【Ninji Shinobu】Let's talk about love

After graduating from medical school for six years, she never spent a single penny from her family.Although the teacher tried his best to keep him from studying for a doctorate, he chose to take the qualification examination and enter the hospital for internship.

At the beginning, he was doing first aid at Shonan Medical College. The first time he encountered a patient who was sent to him but failed to recover, he sat in the duty room all night.

They still seldom make phone calls and video communications. The time difference is one thing, but it doesn't help the status quo.What is the use other than to make him miss him more?He doesn't need to be reminded over and over that he can't touch him.Seeing Atobe come alive from the end of the video, he can't help but cry.He can't fly to him as he pleases, and Atobu has his own battle to fight, and they are in a long war together, and they don't know when it will end.

Atobe only came back once in the fifth Christmas, but it was also very short-lived.They spent all their time in the hotel room - Atobe won the virtual trader competition, won his first pot of gold, and also successfully got an internship opportunity at a top investment bank, and finally had a little respite.Although the relationship with his father is still tense, it is not as lacking in confidence as before.The two of them hardly said anything, and they didn't even want to get off the bed, as if they were going to be exhausted after being separated for a moment, and felt a suffocating pain because of their excessive desire.

Enduring tears in the middle of the journey, Atobe didn't hold back either.It was really tiring to rely on myself for two years.And how long will this day continue?How long will it take... Atobe will feel that this is really unnecessary, and Shinozu will feel that taking a step back will open up the sea and the sky.

Just show the other person the best version of yourself.It is not yet known when and where the next meeting will be.

The first quarrel happened not long after Shinzu just started his internship.Atobe has just joined the company and is eager to perform.He did well and made some big money on a few hedges.When he was happy, he called Ninzu.But that day, Renzu was scolded by the supervisor for dealing with the relationship between doctors and patients. He was so depressed that he didn't want to talk to him at all.

When Atobe touched his nose, the uncle became angry, and began to use his arrogant and arrogant tone to sneer and sarcasm, and his feet also became angry, so he told him that you care about money so much, why are you with me?

He regretted what he said, but Atobe just sneered and said: Do you think we count together like this?hang up the phone.

Shinobu had to say that this hurt him deeply.

Does it count?This long wait is far greater than the joyful relationship when we meet.He is always waiting. Waiting cannot be called painful, but it is definitely not happy.I will think about the future, and I am afraid of thinking about the future.The future is a vague concept of time.It may be that he can see Atobe again in a year, it may be that the two of them still have such a distant relationship in ten years, it may be another 20 years, who knows how many years it will take for Atobe to inherit the group.His father seems to be in good health and has no plans to hand over power for the time being.

20 years is really too long, just as long as his bank loan. I know it is there, but because it is too far away, it seems that there is no entity yet, just a gradually shrouded shadow.

They started a cold war.Then Renzu discovered that the so-called Cold War, because it was invisible and intangible, had no connection, and it was no different from usual.

What a sad discovery.Each of them struggles, works hard, is sad, misses, and even gets angry in their own environment... It's all their own business, and it has nothing to do with the other.

Is that love too?

Once the quarrel starts, like a lurking monster, it will stretch out its claws from time to time, scratching the veil of tenderness.Let Shinobu find that Atobe is often difficult to communicate, and let Atobe realize that Shinobu is not inferior to him at all when he is stubborn.

Two months later, Shinobu called Atobe and asked about his vacation time, Atobe said bluntly no.Ren Zu held the receiver in silence for a while, saying don't do this, it's not my fault that I can't walk away.Atobe broke up for the first time.

After Renzu hung up the phone, he didn't cry.He has no sense.He didn't even think Atobe was serious.

But the bitterness gradually oozes out after all.How ridiculous, when the two of them were the poorest and most difficult, they were the best, and every bit of warmth would be magnified, even though they were far away, they still had a sense of being dependent on each other.Instead, when they entered the society, finally won the independence they wanted, and started to make money, they began to quarrel, so that they finally reached this point.

The discord with my father finally subsided after I endured enough to complete the training of interns and entered the process of practicing medicine.The elder sister helped a lot, and the mother also felt sorry for her son.And after all, Renzu was working, so he really couldn't control it.It's not so much accepting the forbearance as accepting the fact.

Ninzuya finally went home again six years later to celebrate the New Year—since he was kicked out of the house by his father in his junior year, he either worked part-time in Tokyo or went to Kenya’s house every New Year.

Faced with his adult son, the father seemed at a loss as well. He hadn't communicated with him for a long time, and he seemed to be a lot stranger.He cut off Yushi's financial resources when he needed family help the most. His intention was to teach him a lesson, but unexpectedly he forced his son away.

My mother cooked a sumptuous meal, my sister kept telling witty words, and Yushi only reported the good news. Finally, the new year was celebrated happily.During the New Year's visit, my mother specially brought a new kimono for Yushi to change into. After a long time, she felt that her son had really grown up. Yushi couldn't help but feel sour when he saw her more wrinkles than before and her temples with white hair.

"Are you still with your ex-boyfriend?" Dad asked.He was wearing an old kimono that he had worn for many years, his hands were tucked in the armholes, and he was about to go out.

Ren Zuzu was silent and did not answer.

"People from the Atobe family came to see me." Dad said.

Surprised, he looked at him.

"Well, I drove them away." Dad said. "I said when is it the adult's turn to intervene in the children's affairs? Isn't it embarrassing to find my Ninzu's family? After I got to know it, you are really a great person to date."

Shinobu looked down at his feet, his eyes were a little red.

"It's not easy, you two," Dad said, sighing. "Young Master Atobe is more stressed than you. Next time you have a chance, bring him home. Mom wants to see him too."

Shinobu bowed his head and said "yes", bit his lip, trying not to let the tears fall.

After visiting, his mother pulled him into the room and handed him an envelope mysteriously.

"What is this?" Ninja asked.

"Open it and have a look." Mom smiled.

Renzu opened it and found a large check inside.It says 4000 million, signed by Eiji Ninzu.

He froze there.

"Dad saved your tuition and living expenses for you." Mom said.

Shinobi shook his hand, and the thin piece of paper almost fell to the ground.

"Put it away, don't lose it." Mom said, stroking his hair. "You have worked hard all these years. Take it to repay the loan."

"...There is no need for so many." Renzu's eyes were red again.

"The rest can be used as your property purchase fee in Tokyo. Or spend it, it's up to you. Take your boyfriend out and have a good time. Although your father didn't say it, you were admitted to Tokyo University and stayed in Tokyo to work in a hospital. He is very proud, and he will brag to your Uncle Zongye when he drinks too much." Mom said. "He's embarrassed to give it to you in person. You know, it seems like he's admitted his mistake to his son. But I want to say what he regrets most is that he didn't give it to you earlier. Tsk, what's the use of saving so much money, sooner or later I have to give it to you and your sister." She made a face, still like a little girl.

"But..." Renzu didn't want to accept it.Although the family is well-off, this is really too much money.

Mom sighed. "Yushi, probably won't bring the girl back. If you count the wedding money that was originally prepared for you, it's not much at all. You should come back often in the future. We miss you very much."

Resisting his words, he packed the check, turned around and hugged his mother tightly, and quietly wiped his tears on her collar.

He returned to Tokyo and went to the bank to cash the check.After being poor for a few years, he suddenly had money in his bank account, which made him a little maladjusted for a while.He withdrew 1000 million to repay the loan, and saved the rest first.

Later, he found himself checking flights to London.

Atobe said that after the breakup, he never contacted him again, and half a year later, the word began to gradually take root in his heart, biting him and making him uneasy.After all, he has no experience in love, and their relationship is not a normal relationship. Romance novels cannot be used as a reference, but the pain is real.

The implication of pain is that it is always more significant than pleasure.A little pain is felt, but it takes a lot of happiness to be really happy.And when you finally realize that the person you love more than half your age is leaving you, the pain of jealousy, anxiety, fear, wanting to keep but fearing disappointment, is similar to wanting to die, but wanting to die at the same time. on one's last legs.

He thought that he might be doomed long ago. In the years he lived, there were too many bright moments that were closely connected with Keigo Atobe, and he never realized at that time that that was all he could get. The best thing.Maybe people are like this, they always miss those moments inadvertently without knowing it.

Really... there is no way to be reconciled.