reflecting and rotating in disorder. He stumbles and walks in the imaginary maze of fate, gradually losing his way.

Lu You's eyes were fixed on him.The blue light of Siren Illusion flickered in his pupils.He opened his lips—

In order to escape the next sentence, he hastily dived deeper.The dream became more fragmented, and it was about to become dark again, but somehow it stabilized, forming a scene that seemed familiar.

He found himself sitting on the ground with his back against the tree trunk, and his body seemed unable to move.The ground was covered with wet fallen leaves, and there were fresh bloodstains on his shirt.He felt vaguely anxious in his heart, as if something extremely dangerous was happening, but he couldn't squeeze out any strength to move.

Crash, clatter—the sound of branches and leaves shaking.Someone parted the bushes and came towards him.With a smile on Lu You's tired face, he knelt down in front of him, walked forward on his knees, put his hands on his side, and slowly leaned his face towards him.

He remembered.This is after Lu You survived the thunder disaster... The actual situation at that time was that he was vaguely conscious and hardly knew what happened, but at this moment in a dream, he was unusually sober.Lu You's eyebrows were curved, his pale lips were stained bright red by a smear of blood, and his eyes were clear.His lips opened on his own initiative, but what he said was not concern, but a question that although he was indeed curious, he had never actually asked Lu You.

"What is your heart demon tribulation...?"

"The demon asked me," Lu You dragged out his voice, and then laughed suddenly.There was a mischievous expression on his face, "It asked me, did I regret meeting you? Did I think you were scary and too strong? If possible, I really don't want to stay with such a monster—"

Liar, he thought.Lu You would never say such a thing.But in his heart, there was a little bit of uncertainty.

How did you answer that?He couldn't help but want to ask again, but still couldn't make a sound.

Lu You didn't say anything, but just touched the wound under his clothes with his cold fingers.In the dream, he also felt the pain that was close to reality.After doing so, Lu You sighed lightly, as if he couldn't understand what he did and felt annoyed and helpless.Then he came closer and gently pressed two soft lips against his.

The lips that seemed pale due to injury and blood loss were actually hot, as if there was a flame between them.

The heat melted in his mouth, burning down his throat——

The dream ends here.

He woke up.When he opened his eyes, he saw light penetrating the water.When he didn't know which dream he was having, he recovered from the shapeless shadow and turned into a human body, and this body still floated upwards on its own in the dream, approaching the surface of the sea.

The buoyancy of the water supported him, and his whole body seemed to be free from gravity.Looking up at the sea illuminated by the sun is extremely dazzling, as if he is going to the burning center of the sun.The last warm feeling in the dream still remained in his chest, making the cold heart covered with scars slowly beat again.

He felt that pain again.Advise him not to let go of emotional pain.But the pain doesn't seem to be as scary as it used to be.A part of his heart that had been terrified and restless since then finally found peace at this moment.

Won't let go.Even if Lu You "may" be happier in the world without him, he will not let go.He will only hold on tighter with all his strength, and give the best faith and loyalty he can give with all his strength, until the so-called "possible" chance drops to zero.

Because he wanted to be with Lu You.

In the end, it was just such a simple reason.

No matter what period of time it is, no matter what kind of feelings Lu You has for him.If you treat him as a stranger, pursue him as if you were meeting him for the first time; don't frighten him, treat him patiently and gently.That is the person he loves, and to him, this is the eternal truth.

He also loved like all people who don't know the future, and the short-sightedness that doesn't count gains and losses brings a kind of frivolous happiness.He should be consistent like this, and like all those who are tempted first, he should be willing to bow down.The "past" that does not exist at this moment will be the beginning of Lu You's feelings for him. He has enjoyed the happiness of the future for so long, and it is time to pay the price for it.

Even if it takes a million heartbreaks along the way—

The surface of the sea became turbulent, and the tall figure of a man emerged from the waves.This world, which was supposed to be frozen before he decided to start reincarnation again, already had the wind blowing, the clouds floating, and the singing waves echoing.The man who was full of the idea of ​​"wanting to meet" did not notice, nor did he notice that this ocean—this world—was any different from before he sank into the sea for "meditation".

He rushed towards the destination at the fastest speed, using the shadow jump, which can be called lightning speed - it took only a few minutes from the restart to the car accident, although he felt that it might be a little late, but he still didn't want to let this time pass by.Why did he have to run so far to come to the beach? When he finally saw the familiar scene of the city in the distance in his anxiety, he couldn't help complaining to his past self who seemed to have a unclear mind.

But as he got closer, his forward speed kept slowing down.

Something is not right... no, the whole city is not right.Is the glass curtain wall covering the outside of the landmark pointed tower familiar to him just now so brand new?He remembered that several buildings and a large area of ​​the main house not far away were gone.

Taking a closer look, the city looked gray and a bit... dilapidated compared to what he remembered?

The man took shape on a street corner where no one passed by.As soon as his feet hit the ground, the name as a social label came back to him.Qi Zhengyun frowned, several minutes had passed... He began to wonder if he unconsciously crossed the barrier of time and space while dreaming, and arrived at another similar but different world.

What the hell is going on with that projection?Qi Zhengyun's headache started to hurt, and he even hoped so for a while.If it had nothing to do with Jiuwu, it was really something wrong with him, and if it was taken as a sign of abandoning the mission, it would be quite bad.

He took a few steps out of the shadow, thinking that he should go to that intersection first to have a look.Right here, he sensed Lu You's aura.Just a short distance away—or rather, inside the building next to him.

This should be an old community, and the residential buildings are old, but they are well maintained.Qi Zhengyun walked around to the anti-theft door, and saw that the flower beds on both sides of the door were full of vegetables, and there were several well-growing fig trees.The anti-theft iron door is covered with mottled rust, and there are still glue marks left after the small advertisements pasted indiscriminately were shoveled off.Qi Zhengyun stood at the door and hesitated for a while. Although there was no one behind him, he still pretended to take the key from his pocket, put his fingers lightly on the keyhole, and opened the iron door with a "click" sound, and walked away. Into the corridor.

Even in the daytime, the corridors are drowsy.Qi Zhengyun noticed the faint breath of the monster, and calmly restrained his strength while raising his vigilance.Lu You's breath is above, very close to that monster.He also heard the sound of "bang" and "bang" sounding regularly with echoes, echoing in the corridor, shaking the dust on the railing.

Qi Zhengyun quietly walked upstairs.He climbed three floors, and when he was about to continue to the fourth floor, the regular voice suddenly became chaotic, and he began to move down the stairs.Was it discovered by that monster?He raised his head, and a ball with fancy patterns jumped into his field of vision.This thing that looked like a child's ball jumped down a few steps, touched the wall, changed its direction and bounced towards him, and was easily caught by Qi Zhengyun, who had been prepared for a long time.

The breath of the monster... Well, why does it feel a little familiar?

There was the sound of footsteps hurrying downstairs from above, and the weight was very light from the sound.The sound of footsteps came to the edge of the stairs and stopped abruptly. It was obvious that they saw the man half a floor down the stairs holding the ball and looking carefully at it.Qi Zhengyun looked away from this ordinary ball, looked up, and met the hesitant child on the stairs.