Master, he has to report his thoughts every day [Rebirth]

Zhou Li stood at the door of the bedroom in a daze, as if someone had poured cold water on his head, and it was cold from head to toe.

For so many years, Xiao Ran is like a tail or a plaster, sticking to Zhou Li's body stubbornly, whether Zhou Li wants it or not, he is always there.

The day before when Xiao Ran said he was tired, Zhou Li only thought it was Xiao Ran's complaint. He always thought that whenever he came back to this home, Xiao Ran would definitely be waiting for him at home.

But now, the facts tell him that Xiao Ran is really tired. When Zhou Li left selfishly, he himself gave up this temporary home.

Zhou Li couldn't believe it. He stood blankly for a while before he remembered what to do next.

Zhou Li took the key and went out. He first went to the hotel where Xiao Ran lived before, but his name was not found in the registration book. He went to Xiao Ran's school and all the hotels near his school to check again, but there was still none.

Beijing is too big, if Xiao Ran deliberately avoided him, Zhou Li would never be able to find him.

Xiao Ran didn't have any friends in the local area. He had a good relationship with Li Fan at school, and everyone else had a normal relationship. After Zhou Li couldn't find anyone in the hotel, the first person he thought of was Li Fan. After making a call, Li Fan thought that Zhou Li was asking him to play together when he received the call. Zhou Li asked Li Fan if he had seen Xiao Ran in the past two days. Li Fan was very surprised, "Are you two like conjoined twins Well, together every day."

Zhou Li's voice was hoarse, "He ran away from home."

Li Fan thought they were making a fuss, so he laughed and teased, "The big man still messes with girls, did Xiao Ran go back to his mother's house?"

This joke reminded Zhou Li. Zhou Li put down the phone and called Mishui Town to ask cousin Xiao Ran. He was surprised when he received the call and kept asking what happened. Xiao Ran had committed suicide before. In the past, everyone was cautious when getting along with him. When they heard that Zhou Li could not find anyone, they thought something had happened.

Zhou Li was very disappointed, and found an excuse to comfort his cousin. When he hung up the phone, his heart trembled inexplicably, and Xiao Ran's words were played back clearly in his mind. At that time, Xiao Ran said lightly: " If I don't dance, I'll do what I don't want to do, what's the point of living so aggrieved, I'll die when I die."

Zhou Li's heart skipped a beat. He ran into the nearest police station and asked if there was any accidental death today. After getting no useful information, he said he would report the case and report missing persons. To file a case, Zhou Li certainly knew this rule, and he was already so anxious that his mind was confused.

That night, Zhou Li stayed up all night. He ran all the places in the city they had been to. The next day he went home and found Shen Jie. For the first time, he asked his father to help him use his relationship to find someone. See if there is any new news from the police.

Zhou Li did not expect that this process lasted for several months. From the holidays to the beginning of school, Xiao Ran seemed to have evaporated from the world, no one was alive, no dead body, just disappeared. Sometimes Zhou Li even wondered if Xiao Ran Just his hallucinations, the product of his never-healed desire for self-salvation.

After the school started, Zhou Li went to it many times, and each time he returned disappointed. Two months after the school started, the school told Zhou Li that Xiao Ran was absent from class too much, and that he might not be able to graduate if this continues. Xiao Ran was notified before Although there is no foundation in the file, but the school has relevant records, it is very likely that he will be severely punished for absenteeism, and it is not impossible to withdraw from school.

In those two days, Zhou Li used all of Shen Jie's connections to turn Beijing upside down. He also ran all the places he had visited before, but there was still nothing, and he didn't even see a similar shadow. arrive.

Afterwards, Zhou Li went to the school's academic affairs office to suspend Xiao Ran, and took back the things that Xiao Ran had left at school. That night, Zhou Li cried bitterly in the rented room all night. He thought that he had finally lost his whole heart. People who depend on him.

At that time, Shen Jie was seriously injured because of protecting him and Zhou Xi. Zhou Li ran back and forth between school and the hospital every day, and was extremely exhausted every day, but as long as he had a little time, he would walk or drive on the street, watching Can I meet Xiao Ran?

Zhou Li used to think that the past of his childhood was the greatest pain in his life, but now he realizes that missing out and not getting what he asks for is like cutting flesh with a blunt knife. It is a kind of slow, endless and incomparable pain.

In the winter of that year, Zhou Li fell ill. It was not a serious illness. At the beginning, he coughed only occasionally, but then it became more and more serious. He often ran out suddenly during class, and his throat was almost torn when he coughed in the corridor. , It makes people feel lung pain after listening to it, and even coughs all night at night, and can hardly sleep a full night.

Zhou Li lost weight quickly, and Shen Jie found out that something was wrong with him, so he forced Zhou Li to go to the hospital. After the X-ray film of his lungs came out, the doctor frowned, and pointed to a spot on the film and said , "There is a shadow here."

"What will it be?" Zhou Li asked while looking at the film.

The doctor shook his head, "It's hard to say, it may be just inflammation, or it may be a more serious disease."

The doctor said it tactfully, but Zhou Li understood it all at once.

"What should we do now?" Zhou Li asked.

Zhou Li's tone was so calm that the doctor couldn't help but look at him several more times.

"I'll prescribe a CT scan for you. The results won't be available until the next day. You can show it to me when the results come out. Don't worry too much. There are many possibilities of shadows." The doctor comforted.

Zhou Li nodded, took the doctor's order, and finished the examination step by step.

When returning home at night, Shen Jie asked him how the result was. Zhou Li showed him the medicine box he bought from the pharmacy, "It's okay, it's just a little inflammation, just take anti-inflammatory drugs for a few days and it will be fine."

When the results came out the next day, Zhou Li went to get them by himself. He didn’t know much about medicine, but he could see clearly in black and white, “I saw a mass in the lower lobe of the left lung. The CT value was about 20.4HU, and the size was about 2.1. *2.3cm."

Sure enough, when he gave the result to the doctor, the doctor frowned even deeper. He glanced at Zhou Li and said, "Young man, the possibility of malignancy cannot be ruled out now. I suggest you do a lung puncture for diagnosis."

Zhou Li nodded, "Please open the list for me, please."

The lung puncture must be accompanied by relatives. Zhou Li didn't want others to worry about him, so he just told his brother. Zhou Xi asked for leave from the school that day and accompanied him to the hospital. Before entering the operating room, Zhou Xi held him tightly. Zhou Li smiled at his brother, "Brother, it must be hard for you to imagine. If it is really cancer, I feel relieved. Xiao Ran still doesn't know whether he is dead or alive. If he dies, I will Just go down with him together, if he is still alive...he has given up on me, and it doesn't matter to him whether I live or die."

Zhou Xi held his hand tightly, which made Zhou Li a little hurt. Zhou Xi looked at him disapprovingly and said, "You can't underestimate life, whether it is someone else's or yours, there is always hope in life. It's over if you die. If Xiao Ran died, he should have been found long ago. He must be alive now. Zhou Li, you will find him one day. Don't give up easily, Xiao Ran has persisted for so many years, don't you even half of him Is it too late?"

Zhou Li was stunned for a moment. When he was pushed into the operating room, his heart, which had been as calm as stagnant water for so long, suddenly became active again. For the first time since his illness, he hoped that he was not terminally ill.

Three days later, the biopsy results came out, which were benign.

When Zhou Li was discharged from the hospital, Shen Jie already knew the truth, sighed and patted him on the shoulder at the hospital gate.

Today is the weekend, and the whole family came to the hospital to pick him up. During the few days in the hospital, Zhou Li looked better, and his cough was basically under control under the medication.

Zhou Li was listening to Shu Wangbei talking to him about how to take care of his body, while looking aimlessly at a row of bare tree trunks outside the hospital gate. Occasionally, there were a few sparrows flying around on the tree trunks, with light footsteps and speed. fast.

Zhou Li looked at it for a while, then withdrew his gaze, and the moment his gaze returned to Shu Wangbei, Zhou Li was stunned for a moment, then turned his gaze back to one of the several big trees in disbelief.

There was a man standing there, wearing a shabby dark cotton-padded jacket, which was dirty and the cuffs were greasy. The man was wearing a tight hat and mask, with one hand hanging by his side holding a torn sack and the other One is holding a long wooden clip. This is a typical trash picker. You can often see it on the streets of the city. Occasionally, such a person will pass by with heavy steps. There is a trash can not far in front of you. He stopped by the side, lifted the lid, picked it up with a long wooden clip, found cardboard boxes and plastic bottles, and put them in the sack that he carried with him.

The person standing under that tree was such a very ordinary person, but Zhou Li felt that his breathing was almost stagnant after only one glance.

He shouted loudly towards the other side, "Xiao Ran!"

The man under the tree visibly stiffened for a moment, then turned and ran.

Zhou Li ran past Shu Wangbei who hadn't reacted yet, and rushed to the opposite street.

Xiao Ran wore a lot of clothes, but his movements were very flexible and he ran very fast. Zhou Li lacked exercise for a while, and he had just finished the operation for a few days, so his body was somewhat weak, and he was already out of breath after running for a while.

Seeing that Xiao Ran was about to turn into a small alley, the alleys here extend in all directions, once in, it would be too difficult to find this person again.

Zhou Li was in a hurry and tripped over a big rock and fell to the ground. The fall was quite hard. His head fell directly on the curb without protection, and blackheads buzzed in front of his eyes.

"Xiao Ran, Xiao Ran...!" Zhou Li covered his head and called anxiously, tears streaming down his cheeks.

One hand grabbed onto his arm, trying to pull him up from the ground, but Zhou Li still had flowers in front of his eyes. He thought it was Shu Wangbei, and shouted at him, "Hurry up, go after Xiao Ran, and run again this time." He won't be coming back!"

"Will you be sad if I don't come back?" asked the owner of the hand on his arm.

The confusion in front of Zhou Li's eyes gradually receded, and his clear vision slowly returned. Only then did he see clearly that the person supporting him was not Shu Wangbei at all, but Xiao Ran who was wearing a hat and mask and was fully armed.

Zhou Li grabbed Xiao Ran's hand, completely ignoring the shiny black oil stain on the glove, "Xiao Ran, don't go, I have something to tell you."

Xiao Ran asked, "What do you want to say, that you will still pity me and let me go back and stay by your side?"

Zhou Li said, "Xiao Ran, I love you."

After a while, Zhou Li asked cautiously and softly, "Why don't you speak?"

Xiao Ran squatted quietly in front of Zhou Li and still didn't make a sound. Zhou Li's heart tightened, and he took off the mask and hat on Li Ran's face. After removing the heavy cover, he still had that fair and delicate face inside, full of tears.

Zhou Li said, "Xiao Ran, I'm sorry, if you are willing, please give me the rest of my life to make it up to you."

Xiao Ran stretched out his hand and slapped Zhou Li's face with a loud slap, and then threw himself into Zhou Li's arms, crying loudly.

Across the street, at the gate of the hospital, the whole family watched the scene on the opposite street, Shu Wangbei belatedly asked Zhou Xi beside him, "Did Zhou Li and Xiao Ran get together? Why didn't I see it!"

......

Xiao Ran is back, and the news has spread among Zhou Xi and Xiao Ran's circle of friends within a few days. Li Fan is the happiest. He has been looking for people to form a team to play, but he can't find a team as good as Zhou Li and Xiao Ran. The tacit teammates are worrying about this matter, but it's a pity that after Xiao Ran comes back, he can only drop one grade to attend classes with the next class of juniors and juniors, and they can't hang out with each other every day.

In the spring of the second year, when the weather was getting warmer, Li Fan signed up for a 3V3 amateur challenge with the consent of the two of them. The three of them overcame obstacles all the way and won the runner-up in May of that year.

The weather was very good that day. After winning the medals, they went out to have a big meal together. After eating, they went to the bathhouse to take a bath and massage together.

However, Li Fan's temper is not too smooth, he is okay when he eats, at most, Zhou Li always picks up vegetables for Xiao Ran and asks about his health, but when he takes a bath, he really can't bear it, Xiao Ran's whole body is two and a half fleshy, thin Skinny and skinny, I don't know which nerve of Zhou Li has twitched. When taking a bath, he always shields Xiao Ran from other people's sight, as if whoever takes a second glance loses a piece of meat. Massaging is even more troublesome.

At the beginning, it was a young man who gave Xiao Ran a massage. Zhou Li frowned when he saw it, and had to tell the waiter to change. When a young and beautiful girl came in, Zhou Li's frown deepened, and he asked the waiter to change again. He was slapped aside by Li Ran.

Li Fan couldn't bear the sour smell of their love, so he said goodbye and slipped away after the massage.

Xiao Ran and Zhou Li walked slowly towards the parking lot, preparing to drive home.

Xiao Ran curled his lips in dissatisfaction as he walked, "Can you stop being like this all the time, do you know that people always laugh at me?"

Zhou Li curled up his mouth and smiled slightly, "Do you care?"

Xiao Ran glanced at him, "No."

Zhou Li spread his hands, "I don't care, so what are you afraid of!"

......

When Xiao Ran graduated from university, the two of them went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to obtain a certificate. The wedding was very simple, and only family members and friends were invited.

For many years, they slept together every night, comforted each other occasionally, but never reached the last step. Finally, on the wedding night, they followed the ancient tradition and completed the great harmony of life.