Tomie's Son Dazai[Comprehensive]

When the first rays of the sun shone into the room, Masako, who hadn't slept all night, knew that the night that tormented her was over and a new day was coming.

Masako stumbled up from the tatami, walked and stood in front of the mirror.

The person reflected in the mirror is undoubtedly a beauty, but looks very haggard.Her black hair was disheveled and disheveled, and her originally beautiful eyes were dull, with thick dark circles under her eyes.

Masako put her hand on the mirror.

"Good morning." In the mirror, she showed a stiff smile and said with her mouth open, "It's another new day, Masako."

It was also the fifth year since her husband died.

What Masako's original name was, she herself forgot.When she was young, her domestic violence father and mother who ran away from home made her not loved by anyone from the day she was born.One day she was accidentally abducted to a foreign country, and after a lot of hard work, she escaped from the hands of the traffickers and began her life of wandering.

Later, she joined Pengelie by accident and became an intelligence officer.

There is no attachment in her life, no love or hatred, and she lives every day in a daze until the day of death. This should be her life.

Until that day, when she returned to Neon, her hometown, she met a man by chance.

"Please marry me."

In the second year after they met, a man named Takuto said so.

He is just an ordinary person. At the beginning, he was moved by Masako and realized her true identity. He couldn't stand it at first, but slowly he began to understand, tolerate and accept it.

He loves Masako.

Masako's life is a mixture of all the bad things, and her first reaction when she heard this sentence was to doubt.

"You want to marry me?" The black-haired woman with a cold expression was stunned, and asked Tuoren with her eyes wide open.

Is this a terrible dream?

A horrible nightmare that lulls her into a dream with sweet words and wakes her up.

"Yes. I want to marry you, I just want to marry you." Tuo Ren blushed, his eyes sparkled, and he looked at her firmly.

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"Is it okay for someone like me?" Tears flowed down Masako's face, but she asked in a daze as if she didn't notice it.

Is it okay for someone like me who should die quietly and rot in a dark corner?

"I only want you. I need you." Tuoren hugged her in his arms.

When they got married, Masako gave up her life with Peng Gelie. Fortunately, Peng Gelie Jiudaimu was a kind and tolerant person. He not only let Masako go in spite of other people's objections, but also gave her a residence to start a hot spring business, and gave her back Masako's information was protected.

After the two got married, they indeed lived a life that is still like a dream, but the reality is always cruel, especially for a woman like Masako who is often favored by the god of misfortune.

Tuo Ren died of illness.

After tidying herself up, Masako opened the door and walked out. It was raining outside, and there was a moist and fresh smell in the air. There was a bang and a flash of thunder. Masako stared outside in a daze. In recent years, she has often been in a daze.I always felt that Tuo Ren hadn't died, as if he would come around the corner at any time, and said to her with a smile, "Good morning, Masako."

"Sister Masako." The tree man came from outside. He was Masako's younger brother, but to be precise, it should be Takuto's younger brother.It's just that when she married Tuo Ren, in order to better integrate into Tuo Ren's family, Masako also called Shuren her younger brother.

Of course, this is just the reason in the past.Someone asked himself when he called the tree man his younger brother now, or did he not want to call him his husband's younger brother.

"Then where is your husband?"

Masako smiled at him and said, "Good morning, Shuren."

The tree man was silent for a while, and asked, "Miss Masako, did you not fall asleep last night?"

"Huh? Is it obvious?" Masako showed him a pale and stiff smile again, which looked a little scary.But the Ent just watched her silently.

Masako touched the corners of her eyes, and said, "Ah, I still remember that a few years ago, if I stayed up all night, no one would notice anything. It's true that my body is getting worse and worse in recent years."

When she was an intelligence officer, Masako did try to stay up for several days and nights, and it was different then and now.In the past few days and nights without sleep, I was very energetic, but now I can't.

Now...more of a mental exhaustion.

The tree man sighed and said, "Although it's raining outside, the air is pretty good. Do you want to go for a walk after breakfast?"

Shuren and Tuoren looked somewhat alike, they were brothers after all, Masako looked at his face and was in a daze.

Then she nodded, agreeing.

After breakfast and changing into a kimono, Masako went out with an oiled paper umbrella.

The rain outside was not heavy, and Masako was able to go out after holding an umbrella. The rain fell from the sky and dripped to the ground, making clear and crisp sounds.The trees not far away kept shaking and making rustling sounds.Masako stepped on the rain, feeling in a trance that she was the only one in the world.

In addition to the hot spring hotel presented by Kudaime, Takuto also has his own house. Masako has always lived in the side of Takuto's house, and went there when the hot spring hotel needs to open.

Holding a beautiful oil-paper umbrella, Masako raised her head and stared blankly at the cherry blossom tree not far away.

She once made an appointment with Tuo Ren to watch the flowers together when the cherry blossom tree bloomed.

But Tuo Ren didn't wait until that time.

Masako continued walking, she should have walked a long way.But no matter what she saw, she could always think of Tuoren.

Human beings are really strange creatures. They obviously don’t feel anything when they are together, but when they lose each other, they will find that all the bits and pieces of their lives are his shadow.

— lingering like a nightmare.

Is it good or bad to meet Takuto?

Masako tried not to think about it as much as possible.

"Meow~" Suddenly, Masako heard a meow.

She blinked and walked over subconsciously.

The black cat huddled under the tree dripping wet, shivering and meowing weakly, looking very pitiful.

Are you alone too?

Masako originally wanted to ask this question, but when the black cat rubbed against someone behind the tree, Masako realized that there was another person here.

Pain and insomnia had worn away Masako's senses, making it impossible for her to spot that person in the first place.

She hesitated for a moment and walked over.

A black-haired man sat there, as if dead, without making any sound.

"Hello?"

Masako recognized this person as the boy who came to her hot spring with Pengelie Judai three years ago. Masako, who used to be an intelligence officer, has always had a good memory, and this boy is indeed a very impressive person.

His name is Osamu Dazai, and he is unforgettable just from his beautiful appearance.

The black-haired man who was drenched by the rain raised his head, and the rain fell down his eyelashes, as if he was crying.He was as beautiful as an incredible dream.

Masako propped the umbrella in her hand towards Osamu Dazai.

"Are you okay?" Yako asked.

Osamu Dazai blinked, smiled at her, and said nothing.

For some reason, Masako felt bad about him.There was a sense of loneliness pervading from the black-haired man, this loneliness touched Masako, and she almost couldn't hold back her tears.

Ah, are you alone too?

"Want to come to my house to take shelter from the rain?" Masako asked, extending her hand to Osamu Dazai.

Dazai Osamu was like a lost pedestrian, he was stunned for a moment and put his hand on it.

She took Dazai Osamu and the black cat back together.

The tree man is not there, and he is only there to help when the hot spring hotel opens, and to see if the wife of the elder brother who died early died in the house on weekdays. In this case, even if Masako died alone in the house, the body Rotten, there is also a person who can clean up everything for her.

"Come in." Masako turned to Osamu Dazai and said, "Don't mind, I'll mop the floor later."

Dazai Osamu's clothes were still dripping, Masako hesitated for a moment, and gave him Takuto's old clothes, and asked him to take a bath.Osamu Dazai also twisted up the black cat to help him wash it too.

Masako didn't touch Tuoren's things, she didn't care about the rituals, and she often washed clothes and quilts.

Perhaps in her heart, Tuoren was just not by her side temporarily, as long as he waited a little longer, he would come back from outside, and said to Masako with a smile, "I'm back."

Osamu Dazai smiled and said, "It's not okay to be so unguarded against me, Miss Masako."

He also recognized that this was the female boss Masako he met at the hot spring hotel.

Masako sighed, and said, "I think you are the one who needs to be more careful about guarding against me than me, Dazai-kun."

Osamu Dazai couldn't help laughing after hearing Masako's words.

He smiled like a carefree teenager.

Looking at his smile, Masako was stunned.

"What's wrong?" Osamu Dazai asked, staring at her with his empty left eye when he looked at Masako.

Sure enough, only the smile resembled that person.

"No, nothing." Masako replied.

The black cat meowed at the feet of the two of them.

I explained some things to Osamu Dazai (for example, there is bread in the refrigerator, but if you don’t want to eat bread, there are convenience stores and sushi restaurants on the left outside. However, Masako’s family has never raised a cat, and Osamu Dazai also needs to go to the convenience store to buy some cat food), Masako returned to the room.

Not wanting to do anything, she lay quietly on the tatami with her eyes open.

The floor that used to feel comfortable in the past only felt endlessly cold at the moment, even her heart was paralyzed and her whole body was cold.

A few years ago, she kept looking for things to do, so that she had no time to think about anything, and now she doesn't want to do anything.

Masako fell asleep.

When she woke up, it was already dark outside, and in a silent space, it seemed that countless hands were about to drag her into a bottomless abyss, and a painful burning sensation came from her stomach.

The night of agony came again.

Masako thought so in her heart.

The night that makes people breathless and inescapable came to torment her again.

In the silent night, it seemed that countless people were talking to Masako who was curled up in the quilt.

"go to hell. 』

"Even if you die, no one will be sad. 』

"You should never have been born. 』

So painful.

I want to die.

Just let me die now.

Masako retched non-stop, her stomach pain made her twitch, Masako stared at the floor with her eyes open, her chaotic brain spinning slowly.

My whole body was numb, my empty eyes couldn't reflect anything, and it was painful to breathe.

Obviously before meeting Takuto, Masako's life has always been muddled, but she doesn't think about the meaning of existence.

But after meeting him, experiencing happiness and joy, and losing it suddenly, Masako fell into the abyss completely.

Can't breathe anymore.

Human beings are creatures that don't want to face darkness after seeing the light.

Masako buried herself in the quilt, convulsing and panting, she couldn't even shed tears, and the corners of her dry eyes were twitching vaguely.

There is a small table next to the tatami, and a pile of medicine is placed on the small table.Masako wanted to eat, but she felt a sense of resistance again, and she stuffed them back into the dark place.

Several times, when she came home, the house was completely dark.

No one will wait for her to come back.

Masako thought of this countless times.

But I don't know why, Masako walked to the phone in a daze, and began to press the numbers that had been etched in her heart.

"beep--"

The phone rang for the first time, but no one answered.

"Hello, is this Takuto? I'm Masako."

"beep--"

The phone rang a second time, but no one answered.

"When will you come back?"

Unknowingly, the telephone wire tightly wrapped around Masako's arm, like a prison.

"beep--"

The phone rang No.30, but still no one answered.

"I'm so lonely." Masako said in a daze, tears slid down her cheeks, the phone fell out of her hand, and fell to the ground with a soft "touch".

The phone cord was still wrapped around her arm.

Masako knelt down on the ground, the tears that she thought had dried up dripped again, and fell to the floor with a thud. She looked at the telephone wire wrapped around her arm, and her chaotic brain was spinning.

Knives, rooftops, poison...

"Miss Masako." Suddenly, a voice sounded in the silent night, interrupting Masako's thinking.

"I'm Dazai, may I come in?" The figure of Osamu Dazai was reflected in the pull door, and Masako wiped Uncle Lei on his face, calmed down, and asked in a calm tone: "May I ask what's the matter?"

"I have something to ask you." Osamu Dazai couldn't hear any emotion in his voice, he just said calmly.

"Let's talk about it tomorrow." Masako replied.

"It's a very important matter." Osamu Dazai said solemnly.

After hearing this, Masako opened the door and let him in.

The black-haired man stood outside the door. It was pitch black outside, with only a few faint lights shining on his beautiful face, like an incredible dream.

"Good evening, Miss Masako." Osamu Dazai smiled at her.

Masako asked coldly, "What's the matter?"

"Miss Masako, are you thinking about how to die?"

the dark-haired man asked calmly.

"..." Masako was stunned by his sharpness for a moment, then she nodded silently.

"Then." Osamu Dazai smiled at her and said, "How about dying with me?"

Saying so, he held out his hand to Masako.

In the world in Masako's eyes, he is like Mr. Rabbit in the incredible country, opening a door of dazzling dreams for her.

A glimmer of light suddenly appeared in the gloomy world.