Mr. Chinese

He Xilang was in a daze all day, and at night he found out that Jin Xunfeng, who had killed a thousand swords, had kidnapped his cat! ! !

He Xilang growled on the phone: "Bring me back Blackbeard!"

"??" Jin Xunfeng didn't understand, "Teacher, what do you mean?"

He Xilang was annoyed: "Didn't you take Blackbeard away?"

Jin Xunfeng looked puzzled: "How is it possible, what should I do with it?"

"Impossible, after you came here today, Blackbeard disappeared."

"Why don't you look for it again? Maybe it's hiding? Didn't it often hide from you before?"

"I've searched all over and can't see it at all."

"Could it be lost...I really didn't take it away..." Jin Xunfeng's next words stuck in his throat.Because while he was talking, a cat that looked like Hitler was jumping off his bed, licking its paw sleepily.

Jin Xunfeng: "Teacher... I think I have encountered a supernatural event..."

Let's turn back the time to a few hours ago. When we knew we were going to shoot today, Jin Xunfeng was carrying an oversized one-shoulder sports bag—the kind that sports students often carry when they play.After arriving at He Xilang's house, he put the bag in the living room.

A small mistake was that he forgot to zip up the bottle when he took the mineral water bottle out of the bag. Blackbeard was very clever when he saw this loophole. He dug the zipper up with his paws, and sneaked into Jinxunfeng's dormitory without anyone noticing.

Jin Xunfeng was still there in a daze, completely unable to figure out how Blackbeard appeared in his dormitory.

"Brother Feng, where did you get the cat?" The roommate was very interested, and meowed a few times, and hugged Blackbeard for a while.

Jin Xunfeng said: "A friend's, put it with me for the time being, and I will have to send it back later."

"Hey wait a minute, wait until I take a few photos and send them to my girlfriend, I'm so envious of her hahahaha."

Thanks to Blackbeard, Jin Xunfeng came to Hexilang's house for the second time today.

It was dinner time when he came back, and he learned that He Xilang hadn't eaten dinner, and Jin Xunfeng bought a bunch of ingredients from the supermarket.But he didn't expect to meet He Xilang who hurried downstairs as soon as he arrived downstairs.

Jin Xunfeng was surprised: "Teacher?"

No, is it here to pick him up?

He Xilang was anxious, and hurriedly explained: "Sorry, I have something urgent to go out, you can go in directly, I didn't delete your fingerprints, please take care of Blackbeard."

Jin Xunfeng couldn't help being disappointed, and finally stroked Blackbeard's hair as if seeking comfort, and sighed to a cat: "You are lucky tonight."

Just 2 minutes ago, He Xilang received a distress call from Su Yuan. Su Yuan stuttered on the phone, and it took him a long time to explain the whole thing clearly.The general idea is that he attempted suicide and was rescued. He had no money to pay the medical bills, so someone came to save his life.

He Xilang was worried and speechless. Half an hour later, he found Su Yuan in the hospital.Su Yuan was still skinny, lying on the bed dying.

He Xilang circled around Su Yuan, and looked at Su Yuan's wrist again, but found no trauma.Is it medicine?He Xilang was a little curious: "How did you die?"

Su Yuan moved his mouth, showing a dumbfounding expression.

To He Xilang's surprise, the result turned out to be throwing himself into the lake.

Su Yuan had sex with Ji Changhua several times last night, his butt has long been used to being violated constantly, and he can even find pleasure in the pain.But actually, Su Yuan doesn't like sex/love much anymore.

At the beginning of sex/love, the novelty really surprised him, the temperature of the skin touching, the dazzling during orgasm, once he thought he had found Dionysus, but later found that he did not.How could Dionysus exist in reality?

After figuring this out, Su Yuan lost interest.Ji Changhua was as arrogant as a cat in heat, scratching him, licking him, stabbing him, but not letting him go.

At first, I thought this person had a cute personality, but Ji Changhua has always been like this. Su Yuan has played enough of this childish game.This morning, Su Yuan suddenly noticed this. He noticed that he was tired of Ji Changhua, and he was also tired of this world.

He feels that he has been separated from this city. He obviously lives here, but he feels that he is so far away from this city. I can't find a sense of belonging, and feel that I have become a dispensable existence.

Just this morning, when he came out of Ji Changhua's high-end apartment, he saw the stalls selling bean juice at the intersection, the bouncing elementary school students, and the office workers in a hurry. It's like looking at them through a lens.It's like watching a movie, and he has nothing to do with his surroundings, and suddenly he can't find the meaning of living.

Even Su Yuan himself did not expect that this idea came so quickly and so vividly.

At some point, he had already walked to the edge of the lake, took off his shoes and walked into the lake. As a result, the lake was too shallow, and the deepest part only reached his waist.Su Yuan was a little disappointed, he probably didn't want to die, so he walked around in the lake and got up again.

In the end, on the way up, he was seen by an old man who was walking around. The old man was enthusiastic and shouted at him: "Young people, don't be overthinking it!"

Su Yuan was so frightened that he staggered and fell directly into the lake.

Seeing this, the uncle jumped into the lake, only to be welded to the head by the mud, and instead asked Su Yuan to rescue him.

When the skinny Su Yuan dragged the uncle ashore, the uncle was already unconscious.Soon some enthusiastic people called 120. The people who didn't know the truth thought that the uncle had fallen into the water, so Su Yuan went down to help others and picked him up.

Soon the ambulance came and sent both Su Yuan and the uncle to the hospital. Only then did everyone know what was going on.Laughing and cursing, but still lamenting, fortunately, neither of them was in danger of life.

Su Yuan woke up early, and his heart ached when he woke up. There was no other reason. He was already poor, but now it's fine if he doesn't die. He has to pay a large amount of medical expenses. He is so poor that he even has to pay for his underwear. up.Seeing He Xilang rushing over, he looked up at his old classmate with guilt in his eyes.

"You are not mean enough, at least tell me before you commit suicide, let's have another drink before we die!" He Xilang was not very happy, "Or, do you think I will stop you?"

Su Yuan was weak: "I just had a sudden thought, but I didn't think about committing suicide."

He Xilang was a little depressed: "You walked straight away, I will be alone when you die."

"How can you be alone?" Su Yuan said, "You are at least a normal person in social activities. You have a family, a job, so many hobbies, and normal interpersonal relationships..."

He Xilang shook his head, quite seriously: "If you die, I will have no friends."

"So I'm not dead yet?" Su Yuan smiled weakly, "I still have a wish unfulfilled. I haven't become famous yet, and my works haven't sold well. I won't die."

"I believe you are the only one with ghosts." He Xilang was not so easily fooled.

"Okay," Su Yuan compromised, "If I want to die next time, I must notify you in advance."

Su Yuan's suicide has actually been traced. He Xilang feels that when a person has been away from society for too long and has no care and company around him, he will not be able to find his belonging.

A long time ago, Su Yuan shared Adonis's poem with him, which wrote:

"You refuse to kill yourself, I agree

However, weary people

what would you do

— If only death could give you peace? "

He Xilang can understand this idea, but understanding doesn't mean he agrees.People like them seem to think more easily than ordinary people. They all know that this is an imperfect world. There are many flaws in this society and there are many bad people. They see stains and dust... He Xilang and Su Yuan is both a pessimist, but the difference is that He Xilang chooses to blend in, while Su Yuan chooses to leave.

He Xilang loves this kind of imperfection, he loves the magnificence of the metropolis, he also loves the stains and embarrassments in the corners, he loves the nobility of thinkers, and the intoxication of materialists, his thinking is too flexible, he can Straight up to the sky, or sink into the dark.

But Su Yuan is quite a pure pessimist, he can only accept what he agrees with, but what he pursues is so lofty that he is almost out of touch with this society.In He Xilang's eyes, Su Yuan gets along with the world with the attitude of a fighter. He deliberately separates himself to make himself look out of place, and finally finds that there is no way out, he can only choose to die.

As early as a few years ago, after Su Yuan quit his job and devoted himself to writing poetry, He Xilang often thought that Su Yuan's state of being completely divorced from society was dangerous, and he might die in his apartment one day.

Therefore, when he heard that Su Yuan and Ji Changhua were together, he was actually a little happy. No matter how the two ended up, at least Su Yuan had another connection with this world.

With this in mind, He Xilang sent a text message to Ji Changhua behind Su Yuan's back.

It was late at night, and He Xilang left the hospital not long after.He is different from Su Yuan, he still has many desires and concerns, he also has a cat that ran away from home, and a person waiting for him to come home.

The author has something to say: "You refuse to kill yourself, I agree

However, weary people

what would you do

— If only death could give you peace? "

Adonis "My Solitude Is a Garden"