I just want you to be well

"I'm Yin Le."

"Wei Jun."

The meeting between the two was more tense than the first time.

The night before the meeting, Yin Le passed by the supermarket outside the school, and walked into it with trepidation.He stared at the boxes and bottles of different colors on the shelf, and stayed there for a long time, even the cashier couldn't help laughing at him, "Have you never used it? You don't need to think about it for so long."

Yin Le knows better than anyone else how to use this and who to use it on.

He thought, if he didn't buy it and Wei Jun didn't have it, wouldn't he force himself to do these things?But he was also afraid, if Wei Jun really wanted the overlord to force himself to bow, would he give up all the bottom lines because of his temporary liking, willing to surrender to him, but in the end he didn't have these tools to protect himself.

He used to think that he should not use these things prematurely.But now, I'm going to break my promise.

In order to meet Yin Le on time, Wei Jun has been busy catching up with the monthly report all day.But he was actually struggling with whether to see him or not.After all, if you can't finish your work, you can use overtime as an excuse to refuse an appointment.

He didn't want to play with Yin Le, and didn't want to cheat his feelings.But I couldn't help but think of him and want to see him.Perhaps in his subconscious mind, he had already acquiesced and hoped that this boy would bring some new opportunities to his chaotic life.

Before meeting Yin Le, Wei Jun's life was only black and white.But what is even more frightening now is that there is no distinction between black and white, and it is carrying a meth, which may explode at any time.

He suddenly regretted what he had said.He originally thought that he could find someone to trample on him without any scruple, and he could infect anyone with his misfortune at will.

But deep down in his heart, he seemed to realize that he couldn't do such a heartless thing to Yin Le.

He didn't prepare any security measures to protect Yin Le.He felt that in this way, he could always be on guard against himself and would not do anything extraordinarily deviant to him.

The tick-tick of the watch sounds impatient, but to Yin Le, it is as sweet as a Christmas bell.He seemed to have embraced the range of situations that might arise at night.

When the second hand pushed the minute hand to move the hour hand to "10", Wei Jun greeted him in front of his eyes.

He was wearing a neat black and white suit. He should have just finished working overtime, and before he had time to go home and change, he came out to meet Yin Le.

Wei Jun watched Yin Le smile at him, showing those two small front teeth from time to time, which made him want to laugh, but stopped.

After Yin Le entered the hotel lobby, he shrank behind Wei Jun, waiting for him to check in for the reservation.The two walked into the elevator one after the other, and the embarrassment of silence made them nervous.

Yin Le sneaked a glance at Wei Jun, "I am Yin Le".

"Wei Jun", he looked at Yin Le, and found that he had been looking around uneasily, as if he wanted to relieve his nervousness.

The two entered the room on the same floor, Wei Jun put down the briefcase in his hand, Yin Le took off the backpack slowly, and the two sat awkwardly on the edge of the big bed, motionless.

Yin Le lowered his head, as if he was waiting for Wei Jun to take the first step.Wei Jun looked at Yin Le, and then looked in the direction of the TV. His hands and fingers were fighting between his thighs, hesitating whether he should do something or say something.

While he was hesitating, Yin Le spoke.

"Are we going to sit quietly in a daze like this tonight?"

"Don't worry."

Wei Jun raised his head slightly, pretending to be calm, "I originally wanted to find someone to vent to tonight, but since you are inexperienced, I'll let you reminisce about the remaining virgin time."

He and Yin Le looked at each other for a few seconds, flinching a little.

"I...I've seen the movie...so, I'm not inexperienced..." Yin Le secretly watched the change of Wei Jun's expression.

At this time, Wei Jun put his head close to Yin Le and took off his glasses.The faces of the two were only three centimeters apart, so close that they could feel each other's breathing.

Yin Le blushed instantly, and slowly closed his eyes.He was a little nervous and scared, but he also looked forward to Wei Jun's gentle take away of his first kiss.He raised his right hand slowly, intending to point to his bag containing condoms and lubricating oil, "Those tools... are all in the bag."

Wei Jun looked at the direction where he was pointing the wrong bag, smiled, and then pretended to be calm and went around his ear, "Even if you have seen the film, you may not really know how to do it."

Yin Le slowly opened his eyes, his heart was beating violently, and after Wei Jun finished speaking, he got up to boil water.He could feel the excitement of his blushing, as well as the tension and fear that Wei Jun had brought him invisible.

He stood up slowly, "Uncle, can I ask you a question?"

Wei Jun came out of the toilet with a kettle in his hand and "asked".

"Actually, you asked me out, you didn't want to have sex with me, right? Or...or we will...." Yin Le's voice suddenly dropped.

Wei Jun put down the kettle and slowly leaned over.He moved his face closer to Yin Le again, carefully scrutinized his delicate facial features and attractive lips, he wanted to kiss him very much, but reason pulled him back to the edge of safety.

"Just you? □□?" He suddenly stood up straight and his expression became serious.With his back to Yin Le, he raised the volume, a little scary.

"The reason why I took so much trouble to ask you out is to tell you personally that I have no interest in you, so you can take the initiative to leave."

He pretended to be very indifferent, thinking that his Oscar-like acting skills would drive Yin Le away.

Yin Le's brows were tightly furrowed, looking unwilling.He also stood up, started to unbutton his jacket, and faced Wei Jun, "I don't believe it. If you don't have feelings for me, you don't have to go to such lengths to ask me out to tell me these things. You don't have to answer Message me, ignore me, block me!"

"I just want to see with my own eyes how you look forward to it first, and then fall into despair in an instant."

"No, you must have feelings for me, otherwise you wouldn't..."

Even if Wei Jun spoke harshly, he was a little at a loss when he watched the 1.7-meter tall man slowly approaching him.From the beginning, he wanted to seek revenge, then fell in love with Yin Le, and finally couldn't bear to hurt Yin Le. He didn't know what else he could do to make him leave.

He pushed him down on the bed angrily, and pressed Yin Le's hand with both hands.

The faces of the two were so close to each other on the bed, but Wei Jun shouted at Yin Le, "Get out if I tell you, don't force me to change my mind! Who do you think you are? Are you a roundworm in my heart? ? Don’t think you know me very well!”

Yin Le was frightened, and a few tears overflowed from the corners of his eyes.His slightly opened mouth was trembling, his eyes were looking directly at Wei Jun, and his body could not move.

Seeing Yin Le's terrified appearance, Wei Jun's tense face softened, and he was even a little worried.

At this time, Yin Le opened his mouth slightly, "The reason why I want to come here is to make you change your mind. I don't believe you will be so ruthless."

After he finished speaking, he slowly closed his eyes, as if he was waiting for Wei Jun's next instruction and action.

After hearing this, Wei Jun stared at his almost flawless face and delicate lips. He remembered the nervousness and guilt that night when the two met for the first time, and the feeling of guilt that Yin Le felt that night. What he said seemed to be subtly imprinted in his mind, slowly smoothing his revenge.

Wei Jun finally knew why he was reluctant to hurt him.

He let go of Yin Le's hand, stood up, poured himself a glass of water and drank it down, "I'm not as good as you imagined, you misjudged the person."

Yin Le got up slowly from the bed, stood up, and approached Wei Jun.

"I don't believe it. I don't care. Why do you keep avoiding my liking for you? Why don't you give each other a chance to get to know each other? Is it difficult for you? I don't understand, I really don't understand ..."

Yin Le's eyes became moist as he spoke.Wei Jun stared at him, his uncomfortable expression betrayed his love for Yin Le.

"Yes, you don't understand, and you don't need to understand." Wei Jun said indifferently.

"Why?" Yin Le grabbed his hand, "At least you have to give me a reason to give up, right?"

Wei Jun turned around, "Do you really want to know?"

Yin Le looked at him hesitantly, and nodded uneasily.

Wei Jun walked away from him, facing him, "I have AIDS".

Yin Le's expression froze instantly, and his body couldn't move.

"I told you sayhi because I was looking for someone to sleep with and then passed the disease on to him. When I dated you, I actually wanted you to get sick, that's all! Do you understand now? Do you understand?!"

Wei Jun's expression twisted into a ball, anger, sadness and reluctance all converged on his face at the same time.

Yin Le was stunned for about five seconds.After he reacted, he immediately reached out and grabbed Wei Jun's arm.

"Then why haven't you done it yet? Do it, why don't you do it? Are you telling the truth or lying? What are you running away from?"

Wei Jun shook off Yin Le's hand and shouted, "I really have HIV! I didn't do it because I didn't want to hurt you! I don't want you to end up like me! Are you satisfied with this answer?! "

Wei Jun seemed to be crazy, venting the anger he had held back for a long time in this closed space at once.

At this time, Yin Le could only stand passively aside, unable to take his eyes off Wei Jun.He trembled a little, feeling overwhelmed.After hesitating for a few seconds, he somehow found the courage to slowly approach Wei Jun, and stretched out his arms to hug him.

Wei Jun was instantly overwhelmed by this sudden hug, he never thought that he could be so warm.

The room was quiet for about 1 minute.Yin Le listened quietly to Wei Jun's heartbeat, and stammered a little to pour out his feelings to Wei Jun, "But you didn't hurt me. You chose to give up this idea before you hurt me, which shows that you are still with me. As expected, a nice guy."

Wei Jun's eyes were a little moist, allowing Yin Le's body temperature to affect his pretended cold heart.

"I don't care if you are sick or not, and I don't want you to hurt other innocent people because of this disease." Yin Le opened his arms and turned to Wei Jun. "You will be fine."

He comforted Wei Jun, pressed his head against his heartbeat, and hugged him, as if telling Wei Jun: Hold me tight.

At this time, the two seem to have found the most suitable distance for each other.Wei Jun could feel that his sickly body seemed to be injected with a warm current of healing, spreading all over his body.Mountain-like wrinkles began to appear on his face, his eyes slowly turned red, he hugged Yin Le tenderly, his chin pressed against his head, "I don't know...I..."

The most suitable posture for them at this moment seems to be hugging.